The goal of life is to break up all couples

"Even if I continue playing in a band, I'm sure... I'll still fail. Bands... are so annoying."

Hearing this, Matsueda Azusa breathed a sigh of relief.

So that's how it is. Looks like it was just a misunderstanding.

If you don't want to join a band, then don't join it, just don't look like one.

Even Matsueda Azusa himself doesn't think blindly joining a band is a good idea. Given Takamatsu's personality, if he continues to join a band, he might get hurt even more. If he really becomes a floor lamp, there's no way to recover.

Besides…Matsueda Azusa also had a part to play in turning Xiaodeng into Xiaoxideng. On the day Crychic fell apart, he had also said some harsh words to Takamatsudeng, so he really had no right to persuade her now.

So, it is better to leave this matter to professionals.

Takamatsu Deng looked at Matsueda Azusa nervously, as if he was worried that he would also persuade him to continue playing in the band or something - however, although he was worried, he couldn't help but feel a little bit of anticipation in his heart.

Maybe she was actually hoping that someone could persuade her to return to the band.

But that person is most likely not Matsueda Azusa.

"That's okay."

Matsueda Azusa simply waved his hand. "It's no big deal. If you don't want to play in a band, then don't play. It's fine to find something else to do. Why do you have to stick with the band until the end?"

Takamatsu Deng was a little surprised. He didn't expect Matsueda Azusa to say that.

She subconsciously asked back: "Then... Zi, are you still playing in a band?"

Songzhi Zi also answered subconsciously: "Uh, still playing."

……

The atmosphere suddenly became awkward.

On the one hand, I seemed to be very casual and told others that it was okay not to play in a band, but when I asked, I found out that I was still in a band...

A little awkward.

Gao Songdeng quickly realized what Matsueda Azusa meant by these words - of course, she only thought that this was what Matsueda Azusa thought - she said dejectedly: "Azusa... do you also think I'm not suitable for playing in a band? I'm sorry... As expected, the band's disbandment was all my fault. It was all my fault that everyone..."

"Ugh……"

Matsueda Azusa scratched his head helplessly. "Didn't I tell you all? As for Deng, you can just assume it's all my fault for the band's disbanding. If I have to say, apart from me and Li Xi, no one else is responsible. There's no need for you to keep hurting yourself with this matter."

Gao Songdeng pinched the corner of his clothes tightly. "Although Zi said so, I know... Xiangzi also said when he left Crychic that I was the one who needed the most practice... The previous performance failed because of me... Mingming, it was all my fault..."

“No one says you have to overcome what you’re not good at.”

Matsueda Azusa interrupted Takamatsu Deng and shook his head: "Being able to face those annoying and scary things that make you helpless, and working hard to live without avoiding them, I think... that's amazing."

"It doesn't matter if you fail. It doesn't matter if you can't overcome it despite trying your best. That's already amazing enough. Even if you run away, that's okay—that's just not amazing. We don't have to be amazing."

Matsueda Azusa said this casually, and finally stopped talking after realizing what was going on.

Really, it would be fine if he just gave up, but it is too unreasonable for him to openly teach Gao Songdeng the self-consolation method of giving up.

It's okay for people like Yumiko Miura, who are as bad as Matsueda Azusa, to be influenced by bad company, but she must not lead the simple-minded Tomo Takamatsu astray.

Gao Songdeng stared into Songzhi Zi's eyes, as if waiting for him to continue.

Songzhi Zi's gaze shifted for a moment, and he seemed a little guilty.

He sighed, and finally shook his head and said, "Forget it, just pretend I never said anything."

Gao Songdeng was surprised: "Huh?"

"I know. In fact, everyone, including Deng and me, is still stuck in the fear of the past."

Matsueda Azusa was silent for a long moment before finally finding his words. He looked Takamatsu Deng in the eye and continued, "I'm worried I'll repeat the same mistakes, always dwelling on the past. Even when I've made up my mind to move forward, I still stumble."

"You'd want to cry, wouldn't you? You'd be tired of facing countless setbacks, wouldn't you? But you also know there's no excuse. These setbacks are all your own fault, and all you can do is regret. If you could escape, I'd probably do it regardless..."

