It Would Be Great If I Could Be a Copywriter

After learning the truth, Jingzi couldn't help crying again.

She thought Shi Shen was going to take the blame for their mother and daughter, but she didn't expect the other party to commit another murder to protect her.

He didn't hesitate to ruin his own life to protect a plain, ordinary, even dirty and selfish woman like her.

She didn't know anything about it.

Who would have thought that behind Shi Shen's expressionless face, there is a love that ordinary people can't understand.

So Jingzi fell into deep self-blame.

Open the side drawer and take out the innermost box. There is an envelope in the box. There is nothing written on the envelope, but there is a piece of paper covered with dense handwriting. It was given to him by Shishen. How do you use it? Said to resign to respond to the police's instructions.

After the instruction, there is such a paragraph.

[Mr. Kuniaki Kudo is an honest and reliable person. If you marry him, you and Misato will have a higher chance of being happy. Forget about me completely. Don’t feel guilty. If you are unhappy, everything I do will be justified. It is futile. 】

The Kudo mentioned in it was a man who had been in constant contact with Yasuko after Fu Jian's death. He had a wealthy family and had a good impression of Yasuko.

Ishigami hopes that Yasuko and Kudo will get married and be happy.

This is no longer love, but a very indescribable feeling that "as long as the person I yearn for is happy, I will be satisfied".

From Leng Feng's point of view, he was even a little humble.

Shishen wanted to protect Yasuko's life at the cost of ruining his own life. This emotion made him as a reader very embarrassed.

Give your all for this.

Is what Ishigami did really worth it?

Flip through the thrilling last chapter and move on.

It turns out that there is another reason for this.

A year ago, Ishigami lost the meaning of being alive. At that time, he felt that if he was only good at mathematics, if he could not develop in this field, he would have no value in existence.

After that, he had the idea of ​​committing suicide. Every day, there was only one word of death in his mind.

Finally, one day, he took a rope, tied it to a strong nail, and circled it in a circle, intending to end his life.

Just as he was standing on the stage and was about to put his neck into the rope, the doorbell rang.

Outside the door are the newly moved mother and daughter, Yasuko and Misato.

It's just that when seeing the two of them, Ishigami's body seemed to be pierced by something.

[How can there be such a beautiful mother and daughter? Until then, Ishigami had never been attracted, moved by the beauty of anything, nor understood the meaning of art. However, at this moment, he understood everything, and he found that this is essentially the same as the beauty of solving mathematics. 】

That's right, after that, the mother and daughter became the equivalent of mathematics in Ishigami's heart, making him abandon the idea of ​​suicide, as if he had regained his new life.

But this kind of pursuit is not about having a relationship with Yasuko and satisfying desires.

It is similar to viewing flowers, watching the moon, etc., as long as you look at it from a distance, you will be happy, just imagine the happy life of the mother and daughter, and you will be happy.

very humble

But also very simple.

For lofty things, being able to touch the edge is already happiness.

Helping mother and daughter is a matter of course for Ishigami.

Without them, he would not be who he is now.

Therefore, what he is doing now is not a crime.

But to repay the favor.

Sometimes just being alive is enough to save someone.

...

Slowly lit a cigarette again.

Leng Feng no longer remembered how many cigarettes he had lighted in this short period of more than an hour.

The meaning of the word dedication has finally been truly clarified.

There were mixed feelings in his heart, both the shock and accident when the mystery was solved, and the regret for Shishen's actions.

But I'm not done writing here.

At the end of the book, the author makes up the last knife for Shishen.

Jurisprudence and emotion are opposites.

There is no distinction between good and evil in this opposition.

The legal machine will not let any murderer go, this is probably the fate that all murderers cannot escape in mystery novels.

In the end, Shishen's devotion did not bring Yasuko salvation, but plunged her into deep self-blame.

Tang Chuan sighed for Shishen. His brilliant mind was used in killing people, which made him lose his unique genius friend forever.

Out of selfishness towards emotions, Tang Chuan only told Jingzi the truth, and didn't intend to report it to the police, nor did he intend to arrest Jingzi along with him.

At least, he wanted to make Ishigami's sacrifice worthwhile.

but.

Jingzi surrendered himself.

After her daughter Miri learned that Ishigami had surrendered, she couldn't accept the fact that her benefactor took the blame, so she attempted suicide by cutting her wrist at school and was directly admitted to the hospital.

And this also caused Jingzi to collapse the last line of defense in his heart. He was overwhelmed and turned himself in. He explained to the team leader the whole process of reasoning given to him by Yu Chuan, and took out various notes given to him by Shishen as evidence, ironclad proof Like a mountain.

Ishigami, who heard the news, completely collapsed.

Jingzi turned himself in, which means that everything he did was in vain.

It was like a weapon that had been worked hard for a year by someone else, but was disassembled by the opponent's backhand.

That inner breakdown is indescribable.

At this moment, Shi Shen finally lost his composure.

After doing all this and abandoning everything, he couldn't get the desired ending after all. This was the most painful thing for him.

【"Why... in this kind of place..." He sighed.

Jingzi's frozen face almost collapsed in the blink of an eye, and tears flowed from his eyes. She walked in front of Shishen, and suddenly fell on her knees.

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. For us... for a woman like me..." Her back shook violently.

"What nonsense are you talking about! What are you talking about...stupid...you nonsense..." Shishen murmured dreamily.

"We can't be the only ones who get happiness... No! I should atone for my sins! I want to be punished! I want to be punished with Mr. Ishigami. The only thing I can do is... I'm sorry, I'm sorry!\