The goal of life is to break up all couples

"?! Xiang..."

Matsueda Azusa blurted out with a hint of surprise, "Toyokawa-san, why are you here?"

"Azawa Matsueda...?"

A trace of panic flashed in Toyokawa Shoko's eyes, and she subconsciously hid the plastic bag in her hand behind her back, "Why are you here!"

Why the hell did she keep running into Matsueda Azusa everywhere she went? She'd learned her lesson after nearly bumping into him in Ikebukuro last time. To avoid running into Matsueda Azusa again, she'd even taken a long detour today to grab a discounted bento at the convenience store in Shimokitazawa...

Why did we still meet?

"I just finished a live show here, where else could I go?"

Songzhi Zi frowned, feeling a little strange: "But you... why did you come all the way here? And buy things in this cheap convenience store..."

As he spoke, he leaned over and asked, "What are you here to buy?"

Unexpectedly, Toyokawa Shoko reacted extremely violently and pushed Matsueda Azusa away forcefully: "Don't look!"

69

Chapter 69 This meeting...

Songzhi Zi was caught off guard and pushed hard. He staggered back a few steps and almost fell to the ground.

Fortunately, Yumiko Miura behind was quick to help.

"what happened?"

Miura Yumiko glanced at Matsueda Azusa with the expression of an old man on the subway looking at his phone. "How come I always run into a girl I have a problem with when I go out to buy a bottle of water? Who is this girl? Your enemy?"

"Hiss... not much different."

Songzhi Zi stood firm, was silent for a moment, and replied in a low voice: "My ex-girlfriend."

I didn't expect to run into Toyokawa Shoko here. I couldn't get her to call out before, but now I'm meeting her at the entrance of a random convenience store on the roadside.

Why didn't we meet earlier or later, but now it happened when Azusa Matsueda quit Crychic? It's really the fate of the world.

Although Matsueda Azusa said that he had let go of the past with Toyokawa Shoko, if they could sit down and have a good chat... he actually still has a lot to say. It's a pity that he just experienced leaving the group and is not in the mood for it now.

"...You are invincible. Why didn't you say so earlier?"

Upon hearing this, Miura Yumiko instantly let go of the hand that was supporting Matsueda Azusa and hurriedly took two steps back to avoid suspicion: "Hey, don't splatter your blood on me."

Shoko Toyokawa came back to her senses from the stress reaction and looked at Azusa Matsueda and Yumiko Miura who were whispering to each other. Only then did she realize that Azusa Matsueda was not alone, and there was a girl following her.

As for the other party's identity, is there any need to ask?

Shoko Toyokawa didn't even have to think for more than two seconds - in the evening, a man and a woman ran to a convenience store so far away from home to buy something... What else could they buy?

She didn't even dare to imagine what they were going to do next!

How long had it been since Matsueda Azusa broke up with her? How had he already gotten to this point with another woman?

And weren't we just seeing Azusa Matsueda and Tatsuki Shiina sweetly singing love songs to each other on the street a few days ago? Aren't they together?

If they were together, then what was going on now? Could it be that Songzhi Zi was two-timing?!

How come after just a while, Matsueda Azusa has become such a scumbag?!

Originally, Toyokawa Shoko wanted to grab the bag and quickly flee from here, but the scene before her made her stop for some unknown reason. She subconsciously asked Matsueda Azusa: "Who is she?!"

Hearing Toyokawa Shoko's harsh questioning, Matsueda Azusa couldn't help but frown. He had originally wanted to have a friendly chat with Toyokawa Shoko, but the other party started with this attitude... What did he mean? What was he trying to do?

Matsueda Azusa was already annoyed, and Toyokawa Shoko treated him like this. Did she really think that he would just accept the scolding because of their old relationship? What was she thinking?

He immediately retorted without hesitation: "What does this have to do with you, Fengchuan-san? Who are you to question me? No one here cares about your opinion."

Shoko Toyokawa's impression of Azusa Matsueda still remains from the time when they were dating her. She never expected that Azusa Matsueda would actually speak to her like that. For a moment, she felt a sense of disappointment and subconsciously clenched her fists, as if she wanted to say something, but she had no words to refute.

Indeed, what identity does she have now, and what qualifications does she have to question who is around Matsueda Azusa?

Toyokawa Shoko gritted her teeth and wanted to leave in a dignified manner, but after thinking it over, she couldn't help but ask, "Matsueda Azusa, you... aren't you already with Shiina Riki? Why are you still hooking up with other girls?"

"Huh? Are you crazy? Toyokawa Shoko! What nonsense are you talking about?"