Matsueda Azusa looked away and sighed. "We're all like this, constantly lost on the road of life, not knowing where the next road will lead, or which path we really want to take... Because the paths we've taken in the past have been too painful, we can't help but fear the unknown."

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Chapter 211 Oh, why is Songzhi Zi so bad!

Listening to Matsueda Azusa's words, Takamatsu Deng clasped his hands tightly together and looked up at him.

She feels just as Matsueda Azusa said, she clearly can't let go of the past, but she is afraid of being hurt, and even more afraid of hurting others because of herself. She can't make a decision and doesn't know what to do next, so she can only keep running away.

So, hearing Matsueda Azusa express her feelings, Takamatsu Deng couldn't help but feel a glimmer of hope from the bottom of his heart - maybe he could give an answer? A course of action that could be taken in this situation?

But she was destined to be disappointed. Because even Matsueda Azusa herself didn't know what to do and what the correct way to deal with it was, so how could he possibly teach her?

Songzhi Zi spread his hands and said, "But maybe life is just like this."

"?"

Gao Songdeng's hopeful eyes turned blank.

He had originally intended to offer some kind of persuasive advice to Gao Songdeng, but as he spoke, he finally returned to his original intention. It couldn't be helped; it seemed he wasn't born to be a life mentor.

"Life is essentially one big 'failure'. Everyone is constantly experiencing ups and downs... It's impossible to make perfect choices, and it's impossible to create a world where no one gets hurt."

In the end, Matsueda Azusa didn't bother to hide her pessimism. "Because no matter what I do, it will hurt others. If I don't hurt others, I'm hurting myself. So I'm always hesitant. I feel like I can't do this anymore, I shouldn't stay here... But it doesn't really matter, right?"

"Actually, we're all the same. We hate it, but we still try our best to endure it, and in the end, we still get hurt. So... in the end, it doesn't matter if you hate yourself for wanting to do something but not wanting to do it because you hate it."

"Because...in reality, no one cares. Or rather, no matter how much you struggle, expectations will always be unmet. No matter what you think, whether it's anticipation or fear, the outcome is always there. So the pain and worry now don't matter. Even if you might regret it or get hurt, but..."

When he said this, Matsueda Azusa himself was stunned.

These words sound... so similar to the advice Jing Qinrencai had given him before?

Obviously, he couldn't help but feel resistance in his heart at that time, but now he even said such words subconsciously.

Did he think the same thing? He just didn't realize it...

Songzhi Zi couldn't help but hold his forehead. Really, he was still the same. He clearly wanted to do whatever he wanted, but in the end he couldn't help but subconsciously worry about this and that.

So, aside from Toyokawa Shoko, who's truly selfish enough to abandon everyone else and do whatever he wants, all the other guys from Crychic have such quirky personalities. Even when they try to be bad, they're not completely bad, which is a real failure. No wonder Toyokawa Shoko gathered them together to form a band; they're all just amazing people.

In that case, let him be the bad guy thoroughly.

Gao Songdeng looked at Songzhi Zi, who suddenly held his forehead helplessly while talking, and was stunned for a long time before asking cautiously: "Zi, what's wrong?"

Matsueda Azusa came to his senses, his eyes became sharp, and he slapped Takamatsu Deng's shoulder hard with one hand.

Gao Songdeng was frightened by Songeda Azusa, but he didn't know what was wrong with him.

"Lights, sing."

Matsueda Azusa suddenly gave the order.

Gao Songdeng was stunned: "Huh?"

Songzhi Zi continued to make trouble: "Deng, sing!"

"No, no... I can't do this."

Although Gao Songdeng didn't know why Songeda Azusa did this, she still lowered her head and said, "Singing... I can't..."

As she said this, she subconsciously wanted to continue running away.

But Matsueda Azusa had anticipated this and immediately reached out and grabbed her wrist tightly, preventing her from escaping.

As expected, preaching and acting as a life mentor is not suitable for him at all. He should be a bad guy and solve problems in his own way.

It doesn't matter if you hate him or hurt others, he can do whatever he wants anyway!

