Am I being simulated by their love affair?

"Blue and purple irises are a dream"

It was still daytime outside the window, but the sunlight in the classroom had dimmed.

"Let's all go down in secret, go down in secret"

“Clear, kind, and tactful”

“I don’t know what to forgive, but I truly feel that everything in the world can be forgiven.”

The classroom was shrouded in a silent atmosphere, with relief, sighs, and a hint of bitterness and sweetness in the heart.

"You read very well. Don't be distracted next time." The middle-aged teacher suddenly remembered something and forgave him.

Jun Matsueda sat down and saw Tomatsu Tomoka putting her hands in front of her and clapping silently.

Okay, okay, Jun Matsueda looked at the words "Mu Xin" on the book and, considering that we are both Chinese, I will give you some face.

The four classes in the morning were all taught by middle-aged men, which did not leave any impression on Jun Matsueda's smooth brain, and lunch break soon came.

Matsueda Jun returned the lunch box that Tomatsu Yuka had left at his apartment and asked, "Do you want to have lunch with me, Tomatsu-san?"

Mizushima Miya sat at her seat and ate her bento, swallowing her inner surprise along with the rice into her stomach.

Jun Matsueda never invited anyone to dinner.

Tomatsu Tomoka followed Matsueda Jun out the back door and passed by Mizushima Miya's seat. She patted Tomatsu Tomoka's hand and whispered, "Tomoka, keep going."

The girl walked out the door without looking back. When she turned around, she waved to Mizushima Miya to show that she received it.

In the classroom next door, Mochizuki Haruka was surrounded by her friends. She watched the two people pass by the window and put away her smile.

Jun Matsueda asked Tomatsu Tomoka to go to the rooftop first, and he would follow.

Tomatsu Tomoka slowly opened the iron gate, and the hot wind with the chirping of cicadas blew in her face. She found a shady place, put her handkerchief under her and sat down.

Alone, listening to the noisy chirping of cicadas and watching the contrails, the joy of being invited disappeared and uneasiness gradually spread. She put the lunch box on the ground and hugged her knees.

Tomatsu Tomoka hates waiting. For the past 17 years, waiting has never brought good results. On the day her family of three was torn apart, she sat on her bed in the same way, waiting for the quarrels and insults outside the room to die down, and ultimately, she waited for destruction.

There is always something terrible waiting for me ahead, she buried her face in her knees.

"There's a long line at the convenience store." Someone finally showed up. "Sorry, I didn't expect the rooftop to be so hot."

Jun Matsueda held the bag in one hand and fanned himself with the other.

"That's why no one goes to the rooftop, it's very quiet. The summer sky also makes people feel comfortable." Tomatsu Tomoka raised her head, patted the shadow beside her, and motioned Matsueda Jun to sit down.

Without hesitation, Jun Matsueda sat beside her and took out bread and milk from the bag.

"Why didn't Jun-kun bring his lunch box?" Tomatsu Tomoka had wanted to ask this question for a long time.

"Because I don't like cold food, and I don't like stale food."

Tomatsu Tomoka turned her head to the side, and the ends of her long hair fell on Matsueda Jun's right hand, feeling itchy.

If it's you, I'm willing to wait until you feel that everything in the world can be forgiven.

After lunch, Tomatsu Tomoka took a cup of water to the bathroom to rinse her mouth, while Matsueda Jun leaned on the railing and drank milk.

The girl returned to the rooftop, walked over to him, and without saying a word, they looked at the scenery together.

"Tomatsu-san, tell me about the system."

Taking advantage of the girl's sensitive and fragile mind, he wanted to get all the information he wanted to know.

When he heard the word "system", Tomatsu Tomoka's overwhelmed heart trembled again.

Chapter 6: Beasts

The clouds in summer are always tall, big, and thick, floating leisurely in the sky.

The girl said that the system now has only two functions. One is to show Jun Matsueda's affection for her, provided that there is direct physical contact, not through clothing, and for more than 5 seconds; the other is to let her dream.

Jun Matsueda asked, and when he carried Tomatsu Tomoka to the infirmary, his favorability was updated and showed 0.

