Quick-wear flirting system: being spoiled by gods in the plane

Chapter 202 Even Professors Confess - Female Protagonist's Perspective [Part 5] (48)

When I was in my senior year of high school, my mother and uncle separated completely.

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She scored very well on the college entrance exam, and her family wants her to choose finance or economics, which are good career paths, or become a teacher.

Ji also supported her in choosing what she liked.

"If you study a major you don't like, you will suffer for four years."

"If you find a job in your field after graduation, you'll suffer for the rest of your life because you don't like it; if you don't find a job in your field, then why did you choose this major in the first place? Why did you even choose this major?"

"At that time, you will regret not choosing your favorite major in college and doing what you love, instead of wasting four years."

"Chang Le, liking something is very important."

Yes.

Liking something is very important.

So she chose the Chinese Literature Department at University A.

She chose him too.

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My mother wants to come and accompany me to university.

Chang Le refused.

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Mom picked up another stray cat, a calico little girl named Mimi.

Another member has joined the family.

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Not long after, his mother met his younger brother through a high school classmate, and the two quickly got together.

That was the only uncle Chang Le had ever met so far who was honest both on the surface and inside.

My uncle's ex-wife ran off with someone else shortly after their second child was born, leaving him with two daughters.

Their uncle raised them all by himself; now one is working and the other is in elementary school.

Chang Le once spoke with him privately.

She asked, "Do you know about my mother's situation?"

He replied, "I know, I know very well."

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Chang Le asked many more questions, all of which were unavoidable situations in reality.

My uncle was driving in front, and he answered very sincerely, though he stammered, and his hands were shaking as he gripped the steering wheel. He was a genuinely honest man.

Chang Le agreed.

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“I didn’t find this for myself, Chang Le,” Mom said.

“Your grandfather needs a helper. He can do it; he’s very hardworking.”

Chang Le: "..."

mom.

when saying this.

Were you fooled by yourself?

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University life is great.

She and Ji Ye started dating openly and honestly.

Ji is very handsome, so he often appears on confession walls or is stopped on the street by people asking for his contact information.

He always refused directly, showing off the rubber band on his wrist.

"I'm sorry, I love my girlfriend very much."

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Chang Le had mentioned to her father once when she was in college that her mother and first stepfather had sent her to that aunt's house.

She said, "Do you know about this?"

Dad was silent for a long time before he said he knew.

Chang Le asked him,

Why didn't you stop it?

Why don't you come and see her?

The father replied that he had come to the school, but the mother wouldn't let him see her.

Chang Le repeated these words to her mother verbatim.

The mother mocked, laughing loudly.

She said that if her father really wanted to see her, how could he not?

"Chang Le, you should get your dad to give you the keys to that house as soon as possible, and it would be best to transfer the ownership and put the house in your name."

"With your mother here, she won't let that woman and her child try to take your house."

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My father is taciturn, doesn't know how to express himself, and is introverted.

My mother once sarcastically remarked that my father was tricked by his current wife.

Chang Le had also thought about asking her father.

Why is there a younger sister?

She's not good enough, is she?

Chang Le never asked.

She comforted herself with the thought that a new family needs a new child.

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During her university years, Chang Le's living expenses naturally increased compared to before.

When she was in elementary school, her father gave her 800 yuan and her mother gave her 500 yuan.

When she was in college, her father gave her 1000 yuan and her mother gave her 800 yuan.

Money is something that is hard to define and explain.

The two were always suspicious of each other.

"Your dad hasn't replied to you yet."

Has your dad contacted you?

"Did your father give you living expenses?"

"Did Dad give you any money for the trip?"

"Your dad doesn't say anything! He doesn't care about anything! Of course he's smart!"

"When you get married, I will not sit with your father to drink the tea ceremony!"

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"Your mother, that crazy woman, doesn't think that way."

"Did your mother not give you your share of tuition fees?"

"She didn't give me a single penny for herself, and made me pay her all my living expenses at once. Then she swaggered around and said all sorts of things about me. She's the one who's really something!"

"She kept saying it was for your sake, but she actually schemed against both of us."

...Sometimes,
Chang Le didn't know what to do.

She doesn't understand.

Why do people who were once so in love that they could have children end up hating each other?

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Her father always wanted her to go back to her hometown for a visit.

She didn't want to.

Because her younger sister was there, her aunt was there, and the vegetable garden where she was lost in thought was also there.

"You are the real family."

She remained silent for a long time before replying on WeChat like this.

A new family,
No, it is not allowed to accommodate an old item.

She was a defective product of her previous family.
A new family will not have any defective products.

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During her university years, Chang Le had a heated argument with her father.

Chang Le couldn't remember what caused it.

All she knew was that after arguing with her mother, her mother called and scolded her father, who then sent her a series of messages.

My dad is usually not very talkative, and he often doesn't check his messages for days on end. He often reads messages but doesn't reply.

But that day, Dad said a lot of things, filling the entire screen.

Chang Le only remembered the very first sentence.

"What are you doing now?"

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My mother has become very strange.

