Am I being simulated by their love affair?

"If that's the case, why would I be the runaway young master of the Mochizuki family?" Matsueda Jun looked up at her.

Mochizuki Haruka's expression was stunned.

Was discovered by him.

Jun Matsueda looked at the panicked girl in front of him.

He was the first boy to come to Mochizuki Haruka's house.

Mochizuki Haruka let him into the bedroom and recalled her childhood in front of him with a soft expression.

The girl may be filled with surprise and shyness, and wants Matsueda Jun to understand her world.

I'm sorry, Sister Hua, Matsueda Jun said in his heart.

Next, I'm going to make your niece sad.

Chapter 38 The Outbreak of Act 3

"How did you find out?"

Mochizuki Haruka listened to her own words like a bystander, and the tone reminded her of the night when Matsueda Jun left in her dream.

"This company is owned by a friend of the dean's grandmother. Mochizuki, remember to have your subordinates do a thorough investigation next time." Matsueda Jun reminded her kindly.

"Thank you for the reminder. I will pay attention next time." Mochizuki Haruka responded expressionlessly.

"So, Mochizuki Haruka-san, don't you have anything to explain to me?"

Jun Matsueda was looking at the scenery outside the window. Lightning flashed and all the picture frames turned white.

"What else is there to explain? What I did was done, and it's wrong is wrong, but I won't regret it." The girl lowered her head, and Matsueda Jun couldn't see her expression.

"Why are you so obsessed with me?" Matsueda Jun stood up and sat down at the seat farthest away from Mochizuki Haruka.

There was only the sound of rain in the study, and the girl didn't speak.

What should I say? Should I tell him that he saved me from the abyss? Or should I tell him that I was once obsessed with him, loved him to the point of losing everything, and then was abandoned by him, and then my love turned to hate?

The girl's self-esteem did not allow her to say that. She did not accept that Mochizuki Haruka could be herself.

Mochizuki Haruka didn't want to tell him about the system, didn't want to tell him about their love-hate relationship in the simulation. She had been trying to treat this memory as a dream, as if if she spoke it out loud, the memory would no longer be a memory, the simulation would no longer be a simulation, but would gradually become reality. She didn't want this to happen.

Although she was in the study, Wang Yueyao felt like she was back in her bedroom, that dark, warm room where all time had been stagnant. It had once been like a mother's womb, giving her the most primitive sense of security in life, but later it had become like a prison, imprisoning all her pain and making it impossible for her to escape.

Can the sound of rain speak for her?

The girl wondered if there was another way. Perhaps she simply hadn't given Matsueda enough. If she gave him enough, he would be moved and willingly stay with her.

Name a price, she said to Matsueda Jun in her heart.

"I admit that there are indeed problems with my approach." Mochizuki Haruka finally spoke.

"I just want you to stay within the reach of the Mochizuki family. Because you are too important to me, I can't stand any accidents happening to you." Her voice trembled a little. The girl probably rarely spoke from a weak position like this.

Only you will see me crying at the bottom of the abyss, only you will reach out to save me, only you can save me.

"Safety issues like car accidents, or being abducted by a woman who appears out of nowhere, are absolutely unacceptable."

What would I do if you disappeared? What could I do?

"So I just hope you can stay by my side. As long as you can stay here, in Mitaka City for the time being, you can do whatever you want. I will protect you and nothing will happen. If you want a job, I will give you a job. If you want money, I will give you money. If you want power and status, it's okay for you to inherit the Mochizuki family in the future."

I can give you anything as long as you stay with me. Stay with me, wait for the possible moment to come, and then save me, okay?

Mochizuki Haruka raised her head and looked at Matsueda Jun with hope, but the boy just held his chin and watched the rain hitting the pine branches outside the window.

"..."

"I didn't try to hinder you from the beginning."

"Did I show any kindness to you? It's all about work, isn't it good to work under the name of the Mochizuki family?"

"You rejected all my temptations. What can I do?"

"What do you want? Can I move the entire orphanage to Mochizuki's house for you?"

The weakness in the girl's voice gradually disappeared, but her voice became more trembling, as if she was outside, enduring the cold and harsh beating of heavy rain.

