Depressive screenwriter.

Chapter 81 The Significance of Going to the Moon
As soon as the seventh episode started, it was a lively scene. This was the carnival in Xu Han’s memory.

Shen Yi and Cheng Li's memory exploration journey has not yet ended.

I learned about the past of the two brothers Xu Han and Xu Qiao, and found out why Xu Han was unclear about his childhood memories.

The two judged that this was the reason why Xu Han wanted to go to the moon before he died, but didn't know why he wanted to go to the moon.

He has forgotten his childhood memories.

But the source of his innermost desire to "go to the moon" originated in his childhood.

But now, there are actually several doubts facing Song Na.

Since it is a desire that has arisen since childhood, even if the memory itself has disappeared, it is a strong desire that cannot be forgotten.

Why was Xu Han indifferent to the obsession of going to the moon for such a long period of time from childhood to old age?
On the contrary, if a person is about to die, he would rather ask people from a technology company to explore his memory and tamper with his dreams to fulfill this wish.

And what does going to the moon mean to Xu Han?
He has no interest in astronomy or aliens at all.

Why go to the moon?
Also, why the moon? Why not Mars, Saturn, or Jupiter?
The plot continued to move forward while Song Na was thinking about these questions.

The protagonists of this carnival party, Xu Han and his brother Xu Qiao, had a great time.

And in this plot, something happened that made Song Na feel uncomfortable.

Xu Han and his brother Xu Qiao participated in the whack-a-mole game together, and both of them completed it perfectly.

But because Xu Qiao played first, he got the locomotive toy, while Xu Han only got another prize.

Xu Han was feeling depressed, and his brother Xu Qiao was ready to share the locomotive toy with him.

But the mother praised Xu Qiao for being generous and sensible, and accused Xu Han of being stingy and noisy.

Xu Han's mood gradually became more depressed.

He watched his mother and Xu Qiao eating the pickled cucumbers that they liked but that he hated the most, and left alone for a while.

"You're such a hateful biased mother. The two brothers have such a good relationship, but you insist on doing this." Song Na whispered.

And knowing the rest of the story, Song Na became angrier and angrier the more she watched.

In episode 6, it was clearly her who crushed her own child Xu Qiao to death, but she let Xu Han suffer and raised Xu Han as a substitute for Xu Qiao.

The most outrageous thing is that at Xu Han's wedding, his name was called "Xu Qiao", his other dead son.

At this time, Song Na's sympathy for Xu Han reached its peak.

In the plot, Xu Han came to the back mountain of the carnival and followed the winding mountain road towards the top of the mountain.

Summer cicadas chirping, the sky full of stars.

When they crossed the hill, what appeared before Xu Han and the audience was an endless sea of ​​stars.

[So beautiful!] Shen Yi was shocked by the starry beauty of Xu Han's childhood.

【He found the best place! 】

Cheng Li looked at Xu Han who was sitting on the tree trunk at the top of the mountain and said with emotion.

Under the influence of the instrument, the virtual consciousness of the two people is intangible and will not attract the attention of the childhood Xu Han's personality consciousness.

As a child, Xu Han looked up at the stars, his eyes filled with longing and loneliness.

Mother's love belongs to my brother.

But the beautiful scenery of the starry sky belongs to him at this moment!

Xu Han, played by child star Cao Shou, almost melted Song Na's heart with just one look.

In the story, Shen Yi and Cheng Li had a series of discussions about Xu Han's experience.

They also sympathized with Xu Han's childhood.

But just when Xu Han left his mother and brother alone and was watching the stars alone on the mountain, he heard footsteps behind him.

That's a little girl.

Pretty, calm and taciturn.

But his arrival made Xu Han nervous.

Seeing the little girl, he was about to leave without saying a word.

[Wait, I'm Xu Han, what's your name? ]

[You took my place.] Xiaoxi looked at the tree trunk where Xu Han was sitting.

[Yes, sorry, I don't want to monopolize this tree trunk. Would you like to sit on it with me? ] Xu Han asked awkwardly.