If he was just a little unhappy with Toyokawa Shoko's tone just now, then Matsueda Azusa really couldn't hold it anymore. The group just broke up, and Toyokawa Shoko came over and exposed his scars. He really suspected that besides Miura Yumiko who was peeking at the group's breakup just now, Toyokawa Shoko was also secretly hiding in the corner and peeping.

Matsueda Azusa's face instantly darkened. "I'm with Shiina Riki? If you're saying that on purpose to irritate me, then I have to say you're quite successful. Did you come all this way here just to mock me? You still remember that time I took you to graze, and you're waiting for this chance to get even?"

Faced with Matsueda Azusa's reaction, Toyokawa Shoko was completely baffled, her face icy cold. "I don't understand what you're talking about. You're being a bit too self-righteous, saying I came here just to laugh at you? Do you think everyone is just following you? Matsueda Azusa, you really only think about yourself."

Realizing that a shocking and bloody battle was about to unfold, Yumiko Miura immediately rushed into a convenience store and bought a bag of melon seeds, eating them while watching with great anticipation.

"Who is this self-righteous person? Don't act like you know me so well, Toyokawa Shoko! You never, never understood me!"

Matsueda Azusa was already in a bad mood after just blowing up Group C. He had barely diverted some of his attention because of Miura Yumiko's interruption, but when he heard Toyokawa Shoko's blood pressure-raising words, he couldn't hold it back anymore and started to criticize without any hesitation.

As she spoke, Songzhi Zi stepped forward and said, "You said you didn't come here on purpose? Well, I want to see what a young lady like you is buying at this cheap convenience store at this time!"

Toyokawa Shoko panicked and subconsciously stepped back: "Don't come near me!"

But in just a moment, Matsueda Azusa had already seen clearly what was in the bag hidden behind Toyokawa Shoko.

"……Clam?"

Matsueda Azusa frowned deeply, feeling surprised and confused: "Instant bento? You came all the way to the convenience store in Shimokitazawa just to buy instant bento? And at this time, these are already discounted items left over!"

When Shoko Toyokawa heard Matsueda Azusa's doubtful question, the blood instantly drained from her face and turned extremely pale.

Her lips trembled and she almost wanted to turn around and run away immediately.

It was not until then that Matsueda Azusa looked at Toyokawa Shoko in the light of the convenience store.

Only then did he realize that what Toyokawa Shoko wore when she went out was not only the school uniform, but it had even been washed white. Although it was not noticeable without a close look, as long as you looked closely from a close distance, it was not difficult to see the wear and tear on the edges and corners of the uniform.

"What's going on? Are you...are you filming 'The Metamorphosis'? Do you suddenly want to experience life?"

Matsueda Azusa's brows were furrowed, and his mind was filled with thoughts. After subconsciously ruling out the obviously impossible guesses, he was left with only one reason: "No, that's not right... Toyokawa Shoko, you don't seem like someone who would be interested in doing something like this. Could it be that your family... No wonder you suddenly quit Crychic without any warning? Was it because of something like this? I haven't heard of any problems with the Toyokawa family, but..."

“That’s enough!!”

Toyokawa Shoko couldn't stand it any longer and immediately interrupted Matsueda Azusa's speculation, trembling all over: "You are talking to yourself here and speculating about my life. What can you really understand about me?! There should be a limit to your self-righteousness!"

Miura Yumiko was ecstatically enjoying herself while eating melons nearby. This was even better than the 8 o'clock TV series. It even involved a story about a family's decline and overthrow? A down-and-out young lady... a story of love and hatred among the rich!

"Huh? ...You're right, I don't understand you. I never understood what you were thinking from the beginning!"

Matsueda Azusa, who was still wondering whether Toyokawa Shoko had some family changes that forced her to quit Crychic, immediately gave up the idea of ​​making excuses for her when he heard what she said.

Matsueda Azusa chuckled in anger. "Alright, even if you're leaving Crychic for family or financial reasons, we all understand and won't stop you. If you insist, Soyo, Mu, and I...will all help you to the best of our ability."

"If you had just laid it all out and explained it clearly to everyone, everyone would have parted ways amicably, and Crychic wouldn't have fallen to this point... But why did you choose to leave without saying anything, abandoning everyone for no apparent reason?"

To be honest, if it were under normal circumstances, if Matsueda Azusa happened to know the reason why Toyokawa Shoko quit Crychic and her current family situation, she might have thought about it and even cared about her.