"What do you want?! Tell me!" Her voice drowned out the thunder in the distance. "Don't treat me with such indifference!"

It sounded more like a confession than a question. Mochizuki Haruka leaned on the bookshelf beside her for support.

Jun Matsueda finally turned his head and looked at Haruka Mochizuki.

"Don't act like a victim. It's obviously my life that is disturbed and my interests are violated every time, why do you always act so hurt?" He sighed.

"Just because I'm showing you kindness, just because of this face," he slapped his face very hard, "does that mean I have to take on all your affection and emotions, and be responsible for your presumptuous expectations and disappointments?"

Jun Matsueda's voice was not loud, but it was deafening to Haruka Mochizuki, and her body trembled.

"Mr. Mochizuki Haruka, you said you wanted to be my friend and told me not to fake smile or say anything hypocritical in front of you. I remember everything."

"I did that too. I thought if I did that to you, you would do the same to me. Because isn't that the way it is in friendship or love?"

Jun Matsueda's tone was always gentle, but his words were as sharp as needles.

In fact, she didn't lie... Compared to lying, Mochizuki Haruka would rather say nothing.

"Regarding your question, I just want to say, Mochizuki Haruka-san, I don't know if this is your subconscious thought, but you seem to want to control my life. No matter how you treat other people, I will never allow this."

The sound of rain continued, and the round study seemed like the only remaining land, surrounded by a black ocean.

Mochizuki Haruka awaits his verdict.

"Mochizuki Haruka, you helped me when I was suspended from school, and I'm very grateful for that. Although I don't really care about it, I could just transfer to another school, but you did help me."

"I will always remember all the kindness and goodwill shown to me, and I will never forget it until I die." Jun Matsueda is grateful for his previous hyperthymesia.

"Let's just let this matter and your previous help cancel each other out. There's no need to talk about us being friends anymore."

It's funny to say, it hasn't been long since Jun Matsueda entered Uegaoka High School, and the thing he seems to have experienced most is building and then destroying relationships.

"And don't try to control me in any way, or we won't even be able to be normal classmates."

"It's my freedom to go wherever I want, and you have no right to tell me what to do."

No one spoke or moved. The rain outside the window got heavier. Mitaka City had never seen such heavy rain this year. The rain hit the window glass and made it shake constantly.

The windows that originally resembled oil paintings began to tremble, as if the painter's emotions were placed in the work, and his soul wanted to break out of the frame.

Jun Matsueda was a little worried about the situation in the welfare home. He stood up and prepared to leave the study, but Haruka Mochizuki stood there without moving.

"......impossible."

He turned around. "What did you say?"

"I said no way. I won't let you leave me."

"Okay." Jun Matsueda just smiled nonchalantly and opened the door of the study.

"Are you planning to run away?" Mochizuki Haruka's question made Matsueda Jun stop.

The girl looked at Matsueda Jun's back, with a determined look in her eyes as if she was asking a question even though she knew the answer.

Maybe he and I are destined to be entangled in the wrong ways, the girl thought sadly.

Chapter 39: Showdown in Act 4

"So what?"

The rain hit the branches and leaves that could not bear the weight, and rolled up the loose soil on the roots, almost creating a small river on the mountain behind the manor.

Jun Matsueda looked at the girl with a gloomy face. This was the first time he saw Mochizuki Haruka with such an expression.

"Do you want to use any other means to control me or threaten me?" Jun Matsueda walked in front of the girl. Mochizuki Haruka was not short among the girls, but she was only up to his chin.

"The Mochizuki family isn't the kind of power that can dominate everything. At most, they have influence in the Tokyo metropolitan area. At worst, I could flee to Iwate, Aomori, or even Hokkaido. What else can you do to me?"

"Let me remind you, I told the person who brought me here that I would call her when I got home. In this weather, if she can't reach me later, do you think she will call the police?"

Another woman... Mochizuki Yao silently complained.

"Anyway, Aunt Hua promised me that she would support the welfare home. You can't threaten me."

"Your aunt is a good person. If anything happens to her and she really needs my help, Mochizuki Haruka can contact me."

Wang Yueyao looked up and looked at him in a trance, her voice filled with tears.

"...Am I some kind of evil person?"

