The social phobia substitute will not dream of the band girl

But she didn't care, she just smiled naturally, emitting charming colors as usual.

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The power of his smile was so terrifying that Ping Xin suddenly wanted to gasp. Then the woman across from him realized that despite the combined power of being a Yan Country traverser and an East Country high school student, this ordinary, embarrassing underage male had completely avoided the attack by looking left and right. Fortunately, she had never cared, at least until she discovered his identity.

"Why do you come here?"

The conversation resumed, but this time the male protagonist didn't dodge the subject. Beneath his thick bangs were eyes filled with genuine emotion, and not being evasive was the best he could do.

"...Maybe it's because I want to be by your side."

It's strange to say, but normally Asuka Hirayama is supposed to be an introvert, perhaps even a bit socially anxious. It's unlikely he would say something like this to a beautiful... gorgeous? In short, a wonderful woman like her on their first meeting. It's like a high school student being led by the nose by teenage hormones, isn't it?

*Wake up! Have you been bewitched by women? Have you forgotten the Soul of Steel?!

The image of a white duck wearing a red headband and black sunglasses flashed through his mind and was forgotten in the blink of an eye. Ping Xin said, "I'm sorry for being born as a human, but I'll dare to do it again next time!"

However, I must convey my thoughts to her, even if it's just for the sake of the agreement...

Agreement?

Who did I make an appointment with?

Could he, who had betrayed his friends twice and left to live alone, also have that kind of thing?

"......What's wrong?"

Is she smiling? He didn't know. Ping Xin couldn't see her face clearly, but she was probably smiling, because she always smiled in front of him.

"No, nothing, just..."

Ah, I still couldn't see her clearly. That's right, it was just a dream after all... Ping Xin suddenly felt lost, as if something important had slipped through his fingers. Before those cyan eyes, he couldn't even utter the lies he usually uttered. The word "nothing" clung to his chest, making his already weakened body from a long illness feel unwell.

But there are some things that cannot be left unsaid, just as there are some things that cannot be left unsaid.

"...Do you want to go?" Ping Xin asked.

"Eh?"

Obviously, the other party was very surprised, even though she couldn't see her face.

"If you want to know what's on Mars, then let's go see it for ourselves. We'll go together."

"Hmm...but it's quite far, right? And how are we going to get there with just two of us?"

This feeling was very strange. She was usually the freest and most willful of the four, but she couldn't gain any advantage in front of him. Even her usual riddles and jokes were taken advantage of by him.

"So, what then?"

"Eh?"

"Which way do you want to go or not?"

It was like a sick tiger lying on a boulder opening its eyes, or an old warrior grasping his weapon from the past. At that moment, his aura was as strong as his father's bravery. In his past and present lives, he had only two things to hold on to:

One is music and the other is myself.

"Self-realization" is a vague, yet profound, yet deeply personal term, yet it has accompanied Hei Xin throughout his past life. Whether it was the realization of fate's unfairness in elementary school or the subsequent pain and suffering he endured in school, life, and the workplace, nothing could bring this man back.

In his free time, he would watch popular anime and play popular games, but it was just for entertainment and he would not spend any money. However, he would also take time out from his busy work to read books and enrich himself. There was a line that he liked very much - Whatever does not destroy me will only make me stronger.

In that lonely summer, a teenage boy learned not superficial self-consolation but absolute rebellion, absolute conviction, and absolute self-identity. This sentence didn't become a dark history like the painful and dark literature on social media, but instead permeated his life, transforming him from a fearless young man into a reckless and ruthless man. So—

He was angry.

This person before him, this girl, must be very similar to him. Just as talented, just as unique, but she had a better upbringing than her orphan. She must have had mentors, helpful friends, a strict father, and a loving mother. Perhaps even better, a few childhood sweethearts who could support each other as they progressed together.

But why are you just like me in the past, just as calm, just as light, just as transparent, like the foam on the sea that could disappear at any moment? This man who has devoted his entire short life to fighting with others, with fate, and with himself, and who enjoys the burst of blood and fireworks, cannot understand her -

Rather than jealousy or anger, I feel more sad for her.