Well, it appears to be true.

As for the dream, Matsueda Jun naturally asked about it, and Tomatsu Yuka simply said that it was a future simulated by the system, but it was different from reality. He thought about it and realized that the system might be simulating a future in which he activated the system and actively approached the girl. In the game's terms, this was the "if" scenario.

The girl didn't tell him the details, but just gave him a bitter smile.

"It's not reality anyway, so why should I care?"

When the girl finished speaking, Matsueda Jun turned to her and put one hand on the railing.

"Tomatsu-san, I actually want to apologize to you."

"First, I bugged you when you left my house. But you also followed me, otherwise there wouldn't be photos of me drinking with you. In that respect, we're both guilty."

"Secondly, I can't accept your mistaken love."

"...What do you mean by a mistaken love?" The girl's voice trembled as she took a step forward, her body almost touching Matsueda Jun's. Her hands were small, but they tightly grasped Matsueda Jun's collar.

The current posture is a bit dangerous. Jun Matsueda is still leaning on the railing. If Tomatsu Tomoka suddenly exerts force, they might both fall down.

The next day, the news of the high school couple committing suicide will spread throughout Tokyo.

"Because Tomatsu Tomoka doesn't like me, she just likes the Matsueda Jun in her dream." Matsueda Jun was very calm. If the girl made any dangerous move, he would subdue her immediately.

This was the conclusion Jun Matsueda had drawn from his previous life. The system required him to be gentle and considerate, putting girls first. He could transform into the person each girl liked and understand their innermost thoughts, but that wasn't the real him.

"Who is Tomatsu Tomoka you are talking about?!" the girl roared, her voice breaking with hysteria.

Jun Matsueda had never seen Tomatsu Tomoka so angry.

"Did I say I like you in my dreams?! Are you talking to me?"

"I don't know who made you misunderstand this, but I'm telling you now—"

"I like you! The Jun Matsueda who wears a perfect mask at school! The Jun Matsueda who is special only in front of me! The contrasting and sinister Jun Matsueda!"

"I won't fall in love with someone just because of a dream! Don't underestimate my feelings!"

After venting her anger, Tomatsu Tomoka punched Matsueda Jun in the chest.

He didn't fall. Even though the girl was angry, her fist was soft and there was no pain at all.

"Matsueda Jun, I'm very angry. Your words were so hurtful."

It seems that there is no need to consider forgiveness anymore, Jun Matsueda thought, how should he explain to Mizushima that they broke up.

"So can we consider ourselves even? I hurt you, and you hurt me." Tomatsu Tomoka's eyes were red, filled with anger and aggrievedness, yet with a hint of girlish cuteness.

"I forgive you, Chun-jun, can you give me a chance to forgive me?"

This is Tomatsu Tomoka, a girl who appears to be always calm and elegant in front of others. Her long black hair reaches her waist, and she wore a white dress to the opening ceremony, purer than a boy's first love. Her smile is always reserved, and you can only see the seven parts of her gentleness that she is willing to show you, and no matter how hard you try, you can't taste the three parts of sweetness that she hides.

Two months into the school term, Matsueda Jun had seen her smile countless times, smiles no one else had ever seen. A smile of joy, a shy smile, a bitter smile, a smirk with narrowed eyes. He had watched the sunset with her fourteen times, fifteen times. He had also seen her weep miserably, her face stained with tears and snot, her face begging humbly.

She originally wanted to easily control Jun Matsueda, but in the end she ended up sucking his fingers obsessively.

She doesn't even ask for forgiveness, but for a chance.

Love makes perseverance lose patience and grace abandon dignity.

What a terrifying power! Jun Matsueda looked at the sun obscured by clouds.

"One, I don't want to encounter rumors like this again. Please control yourself."

"Second, don't try to use the system to spy on me or pursue me. Relying on cheating to understand other people's hearts is what I hate the most."

Tomatsu Tomoka didn't say anything, but just nodded continuously, like a fanatic who had been forgiven.

However, Jun Matsueda continued.

