Quick-wear flirting system: being spoiled by gods in the plane

Chapter 203 Even Professors Confess—Female Protagonist's Perspective [Part 6] (49)

"If he/she doesn't give you living expenses, I will! I'll give you as much as you need!"

My grandfather said this countless times.

Perhaps it really is a case of grandparents and grandchildren having a special bond.

Chang Le could sense it.

My maternal grandparents weren't as unconditionally and unconditionally good to my mother as they were to her.

They are particularly sharp-tongued and strict with their mothers.

It resembles the repressive education style that the older generation in the 1960s and 70s was accustomed to.

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My mother's marriages and love life have never been smooth.

The mother's family of origin was also broken.

My mother's health is not very good.

My mother is unhappy.

The mother lacked love.

So the mother didn't know how to love her daughter.

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Chang Le prayed, believed, and remained steadfast that Ji would always love her.

until that day.

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Outside the window, lightning flashed and thunder roared. Inside the house, the fire in the kitchen, where a hangover soup was simmering, was still burning. The soup was spreading along the sides of the pot, sizzling as it burned.

On the sofa, the drunk Li Na said everything and even handed her a secretly obtained paternity test result.

Chang Le sat stiffly on the sofa, motionless.

The baby in the crib next to her was crying, and she stared at it blankly.

Just an hour earlier, because Li Na was unwilling to breastfeed, she held the baby and fed him formula and complementary food spoonful by spoonful.

……What's the meaning.

Chang Le murmured aloud.

Just then, Ji also returned.

"Did you... cheat on me?"

She held the paternity test result in her hand, asking a question she already knew the answer to.

Ji stood at the entrance, the rain from the black umbrella wetting his trouser legs.

"sorry."

He said so.

Chang Le looked at him for a long time, then smiled.

She stood up and walked to the man with extremely slow, zombie-like movements, her dark eyes scrutinizing him for a long, long time.

Ji Ye pursed her lips: "Changle, this is a very normal thing."

He looked at the woman before him and said, word by word, "I'll let them have it tomorrow."

"Ji Ye".

Chang Le interrupted him, her voice hoarse, looking at him as if he were a different person, "I want a divorce."

Ji Ye frowned sharply: "What are you doing now?"

"I want a divorce," Chang Le murmured to herself, as if speaking to herself.

“You’re pregnant, where can you go after a divorce? Don’t be ridiculous.” Ji also tried to pull her away.

“Bang!——”

Chang Le suddenly raised her hand and slapped the man across the face. The sound was crisp and clear, and the thunder and rain outside the window made her hand go numb.

"I want a divorce!"

Every breath Chang Le took was excruciatingly painful. Her eyes were red as she looked at the man who was turned to the side and remained silent.

She wanted to confront him.

He only loves her?

Will I never betray her?
Will she not end up like her parents?

I'll give her a complete family!

But her throat was tight and dry, and Chang Le choked as she opened her mouth, unable to utter a complete word.

Ji looked at her for a long time before speaking:
I have no intention of marrying her.

"I have no intention of getting a divorce."

"It's just a passing fancy. I won't give her or this child a proper status."

Ji frowned as he looked at the woman staring blankly at him.

Those bloodshot eyes were filled with disbelief at what he had said.

“Chang Le,” Ji Ye said in a deep voice, “no man is immune to infidelity.”

Ji Ye reached out to pull her, but Chang Le took a step back, then another.

"I ask you."

Chang Le's voice trembled, "When my grandmother passed away, you said you were away on a business trip and couldn't come back right away. I called you more than a dozen times but you didn't answer. Where were you at that time?"

"Is he really on a business trip, or is he stuck in Li Na's bed?"

My grandmother was in the hospital for several days.

Ji Ye didn't have time to come back for several days, and he didn't even appear on the day of the burial.

He knew how much his grandmother meant to him.

I knew it when I was 19.

"..." Ji Ye's hand, which was hanging by his side, twitched, but he ultimately did not speak.

Chang Le watched.

She suddenly laughed, shaking her head as she laughed.

This is the second time tonight that I've felt this way.

"Ji Ye, have you spent all these years just to teach me a lesson?"

Let practice tell her,

Marriage is wrong, disgusting, and pessimistic.

The mundane realities of daily life can erode all passion and love.

People change.

Love can change.

Everything changes.

"long"

"You!!" The woman's voice suddenly became shrill and loud, interrupting the man's words.

"You know perfectly well why my parents divorced! You know I hate unfaithful people the most!!"

Chang Le's eyes were bloodshot, tears streaming down her face. She pointed a trembling finger at the person in front of her: "You kept this from me, making me take care of your mistress like a nanny! Taking care of your mistress and your child for over a year!! You're disgusting!! Disgusting!!!"

Ji frowned: "What's wrong with you?"

Chang Le, her eyes red, exclaimed, "Disgusting!!!"

Hearing the yelling, Ji Ye also got angry, and she forced herself to speak: "Did I force you to take care of me? Did I say that a nanny would be enough?! Look at the state you're in now! You're pregnant, not a shrew!"

As the man spoke, Chang Le swayed constantly, looking as if she might collapse at any moment. Her face was filled with pain, confusion, and despair, and she laughed uncontrollably.

"Haha, you shrew, hahahahaha... I've been with you since I was 18, Ji Ye, I've been with you since I was 18..."

"How could you do this to me..."

Chang Le laughed and cried, her words incoherent.