Most of the time, Ping Xin is a very rational person, but he also possesses a strong capacity for empathy, which leads to a rather strange phenomenon: he can observe his own fate with a cold, objective analysis, and then come up with the best solution. Even if he's hit by a car, he can lie on the ground and make phone calls to postpone his trip one by one. When he loses a game, he doesn't get upset, but instead constantly reflects on his shortcomings, even watching demos and replaying them to find his mistakes. In short, his mental stability is quite similar to that of a martial arts master scraping his bones to cure poison, while his emotional indifference is like a low-profile Terminator.

Yet, he would weep whenever the storyline got particularly moving, even joining his fellow fans in the cinema in chanting slogans and using props to loudly cheer on Pretty Cure, Giant of Light, and Kamen Rider. At home, he would also roar and unleash his true self while playing his instruments.

His only remaining hobbies and emotions kept him, a fragile being, alive. But what about her? Wasn't there something she wanted to fight for, to the point of burning herself out? The boy, with his slightly self-destructive tendencies, only wanted to see the most beautiful, the best, the most amazing things in the world, forever pursuing that moment of glory until the end of his life.

——What a waste, he wanted to make her burn, make her shine, and make her the brightest first-magnitude star in the world.

"...So, you want to go?"

"...think!"

"Then it's a deal, let's make a pinky promise."

The boy extended his hand and slowly walked towards her. His legs were a little shaky, but it was nothing serious. Bending slightly to lower one's center of gravity was for safety, and there was nothing wrong with that. So, he slowly, step by step, walked towards her.

She smiled.

She remembered, it was "you".

"...Eh?"

Then the girl suddenly slipped and fell backwards as expected.

Ahhh, Ikaros, who pursued supreme glory, must be dead... Ping Xin could foresee that ending.

This climbing frame was less than three stories high, or less than 3 meters. That distance was more than enough to kill someone, given how fragile the human body is. In his previous life, he'd also died in an unclear manner, having fallen into a deep sleep at some point and then waking up to find himself in a nurse's arms. It was like a novel with a broken ending.

Will she die?

Maybe, maybe not. The human body in this world is probably stronger than that in the previous life, so it’s hard to say, but Ping Xin doesn’t want her to die.

So he jumped down -

As we all know, Galileo, known as the "Father of Observational Astronomy", "Father of Modern Physics", "Father of Scientific Method", and "Father of Modern Science", conducted an experiment on free fall on the Leaning Tower of Pisa.

The results of this experiment show that if Ping Xin did not stop in the air like in the funny cartoon, he would never be able to catch her when she fell. But what if he gave himself an initial velocity?

Maybe he would die, because of this ridiculous height, because of a person he met for the first time and didn't even know his name, because of his own fragile body due to long-term illness -

But none of these could be a reason for him to escape. If he escaped here, he would lose, lose his whole life.

Besides, it’s not a loss to exchange one for one, right?

Going back to the source, maybe it wasn't fate but Ping Xin herself that brought her down to earth. In that case, there would be no reason to escape. Of course, the most important reason was that Ping Xin didn't want her to die, absolutely not!

Maybe I can’t catch the stars in the sky, but I can catch you in front of me——

So he jumped down and caught her.

Along with the warmth in his arms, a feeling of falling that made him feel powerless, and a flash of golden light...

He landed.

The dream also ended.

And she, naturally, was nowhere to be seen.

Is everything real?

No.

Is everything false?

Not really.

ps: After writing for so long, my biggest feeling is that everyone really doesn’t listen to advice. I know many people won’t read the rest, so I’m writing it here.

I've acknowledged and specifically pointed out that the writing was poor earlier, and that the content about Bandoli was unbearable for non-true fans, so why is it that no one is listening? Now, because the writing was poor earlier, no one is reading the better part. I'm really distressed and even want to delete the first volume.

So I [implore] everyone here, if you don’t understand the prologue, just skip it. There is nothing explained here in detail, it is just a foreshadowing and suspense creation. After reading the first two chapters of the main film, you can also skip it directly, jump to the beginning of the second volume and read the summary I wrote, and then go back and watch the previous content at your discretion.

Because there are no detailed contents, you don't have to worry about being spoiled. If you want to write a bad review for me after reading it, I will accept it. After all, I am not capable enough.