"I can't possibly forgive you like this, Tomatsu-san. Forgiveness isn't something that comes easily."

"Didn't you say we wanted to be friends forever?"

"Didn't you say you would never betray me no matter what happened?"

Tomatsu Tomoka's shoulders trembled.

"I'd rather we never met."

"I can't trust you like before. As for whether you want to win me back or give up."

"You choose, I don't care."

Jun Matsueda turned his back to Tomoka Tomatsu, watching the shadows of the clouds cast on the teaching building, waiting for the girl's crying to die down.

When the two left the rooftop, they found Wangyue Yao standing in the stairwell behind the door.

Tomatsu Yuka continued walking and disappeared around the corner of the stairs. Matsueda Jun stood in front of Mochizuki Haruka, "Mochizuki-san, eavesdropping is not a good habit."

Mochizuki Haruka had a blank expression on her face, and one hand was playing with the hair scattered on her chest.

"One, I didn't eavesdrop. It's just that the classroom was too noisy, so I came out to find a quiet place. The rooftop is not yours."

"Secondly, the rooftop door is more soundproof than you think. It's just that the scheming woman's yelling was too loud, so it reached my ears."

Listening to her flat voice, Matsueda Jun was a little confused.

"Are you happy?"

"No! It has nothing to do with you!" Mochizuki Haruka turned and left. After walking up a few steps, he saw Tomatsu Tomoka waiting at the corner. The two looked at each other, and Mochizuki Haruka smiled condescendingly.

Mizushima Miya watched Tomatsu Tomoka and Matsueda Jun walk into the classroom together. The lunch break was almost over. Tomatsu Tomoka's face was red and there was some sweat on Matsueda Jun's forehead.

When Tomatsu Tomoka returned to her seat, Mizushima Miya took out her cell phone and sent her a message on Line.

"Did you take care of the pine branches?"

The other party sent an emoticon of a rabbit nodding and shaking its head.

Mizushima typed another line: "You're all like this, and he still hasn't forgiven you?"

The other side sent another puzzled expression from the cat.

"Didn't you do it? Your face is so red and Songzhi is sweating."

The cat's expression is like a boxing cat. Then two sentences follow.

“I just went up to the rooftop.”

“It’s too hot!”

Mizushima Miya imagined the girl's tone in his mind, and it seemed that there was at least a turning point.

Tomatsu Tomoka knew that the best way to win over Matsueda Jun was to get along with him slowly and fall in love with him over time.

But she couldn't wait that long. Even in her first year of high school, many girls had already noticed Jun Matsueda. The longer things went on, the more surprises there were.

In fact, when they first entered school, the girl in the class who had the best relationship with Jun Matsueda was Mizushima Miya. At that time, Tomatsu Tomoka was still waiting for Jun Matsueda to approach her.

Until she saw Matsueda Jun and Mizushima Miya walking together, surrounded by envious eyes.

She could only blame herself for not taking any action and let Tomatsu Tomoka indulge the hunger that burned like a flame in her heart.

This heartache turned the former girl into a ferocious beast that would never let go once it bit.

Tomatsu Tomoka listened to the teacher's explanation and swore in her heart that this was her first and last failure.

Jun Matsueda opened the notebook on the table and wrote down.

Forgiveness is a long and tortuous process.

Chapter 7 After School

The two classes in the afternoon ended quickly.

Jun Matsueda took out his cell phone and checked the time: 15:30.

How cool, he sighed in his heart.

When he was in China, he never left school before sunset.

"Songzhi, come with me to the office." The class teacher, Xiaominato Shengzi, rarely looks for students after school.

Jun Matsueda followed Shoko Kominato and let his thoughts fly in the corridor.

Why did he feel like he was always trailing behind others lately? He stretched out his long legs and surpassed the petite Xiaocou Shengzi in a few steps.

A successful and outstanding person must walk in front of everyone and lead them forward, Jun Matsueda warned himself.

Kominato Shoko watched her student walk in front of her and led her into the office.

"Matsueda, do you want to be a teacher's teacher?" She returned to her seat and sat down. Matsueda Jun did not compete with her.