[Are you here to see the stars? ] Xiaoxi and Xu Han said as they sat side by side on the tree trunk.

【The same to you? 】

At this moment, the camera zooms out and the sky is clear and the pale yellow full moon is very large.

The vast starry sky is very vast.

But below them were Xu Han and Xiaoxi looking up at the sky.

They were still little kids, and at this moment, they met each other for the first time in their lives.

At this moment, Xu Han, who had just been scolded by his mother, felt all the grievances in his heart disappear.

The strange girl next to him seemed to have the power to calm him down.

He communicated with the stream smoothly, without any pause.

Gradually, the two people sitting together changed their topic from their own names to the stars in the sky.

"So, what do you think the stars in the sky are?" Xiaoxi asked the boy beside her calmly.

[My dad said those stars were giant balls of fire hanging in the sky! I bet that was a lie!]

[You know, adults just like to lie, like Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny.] Creek Road.

"Have you ever tried to make a rabbit out of stars?" Xu Han asked.

[Like looking for constellations in the sky? ] Xiaoxi asked.

Song Na seemed to have grasped something.

rabbit?

Paper bunny?
Why did we suddenly bring up the topic of rabbits?

[Well, I tried to use the stars in the sky to form a line and find the rabbit pattern. But I didn't succeed once.]

[Would you like to try again? ] Xiaoxi asked.

[Then let’s see who can find it first! I’ll count to three, two, one, start!] Xu Han said excitedly.

"I found it." Xiaoxi said immediately.

The camera zoomed out, and the sky full of stars appeared before Song Na's eyes.

She also started looking for rabbit patterns like the two kids in the play.

【where? 】

【In the sky】said the stream.

【Where in the sky? 】

Xu Han leaned his head slightly towards the stream, trying to see the stars in her eyes from the direction of his gaze along the stream.

【Think boldly.】Xiaoxi said calmly.

A pleasant and soothing interlude sounded.

The scene of the boy and girl looking up at the starry sky under the moonlight was imprinted in Song Na's mind.

A feeling called romance arose in her heart.

Xu Han's mother is partial to him.

Xiaoxi was born with autism.

At this moment, all the problems that had been bothering both of them disappeared.

This might be the first time they met, but this short time allowed them to experience the feeling of being understood for the first time.

【Think big, it's bigger than anything else.】 Xiaoxi's tip.

[Wait, I see it.] Xu Han looked at the starry sky excitedly.

[Tell me what you saw?] Xiaoxi turned her head and looked at Xu Han.

But this naive question from Childhood Creek made Song Na's heart shrink.

this.
A scene emerged in Song Na's mind.

In the second and third episodes, the elderly Xiaoxi was holding a paper rabbit with a yellow belly, blue ears, head and feet. She looked at the elderly Xu Han with complicated eyes on the hospital bed, and the line he asked her came to mind.

【Tell me, what did you see..? 】

[It’s over there, right?] Childhood Xu Han pointed at the moon.

On the screen, the special effects image processed by light gradually enlarges.

After eliminating the interference of countless stars.

Song Na saw it.

The clear, pale yellow moon is the rabbit's round belly.

A dozen stars above and below the moon form its ears and feet.

The sky at night is like a dark blue background, and the pale yellow moon forms a blue and yellow rabbit.

Tell me, what did you see?
At this moment, Song Na's eyes became hot and her nose felt sore.

Is that right?

What’s the answer to the mystery of the crazy origami rabbit that Xiaoxi created before he died?

She understood why Xiaoxi took out the paper rabbit to show Xu Han before she died of illness.

She was hoping to hear something other than "paper rabbit".

She hopes Xu Han will tell her
It's the moon!

She hoped Xu Han would remember the night they spent together.

I remember how the two of them met.

She remembered this night for the rest of her life.

But Xu Han, because of his mother, gave him medicine to make him forget this memory.

People who are not careful will definitely not feel this drama so deeply at this moment.

But careful viewers with good memory are already feeling very uncomfortable at this moment.

