I'm not interested in money or women.

Chapter 32 He understands me!
Animals are always most sensitive to the scent of their own kind.

Humans are also a kind of animal.

When Lu Feng saw the strange look in Gao Qi's eyes, he realized that she was the same type of person as himself.

But the difference is that he's in too deep.

But she was just in the initial stage of ignorance.

In his mind, Lu Feng dug out scattered memories about Gao Qi.

Her family is a system-based family, with relatives in the industrial and commercial, tax and two office sectors, and they are well off.

Her academic performance was also very stable. She had been doing very well since she was young, and she was admitted to Jinling Normal University without any problems.

I also received various scholarships during my time at school and was recognized by everyone as a good student.

It seems that after she graduated, she took the civil service exam and joined the Education Bureau, got married and had children, and I'm not sure what happened after that, but it should have been pretty good and smooth sailing.

This is the ideal life for many people, no big ups and downs, just plain happiness.

But people are often not satisfied with what they have.

There is a saying in "The Fortress Besieged": People inside the city want to escape, and people outside the city want to rush in. This is true for marriage, for career, and for most of the wishes in life.

A calm and routine life may avoid many twists and turns and risks, but it lacks a lot of freshness and excitement.

A life as dull as water always makes people doubt themselves.

Doubt your own value and the meaning of life.

Many people ask the same question at the same time.

Is this how I am going to spend my whole life?

However, there are thousands of different ways of living in the world.

Some people are in war-torn areas, starving, without clothes, and don’t know which will come first, death or tomorrow.

Some people work overtime on the assembly line, busy with their eyes open and sleeping with their eyes closed. They work so hard that they have no time to spare.

Some people work from nine to five, day after day, with constant meetings, endless reports to write, and all these trivial things, which have led to large bald spots on their heads.

There are also people who are well-dressed, sitting in high-end office buildings, staring at computer screens, drinking American coffee as if it were water, and not sleeping for eight hours in three days. They are afraid that they will die suddenly in the next second.

No one can be completely satisfied with his or her life. We can only comfort ourselves in this short life with the meaning we give to it.

Few people can break out of this cage.

Gao Qi was obviously trapped in it as well.

She wanted to jump out, but chose the wrong way.

Looking into her eyes, Lu Feng said in a deep voice: "Your life is something that many people envy. Don't seek excitement. It's not good for you."

Gao Qi didn't know why she came here to find Lu Feng.

But after hearing Lu Feng's words, she was shocked and understood instantly.

He understands me!
From childhood to adulthood, she has been recognized by everyone as a good child.

She is the pride of her parents. When outsiders mention her, they always say: "Look at Gao Qi, how well behaved and sensible she is."

Everyone has the impression that she is well-behaved, sensible, honest and well-mannered.

I don’t know how many people have praised her in front of her parents.

"How did you raise such a good child? I am so envious."

"If our kid is even one tenth as sensible as your Gao Qi, I'd be so lucky!"

Because of her understanding, her parents enjoyed countless envious praises.

In the family, she is also the eldest daughter who is most loved by the elders and a role model for all the children of relatives.

She has never quarreled with her parents, which makes them feel at ease.

Even during adolescence, she did not show the slightest sign of rebellion.

She was not pretending. She truly understood her parents' hard work and knew that her parents truly loved her and had sacrificed a lot for her.

So she is willing to be a good daughter, a good student, and a good sister.

She wants to make people around her happy.

She is really sensible.

But who really understands her?
In order to be a sensible, good daughter, a good student, and a good sister, she gave up a lot.

While other students were having fun, she was studying hard because if she wanted to be a good student, she had to get good grades.

Other children can act like spoiled brats to their parents, asking for toys, asking to travel, and playing, but she must learn to be considerate and not burden her parents.

She cannot be willful, she must be humble and tolerant.

She can't learn painting because she can't make a living.

Her parents spent resources, owed her a favor, and paved the way for her, so she should be grateful.

She can no longer remember anything before school.

In her memory, from childhood to adulthood, she cycled between school, cram school, and home.

Day after day, year after year.

Her life is like a pool of stagnant water, without a single ripple.

Before entering junior high school, she knew which junior high school she was going to attend.

Before she entered high school, she knew which high school she was going to attend.

The same goes for college.

After filling out the application form, she knew that she would work in the Education Bureau after graduation.

This will also be the trajectory of her life for the next few decades, until she retires.

decades.

Just these 12 years of schooling were enough to suffocate her.

She couldn't imagine how torturous it would be to have to stay in a small circle like her parents for the next few decades.

But she didn't dare object.

She knew how much her family had sacrificed for her since she was a child.

Seeing her father, with graying hair, drunk and almost poisoned by alcohol because of her, she dared not say anything.

She accepted this fate.

It's like locking myself in a cage.

But she had four final, brief years of freedom before the cage door was locked.

During these four years, she was able to fully experience a life that she had never experienced before.

She can travel, hang out with friends, drink, dance, and do things she didn't dare to do before.

But she couldn't muster much interest.

Like tonight, although the environment in the bar was very lively, everyone was having a great time.

But she did not dance like Cui Tingyan. She just sat quietly in the booth and drank.

Only when Lu Feng was singing on the stage did she stand up and dance along for a while, giving herself a moment to let go.

But after that, she returned to the state of lack of desire.

This makes her very painful.

She has freedom, but she doesn't know how to enjoy it.

Because she knew very well that she would only have four years of freedom.

Four years later, she would still be trapped in that cage, unstoppable.

She was like sitting on a slope, sliding down uncontrollably.

Although this slope is four years long, it will eventually reach the bottom.

Once she reaches the bottom, she will never be able to get out.

In this situation, how could she cheer up and enjoy this so-called freedom whose ending was already determined?

She had never told anyone about her inner feelings and thoughts.

She originally thought that this would be her secret forever.

But she didn't expect that Lu Feng would speak out the pain hidden deep in her heart.

He understands me!
How could he understand me?
Gao Qi suddenly felt an extremely strong urge, she propped herself up and reached out towards Lu Feng.

She wants to kiss him!

However, Lu Feng seemed to have guessed her move and took a step back.

She kissed nothing.

(End of this chapter)