Re:Zero: Starting from the Great Transformation

Sarah rolled over so her back was facing me.

"…What does that mean?"

I froze for a moment.

"Sarah, what's wrong with you? Weren't you just..."

"Just now I was just...satisfied with my desires."

"what?"

"I just wanted to find a man to comfort myself, and I happened to choose you. Now it's over, and you can leave."

"Don't be ridiculous, Sarah. That's too..."

"I'm not kidding, let's go!"

Sarah suddenly kicked me off the bed and threw my clothes at me.

"Put on your clothes and leave!"

"Sarah, I..."

"Wear! Clothes!!"

"..."

I put on my clothes in silence.

Once I was dressed, Sarah pointed to the door.

I am completely confused.

What do you mean?

You were so enthusiastic just now, why did you suddenly become so cold?

Did I fail to satisfy her?

"Bam—"

When I came to my senses.

The door to the room closed behind him.

"Sarah?"

I tried knocking on the door.

No response.

Even when I put my ear to the door, I couldn't hear anything.

baffling.

What you said about being unsatisfied, just happened to use me to comfort yourself...

No matter how you listen to it, it's a complete excuse.

But I couldn't knock on Sarah's door.

She completely ignored me.

So I had to leave the hotel slowly.

At this time, the sun has gradually risen from the horizon, and that passionate night has become a thing of the past. Only the bruises and teeth marks left on the body prove what happened before.

I wandered the streets in a daze.

I had no intention of going back, nor did I think of looking back for Sarah. I just walked aimlessly.

suddenly.

Familiar footsteps were heard behind me.

"Ron? What are you doing here?"

Someone called me from behind.

I turned my head and saw Rudeus doing his morning exercise in a single layer of clothing.

He wiped the sweat off his face and looked me up and down in confusion.

I raised my hand weakly.

"Rudeus, good morning."

"Good morning, are you... here for morning exercise too?"

Do not know why.

Rudeus looked at me strangely.

He looked in the direction I was coming from.

Then he lowered his voice and asked tentatively.

"I say, you wouldn't be with Sarah..."

"Ah."

"Is this true?...and then what?"

"Then……"

I rubbed my aching waist.

"How should I put it? I'm a little unsure, but judging by the current situation, I think I've been... uh, dumped?"

"what?"

Rudeus stared at me with wide eyes.

He looked like he was hesitating to speak.

To be honest, the only thing I don't want to be stared at by Rudeus like this.

But at this moment, I inexplicably felt a strange resonance with Rudeus, and had an urge to chat with him for a while.

"Hey, Rudeus, do you want to go get a drink together?"

"...It's morning now, huh?"

"What does it matter? You're rich anyway, so it's okay if you don't work for a day, right?"

"Well, since you said so..."

Rudeus nodded reluctantly, and then I immediately dragged him into the tavern.

Then he got drunk.

Adventurer: 43, Zoldat

"So, how did you do it?"

"I started with this, then that, and she couldn't handle it anymore."

"seriously?"

"Of course, you can try it too."

"I'll let it go. My situation is special."

"How to say?"

"At that time, I was like this first, then like that, just like you..."

"Okay, brother, what next?"

"Then she got even more excited."

In the pub in the early morning.

Rudeus and I drank and chatted while holding onto a barrel of wine.

The pub was empty, with few people in it.

So the topic of our conversation gradually went off the track and unknowingly turned to women.

Thanks to Rudeus's detoxification magic, he could sober up no matter how much he drank, so he ate without any scruples.

Of course, this is only a small part of the reason.

The main reason is that I feel very upset.

Why did Sarah say that at the end?

Are you just unsatisfied, so you find a man to comfort yourself?

These words didn't seem to be what Sarah really said.

Just an excuse.

I know full well that this is an excuse, and a poor one at that.

There was no way Sarah thought I didn't understand.

But she said it anyway.

I find it hard to understand.

However, after chatting with Rudeus for such a long time, I almost understood it.

This is the attitude Sarah conveys.

An attitude of rejection.

I made my words very clear, and Sarah also clearly expressed her rejection, which means she could not accept me.

I can't accept a man who can't make a commitment.

Yes, wasn't that expected?

Something that was clear from the very beginning.

I am a man who cannot make commitments and will leave suddenly one day.

Such a person,

It would be strange if Sarah could accept it so easily.

It was simply rejected.

I had a premonition of being rejected, so I just accepted it.

……

……

I understand the reason.

Yet I still felt like crying.

It felt like a stone was pressing on my chest, so heavy that it was difficult to breathe.

Tossing and turning, unable to breathe.

Is this what it means to be heartbroken?

"Oh, don't be sad. A breakup marks the end of a relationship, but it might also mean the beginning of a new one."

Rudeus patted my shoulder and comforted me.

"Ha... I think it's better not to have it."

I said with a wry smile.

"Well, it's not that exaggerated..."

"What is the meaning of life, you ask?"

"..."

Rudeus looked at me speechlessly.