Beijing Night Snow

Chapter 57 She Had a Child

"Pingle, why don't you leave?"

Suddenly a childish voice was heard. Song Jinhe and the little kid in front of her turned around and saw a little girl walking towards them.

The little girl stood not far away, looked at the little boy, then looked at Song Jinhe, then tilted her head and asked softly: "Do you know her?"

The little boy called "Pingle" nodded, but did not explain much, and soon looked at Song Jinhe again.

He hesitated for a moment, and finally said: "Don't be sad, I know you didn't mean to leave me, you should be happy with dad in the future, so that I will be happy too."

"I'm leaving, Mom."

After the little boy finished speaking, he turned and ran forward. After only two steps, he suddenly looked back with some struggle in his eyes, but in the end he turned and left.

Song Jinhe watched the two children running farther and farther in front of her, even their backs had begun to become blurred. She wanted to catch up with them, but she could not move even a little bit.

She was like being cast under a spell and couldn't move at all.

Song Jinhe shook her head in pain, that was her baby!
She struggled hard to catch up. She had so many things to say to the child, but she couldn't move.

Song Jinhe was in great pain. She gritted her teeth and tried to move her body.
Song Jinhe missed a step and suddenly opened her eyes. The first thing that came into her sight was a familiar face. However, Song Jinhe, who had just woken up from her sleep, didn't react at all.

The feeling of heartache that made it difficult for her to breathe was still there. Song Jinhe stared blankly at the man in front of her. At that moment, all her emotions surged up.

Tears quickly blurred Song Jinhe's vision, she was so sad!

"Sui Sui? What's wrong? Did you have a nightmare?" Chen Yucong asked worriedly.

He was half asleep and half awake when he was woken up by Song Jinhe. She seemed to have had a dream and her brows were furrowed.

She seemed to want to say something, but couldn't say anything. Chen Yucong didn't hear what Song Jinhe said, but he saw Song Jinhe crying.

He called her several times, but Song Jinhe showed no sign of waking up. She was immersed in her dream and couldn't wake up at all.

Now that he finally woke up, Chen Yucong breathed a sigh of relief.

But Song Jinhe was still immersed in her own emotions. The child who looked very familiar to her was her baby!
It’s the baby who didn’t come into this world.

Yes, Song Jinhe once had a child.

She was really pregnant two years ago, but Chen Yucong's attitude at the time made her feel uneasy.

She was in a daze the whole night and couldn't sleep at all. She kept wondering if Chen Yucong had never thought about marrying her.

She was just a little toy that Chen Yucong kept casually by his side. He would not let her give birth to his child, and after such a thing happened, he would definitely not continue with her.

On the one hand, she was sad, but on the other hand, she was afraid that Chen Yucong would not want her!
She had nothing but Chen Yucong, and she didn't want to leave Chen Yucong!
She had her period that morning, and she was actually very happy because she was not pregnant and there would be no problems between her and Chen Yucong.

Whether Chen Yucong wants to marry her or not, they can move on now.

She happily told Chen Yucong that she was not pregnant. At that time, it was hard to tell what Chen Yucong's expression meant.

But she clearly felt that Chen Yucong was relieved. Because she had her period, she didn't need to go to the hospital for a checkup. Chen Yucong went on a business trip as planned.

But in fact she was pregnant, and the so-called menstrual period was only because of an unstable fetus!

She felt very uncomfortable during those two days, but ever since she had the car accident, she felt uncomfortable every time she had her period. She didn't know that she was really pregnant and thought it was just menstrual pain like before.

Something happened to her that day and she was rushed to the hospital by passers-by. When she woke up, she found out that she had a miscarriage.

It was then that she realized she was pregnant.

Song Jinhe found it hard to accept such a result. She couldn't live without Chen Yucong, and that night she sincerely hoped that she was not pregnant.

But she never thought about not wanting him after having a baby!
She's not that cruel!
But the fact is that the moment she knew it, the baby was gone.

The doctor later talked to her a lot. She said that her health was not good, so she couldn't keep the child. If she wanted to have a child again in the future, she had to take good care of her body.

According to the doctor, the miscarriage was caused by her body not being well-conditioned. In addition, she had no experience and didn't even know she was pregnant. She also didn't go to the hospital in time when she had spotting.

In short, there is no fate.

But Song Jinhe didn't listen to any of those words. She had a dream. In the dream, a little kid said, "If you don't like me, I won't be your child anymore!"

From then on, Song Jinhe stubbornly believed that it was not because of her poor health that she failed to keep the baby.

In fact, Chen Yucong has taken good care of her in the past few years. Judging from her appearance, no one would know that she had experienced such a tragic car accident.

It was because she didn’t want the baby to come, and Chen Yucong didn’t want it either, so she had a miscarriage!

When Chen Yucong came back from a business trip, she had already been discharged from the hospital. Chen Yucong brought her a gift, and everything between them was the same as before, just as sweet and happy.

Only Song Jinhe knew in her heart that they were not the same as before, and they could never go back to the past.

There was a child between them who left before he was born, because neither of them wanted him to come, so he left.

Song Jinhe was in pain at that time. She felt that she should not continue to be with Chen Yucong, but she really couldn't bear to do so.

She no longer has any relatives in this world, Chen Yucong is all she has left.

And at the beginning she was expecting that she was not pregnant, wasn't it because she wanted to be with Chen Yucong?

Now that the baby has left "consciously", and she has separated from Chen Yucong, what does the baby's departure mean?
She pretended in a daze that nothing had happened and made herself and Chen Yucong as happy as before.

But that child was like a thorn, always in Song Jinhe's heart. It was not fatal, but it always caused her dull pain and made her unable to forget.

Song Jinhe enshrined another memorial tablet at Ci'an Mountain. She named the unborn child "Pingle", which means peace and happiness.

He didn’t take her surname or Chen Yucong’s surname because they were not worthy of being his parents!
She will always pray for him, and only hopes that he can meet parents who truly love him in his next life and be a safe and happy child.

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　　(End of this chapter)