Jun Matsueda didn't expect the girl to become so fragile all of a sudden, but it had nothing to do with him.

"It's too troublesome to be around you. How can I know if you won't continue to try to control me? I don't want to spend my time and energy guessing your attitude and behavior, so it's better for me to stay away from Mochizuki Haruka-san."

The alienation in the boy's words cut the last string in her mind.

"Then what can I do?!" Wang Yueyao suddenly pressed herself against him, tugging at his collar. "Do you want me to tell you right as we meet that I had a love affair with you in my dream that went from desperate to bittersweet? Or do you want me to ask you why you're not as passionate towards me as you were in my dream?"

"Looking at your face that appears gentle but actually holds you back, I wish I had never had that dream! Why do I have to have such painful, warm, sweet, torturous, and yet painful memories when I haven't even had my first love?!"

Mochizuki Haruka's heart at this moment might be even more chaotic than the sky of Mitaka City.

"'You've never been Auntie's savior, but you've always been my savior', I don't want to tell you that now!!"

Still said it all.

A thunderclap that seemed to shatter the entire sky.

Unlike the torrential rain that came as soon as it was supposed to, the girl's tears only gathered into a river at this moment.

"You do have a system." Matsueda Jun was not surprised at all.

"So what if there is!" Mochizuki Yao waved her arms vigorously in the air, letting her tears flow. The sound of the rain was loud, but the sound of the tears falling to the ground was so clear.

She turned her head away, not wanting to expose her vulnerability in front of this hateful man.

Jun Matsueda took out a tissue from his pocket and handed it to him.

"I don't want your hypocritical kindness!" Mochizuki Haruka's voice was not firm.

"Sorry, I'm used to acting like this." Matsueda Jun chuckled twice and put the tissue back.

Even though the girl's heart was immersed in hysteria, sadness, regret and anger at the moment, she was still shocked by Matsueda Jun's actions.

"Is your heart made of stone..."

"You said you didn't need it." Matsueda Jun's expression was very natural.

"Give it to me!" The girl stretched out her hand again.

"Mochizuki Haruka, before we say goodbye, I'll teach you one more thing. For someone like you who's so conflicted and doesn't mean what you say, you should capture every emotion in your heart and express it. That's great."

Jun Matsueda handed her the tissue.

"So you still want to leave?" The girl's face, which had just brightened up a little, became as gloomy as the sky again.

"Do you think crying will make me stay?" Matsueda Jun laughed. The tears of the girls he had rejected could bring down rain. "You actually heard the conversation between Tomatsu and me on the rooftop, right?"

"Since you know about Tomatsu Yuka and me, you should understand that I won't feel guilty about my actions in the system simulation. The culprit is the system, not me. You have to understand this."

After confirming that Mochizuki Haruka was not as excited as before, Matsueda Jun was about to turn around and leave, but was stopped by Mochizuki Haruka again.

"It's raining so hard now. You won't be able to get out even if I ask them to take you. Let's go later."

The two of them had no choice but to sit down by the study window again. This time, there were dark clouds above Mochizuki Haruka's head, and above Songzhi Jun was a swaying pine forest.

I have to find a way, Mochizuki Haruka said to herself, I have to find a way to make him stay. She had never thought about the scene where Matsueda Jun ran away to Hokkaido.

Think quickly, think quickly, this is the last time. Mochizuki Yao has never been so eager to do something.

Jun Matsueda took out his cell phone and called the director to ask about the situation at the welfare home.

After Matsueda Jun hung up the phone, Mochizuki Haruka suddenly said to him: "You will stay with me."

Her tone was firm.

"What I like most is to say 'no' to those girls who are blindly confident." Matsueda Jun answered lazily while looking at his phone.

"No, you won't." Mochizuki Haruka's tone was light but powerful. She was sure that she had found the only way.

"I'll give you an offer you can't refuse."

Jun Matsueda put down his phone and listened attentively.

"Stay with me, I will provide better medical and educational conditions for the welfare home." Mochizuki Yao walked over to him and sat down, her eyes shining.

"They basically attend the worst public schools now, right? And many children suffer from chronic diseases due to family reasons and also need long-term treatment or medication, right?"