Uneasy daily life

Chapter Ninety-Nine: Springtime Turns into Snow

"It's alright, Xiaoyang has saved up quite a bit of money over the years! If all else fails, just go and raid Dad's gold coins... Oh, I almost forgot that Yukino-chan is the one inheriting the family business. For the sake of the baby's milk powder money, you rascal, just go and raid Yukino-chan's gold coins! Taking care of the child isn't a problem either. Mom has plenty of free time, spending her days cultivating herself. It's time for her to rediscover her fighting spirit and strive to create value in life!"

Yukino is currently wreaking havoc, highlighting the sisterly love and respect between sisters, the mother's kindness and the daughter's filial piety, and the importance of family members striving for self-improvement.

Bai Ying sneered, effortlessly retrieved the string of sealed rings, and regained her composure: "If you have to rely on others for your child, it means you're not mentally prepared at all!"

"Huh? Is this really okay?" Yukinoshita Haruno teased with a smile. "This is Haruno's precious first time, you know. What kind of thing is it that you're preparing this kind of thing and taking away Haruno's purity?"

"It's okay!" Bai Ying rambled on. "If you care about that, I can put it on after I've finished!"

A single abstract statement simultaneously brought both of their brains to a standstill.

They stared at each other silently for a few seconds, clearly seeing each other's facial muscles twitch a few times.

Yukinoshita couldn't help but burst out laughing: "Haha cough... You rascal, you've got some pretty fancy ideas."

Calm down, Bai Ying! You are an ultimate powerhouse who has lived two lives, how can you lose your composure! Change your strategy, don't focus too much on yourself, otherwise you will become increasingly confused. Observe your opponent! Remember, on the path of the sword, offense is the only effective means!

Bai Ying observed Yukinoshita Haruno for a few moments, then raised an eyebrow: "You... took birth control pills?"

"Oh dear, I knew I couldn't hide it from you, you rascal." Yukinoshita Haruno wagged her right index finger. "I've been taking my medication regularly for a whole year, and there haven't been any negative reactions on my checkups, so you can rest assured. You don't want to suddenly become a father, you rascal~"

The enemy's logistical reserves are a bit beyond our expectations!

Bai Ying felt the dimensional reduction attack on the time level and snorted, "9528 really came prepared - in that case, let's discuss the process!"

"Flow, process issues?" Yukino Yukinoshita's lips twitched slightly, then she waved her hand with a laugh. "Isn't the specific process something etched into our genes? There's no need to discuss it. Yukino just needs to lie down on the bed, and this rascal will have to think a lot about his misbehavior~"

"Absolutely impossible!" Bai Ying said confidently. "There are so many types of positions, like kneeling, crawling, legs apart, legs together, standing on one leg, standing with both legs, lying upright, or lying on your side. Why don't you need to discuss those?"

Yukino's eyes twitched slightly. She tried her best to suppress her hesitation and said defiantly, "It's okay, do whatever you want, I'll cooperate completely."

“Good!” Bai Ying said with anticipation. “I think we can start by having Xiao Yang take over.”

Who wants to take over?! You're just like me, a coward who doesn't want to stay a coward forever!

"I've heard that guys with a lot of theoretical knowledge and experience in positions are usually virgins," Yukino Haruno provocatively said. "So you really want to be guided by an older sister? Hmm~"

Bai Ying put on airs: "You were just boasting about your purity, so stop talking rudely to someone who has been married and raised children!"

"Marrying a woman you can't cultivate love for, raising a child you have no time to spend with, and forming a family just to get by—that's pretty much a wealth of experience in failure." Yukinoshita Haruno snorted twice, her aggression rising again. "What? You've already done all sorts of embarrassing things with Haruno-chan, and you're still too cowardly to take real responsibility? You big jerk, Haruno-chan just misjudged you, sob sob..."

Oh my god! This is intolerable!

The white figure raised her hand and squeezed a clear liquid from the bottle. She caught it in her palm, rubbed her hands together, and in the blink of an eye, a layer of light watery sheen appeared on her skin: "9528, it's not too late for you to surrender now!"

"Huh? Didn't you say that bad students have a lot of stationery?" Yukinoshita Haruno pushed the bottle aside. "Haruno has plenty of water, so she doesn't need this. We'll have to test your water-fetching skills."