But the revelation of this foreshadowing is just the beginning.

The two who found the rabbit continued to look at the starry sky.

[What do you think those stars are? ] Xu Han continued to ask.

[I've never told anyone, but I think stars are lighthouses! Thousands of lighthouses! They can see each other, they want to communicate, but they can't! So the only thing they can do is to shine. Let that light shine on other lighthouses, and also on me.]

Song Na's eyes widened
She understood.

The stream is talking about her own loneliness.

They can see each other, face to face, but because of her autism, she is unable to communicate her inner thoughts with others. Ultimately, they are like the stars in the sky: they can see each other, but their hearts can never truly touch or communicate.

The lighthouse, the stars, is herself.

[Why you? ] Xu Han asked in confusion.

[Because one day, I will become friends with one of them! ]

so.
In the second episode, Xiaoxi would rather die than let Xu Han use all his money to build a house to accompany the lighthouse named "Anya".

At this moment, Song Na couldn't help but burst into tears.

Moreover, a large number of people in front of the TV in Xiaguo couldn't hold back their tears after they understood the metaphor of the lighthouse, and their tears blurred the TV screen.

But this plot is not over yet.

[What's in that bag?] Xiaoxi looked at Xu Han's bag.

[This is the prize I won playing whack-a-mole.] Xu Han said with a smile.

【What did you get?】 Creek Road.

[I got something, it seems to be a strange sub-duck.] Xu Han took out a doll from his bag.

Song Na's already tearful eyes became even more blurry at this moment.

Three foreshadowings are revealed one after another, but they are a triple depressing superposition.

Regrets, all regrets!
That doll was the one that she would always carry with her whenever Xiaoxi appeared in the previous six episodes. It was the platypus that she had been holding for her entire life!
The platypus meant so much to her.

[It looks really strange. I really hope I can win one back.] Creek Road.

[Then take it and it's yours. I can just go and win another one!] Xu Han said with a smile.

Xiaoxi looked at the boy with bright eyes.

At this time, Xu Han's mother was calling his name at the foot of the mountain, and Xu Han knew that he was about to leave.

[Will you come here again next year during the Carnival? ]

Xiaoxi held the platypus tightly in her hand, called out to Xu Han who was about to leave, and looked at the boy with shining eyes.

[Of course, what about you? ] Xu Han responded to Xiaoxi without hesitation.

[Yes.] Xiaoxi said seriously.

[Same place, same time?] Xu ​​Han said.

【Um】

At this time, Song Na's psychological defenses had been broken.

Afterwards, Xu Han lost his memory due to the death of his brother Xu Qiao, which caused him to take drugs by his mother.

He broke the agreement with Xiaoxi for his whole life!

But soon, before Song Na could adjust her emotions, the most heartbreaking lines of this episode appeared.

"What if you forget or get lost?" Xiaoxi looked at Xu Han and asked.

As a child, Xu Han raised his head, looked at the huge pale yellow moon in the sky, and pointed at it.

[Then we will meet on the moon someday. Fool.]

Song Na suddenly lost her grip on the TV remote control and it fell.

Her eyes were filled with intense depression and sadness.

Understood.

This line ties together all the foreshadowing from the first episode to the sixth episode of the drama.

Why did Xu Han never have the idea of ​​going to the moon from middle school to old age, and only had a strong desire to go to the moon before his death?

Since it was a childhood desire, how could it skip middle-aged and young people and only affect Xu Han's behavior in old age?
Because when he was young and middle-aged, the stream was always with him.

But the creek is gone.
What happens if he dies first?
He may have forgotten his childhood memories.

But only the promise made in childhood and the stream is engraved deep in my soul!

What if one of us gets lost?
[Then we will meet on the moon, silly! ]

At this moment, Song Na could no longer hold back her tears, but she could no longer hold back her tears out loud.

The real meaning of Xu Han's wish to go to the moon is to find the stream.

　Thanks to rexlipnew and Super Electromagnetic for the tips. Thanks guys!

　　
　
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