But it happened to be the time when Azusa Matsueda and other members of Crychic announced their withdrawal from the group, and Shoko Toyokawa still had such a bad attitude. How could Azusa Matsueda still be nice to her? She immediately chose to break up with her without hesitation.

"Everyone is going to help me?! Songzhi Zi, you really are so high and mighty!"

Toyokawa Shoko was deeply hurt by Matsueda Azusa's words, and her innermost thoughts blurted out without thinking: "What can you do to help me? What's the point of me telling you? Do you want me to have pity on you? I don't need your charity at all! I can handle all this even if I'm alone - the weak me in the past is dead!"

"Don't act so righteous! Toyokawa Shoko, aren't you just a selfish person who only thinks about yourself?"

Songzhi Zi refuted without hesitation: "You don't want to be pitied, you don't want to be given charity - you don't want to be hurt by other people's kindness, is that a reason for you to hurt others with malice?! You didn't tell me the truth and broke up with me abruptly, but Deng has always blamed himself for your sudden departure and has been living a life full of self-blame. Su Shi has put the entire focus of his life on finding you and has completely lost himself..."

"Everyone is stuck in the past because of you, and yet you want to walk into the future alone?! And you still claim to be self-respecting and independent, and that you don't need charity from others? You're simply a completely selfish bastard! Toyokawa Shoko!"

70

Chapter 70 Can you bear the responsibility of other people’s lives?

"Matsueda Azusa, you bastard!"

Toyokawa Shoko was struck so hard by Matsueda Azusa's words that she was trembling with anger, her eyes reddening. She could no longer maintain her indifferent expression and angrily retorted, "I don't need you to judge my actions!"

"Toyokawa Shoko, you're the bastard! Not only are you a bastard, you're also an illogical, selfish bastard!"

Songzhi Zi just thought it was ridiculous, and without thinking, he retorted: "I can't comment on what you did? Why can't I! Who do you think you hurt?! Since you hurt others, you should be prepared to be hurt by others!"

Toyokawa Shoko gritted her teeth: "I..."

Songzhi Zi didn't even give her a chance to explain herself and interrupted her directly: "What do you mean by 'you'? You're not still trying to say you didn't hurt anyone, are you? You're a fool with a pathetic sense of pride. You love to endure hardship without suffering, and you'd rather hurt those closest to you to make your life more difficult!"

Yumiko Miura, who was standing next to her, was so excited. It was so exciting! Matsueda Azusa really went all out this time, and she was using 1000% of her aggressiveness.

"That's enough! What's the point of saying so many accusations? You and I can't understand each other. You don't understand my current situation at all!"

Toyokawa Shoko clenched her fists and stamped her feet, her face flushing from Matsueda Azusa's aggressiveness. She vented her emotions, "That sounds nice. You can help me to the best of your ability... But what kind of heart do you have when you say that? You're just students. Do you think you can shoulder the responsibility of someone else's life?! If you can't do it, then don't say such irresponsible things! It's all talk, everyone. Don't take my hypocritical politeness seriously!"

A sharp remark created a moment of peace, but it was immediately followed by an even more violent storm.

"Why can't you do it?! Don't just assume that others can't do it and think they're just bragging and being hypocritical! What on earth do you think your lover and companion are?"

Matsueda Azusa was so angry at Toyokawa Shoko's incoherent words that she trembled all over. She clenched her teeth and asked in extreme disappointment and confusion: "Why can't I bear the burden of your life? What do you think the purpose of a partner is? If we are to spend our lives together, then aren't your life problems my life problems? Aren't those things we need to solve something together? Or have you never considered me as someone you can be with for the rest of your life, but just a toy to temporarily entertain you?"

"What do you think of everyone in the band? You were the one who uttered the phrase 'community of shared destiny'! Do you even understand what 'community of shared destiny' means? It's about supporting each other and being companions who will spend their lives together! If that's the case, tell me! Why can't we shoulder the responsibility of your life?"

"In the final analysis, you were the one who talked about the concept of a community with a shared future, and you were the one who brought everyone together to form a big family. But you were also the one who believed the term 'community with a shared future' the least! You were also the one who treated the family we all built together as a joke the most! No matter how nice your words were, in your heart you just treated Crychic as a toy for young ladies to play house with! You, Shoko Toyokawa—the founder of Crychic, are actually the most cold-blooded person in Crychic."

Matsueda Azusa took a deep breath, looked directly into Toyokawa Shoko's eyes, and finally concluded, "You're a rotten person who mistakes selfishness for self-respect and self-abuse for self-improvement. It's about time you woke up!"

"Snapped!"