Bai Ying looked back, seeing a sheer cliff behind him, the atmosphere incredibly tense and exciting. He expressionlessly pulled out a tissue to wipe his hands: "Oh... I see... You know action games, right? Combining moves is a lot of fun, and a skillful combo often requires advance planning and thought. We still need to design a set of fluid movements to ensure both sides have a sufficient experience..."

Yukino Yukinoshita, without anyone noticing, suddenly rested her chin on her hand and quietly looked at the white figure, making the efficient, nonsensical white figure a little unable to continue.

“Actually, when I was planning this a year ago, I was already wondering how my boyfriend would react—after all, putting aside his eccentric and crazy behavior, he should be a mature, rational boyfriend with a strong sense of principles. If I want to cross this threshold with you, the biggest challenge will be your attitude.” Yukino Yukinoshita licked her lips and said softly, “He would definitely advise me to focus on my dreams and future, saying that even if we haven’t done that kind of thing, we can still love each other deeply, that that kind of thing doesn’t represent or guarantee anything, and he would use all sorts of nonsensical ways to spout grand principles to make me calm down and give up…”

"I tried hard to figure out how to convince that jerk, talked to my mother about the agreement, went to the doctor for a checkup, took birth control pills, and occasionally speculated about how to carry out the communication. I made preparations as thoroughly as possible, and then I unknowingly procrastinated until now."

Yukino Yukinoshita let out a breath, her eyes somewhat unfocused and dreamy: "I'm just afraid of my own true feelings. All that calm rationality and reasoning is just a cowardly excuse."

I'll add 1.

Bai Ying couldn't help but think of her father from her previous life. Perhaps her father's character was too universal, so the characteristics she observed in him could always be found in many other people... If she had to pinpoint the most obvious characteristic she remembered...

Calmness, rationality, reason, and the positive connotations of love are all pretexts for desire.

Even when you know something is wrong, you can use kind words to convince yourself, thus reconciling this inner conflict, and then you can act with confidence.

Perhaps I've fallen into the opposite extreme, using these beautiful principles to convince myself not to do certain things—because of love, I need restraint; because of maturity, I need to consider the future; because I haven't figured out how to treat my child, I shouldn't become a father; because I haven't understood love, I shouldn't pursue it…

People are really good at convincing themselves.

Bai Ying took a slight breath, looked intently at Yukinoshita Haruno who was somewhat distracted, and suddenly reached out and grabbed her wrist.

Yukinoshita Haruno came to her senses but hadn't yet reacted.

"Come on! Get in bed with me!"

The white figure got up and began to drag.

"Huh?!" Yukinoshita Haruno was taken aback, her other hand instinctively grabbing the edge of the table, and she stammered, "Uh... I, how about we design some combos first?"

The two stared at each other in bewilderment for a second.

"It's alright! Experts rely on eye contact and muscle memory to execute moves!"

"Huh? You, what kind of expert are you?"

I believe I am!

For a moment, it was unclear who was initiating and who was being passive. The two of them, arguing incoherently like mental patients, dragged each other into the bedroom. Whoever suddenly felt hesitant would be pulled back by the other, and whoever sensed the other's hesitation would suddenly become fiercely protective, like a bully who preys on the weak.

When her back suddenly pressed firmly against the bed, and the back of her head landed on the pillow, Yukino looked up at the white figure propped up on her, and her panic suddenly subsided a little.

Bai Ying met her bright, sparkling gaze and thought for a moment: "Speak! Is there anything else you want to say?!"

"I'm going to confess." Yukinoshita blinked, her voice trembling slightly. "You jerk... turn on the light, I want to see you more clearly."

Bai Ying turned her head away, silently jumped off the bed, turned on the light, and saw Yukino Yukinoshita sitting up and reaching out to unbutton the first button on her chest.

"Hmm..." Yukinoshita Haruno seemed to hesitate for a moment, then smiled and lay back down. "The rest is up to you. That should be part of the fun, right?"

Bai Ying got back onto the bed: "You mean just tear it apart?"

"Take off these clothes properly, I spent a long time choosing them." Yukinoshita Haruno muttered, then seemed to realize that it was not easy to be undressed while lying down, so she wriggled a couple of times and leaned her back against the headboard.