Seeing Gao Songdeng's aggrieved and tearful eyes, Song Zhizi didn't show any mercy and even threatened him viciously: "If you don't sing, I will be disappointed. Once I'm disappointed, I will be sad. Being sad is like being hurt. So if you don't sing, you are hurting me! So, if I am hurt, it's all your fault! Because you don't sing!"

Ah, that feels good.

It's really fun to bully the little penguin with nonsense.

Matsueda Azusa became more and more convinced that he was a jerk.

Gao Songdeng's eyes became mosquito-repellent, and circles began to swirl in her eyes - what should she do now? If she continued to sing, it would definitely hurt others, but if she didn't sing now, she would disappoint Songzhi Zi... But no matter what, she couldn't sing now...

What should I do...

"I...I can't sing..."

Gao Songdeng lowered his head and sobbed in grievance.

"Don't cry. If you cry, I'll cry in front of you."

Matsueda Azusa continued to make unreasonable demands: "Do you want to make me cry too?"

Gao Songdeng's tears were instantly held back.

She looked at Songzhi Zi pitifully: "I won't cry, Zi, don't cry."

Oh no, why is it so fun to bully Xiao Deng?

Songzhi Zi nodded: "Then sing quickly."

Gao Songdeng pinched the corner of his clothes with grievance and whispered: "The songs I can sing, Zi doesn't like. I can't sing any other songs."

You mean Kasuga Shadow?

She still remembered the time when she sang "Spring Shadow" on stage and the band exploded in the audience.

Well, that’s right. No one would forget such a heavyweight thing so easily.

"This is easy, just follow my lead."

Matsueda Azusa touched his chin and tilted his head to think about it.

Songzhi Songzhi, Crychic's Spring Shadow is really nice to listen to, but it still requires too much skill. Are there any simpler and more beautiful songs you can recommend?

Yes, brothers, yes! Of course there are more than one such good songs.

A song suddenly popped up in Matsueda Azusa's mind, but he wasn't sure if it could be called a song.

Facing Gao Songdeng's gaze, Song Zhizi took a deep breath and sang loudly: "Inspiration mushroom, mushroom, mushroom, scratch, inspiration mushroom~ inspiration mushroom~"

This shout not only made Gao Songdeng look surprised and doubtful, it also attracted the attention of the surrounding tourists - after all, this was a public place, and if someone suddenly howled something inexplicable, it would be hard not to be curious, right?

Looking at Gao Songdeng who was standing there in a daze, Song Zhizi urged him, "Sing! Sing faster!"

Under the oppression of the evil pine branches, Takamatsu Deng sang in a low and stumbling voice out of helplessness.

"The sound is too quiet! I can't hear it at all!"

Songzhi Zi commanded with great momentum: "Louder! Is this the attitude you should take when singing?"

Gao Songdeng hesitated for a while, but still did not disobey Songzhi Zi's coercion, and had to increase the volume.

"Louder! You want to be the lead singer when you're so quiet?! Do it again!"

Songzhi Zi put his hands on his hips and continued to yell: "Don't look away!"

Gao Songdeng held his breath, clenched his fists, closed his eyes and sang loudly: "Inspiration, mushroom, mushroom, mushroom, scratch, inspiration, mushroom~ inspiration, mushroom~"

Songzhi Zi nodded with satisfaction: "Very good! Very energetic!"

Gao Songdeng breathed a sigh of relief after hearing this.

But before she could relax for long, she heard Matsueda Azusa say loudly: "It's not over yet! Join me, let's sing together! 3, 2, 1!"

Takamatsu Deng had no choice but to continue singing according to Matsueda Azusa's instructions, but as he sang, he found that Matsueda Azusa didn't say a word at all.

She looked at Songzhi Zi in confusion, but heard him answer confidently: "I am singing with you silently in my heart! Don't be afraid, keep singing!"

Oh my god, why is Songzhi Zi so bad!

When Chihaya Aine finally arrived with a group of people, what she saw was Takamatsu Touma singing "Inspiration Mushroom" with all her might in the crowd.

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Chapter 212 Saiaku!

Chihaya Aine was thrown into confusion for a moment.

She couldn't help but rub her eyes.

Wait, she was so anxious looking for someone that she accidentally fell to the ground and passed out from the injury. Is she dreaming now?

If that's the case, it makes sense.

She squeezed her arm hard.