Shoko Toyokawa could no longer bear Matsueda Azusa's scolding, tears welled up in her eyes, and she subconsciously waved her hand to slap Matsueda Azusa, but was caught by Matsueda Azusa who was on guard.

"What do you know? What on earth do you know?! What's the point of saying these easy-to-understand words?"

Toyokawa Shoko collapsed and tried to pull her hand back. Breaking down by Matsueda Azusa's words, she could no longer hold back and confided her inner distress: "Every day when I open my eyes, I can't see my future. I don't know how I'm going to live! I'm about to be crushed by the pressure of life, but these problems can only be solved by myself! I can't rely on you to solve my life problems, and I don't want you to solve my problems for me!"

"What on earth can I do?! Continue to form a band with you guys as if nothing happened? You guys can go home happily after practice and performance, but I can only return to the reality of having nothing, racking my brains to find my next job, how to make a living, and how long it will take me to pay off these damn debts! You don't understand! We are completely different people!"

Matsueda Azusa let go of Toyokawa Shoko's hand and looked at her coldly: "So, you didn't listen to what I said just now. You still live in your own world, building a thick shell to bind yourself and reject everything from the outside world - you are just tying yourself up in knots!"

"You take others' desire to help you as alms and pity from a superior being, and you can't accept it and try to avoid it... Toyokawa Shoko, you are the most self-righteous person!"

"A guy who's always giving me trouble once said something to me, and I'm going to tell you this now: If the feeling of helping others is simply described as condescending pity, then there's no salvation in this world!"

Songzhi Zi said word by word: "If you had not chosen to escape, then the help I and everyone at Crychic would have given you would have been out of love, not pity, and certainly not charity!"

"Whether or not you think others are superior is a purely subjective idea. The only possible reason you think so is...when you help others, it's out of a sense of superiority, so you extend your feelings to them and assume that others are just like you."

"If you still have a shred of conscience, if you still have a shred of friendship or guilt towards everyone... you should explain to them in person why you left Crychic and apologize! Instead of wallowing in self-pity and treating yourself like the most miserable person in the world, thinking you're truly proud and confident that you can still support yourself in such a desperate situation!"

Toyokawa Shoko loudly interrupted Matsueda Azusa's scolding, clenching the bag in her hand, "You...you don't understand at all! Stop making meaningless accusations here. You are not me at all! How can you possibly understand my pain!"

Having said that, she didn't give Matsueda Azusa a chance to respond. She turned around with tears in her eyes and fled from here in a very embarrassed manner.

Because she ran too fast, Shoko Toyokawa accidentally tripped and almost fell to the ground. The plastic bag in her hand had a hole in it, and the instant lunch box fell to the ground, and the food in the lunch box was mixed up.

But she was reluctant to throw the lunch boxes away, so she could only squat down in humiliation, hurriedly pack up the lunch boxes, hold them in her arms and run away.

Matsueda Azusa looked at Toyokawa Shoko's back as she left in a panic. Unexpectedly, he thought he would feel sorry for her, but he didn't.

He did not feel pity for Toyokawa Shoko at all, but instead felt a deep sadness.

Sadness for myself.

Why is it that the more heartless, the less caring, and the less sincere someone is, the more unforgettable they are, and why would they give up everything they have now to go back to the past?

Instead, the one who dedicated everything and poured all his efforts into it ended up being deserted by everyone and no one cared about him?

Is it a human problem, or is there something wrong?

Is the way to control a relationship to not be sincere, and the way to maintain a relationship to leave at will?

if it is like this……

"Awesome! You're invincible, Songzhi."

Miura Yumiko was cracking melon seeds while exclaiming in amazement, "What on earth did your ex-girlfriend do to deserve such an outrageous fate? She must have done something sinful in her past life."

Matsueda Azusa came back to her senses from her anger and confusion.

He gazed at the empty street with a sense of loss and sighed deeply.

Miura Yumiko waved her hand in front of his eyes: "What's wrong? Do you regret it?"

"You're kidding! How could I possibly regret it? If I were to regret something like this, I might as well just put myself in a tortoise shell. If you ask me, she deserves it."

Matsueda Azusa reached out to release Miura Yumiko's dangling hand, barely managing to calm himself down. He shook his head and sighed, "Thinking back then, I was such a kind and friendly boy, with a pure heart and a friendly attitude. If it weren't for her, even Hayato Hayama, known for his sunny and cheerful demeanor, would have been nothing more than a defeated opponent in front of me, just an ordinary person born in an era without me!"

"I give in. Just keep talking nonsense."