Beijing-Hong Kong Rosemary

Chapter 175 Diary (2)

November 1999, 2

I've started experiencing morning sickness these past couple of days. I can't eat anything, and the sight of meat and fish makes me nauseous. I throw up everything I eat except for porridge. I never knew pregnancy was this tough.

November 1999, 2

I've recently developed a craving for sour foods, so I bought a lot of green plums and preserved plums at the supermarket. It's finally helped relieve my nausea. I have my next prenatal checkup scheduled in a few days. I hope my baby is healthy in my belly.

November 1999, 2

The baby is seven weeks along, and the checkup went smoothly. Last night before bed, I kept thinking about the baby's name. I hope you come back soon so I don't have to rack my brains.

November 1999, 2

My mother is sick, and I went back to visit her, but my father forced me to stay at the Shen family's house. He won't let me go anywhere and is pressuring me to break up with you. I refused, so he locked me in my room. I don't know what to do.

November 1999, 3

My dad found out I was pregnant and he was furious. He told me to have an abortion, but I won't do that. I will definitely protect our baby.

November 1999, 3

I had a serious argument with my parents. They wanted me to marry into a family with the Shen family in exchange for business benefits. I was so emotional that I fainted on the spot and was taken to the hospital. The doctor said I had symptoms of threatened miscarriage. I'm so scared; I'm afraid I won't be able to save the baby.

November 1999, 3

They're all pressuring me, forcing me to marry someone I don't love, otherwise it's considered unfilial. Why doesn't anyone consider my feelings? What should I do?

November 1999, 3

The doctor said my health is very poor, and if things continue like this, I might lose the baby.

November 1999, 3

【I'm sorry, Ayi. For the sake of the baby, I had no choice but to compromise. I have to break my promise. I'm so sorry, truly sorry.】

March 29, 1999 [My marriage to Xu Hongxuan was just a sham. He promised to help me get rid of the Shen family. Once the baby is safely born, I'll find a suitable time to divorce him. I don't know if you'll blame me, but I really have no other choice.]

November 1999, 4

I went for another prenatal checkup today, and the doctor said things were much better than last time. I finally breathed a sigh of relief. I'm trying very hard to stay positive so my baby doesn't suffer because of me.

November 1999, 4

I bought a lot of baby clothes and supplies. Every time I pass a baby store, I can't help but go in and take a look. I often wonder if my baby will look more like me or more like you.

November 1999, 4

The Shen and Xu families are already discussing the wedding, and I don't want to get involved at all. I've imagined countless times what the wedding would be like, but only if the person I'm with is you.

November 1999, 5

It seems something's happened to the Xu family. I don't know the specifics, but it's good news for me because the marriage registration has been postponed for now.

November 1999, 5

The Xu family was investigated, and my dad was afraid the Shen family would be implicated, so he had me sent abroad to have my pregnancy. Thankfully, I don't have to marry anyone else.

November 1999, 6

We've settled down in Singapore for now. The baby is six months along, and my belly is getting bigger. Every prenatal checkup has gone smoothly, and both the baby and I are doing well. I hope you stay safe and healthy too.

November 1999, 6

My baby has been moving a lot lately, kicking around in my belly. Pregnancy is tiring, but it's also very happy.

November 1999, 6

Still no news from you. I worry about you every day. I know your job is always dangerous, and I just hope you can complete your mission soon and return unharmed.