But can you please stop leaving negative reviews without even reading the real content? I've already told you that the first part is poorly written because it's my first time writing it, so you can skip it and go straight to the next part. I even wrote two chapters of prequels, but no one skipped them, and all I see is a bunch of people commenting on the first part...

Chapter 4000 His Name ()

Following a feeling of falling and the appearance of the golden phantom in memory—

wake up.

As sunlight streamed in through the window, the young man reluctantly rose from his bed. After all, he had made an appointment to visit the school on the first day of school. Although he held a negative attitude towards youth, he had to keep his promise, just like the "faith" in his name.

The young man sat up from the bed, touched the messy hair on his head, and pushed his bangs aside so that he could see everything in the room without any obstruction - the desk, wardrobe, storage cabinet and bed. If the sizes of the wardrobe, storage cabinet and bed were not far beyond the normal level, it would probably be the same as the room of an ordinary high school student.

He rolled over in bed, then reached up with his right hand. After some searching, he finally found the phone he'd left there before bed the previous night. The boy wasn't a heavy phone addict, either in his past life or now. Furthermore, smartphones here, unlike in his past life, had only been around a few years, so they weren't enough to satisfy a "foodie" like him who had truly experienced the allure of the internet age.

I forgot to mention - he, Asuka Maheishin, is a time traveler.

To be precise, he should be a reborn person. After all, unlike many of his predecessors, he did not travel through time and space to become a high school boy with a look of 10 or even 9 points. Instead, he was directly "re-cultivated" and reborn in his mother's womb.

The reason he didn't consider possibilities like sneaking across the Naihe Bridge or acquiring antibodies from Mengpo Soup was that this world's trajectory differed from the original. Aside from subtle differences like famous painters, scientists, kings, and knights being women, like the world of a feminized bishoujo game descending upon the real world, there was also the ubiquitous anime-style hair and eye colors. Not only were people's looks generally high, but even the gender ratio was slightly different from his previous life. Based on his own experience, the young people he met were surprisingly overwhelmingly female, which was truly puzzling.

Their cool looks, which looked like they were created after 3 hours of shaping, made ordinary boys with black hair and dark eyes envious. Why was he still so ordinary after traveling through time?

Aside from these "details," the biggest difference between past and present lives, at least from Ping Xin's perspective, is that Yan Country and Dong Country have actually formed an alliance to confront foreign enemies, especially when targeting a certain beacon of democracy?! This is a complete surprise, even shocking!

Can you translate for me what "fucking surprise" means?

Considering that 2000 years ago, the two countries were likely still at a stage of mutual dissatisfaction, each struggling to find a solution to its economic problems, how did they reconcile? Not only did they reconcile, but they even reached comprehensive strategic cooperation. It seems that around 1990, relations suddenly improved, and various cooperation initiatives began to flourish. Could it be that the world leaders were collectively hypnotized at the end of the world?

The relationship between the two countries now appears to be even closer than that of close buddies, which is really unimaginable. In the past life, if someone dared to propose such an if line, he would definitely be sent to the level of a moron to be worshipped by others.

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However, these events occurred before he was born, so once he got used to them, it wasn't completely unacceptable. After all, his father in this life was from Yan Country, and his mother was a true Eastern Country lady, the epitome of a Yamato Nadeshiko. They even eloped and married abroad, which was incredibly romantic. And as their only child, Hiranobu couldn't deny the parents he'd always wanted in his past life, could he?

Furthermore, perhaps due to the butterfly effect of the strategic alliance, the growth of "mold" around the world is no longer as ubiquitous and pervasive as it was in the past, where you could find it wherever you saw oil. In short, the world is surprisingly peaceful and developing, and for this reason alone, Ping Xin would not arbitrarily deny the alliance between the two countries.

Long live peace!

In this life, as a child, he had imagined relying on cheat codes, systems, or even beautiful old men in rings (?), like in the novels he'd read on some website or the anime he'd seen on some shabby website. But as time passed, that thought faded. The care and love he'd only felt from the orphanage's old director in his previous life, he now received from so many different people, and that was enough for Ping Xin.