Bai Ying took a deep breath and calmed down! They had already done some intimate things together; today was just taking it a step further!

The girl (?) leaned against the headboard, her curvaceous body stiff with tension, yet she tried her best to remain calm. Her gaze kept darting left and right, as if she were planning an escape route. Every now and then, she would reach up and smooth her short hair at her temples to hide her gradually blushing cheeks.

I kind of regret turning on the lights; the brightness is so clear that I'm afraid to look at it now.

"Do it!"

...What line am I saying that's like someone offering their neck to be slaughtered?!

"Oh, oh! I'm a big man!"

...What weird Japanese are you speaking now?!

They probably felt that they would easily ramble on and talk nonsense as soon as they opened their mouths. Bai Ying took a deep breath and gently pressed her index finger on Yukino's lips.

"Shhh."

The room fell silent.

Feelings are often mixed with timidity, words are hesitant, how many seasons have passed? I secretly resent that good times don't understand, that they don't comfort my sorrow. Snow melts and falls again on the branches, I lean on the railing once more, time steals away. I'm annoyed by the beautiful scenery, always blooming too late, unable to stay for anyone.

Her fingers gently unfastened the clasp, revealing the jade-like broth in the thin bowl. A piece of her silk skirt was half-fallen, revealing the soft, white jade. Her eyes, misty and unfocused, met hers; silently, her heart pounded with shyness. She laughed at the past, and whispered tenderly, recounting her tales.

"Really..."

Yukinoshita turned her head uncomfortably, but could still feel the gaze through the distance and sense the heat: "How many times have you seen this... Seriously, you jerk, do you really like the half-undressed look that much?"

"Ahem, I think this is the essence."

Bai Ying shifted her gaze slightly, took a breath to remain calm: "We agreed not to make a sound—which sock do you want to take off, the left one or the right one?"

That despicable jerk! He loves to embarrass people whenever he gets a little cocky!

"Hey..." Yukinoshita Haruno's face flushed slightly under the lamplight as she asked with a smile, "Do you want to keep your upper body clothes or your lower body clothes? You can't take them off yourself, can you? Let me help you..."

"You can take your clothes off completely."

"Well, then I won't stand on ceremony..."

Despite having shared a bed several times before, they both acted as awkward as newcomers, their verbal banter becoming increasingly flirtatious and skillful. Although it was winter, the room gradually warmed up, and as they undressed each other, a light sweat appeared on their foreheads.

"Come on, come on."

Yukino Shino tensed up and lay down at lightning speed, suppressing the urge to cover herself with her arms. Usually, she liked to joke around and tease others, but at this moment she was so tense and stiff that she was not at all at ease.

In some ways, she is very similar to certain corners of her own heart, yearning to give her heart, yet she is bound by the personality shaped by the past, so that she always appears strange, making others only see her on the surface, but never the real her.

Learn to suppress yourself to gain your parents' love, learn to deny yourself to gain society's love, learn to hide yourself to gain others' love, until you learn not to love yourself.

The white figure suddenly smiled and lowered its head, gently pressing its forehead against Yukinoshita's forehead, and then made no other move. Yukinoshita, unable to bear the pounding of her heart, tried to mentally prepare herself before turning her gaze back with feigned composure.

"You're not going to be unable to proceed to the next step because you're missing rendering assets, are you?"

"No, I was just thinking about what I said to you before..."

Bai Ying said softly, "Amidst the lies, we found each other with genuine affection."

"...Hmph, you think you can get me wet with your mouth? Not so easy."

Yukino's nonsensical remark successfully shattered the thought processes of both of them.

After a few seconds, or perhaps a dozen seconds of silence, Bai Ying decisively lowered his head and covered Yukinoshita Haruno's mouth. He had figured it out—both of his and her mouths, which were not speaking their true feelings, should be shut up together. Otherwise, when one of them expressed their true feelings, they would always say something wise enough to shock the world!

Yukino's eyes widened slightly, and she looked away, perhaps feeling a little guilty. Then her gaze gradually became hazy and unfocused, and her hands unconsciously wrapped around the other person's shoulders. Without having to think about how to talk, she could express her feelings through her actions.

