I am a god in the secret world

Bai Tao leaned against the door, feeling that she was really going too far. It was clearly her own problem, but she ended up taking her anger out on others. In her current state, she really wasn't suitable for a relationship.

So, she picked up the phone tremblingly and sent a message to Xu Minghuang.

Bai Tao: I really can't do it. I'm sorry. You can see that my emotions are very unstable. When you fall in love, you should at least find someone with stable emotions. It's my problem. I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. Can we not continue this?
Xu Minghuang: Alas... I am putting pressure on you. I am sorry. If you think you will feel better if we separate, then let's separate.

Xu Minghuang: I just like you very much, but if these will cause you so much trouble, then I will leave.

Bai Tao: No...it's all my fault. I'm too cowardly. I don't have the courage to accept your love. I'm sorry!!!
[Flower of Lies progress 85%...]

White tea in the black box space: “…”

Ah Huang, you are awesome!
The tea smells like tea.

You learned it from her, right?

You have to fight against yourself, it’s not unfair if you lose.

Looking at Bai Tao again, she fell into a muddle-headed life.

It's like returning to the state when I first returned home.

The house became a mess.

I owe more money than before and I can’t pay it back at all. The pressure is increasing.

A text message about paying off the mortgage also arrived, and Bai Tao really didn’t know where to get the money.

She thought about dying.

She thought everything was starting over, and there was even someone who liked her, but she found that she still made things very badly.

Maybe it's because she is so incompetent, she is just a waste.

[Flower of Lies progress 90%...]

The buds have begun to bloom slightly.

Xu Minghuang is here.

Bai Tao didn't expect him to come over, and subconsciously wanted to close the door because the room behind her was too messy.

"I just came to see you. I brought you some food."

Xu Minghuang was stronger than her, so he slipped in. He didn't say much about the mess in the room. He put the food on the table, motioned Bai Tao to eat, and then he began to clean up the room.

In fact, this is a very good behavior.

At least Bai Tao could feel that she really liked Xu Minghuang a little bit, but the more this happened, the more frightened and uneasy she became.

Because she's really terrible.

[Flower of Lies progress 92%...]

"Xu Minghuang, you always tell me that it's worth it to believe that you like me, but you never give me a reason. I'm going to ask you again today, what do you like about me?"

Bai Tao laughed and tears fell. She pointed at herself and then at the house.

"Do you like me because I'm unkempt and ugly, or because I'm fat and have a bad figure, or because I never clean my room and it's messy? Or do you like me because I'm sick every day and can't work, or do you like my bad family background and bad personality?"

She really doesn't understand.

Xu Minghuang pondered and said, "You are just sick. You have to believe in yourself. Everything about you deserves to be liked."

Bai Cha in the black box space smiled.

In order to maintain his own image, Ah Huang had to say such things.

Tell the truth.

So the progress bar temporarily stopped at 92%.

Bai Tao was stunned for a long time, and then cried for a long time.

Xu Minghuang came forward and hugged her naturally, patting her back gently to comfort her.

After crying, Bai Tao felt tired and fell asleep.

She had many nightmares again.

In her last dream, she saw a black datura flower, which swallowed her.

Darkness, pain, and endless negative emotions enveloped her.

She struggled to sit up and saw Xu Minghuang who had not left yet.

"Did you have a nightmare? Shall I get you a glass of water?"

Xu Minghuang came very quickly with a cup of hot water, not too hot, just right.

Bai Tao took it and drank it in small sips.

Hot water can calm people's emotions, and she has come out of the dream.

"Xu Minghuang, can you give me a few days to think about it?"

Bai Tao spoke in a hoarse voice.

"I admit that I do like you." No one would be unmoved by the character created by Ah Huang.

Because, he was a character created specifically for Bai Tao.

Gentle, rich, loyal, and handsome, these are too fatal for a girl who came from a bad family, was extremely lacking in love since childhood, and had low self-esteem and weak self-awareness.

"But I need to think clearly, can you please give me some space?"

"Okay." Xu Minghuang would not refuse.

He helped Bai Tao smooth her hair which had become messy due to sleeping.

"No matter what your outcome is, I won't change."

He looked so determined, like the oath came from the heart.

Oh, of course, that should be the case.

No matter what the outcome of Bai Tao is, Xu Minghuang's original intention is always to get everything of Bai Cha.

Of course he was determined.

[Flower of Lies progress 90%...]

It dropped by 2%. Ah Huang was so determined that it gave Bai Tao some courage.

This is the drawback of his character. If he had chosen to be a standard domineering president, it might have been different. But if he was a domineering president, Bai Tao probably wouldn't have liked him at all.

Because that's so fatherly.

Bai Tao actually prefers her mother's style.

Gentle suppression.

Boil the frog in warm water.

Bai Tao took a bath and relaxed herself.

She thought about it and decided to call the doctor, but the call didn't go through and the doctor didn't reply to the message.

Bai Tao was silent for a long time, put down the phone and picked up the plastic mirror.

Now she was unable to utter those three words again.

I am the best.

She could say it in her heart, but her emotions remained unchanged.

Bai Tao took a deep breath, closed her eyes, and gathered all her courage.

“I’m the best!”

As long as there is a beginning, everything will be easy.

"I...I deserve to be loved."

"Whether I am good or bad, since someone likes me, I should like myself too."

"Yes, I like me."

Bai Tao murmured with tears streaming down her face.

“I like me.”

“I like the way I look.”

“I like my body.”

“I like my personality.”

“I like everything about me.”

“I’m the best!”

[Flower of Lies progress 50%...]

Bai Tao cried for a long time, then fell into a deep sleep again. When she woke up again, she was actually very tired.

She remained silent for several days and just checked her phone.

The doctor never responded to her.

She had no choice but to pick up the mirror again and repeat it.

Then, she suddenly remembered that the doctor had asked her if she had anything she liked.

If there is, then do it. Build up your love for the world by doing the things you like, and then you will like yourself and others.

She picked up the paintbrush that had been gathering dust for years.

But soon, the debt collection call came.

Bai Tao's hand trembled.