Ji frowned: "Chang Le, I've been good enough to you."

"You live in a big house, you spend your money, and you have nannies and maids to serve you 24 hours a day. I've kept all the promises I made back then. What else are you dissatisfied with?"

"And to be honest, back when you were in Thailand, who knows what happened during the time you were out of contact? Did I look down on you?"

"You haven't gotten pregnant in seven years, have I ever looked down on you?"

"Your personality, your family background, everything about you—did I dislike you?"

"Your parents are divorced and don't love you, and many people don't like you. Do you really think you have no problems at all?!"

The man listed off one incriminating charge after another, his tone growing increasingly hostile.

He uttered word after word, repeatedly stabbing the woman in the chest with a knife.

Chang Le stared at him blankly, as if looking at a stranger.

"..." After a long while, she backed away, shaking her head while laughing.

"You are not him."

Ji also frowned: "Long?"

"You are not him!!!"

With a roar that seemed to draw all her strength, Chang Le quickly grabbed the baby's pillow and threw it at the man. As he instinctively dodged, Chang Le ran frantically toward the door behind him.

It was as if it were a gateway to hope.

It's as if behind the gate of life lies her 19-year-old self, Ji Ye.

That was the fastest Chang Le had ever run in her entire life.

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Behind the door, there was no season, only darkness and torrential rain.

Chang Le was soaking wet as she ran wildly and suddenly bumped into someone.

“Changle!?”

It was Yu Ci, and the man holding an umbrella behind her.

Chang Le looked at her, and suddenly, all her grievances, hatred, and pain erupted at that moment.

"Take me away, take me away, please..."

Chang Le trembled as she cried, unable to distinguish whether the water on her face was rain or tears.

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Yu Ci took her to a safe place to stay.

After learning everything, the woman clearly harbored murderous intent.

"Yu Ci," Chang Le called softly.

Her face was deathly pale, her eyes were dull and lifeless, and her lips were bloodless.

"Can you help me get a divorce?"

“Yes.” Yu Ci replied without hesitation.

"……besides."

Chang Le lowered her eyes and placed her hand on her belly.

"I need an abortion."

Children should be born out of love.

Perhaps she knew before, but now she doesn't know what love is anymore.

She can't be a good mother.

She also couldn't tell the child.

Why does he have a half-sister?

Why does Dad no longer love Mom?

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The abortion was performed at Yu Ci's husband's private estate, reportedly by a private doctor hired at great expense from around the world.

On the day she lay on the operating table, the doctor injected her with anesthesia.

"Ms. Bai, you have a few minutes to consider whether or not you want to have an abortion."

"Just a reminder, your body is very weak. It's basically impossible for you to have children after this surgery, and it will also affect your own health. You'll have to take medication constantly from now on."

"To be honest, lifespan will definitely be reduced. For example, if you could have lived to 100 years old before, you may only live to 80 years old after the surgery."

“We do not recommend doing it, and Madam Yuci also hopes that you will consider it carefully.”

This is what the doctor said to her before administering the anesthetic.

Before she drifted off to sleep, Chang Le saw Ji Ye's face on the ceiling.

It was Ji Ye, who was 19 years old.

His eyes were red-rimmed as he gazed at her with tenderness and heartache. As their eyes met, the young man slowly shook his head.

"Be good."

"Don't forgive him."

"..." Chang Le looked on, and the moment she closed her eyes, tears slid down her cheeks.

-

Chang Le resigned from her job, received the divorce agreement, and left with nothing, just like her mother had done years before.

Cici asked her where she wanted to go.

Berlin.

Fortunately, over the years she did not listen to Ji Ye and stay at home eating, drinking, and having fun as a full-time housewife. Instead, she found a job and earned a good salary.

The salary she saved was enough for her to live out the rest of her life alone in Berlin.

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She lives a quiet, solitary life in Berlin.

After living for nearly thirty years, Chang Le finally had her first room where everything, from the furnishings to the bed, from every nook and cranny to the dust floating in the light, was entirely her own.

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Cici would visit her from time to time.

Chang Le knew,

Cici was afraid that she might do something rash.

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Late at night,
I still have nightmares and I still self-harm.

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The medicine tastes so bitter.

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Chang Le saw the news on television that Ji Ye was seriously ill and on the verge of death.

When questioned, Cici did not deny that Ji Ye had been pleading to see her.

But Cici didn't want him to disturb her life.

Cici did a great job.

But some loves, hates, and grudges must eventually be resolved.

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Ji also transferred all of his assets to her name.

She donated all of it to children in welfare homes across the country.

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There was silence for a long time.

Chang Le finally got through on the phone.

She heard a weary, almost extinguished voice.

That was a message of death.

"Where is the child...?"

Chang Le remained silent for a long time: "...It's alright."

Over there, the man chuckled intermittently as he asked her.

"so……"

"Is Berlin cold...?"

So, is Berlin cold?

This comes from the book "Accompanying Anthony Through the Long Years".

meaning is--

Are you happy right now?

I heard violent coughing and someone calling for a doctor on the other end of the phone.

Chang Le did not hang up the phone.

"I'm...I'm so...sorry..."

The mechanical alarm blared sharply and piercingly. Despite the noise, she could clearly feel the man's faint breathing gradually calming down, freezing, and finally stopping.

Chang Le stood by the railing, the sunset never falling in the distance. When the breeze blew by, the sudden chill on her face was gone.

"Ji Ye".

"I will never be happy again."

(End of this chapter)