Xueba's computing system

Chapter 197 I can't go back after all

At the dinner table that night, Lin Yuan didn't even mention his trip to Songhu.

Because there was really nothing much to say, I couldn't tell Xia Ye: Zhang Yan and I actually spent a day together in Songhu.

After all, I still have to sleep in the same bed with Xia Ye at night.

Thinking of this, Lin Yuan finally realized helplessly that he had become a scumbag after all. No, in fact, he had been a scumbag for a long time.

Lin Yuan asked himself why he took this step. In fact, it was still Zhang Yan's words - you and Xia Ye have never shared hardships.

Although Xia Ye said: I would rather Lin Yuan was still the delivery man he was before.

But Lin Yuan knew Xia Ye's personality too well - she was just a simple person who couldn't stand hardship. He had noticed this since he met her. Otherwise, he wouldn't have treated her as his eldest daughter.

It was precisely because of this that Lin Yuan inevitably felt a little shaken towards Xia Ye.

Xia Ye went to the maid shop because she couldn't stand the hardship. If Lin Yuan was really a delivery man, wouldn't she change her mind because she couldn't stand the hardship?

Xia Ye is a fool, but Lin Yuan is not. Lin Yuan always believes that a person's behavioral logic is coherent.

But Lin Yuan didn't have a big prejudice against Xia Ye because of this, because there are few pure things in this world. Just like when Lin Yuan first fell in love with Xia Ye, it was purely because of her looks. Why do you need to be so clear? If you are too clear, you will be very tired.

"Xia Ye, is the injury on your elbow not healed yet?" Lin Yuan saw Xia Ye's expression of pain when her elbow hit the table while she was eating.

"The previous one is on the other hand," Xia Ye raised the other arm, "It's almost healed. This one is a new one."

"Lift it up and let me see," Lin Yuan quickly put down his bowl and chopsticks, grabbed Xia Ye's arm and started to examine her.

Zhang Yan said unhappily, "Brother, you and sister-in-law will have plenty of time to read it slowly in bed later."

Lin Yuan immediately glared back and Zhang Yan shut up.

But Xia Ye had already pulled back her arm, "I'm fine, it's just a minor injury."

In fact, this is not a secret battle between Zhang Yan and Xia Ye. The atmosphere in this room is usually pretty good.

After dinner, Zhang Yan took over the task of cleaning the table and washing the dishes because Xia Ye had an elbow injury. This young lady's housework was really a bummer. She would break bowls or plates every other day. It was obvious that she didn't work at home.

But even though the atmosphere was harmonious, they all knew what was going on. Xia Ye would not be too close to Lin Yuan, especially when Zhang Yan was around.

Zhang Yan remained friendly to Xia Ye and Song Xiaoxiao, but his eyes were always indifferent. During the day, Lin Yuan would always be dragged out by Zhang Yan with various excuses. Even though it was winter vacation.

This kind of relationship is like the sunrise in the winter morning - you see the golden sun shining down, but if you look closely you can see layers of white frost on the grass leaves on the ground.

This relationship also deeply affected the relationship between Lin Yuan and Xia Ye.

In the past, Xia Ye always liked to sleep with her arms around Lin Yuan, but now she is used to sleeping with her back to him.

Although the two of them slept together in the same bed for quite some time, they still didn't do the most crucial thing.

It’s not that Xia Ye didn’t cooperate, but her cooperation was too mechanical, which made Lin Yuan feel that it was just a manifestation of obedience.

"Xiao Xia, let me see your wound." After closing the door, Lin Yuan undressed Xia Ye and carefully examined her whole body.

In addition to the elbows, there are also many bruises on the knees, feet, and buttocks.

"Does it hurt?" Lin Yuan rubbed the lump on her face.

Xia Ye gritted her teeth in pain, then said stubbornly, "It doesn't hurt. I've already applied medicine."

"Do I have to practice dancing and take the postgraduate entrance exam?"

"What else?" Xia Ye asked back, "I always have to do something. I can't even concentrate on DY right now. No wonder you always said: If you watch too much DY, you'll become stupid."

"Just be silly, being silly is also quite cute." Lin Yuan teased the other party.

"Not cute anymore." Xia Ye had a stern face and had no interest in taking Lin Yuan's hint.

Lin Yuan immediately lost interest and asked, "How about we move out?"

