From the end of the world

Chapter 604 Ma Zao's Will

My brain shut down.

All of it? Me and the world?

What is she talking about?

"Do you know what you are saying?" I asked. "We are on different sides. Since we are moving in different directions and our goals conflict with each other, we can only be enemies. The world, or me, since you have chosen the former, you can no longer choose the latter.

"I know you probably can't accept being my enemy because you like me, but greed will only lead to unexpected results. The idea of ​​wanting everything is sometimes the same as wanting nothing. I'm not just talking in general terms, you must understand what I mean, right? If you can't give up anything, you can't move forward at all."

"I understand." Ma Zao said, "But, to me, you are as important as the world. You let me see a new future, you are my world.

"So, I want to save everyone's world, and I want to save you too."

"Save me?" I asked reflexively, "What is there to save about me?"

As I asked this question, I suddenly had a sense of déjà vu. Not long ago, someone somewhere seemed to have said something similar to me.

"Zhuang Cheng, you said before that you don't want to be my enemy. It's painful to be my enemy." Ma Zao said, "I won't let you feel pain. At the same time, just like I won't escape from the darkness of my past, I won't escape from your darkness either."

"If it's just an ideal, anyone can do it, but how do we do it in practice?" I asked back, "I have also thought about the possibility of getting along with you in a friendly way. If there is a way to maintain a balance between the two and kill two birds with one stone, then I won't tell you the truth with the intention of breaking up.

"To be honest, Xiaowan realized my true thoughts a long time ago. Her wisdom is greater than you and me combined. If she could come up with a way to have the best of both worlds, she would have given me advice a long time ago. But the fact is that there is no such thing. It just doesn't exist. If Xiaowan can't think of a good method, do you think you can think of one?"

Hearing this, Ma Zao's eyes remained unwavering, and she said, "I want to change your mind."

"You can't," I said without hesitation. "Just like you have things more important than your life, I have things more important than my life. What kind of misunderstanding do you have that makes you think you can change me?"

Ma Zao said slowly: "I really don't know how to change you. Because it happened so suddenly, I didn't have time to think about many things. But this one thing is very clear, I will not let go of you and the world, and I will not give up the possibility of having both until the last moment... Besides, it's far from the time when we have to separate, right?"

It can be seen that she is racking her brains to think. While showing a firm look in her eyes, sweat is oozing out of her forehead as she tries her best to squeeze out the brain cells. "There are still many truths about the doomsday that we haven't figured out yet... You need my power of the jinx and my investigative ability, and I need your power too. Only when we are together can we see farther, right?"

“……”I fell into deep thought.

What Ma Zao said makes sense.

Now many things seem to be clear, but in fact they are still in an uncertain state. The details of the Lord of the Divine Seal are still in the mist, and Xuanming's "real owner of the seal" is also very worrying. Although it is certain that the cause of the doomsday is the wrong human history, it is still unknown what kind of wish caused the error.

No. 7 believes that someone made a wish to the divine seal, which caused the fusion of different worlds. However, this is just a result. Just because the phenomenon of world fusion occurred, does it necessarily mean that the wish of the wisher is to "let different worlds merge"? Suppose someone wishes to make the surrounding walls disappear in order to make his room look more spacious, and eventually the residential building loses its key load-bearing wall and collapses. When attributing the cause afterwards, we cannot simply summarize it as "this person's wish is to make the residential building collapse."

What exactly is the stance and motive of the "real seal holder" lurking in the dark and the Lord of the Divine Seal whom we have come into contact with? This is a question that is closely related to the fate of the world.

Although Ma Zao and I have completely opposite destinations, at this stage, we are still on the same path and our relationship is mutually beneficial.

Besides, I am not sure whether I can imprison Ma Zao. The "luck" mentioned earlier is one of the reasons, and another reason is that Ma Zao may get help from Xiao Wan. Even if Xiao Wan said that she would always stand by my side, it is not certain that she would let Ma Zao continue to be imprisoned. Under her blessing and prayer, Ma Zao could even miraculously escape from the hands of the Great Demon of Disaster who controls gravity, not to mention my restraint.