After all, he is the type who prefers to rely on his own hard work rather than rely on some unknown power to achieve his goals. The power of the plug-in may disappear suddenly or a mission to eliminate him may be issued. In the final analysis, he is the most reliable.

Fortunately, aside from the gender-swapped, effeminate great man and the aforementioned strategic partnership between Yan and Dong, the historical trajectory remains largely the same as in the previous life. While the technological level is higher than in the previous life, the entertainment industry is actually inferior. It's that Stark Industries across the ocean and the familiar names of that family of three that always make me feel a little uneasy...

But generally speaking, Ping Xin has achieved some success in this life thanks to the knowledge, skills and foresight accumulated in his previous life. Overall, he is still very satisfied. He is so satisfied that he would be very happy and satisfied if his life could continue to be so ordinary.

At the age of 13, he was bedridden for about a year and a half due to a strange disease of unknown cause, which made his still-growing body weak and powerless. To this day, he is very concerned about his height that stopped growing prematurely, and it has even become a taboo among some people.

After his body gradually recovered, he heard the bad news again, which dealt him another severe blow. The series of misfortunes turned him from a soft man indulging in the gentleness of this life back to the flat-headed man who was angry with everything in his previous life. The more difficult life is and the heavier the shackles of fate are, the more he must rise up and resist!

But in this life he is no longer a bachelor, so he has to think carefully before taking action, and not always think about the suicide truck tactics of "turning my broken body into a raging fire" or "one for one, no loss, one for a group, huge profit".

This is Ping Xin, a shameful time traveler without any cheats, a poor man who once had happiness and then lost it, a warrior who swore to protect this home even at the cost of his life!

But, I'll touch it today...

The person who had just been praised immediately decided to start fighting. After all, fighting and killing is not as comfortable as just eating and waiting for death. The property left by his parents remained largely untouched. After all, with the large dividends from his foresight in his previous life and the income from plagiarizing and composing his own songs on YouTube, the brother and sister could live a peaceful life even if they did nothing in the future.

I, Pingxin, worked hard all my life in my previous life, so can't I enjoy myself in this life?

Then play music and then dance!

Ahem, anyway, Ping Xin is a person who is very strict with himself but surprisingly easy to satisfy. Now he wants to see the sequel of his dream more than going to school——

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Dream, reproduction!

"...I better set the alarm. After all, I made an appointment with 'Hour' to visit the school today. But...as long as I go, it'll be fine, right?"

Using the adult's dirty excuse, Pingxin's credibility immediately dropped by 50%. He struggled on the bed for a long time, his consciousness hazy, but the actual amount of movement was less than the splashing water. Finally, he rolled over on the bed and pulled the phone off the bedside table with his little hand.

It was nothing, just numbness in his hands. Maintaining one action for a long time was known to be very tiring, especially when holding one's hands up, and even more so for a patient as frail as him.

After entering the password to unlock the screen saver, Ping Xin once again pushed aside his loose bangs and checked the time.

Wow, it’s only 30 minutes, I can still sleep a little longer...

After 3 seconds, the boy failed in his somersault and rolled off the bed. Fortunately, he was protected by the carpet and landed safely. Except for the unsightly posture, everything was normal... What the hell!

Why 10:30? He should have set the alarm for 7:30!

For a lazy and weak boy, the first point in choosing a school is that it should be close to home. The school start time of Dongguk Middle School is 8 o'clock in the morning, and it only takes him less than 10 minutes to walk to Shengxiang Middle School. He even has enough time to eat, play with cats and walk dogs while walking. Compared with the experience of going to school at 6 o'clock in the morning for early reading in his previous life, this is a very healthy experience.

But I'm late anyway...why not just...skip?

The boy's inner darkness urged him to make a desperate decision. This was understandable, considering Hirayukobu's memories of school in both of his previous lives weren't particularly fond, and the childhood trauma he suffered in his previous life shaped his avoidant personality, which still affects him today. This perfectly embodies the saying, "Happy people use their childhood to heal their entire lives, while unfortunate people use their entire lives to heal their childhood."

Poor Pingxin was "blessed" in his previous life but is still paying off his debts in this life. He doesn't know whether it is a real or fake one. He doesn't even know how he "left" his previous life and how he came to this life. He is really like a black-hearted product that is sold as inferior quality goods.