"What about Zhang Yan?"

"We went to Songhu today and talked a lot. I don't think she would object. Let's rent another apartment in this community."

"Don't spend money," Xia Ye said softly, "It's not easy for you to make money, I don't want to..."

"I don't think you're being pretentious, and renting a house doesn't cost much."

"That's because it's easy for you to make money now. For Xiaoxiao and I, renting a house is too expensive. It's good like this now. I have food and clothes. I have nothing to be dissatisfied with."

"But I see you're still unhappy."

"Have it?"

“It’s written all over your face.”

"Okay," Xia Ye was a little frustrated, and then she crawled into Lin Yuan's arms, "I'm not like this because of you, I'm like this because of my own incompetence. Recently I've been thinking that my life over the past 20 years has been a complete failure.

At home, I rely on my parents. After I came out, I rely on my husband. It seems that I have never relied on myself.

What’s even more annoying is that I’m only realizing this now.”

Lin Yuan picked up a strand of Xia Ye's hair, which felt cold to the touch. "So you practiced dancing with all your might?"

"I guess so. I was just letting off some steam. I didn't seem to have much else to do except dance practice. I knew the chances of getting into Ziyi were slim, but I had no other choice. Besides teaching dance at a tutoring class, I could only sell milk tea.

Lin Yuan? "Xia Ye suddenly stood up from Lin Yuan's arms and stared at him blankly, "Will you abandon me in the future?"

"No, why would you ask such a question?"

"You don't even touch me, do you dislike me?"

Lin Yuan smiled bitterly, "Sister, it's obviously you who is rejecting me."

"How could I refuse?"

"Your micro-expressions are constantly rejecting me."

"Well, I feel a little uncomfortable. I always feel that you are not my boyfriend now, but my guest."

Lin Yuan was stunned, "Okay... So this is how you treat your guests?"

Xia Ye whispered, "I have no experience."

"How about we learn from each other?"

But Xia Ye remained indifferent.

"Lin Yuan, you haven't answered my question yet. Will you abandon me in the future?"

"Didn't I answer you? No."

"Then will you marry me?"

"Will do."

"If Zhang Yan disagrees, she wants you to marry her."

"She said she would not interfere with my marriage."

"But who can predict what will happen in the future?"

Lin Yuan keenly sensed something strange, "Why do I feel like this is Song Xiaoxiao's tone?"

"These are indeed the words Xiaoxiao used to persuade me. She told me not to have any extravagant hopes and that it would be best for me to give in to Zhang Yan right now. She said that the sooner I give in, the more benefits I will gain."

Lin Yuan laughed in silence, "Song Xiaoxiao really is... worthy of her."

"What else did Song Xiaoxiao advise you about?"

"do not have much left."

"Impossible, just tell me directly, I won't be angry with her, I'm not such a petty person."

"She said,,, she could pay attention to some negative information about you..."

Lin Yuan laughed again, "You can use it as a handle to threaten me in the future? Song Xiaoxiao is really... Oh~~. Forget it, she has also been thinking about you. At least she didn't instigate you to do anything reckless. What about you, Xiaoxia? Make your own decision."

"Me? I don't know. I never seem to be able to make a decision. I think I can still sleep in the same bed with you every day, but I don't know how long this can last. If Zhang Yan changes her mind, you can't disobey her."

"No, there is a gentleman's agreement between her and me, don't worry about it. I, Lin Yuan, am not a puppet in her hands, and she, Zhang Yan, doesn't want a puppet either. Don't think too much, just go to sleep."

But Xia Ye still sat there with no intention of lying down, "Lin Yuan."

"What's the matter?"

"Just give me and my child a place to eat in the future."

"Damn! Women's growth is beyond my imagination."

"Don't you like me like this?"

"I can't explain it," Lin Yuan rested his head on his arms, "From your point of view, what you did is completely reasonable. Okay, let's go to sleep."

With the click of a switch, the room finally became silent and dark.

Lin Yuan opened his eyes, and he finally realized: the once innocent Xiao Xia could never go back.

But Lin Yuan still turned sideways and hugged the other person, and Xia Ye also hugged him.

They did nothing.

True and false, real and fake. Lin Yuan only knew that at this moment, the person he was holding in his arms was the real and warm Xiao Xia.

(End of this chapter)