Honkai Impact 3rd, a simulator of lifelong regret!

After your birthday, you've left behind your childish phase and grown into a true adult. While your birthday celebration wasn't entirely perfect, you certainly gained a lot.

[The exchange event prepared by Alicia allowed you to meet a wonderful friend.]

[—Vilvie.]

[I initially thought I had just met a really nice person, a complete stranger, but unexpectedly we ended up adding each other as friends after just chatting.]

[One day, you realize there's nothing left to do, and you've been constantly ignored. The increasingly frustrated girl can barely spare a little time each day; your presence has practically vanished.]

I don't know what prompted me, but I opened my phone and sent a few messages to Vervi, intending to chat and kill some time.

Surprisingly, the girl replied to you immediately, and you did chat with her until late that night without showing any signs of displeasure.

[Perhaps it's also related to your continuous praise.]

This isn't about trying to curry favor or ingratiate myself.

[You didn't do anything obsequious or groveling; it's just that the girl's level is incredibly high, as if she knows everything and is omniscient.]

[The two of you just chatted about random things, from trivial matters to astronomy, and then from astronomy to various so-called science and humanities topics.]

This kind of life continued for several days. For the first time since leaving childhood behind, you felt that a day could be so fulfilling, not just a meaningless waste of time watching others chat.

On the fifth day, when you were still preparing to send a "goodnight" message and continue chatting the next day, the girl gave a different answer.

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15. Vilvi: Jiangcheng... needs me?

Looking at the boy's "Goodnight" message on the bright white screen, along with the cute and heartwarming emoji next to it, the girl's slender fingers froze in mid-air. It seemed as if she had to use all her strength to move them even slightly.

I really don't want to...

I don't want to break up like this.

This was clearly the first time in her life she had met a companion she could talk to.

This was clearly the first time in her life she had experienced someone praising and comforting her like this.

Why would you deliberately push them away?

Why do you act like a stupid hedgehog, curling up even when faced with warmth and the kindness of others, and hurting others with your quills?

The girl couldn't understand or accept it, but in the end, she slowly and heavily typed out letters, forming a message of rejection.

Vilvi: Jiang Cheng... could you please stop chatting with me?

……

This is hurting other people's kindness and feelings with coldness.

It's foolish. If we look at it from God's perspective, everyone would probably condemn the girl's stupidity, calling her a heartless, emotionless, and heartless villain who refuses even help from others and doesn't deserve to have friends.

what……

what……

what……

Jiangcheng must find this very hard to understand.

You'll be absolutely stunned.

You must be...you must be very sad.

Yet, when you actively help and comfort others, you are rejected and hurt by them. The person you consider a friend doesn't actually consider you a friend at all.

The girl felt as if her heart was about to shut down just thinking about the expression the boy might make, and a tangible, almost suffocating discomfort washed over her.

The feeling of actively pushing away kindness brings a sense of self-blame, as if one were a piece of trash, and the young and delicate heart feels as if it is bleeding.

This is necessary.

This is the only way.

It's not that Wilvi is incapable of sensing the boy's kindness; she's not a heartless, cold-blooded, or perhaps self-proclaimed emotionless viper.

But this is the only option right now; it's the best choice, the only choice.

—Because the boy's help was just too wonderful.

The girl was someone who was completely consumed by self-destruction. Even with top-notch intelligence, she could only endlessly damage herself. She hated herself so much that if it weren't for her talent, she would probably have committed suicide like countless people with depression. Even so, she denied herself to the point of creating another version of herself.

Such beauty, such comfort, such praise, such gentleness... these were things the girl had never experienced or felt in her entire life.

It's like a girl who was struggling with all her might in a chaotic and turbulent sea suddenly boarding a warm and comfortable ship.

Perhaps a large ship is nothing to others, but they may have always been standing on land built of emotions.

Perhaps they will use this large ship as a key to access the land.

There wasn't even a single plank of wood in Vilvi, let alone land or a small boat.

There is not even any subjective motivation.

They don't even go swimming.

It was only relying on instinctive buoyancy to barely survive in the turbulent waves, and was lucky enough to expel the water stuck in its lungs after countless suffocations.

What if such trash were to board the ship?

What if such waste is being sheltered?

If someone as worthless as this could experience warmth?!

She would never be able to leave. If the big ship disappeared and she left, the girl would definitely drown in the ocean.

She could have accepted the darkness, she could have continued to sink until she fell, if the girl had never seen the light, if she had never felt warmth.

—If this continues, and one day, Jiang Cheng's gentleness disappears without a trace, just like in the novels… I will die…

—Unless there is something to prove that no matter how happy I am, how much love I receive… this happiness and love will not disappear like shampoo foam.

how can that be possible?

The boy had such a perfect girl by his side, and he felt he wasn't even worthy to stand in front of her.

True perfection and flawlessness.

No matter who it is, how many people there are, or what their personalities are like, they can easily become friends and close confidants who can chat together.

How can someone who is trapped in self-destruction and dares not even accept help or kindness from others compare to someone else?

It's fine to escape.

Cowardice it may be.

Being timid is also acceptable.

Hasn't this always been how we've always lived?

It's nothing more than continuing the life we've lived in the past, continuing a hopeless existence, rising and falling in the waves, battered by storms and tempests.

—I've gotten used to this kind of life.

No?

Although bubbles under the sunlight are dazzling and beautiful, if you become truly intoxicated by them, your heart will shatter when they burst.

The only person I'm sorry to is...

Jiangcheng.

what……

Sorry.

I'm going to hurt your good intentions...

The girl, filled with sadness, guilt, unprecedented fear, and unprecedented determination, looked towards the answer that was about to come from the boy.

"Sorry, it seems I've been talking too much to myself. I've been ignored a lot lately, so I accidentally wasted your time."

……

……

……

Eh……

Eh.

Eh?

The silver-gray eyes, filled with despair and sorrow, suddenly brightened slightly, as if they were once again gazing upon a warm, sun-like light. The pursed, crimson lower lip loosened, opening to an unbelievable degree.

These words...

This kind of apology...

The boy's true thoughts were already quite clear.

It is not out of charity or pity, not out of idle chatter, not out of help that may vanish like bubbles in the sunlight at any time.

Because they are also ignored, they want to chat with others. It is because they have a need, because they have a deficiency, and because they have a desire.

and so……

Jiangcheng...

—Do you need me?

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The underlying nature of life is relative selfishness. Things that are too perfect and flawless are so smooth that you can't even find a point of contact with them. Just like a perfect sphere, you can't even grasp it or hold it tightly.