From the end of the world

Chapter 601: Xiaowan's Contradiction

I turned around and saw the small bowl.

She was standing a few meters behind me, and the sound of a dinner party came from afar. Even if other people had superhuman hearing, they couldn't hear our conversation. I have the ability to make others unable to hear what I don't want them to hear. Xiaowan, who has the power of the right position, also has it.

"Do you want to tell Sister Ma Zao that you actually hope the end of the world will come?" Xiaowan asked again.

"This is what we agreed on in the past, isn't it? After returning to the real world, I must tell Maha what I really think." I said, "Maybe this will make Maha choose to be my enemy... No, she will definitely choose this. She can't choose a position other than 'saving the world', and we will definitely become enemies. Even so, I will tell her what I really think. I have made up my mind."

"Won't you be sad about breaking up with Sister Ma Zao?" Xiaowan asked.

The scene of our previous dinner together flashed in my mind. Ma Zao sat in my arms, blushing as she ate the food I fed her, surrounded by the noise of noise. Such a scene may never happen again.

At the same time, I was picturing a dramatic scenario of being an enemy of Ma Zao in my mind, and was secretly and intensely looking forward to it.

Sadness and expectation intertwined, as if to tear my heart apart. If I want to get out of this vortex, I must make a decision as soon as possible. I can't think of any reason to stop. Even if destruction is waiting for me ahead, I must be willing to accept it. This is the path I have chosen, I can't look back, I can't regret it. I allow myself to do anything, but I don't allow myself to regret it.

"Will you still choose to stand by my side?" I asked.

"Just like Brother Zhuang Cheng has to abide by his promise, I have to abide by my own promise. At the same time, I will not take back my past words. Brother Zhuang Cheng is the embodiment of my dreams, and I will believe in Brother Zhuang Cheng as much as I believe in myself." Xiaowan said.

"Even if I will break up with Ma Zao next, do you believe that I can bring happiness to Ma Zao?" I asked back.

Xiao Wan sighed and said, "Brother Zhuang Cheng, you seem to have forgotten some of the things I said."

"forget?"

I was very surprised, and immediately quickly searched my memory. My memory was not damaged, and it was impossible that I lost some part of it due to madness when I was adventuring in the afterlife.

"It's okay, you'll remember it soon." Xiao Wan said with a smile, "I'm catching up with you now, not to dissuade you, nor to confirm your determination. I want to thank you. Thank you for not dissuading me before."

I understood and said, "You mean completing the mission. Although you will disappear after completing the mission, since this is your own decision with strong willpower, I will stand by your side and help you just like you helped me."

Xiao Wan said happily: "Then I'll have to trouble Brother Zhuang Cheng."

"However, even if I were to fall in love with Zhu Shi, I wouldn't be able to do it so quickly. What's more, I'm a man who doesn't understand romance. Even if I really fall in love with her, I probably won't be able to create any romantic atmosphere between Zhu Shi and me. As for Zhu Shi, you can see that she has nothing to do with romance," I said.

"In this regard, it depends on Brother Zhuang Cheng's subjective initiative. Well, in order to increase your enthusiasm, let's add some chips. For example..." Xiaowan pretended to think and said seriously, "If you capture Zhu Shi now, you can also get me, Xiaowan, as a gift. How about it?
"Zhu Shi even called me mom before. Not only can he take the charming female college student swordsman into his room, but he can also capture her lovely mother. In a sense, he can capture both mother and daughter!"

"You actually asked me how I am... You call me brother and call yourself mother at the same time. Isn't that a bit confusing?" I complained, "And you look only ten years old. No matter how you look at it, you are still too young, right?"

"Really? Now I'm a popular mother of a young girl, can't this make Brother Zhuang Cheng fall in love with me?" Xiao Wan seemed to have absorbed some strange knowledge from Zhu Shi, "And when I was using my knees as a pillow last time, I clearly felt that Brother Zhuang Cheng was also very comfortable, could it be that I was wrong?" "You were healing me at the time, so of course I felt good." I changed the subject, "Besides, don't you want me to like Zhu Shi? If you sell me your advantages like this, the most I'll gain is your favorability, not Zhu Shi's, right?"

"That's right... Will there be any problems with the two-person three-legged strategy? But if Zhu Shi is the only one, he really can't achieve a balance of combat power with Sister Ma Zao, so she still needs my assistance..." Xiaowan actually started to think seriously.

It was not until this time that I noticed a blind spot, a blind spot that should not have been ignored.

"Xiaowan, I have a question," I said.

Xiaowan looked into my eyes, paused for a moment, and then asked, "What's the problem?"

I asked slowly, "Why do you have to make me fall in love with Zhu Shi in order to fulfill your innate mission?"

At the beginning, Zhu Jiu transferred his existence to his daughter's dream incarnation, which led to the birth of Xiaowan. Although this was not an act of Zhu Jiu with a clear purpose, judging from the results alone, the goal could be achieved by making his daughter Zhu Shi, who was already living in the real world, happy. There was no need to transfer his existence to the dream incarnation from the beginning.

Now Zhu Shi doesn't have the idea of ​​having to find love. That obsession lies with Xiaowan.

In other words——

"If I want to fulfill your childhood obsession with pursuing love and happiness, shouldn't I be the one to fall in love with you?" I asked.

Thinking carefully, this is a problem that should have been noticed long ago. Why did I only discover it now? A little analysis will make it clear that it is probably because Xiaowan emphasized at the beginning that he is neither Zhu Jiu nor Zhu Shi.

Xiaowan's self-perception does not lean towards either Zhu Jiu or Zhu Shi, which should be the truth. However, facts can sometimes lead people to have biased thoughts. Because he is not Zhu Shi, he is not in the target range - this inference seems to be logical, but it does not stand up to scrutiny.

Xiao Wan is not a character completely independent of Childhood Zhu Shi. On the contrary, she admits that she is an extension of Childhood Zhu Shi, the embodiment of his dream, and her mission as the embodiment of his dream. Even Childhood Zhu Shi's obsession is rooted in her. At this point, no matter how much she talks about self-cognition, she must admit that "she is the character that symbolizes Childhood Zhu Shi", otherwise what does those missions have to do with her?
Then, she is certainly qualified to fulfill her childhood dream by obtaining love and happiness.

It is for this reason that Zhu Jiu gave up his existence.

"...Brother Zhuang Cheng, I'm such a little girl, and you suddenly told me about love and being loved..."

At this time, Xiaowan switched positions with me and became evasive.

"But this is much more reasonable than asking me to have a love affair with Zhu Shi. Zhu Shi's love is in you, isn't it?" I said, "Since you are the embodiment of a dream with only one aspect emphasized, and symbolize Zhu Shi's lost love and dream, then you should have corresponding aspirations.

"It has nothing to do with whether your body is that of a little girl or not. You will definitely have a strong urge to love and be loved despite this.

"I'm not saying that helping Zhu Shi is not enough to fulfill your innate mission, but from the perspective of efficiency, it should be a second-best choice. I hope you can tell me honestly why you don't want me to fall in love with you?"

(End of this chapter)