Mountains and rivers are waiting for you to return

Chapter 117 Gu Jinheng Extra
That day he went to the Yuanxiao Pavilion of the imperial palace to look for a book. As soon as he entered the gate of Yuanxiao Pavilion, he heard several girls talking about him in the East Auxiliary Building. One girl even thought he was a mute, which caused others to ridicule him.

After a while, the girl argued with her companion on the floating bridge: "No, why are you stopping me?"

The tone was surprisingly similar to Pei Nai's back then. She even came to see him rashly and dissolved his alchemy energy. Her personality was as direct and courageous as Pei Nai's.

Looking at the girl in front of him who was looking up at him with a smile, his endless longing for Pei Na was drawn out from the tip of his heart, making it difficult for him to breathe.

The girl asked the academy’s question, “About the understanding and views of family.”

To him before he was eighteen, home was like a prison in which he could not move freely. No one expected him to use the Duanding Marquis Mansion as a safe haven. He could not make mistakes or be lazy for even a moment. His every move would be compared with his two elder brothers.

It wasn't until Pei Nai appeared and chose him that he had a home.

In the years since Pei Nai's death, Gu Jinheng has gradually come to understand the meaning of the word "home". Where she is, that's where home is.

All his warmth came from her.

If she wasn't there, he would think that life was like that, that suppressing pain day after day was the norm, that there was only calculation and exploitation between relatives, and that no one could be trusted forever.

People say that in this prosperous and peaceful era, the autumn moon and spring breeze are the most beautiful and perfect. However, no one knows that when the only beauty is lost from his life, everything in his eyes is nothing but dark clouds covering the sun. Where is the sundial and where is the time?

I have become haggard and ugly due to the passing of time.

Year after year, he lost Pei Nai and no longer had a home. Ten springs and summers have passed.

So he just answered the girl in front of him: "I have no home." Then he turned and left.

Not long after, it was heard that the girl defeated Xing Xiaoren, who was wielding the Xuanjiang Wind and Thunder Eight Shuttle Hammer, with the Wanyue Blood Whip at the Dengyun Heroes Conference. She claimed to be Han Ruize's sworn sister, and made the Wanhen Palm reappear in the world, shining brightly on the fighting stage.

At first he was just suspicious but didn't think much about it until that day at Li's house when the girl took the spear with four fingers and used the Wanjun Gui Arrow under his temptation.

Only then did he realize that his Naier had returned.

At that moment he was almost speechless. She clearly lived in the Ju Mansion, so close to him. Even Xiao Mingyi knew her identity, but she did not come to find him. Only he was kept in the dark.

Perhaps it was because he broke his promise during the Battle of Cliff Valley that disappointed her, and he didn't do well in the five years after their marriage, which hurt her heart. Neil was unwilling to accept him and was unwilling to go back to him.

In the past, it was always Naier who took the initiative, but now he wanted to please her, but he was at a loss as to what to do.

Every time I wanted to see her, I was so clumsy and often worried about annoying her.

There were many things he hadn't been able to say before, but now she was no longer willing to listen. He could only suppress them in his heart and try to find a way to compensate her and treat her well first.

Even though she still had resentment towards him and her words were often full of thorns, he was happy to accept it.

As long as she was alive, as long as he could see her, he felt unprecedented joy and satisfaction.

The most precious things in this world can be divided into two categories: what you cannot get and what you have lost.

He used to pursue things that he could not get, and what he should be like in his mother's eyes. After he got them, he found that he had lost the most important thing.

He endured the days one by one, thinking that endless loneliness would be waiting for him before he finished his remaining life, until Pei Nai came back and rekindled hope in his life.

Everything seemed to be colored again, every day was no longer gloomy, and he finally had hope.

The night he recognized Pei Nai, he sent her back to the Tang Mansion. Looking at her back as she entered the mansion, his heart felt like it was bleeding.

Even a moment's separation was unbearable for him, and he wanted to go in with her.

Even if he didn't want the huge Duke Duangding Mansion, or his status and power, as long as he was with her, he would have a home again, just like a tired bird finally returning to its nest.

Returning to Duke Duan Ding's mansion, he looked around the room. The layout of the room was still the same as it was ten years ago, without any changes. Because he had specifically instructed that all furniture and furnishings, if damaged, should be replaced with new ones based on the previous style, even if they were custom-made at a high price.

He just thought at the beginning that if Naier's spirit was still in heaven, her soul would come to visit him, and if everything remained unchanged, she would not be unable to find her home.

It just so happened that Naier's rebirth skipped these ten years, and her memory and cognition remained at ten years ago. This kind of arrangement would make her more accustomed.

He was very pleased about this, but at the same time he didn't know when Neil would be willing to come back to visit.

Thinking about everything that happened that day, he stroked Pei Nai's old clothes beside the pillow.

The places where my fingertips touched seemed to still have some warmth, and my heart, which had been cold for years, was warmed up.

The big wooden box in the corner contained the birthday presents he had given to Neil over the past fifteen years. He had intended to bury them with him and Neil as burial objects after finding Neil's remains.

He opened the cover and looked at the things inside. He never thought that he would have the chance to give it away in his lifetime.

I just don’t know if Neil will like it?
Looking at the saddle he had mended for Neil and pinching the cushion, he felt that it was very different from the one given by the late emperor.

However, the sap of the thousand-year-old Mara tree was too scarce, and the rare women's saddle could not be replicated, so this one had to be used as a temporary substitute.

Thinking about how Pei Nai was angry with him more than ten years ago because he gave the saddle to someone else, his joy was overwhelmed by uneasiness.

He was very scared, afraid that Neil would be angry and leave him again.

What else could he do for Neil? No matter how he thought about it, it was still not enough.

Looking at the empty room, he slowly walked towards the dressing table in the room.

This was Pei Nai's previous dressing table. He had never been willing to have it replaced with a new one, and because it was often maintained and repaired, it still looked as good as new even though no one had used it for many years.

He arranged her jewelry neatly for her. Pei Nai seldom used those bottles and jars of powder and rouge. There were only a few hairpins and head ornaments in the jewelry box, most of which were brought as part of her dowry.

She seldom buys accessories such as rings, bracelets, and earrings because they affect her martial arts training and make her movements less comfortable.

But it was also his negligence. Even if he bought it for her and put it in the treasure box, she must be in a good mood.

He then figured out which gems in his collection he should use to make jewelry for her.

You should also add some crowns, hairpins, mirrors, combs, pendants and armlets.

I kept thinking like this until I fell asleep.

After Pei Nai left ten years ago, he could no longer turn off the lights at night, and the trembling of alertness in his body woke him up again.

He had long been accustomed to the nightmares that he suffered every day, and now it was only the ugly hour.

It was late at night, and the only sounds in the mansion were the footsteps of patrolling guards and the servants' sleeping breathing.

The iron-cold quilt made him want to go to Pei Nai unbearably.

Therefore, he went alone, not letting anyone follow him, avoiding the patrols on the street, weaving through the small paths, using his lightness skills to climb to the courtyard where Naier lived in the Tang Mansion, and quietly looked at her door.

Listening to her breathing in the room, I gently touched her cheek with the divine energy of Dandao and felt her presence.

I didn't dare disturb her rest, so I stood there all night.

Even though there were secret guards arranged by him and Xiao Mingyi hiding outside her house, he did not feel embarrassed.

(End of this chapter)