If Ma Zao voluntarily stays by my side, the situation will be very different. Without Ma Zao's power of a jinx, my efficiency in exploring the truth will be greatly reduced; on the contrary, I don't need to do anything special, the relevant clues will automatically gather towards me, especially the various dangers and enemies that appear with the doomsday process that I want most, they will also automatically gather towards me.

This is obviously a route that has only benefits, and at the same time... it is also a route that can ensure that Ma Zao will not leave me.

"After that, I will stay by your side and monitor you. If you do anything to promote doomsday, I will stop you. And you don't want to separate from me immediately and want to be with me...right?" Ma Zao asked.

"...Okay." I thought about it again and again and answered, "I understand. Don't keep saying stupid things like 'change me', but we will continue to be together for the time being."

Ma Zao's shoulders finally relaxed and she smiled sincerely.

"Then come with me tomorrow to meet my parents!" she said.
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The frank conversation with Ma Zao ended here. As for her sudden revisiting of the past at the end, although it was somewhat unexpected, I agreed.

We returned to the dining venue in the courtyard. Xiaowan gave Mazao and me a meaningful look, then pretended nothing had happened and ate and chatted happily. Although Mazao and I had a conversation away from everyone and Xiaowan didn't overhear it, she seemed to know from the beginning that there would be no real breakup between us.

I remembered what she had said in the afterlife.

——"I think it's unfair if it's just you who has to fulfill Maha-nee's wish."

——"I also hope that Sister Maha can save you."

I see, the "things I forgot" she mentioned earlier probably refer to these things. At the same time, she had anticipated Mazao's decision from the beginning, which I had not expected. She knew that after Mazao listened to my true feelings, she would definitely have such a reaction.

I still don't think I need to be saved. I have always enjoyed what I do. I have never regretted it, and I will never regret it. If I have to say something, it is that before I met Ma Zao, I always failed to encounter the strange events I was looking for, and I always returned disappointed. But now I live every day like a festival, and there is no element of misfortune at all.

After the dinner party, Ma Zao used the power of return to clean up the scene in one go, saving the time of cleaning and washing dishes. Everyone has their own room in this house, so they all stayed to rest tonight. Chang'an was a boarding student at Luoshan Demon Hunter Academy, but he also chose to stay overnight tonight.

Ma Zao and I had different rooms in the house, but Ma Zao was still very attached to me and wanted to sleep with me. I didn't refuse. Although I said those words before, I still liked Ma Zao and my desire to be close to Ma Zao had not diminished at all.

When it was time to go to bed, we hugged each other in the bed. She hugged me tightly as if she was afraid that I would suddenly disappear. I felt her small body and her body temperature, and my heart was incredibly peaceful. Originally, I had prepared myself mentally that I would never be able to hug her so peacefully.

What kind of relationship do we have now? We have the desire to be incompatible, but we chose to cooperate temporarily. We should keep a distance from each other, but we hug each other intimately like now. It's really strange, and intoxicating, I don't want to let go.

I will not change my heart, nor will I allow others to attempt to change it. Anyone who wants to do so will be struck by my thunderbolt. But for Ma Zao, I cannot have any hostility, and even find her cute. This is not a statement mixed with ridicule and pity, but a more pure feeling that I want to embrace and do not allow anyone to look down on her.

I was deeply fascinated by that unwavering look, as hard and beautiful as a gem.

At this moment, this lovely "culprit" was nestling in my arms like a sleeping lamb, unconsciously grasping my clothes, closing her eyes, breathing evenly, and falling into a deep sleep. I quietly stroked her soft cheeks, played with her bangs, and stared at her relaxed expression like a baby from a very close distance.

Coming back to my senses, I suddenly had an idea. Maybe for the first time, I completely threw away the unlucky star power that Ma Zao possessed and fell in love with this girl from the bottom of my heart.

This is really ironic. I just thought that my heart would not change, but I noticed the first change in myself so quickly. What's incredible is that I didn't feel unwilling at all, and even felt a little happy.

Just think of it as a small loss for me, but I won’t lose again from now on.

(End of this chapter)