She and her uncle were together, but they were often separated.

My uncle stayed in the countryside, helping my grandfather with his work while also driving to the factory to work.

My mother stayed in my uncle's house and took the high-speed train to another city for work every day.

The two rarely saw each other, and Chang Le sensed that her mother was deliberately distancing herself from them.

It's not surprising that this is the case.

What's strange is the conversation between her mother and her.

"Get out of here."

"You don't want to see your mother."

"Your mother did nothing wrong to you."

"Your mother isn't such a bad person."

“Your mom was already earning money when she was your age. She sent money back home to buy precast concrete slabs and corrugated steel sheds when she was 20, little sister!”

"You have no parents, no brothers or sisters, you only have yourself. Just be yourself, and leave the rest to your old mother!"

“You may not understand your mother. You always think that your mother is nothing and that you have little connection with your family, but I do things with discretion and moderation.”

"Your birthday is only related to your elderly mother. When you invite others to eat and drink, you are only telling them that this day is both your birthday and a day of suffering for your mother!"

“When your mother gave birth to you, she was severely anemic! We almost didn’t have the money for the C-section. You can ask your maternal grandmother. I had to get a lot of injections to give birth to you. You think your old mother is full of energy and lectures you every day?”

“You don’t need to treat your mom like an enemy all the time. My grandparents think I’m not as good as the neighbor’s daughter, and they’ve never given me a kind look since I was a child! They call me a ‘bastard’! I’m a failure as a mother, and my marriage is a failure. No matter what I do, it doesn’t end well!”

"Forget it, depression! It's just being crazy."

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"Why do you hate your mother so much?"

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I don't know when it started, but my mother has been drinking every day.

When Chang Le is at home, her mother will pull her aside and talk about her own unhappy family background, about her parents, Chang Le's maternal grandparents, who favored boys over girls, and how they wished that it was her mother who had died instead of her uncle.

My mother kept saying that every husband she married was to help the family and my grandfather by working on construction sites.

My mother kept repeating that her health was very poor back then, and that she had to get a lot of injections and take a lot of medicine when she was growing up.

My mother wouldn't sleep until three or four in the morning. She would drink outside the living room and keep knocking on Chang Le's door, asking Chang Le to come out and talk to her.

“Chang Le, your mother is really not a bad person.” — She kept emphasizing this sentence.

The mother hated her own father and Chang Le's maternal grandfather.

When I was about to have a C-section, my grandfather almost couldn't afford the surgery because he had lent out the money.

She hated that when she had just given birth to Chang Le and was celebrating her one-month birthday, her maternal grandfather said in front of the guests that so-and-so's daughter worked there and brought back a lot of money to her parents, while her own daughter was so-and-so.

But that person is a prostitute, everyone knows that.

Her own father compared her to a woman who worked as a prostitute.

The mother felt that those were not words a father should say, so she overturned the dining table in front of everyone.

Many years
For many years, she felt that everyone hated her, loathed her, and thought she was terrible.

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In Chang Le's eyes, her mother was completely trapped in her own self-inflicted mental anguish, believing in the bitter and heart-wrenching plot she had created.

Chang Le tried to communicate, but all the exchanges would circle back to "You don't understand your mother," "Your mother is not a bad person," and "You have always looked down on your mother."

Chang Le could sense her mother's pain and her mother's desperate attempt to prove that her existence was valuable.

But what her mother said always made Chang Le feel very depressed.

The overwhelming negative emotions were about to engulf Chang Le.

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My grandmother said that she had never favored boys over girls, and that she never failed to pay her share of the money for the C-section business back then.

"Your mother's personality is just like your maternal grandfather's; she's very strong-willed, stubborn, and can't bring herself to say anything."

"Your mom starts arguing with him after just a couple of sentences."

Back then, my family was poor and life was tough. We mostly ate pickled vegetables and lived in a mud house that was on the verge of collapse.

At that time, only one of my uncle and mother could go to school.

Grandpa and Grandma chose Mom.

When my mother insisted on marrying my father, my maternal grandparents disagreed, but in the end they gave in to her.

My maternal grandfather was stubborn and unwilling to part with a single penny, but he gave my mother a lot of money to pay off some debts that Chang Le still doesn't know what they are.

Grandma would complain, but she would also secretly shed tears, showing concern for Mom's already poor health.

Despite saying she hates her maternal grandparents, Mom still often goes home to cook a big table of their favorite dishes and buys a lot of medicine to pack into boxes.

Because my maternal grandparents both have poor eyesight, my mother would write down how many times a day to take the medicine on the prescription, in large, bold letters.

Everyone has two sides, and everything can be interpreted in two ways.

It's really just a matter of how the two generations communicate.

They clearly care about each other, but they never hold back with their words.

Resentment mixed with love, dry and stifling.

The atmosphere at home was sometimes good and sometimes bad, making Chang Le want to get closer, yet also want to stay away.

There's a saying, isn't there?

Family members are like a wet cotton-padded coat in winter; you feel cold wearing it, and you feel cold taking it off.

(End of this chapter)