As her lips parted, Yukino Yukino regained some clarity, but her body still felt somewhat groggy and weak, unsure of how to move. She felt a gentle pat on her cheek, looked up to meet Bai Ying's gaze, and instinctively lowered her eyes, her lips slightly pursed without uttering a word.

"Uh……"

Yukino suppressed a low moan, a strange sense of satisfaction filling her body and mind, making her feel that everything was truly different. It wasn't that her relationship with the jerk had changed, but rather that the undeniable contact had allowed her to truly shed her timid self, her self-doubt, and perhaps it had also allowed the jerk to finally escape the shadow that belonged to him…

"Are you alright? Mine is big? Hmm~"

Those familiar loads of nonsense.

“Not so bad.” Yukinoshita Haruno replied with a smile in a low voice, her words carrying a double meaning, “I thought it would hurt a lot, but it seems to be just so-so.”

This provocation was extremely effective!

Spring sunshine turns the snow white, autumn waves ripple with the bright moon.

High mountains see flowing water, flutes and drums play through the long night.

As the battle raged on, countless formations shifted, the two sides' forces remaining intertwined like jagged teeth, locked in a fierce and evenly matched struggle. Even as the enemy teetered on the brink of defeat several times, they stubbornly regrouped, determined to fight to the bitter end. "Let me retreat first, then advance," I thought, "I will surely take her down completely..."

Just as Bai Ying was about to withdraw, she suddenly realized that Yukino Yukinoshita was relentlessly pursuing her from the front and cutting off her retreat from behind, causing her expression to change slightly.

"What do you want to do?!"

"in."

Yukino's slightly breathless words revealed a resolute determination, as if she had burned her bridges.

"Hmph... You think you can surround and annihilate me when you're in such a defeated state? Even if you encircle me from all sides, I am determined to win—this is the time for our elite troops to fight with their backs to the wall, and for our generals to be unparalleled!"

Bai Ying glanced at Yukino's barely concealed defeat and let out a soft hum.

……

"Ah—! Damn it."

Chapter 100: Revenge the Night Before!

Women are nothing more than that.

Hmph! Did you think that by using all sorts of provocations, you would back down?

Stand users also vary in strength; their physical abilities determine the victor!

Bai Ying opened her eyes, staring blankly at the ceiling, her mind... devoid of the romantic tales of the previous night, but experiencing a subtle and novel feeling. The feeling of sleeping with someone beside her was as calming and reassuring as ever, but once she truly crossed that line, there was a dreamlike sense of unreality.

Bai Ying scratched her head and turned to look at Yukino Yukinoshita, who was sleeping beside her. She was turned to face Bai Ying, and through the quilt, one could vaguely see her disheveled pajamas. Her face, flushed with spring, was exceptionally serene. Her hands were wrapped around one of Bai Ying's arms, and her body was slightly curled up against the person next to her.

Perhaps it was a rebound after being used to suppression, perhaps it was a cowardly yet playful nature, perhaps it was an excessive craving for the joy of physical and mental fusion... Even though it was the first time, it was so passionate and obsessive, either saying "You can't do it?" or "I don't feel anything," using every means to provoke, as if it wanted to burn out and dissolve everything in the embrace.

In the end, I carried her into the bathtub myself to take a bath, and I changed her pajamas myself.

A beautiful woman's affections run deep, and when they run deep, she can become quite mad.

It definitely feels different now.

If I had to put it into words, the first time didn't seem to represent anything, but my inner feelings had changed—I had accepted from the beginning that I was Xiao Yun's reincarnation, that I was Xiao Yun, and it seemed that only now did I truly understand...

Xiao Yun embodies the subtle feeling of his own dark past.

Damn it! How could you have a child with someone you don't love? How cowardly yet brave you were to accept that kind of life? How could you possess the intelligence and keen insight to see through other people's true nature, yet choose to live a life of silent foolishness?

I've severed ties! I've made a clean break with my past self!

What kind of person is Xiao Yun? Does he even deserve to be considered the same as me? Hmph.

Bai Ying withdrew her smug and chaotic thoughts, and quietly gazed at Yukino's sleeping face, feeling a sense of completeness as if her thoughts had been filled.