Uneasy daily life

When the movie was being filmed, the villain said that death gives meaning to life, which I didn't quite understand.

If I disappear, does that mean I'm dead? What meaning would death give me? And what does that meaning even mean?

I feel like I'm going to disappear, so I want to do a lot of things—watch movies about bad guys and actresses during summer vacation, visit Xiangzi who is sick, go to the zoo to see pandas, go out with my brother, go back to the school I've always been afraid of, and make sure my brother doesn't have to work so hard to take care of me...

Because life is mortal, shouldn't we cherish it even more and strive to do more?

If I could not disappear, I probably wouldn't be able to leave my home and see the outside world. That's the meaning that disappearance gives me.

and so……

Hua Feng, it's not scary outside at all.

My brother is here, and there are so many other wonderful people. Even though I call him a bad guy, being a bad guy is fine too.

……

After finishing her diary entry for the day, Azusagawa Sakuta's voice came from outside the door: "Kaede, go to sleep early. We're going to visit Shoko tomorrow."

"oh--!"

Azusagawa Kaede responded, turned off the light, got into bed, and expertly hugged her pillow.

She closed her eyes, letting out a low moan of suppressed pain from her throat. Bruises appeared on her arms and calves, which were exposed by her pajamas.

It's alright, Huafeng.

Don't be afraid.

Chapter 86 Hikigaya's Confession

"Ah...ah? Ah!"

Aid and Service Department, Activity Room.

Yui Yuigahama sat in the chair with a completely bewildered look on her face, muttering incoherently and flapping her hands erratically like a newborn chick.

For her brain, dealing with something like "Xiaoxue's boyfriend Xiaobai has several girlfriends and Xiaoxue has always known about it" was really a bit of an overload.

Yukino Yukinoshita sighed softly and, as always, poured black tea, giving one cup each to Yui Yuigahama and Hachiman Hikigaya.

Bai Ying retorted, dissatisfied, "What about me?!"

Yukino Yukinoshita coldly pushed an empty cup towards her. The white-clad figure picked up the empty cup, blew on it with non-existent heat, brought the cup to her lips, and took a long, savoring sip.

Hachiman Hikigaya had just taken a sip when he was spotted by the disheveled Yui Yuigahama: "H-Hachiman! Don't you think you should say something?"

"What should I say?" Hachiman Hikigaya asked, puzzled. "Should I tell the teacher?"

"Don't tell the teacher!"

Yui Yuigahama took a few deep breaths, sorted out her logic, turned to look at Bai Ying, hesitated for a moment, and whispered, "Bai Ying! You...you're doing this...aren't you being unfair to Xue? Isn't this being a scumbag?"

Unsurprisingly.

Yukino Yukinoshita rubbed her temples. Lately, Yui-hama had been hesitant to speak, clearly wanting to ask about what happened that day, but struggling with whether or not to bring it up. Although she could explain things to Yui-hama, Yui-hama also considered Haku-kun a friend, so she could only wait until Haku-kun finished filming and returned before discussing it further.

In short, let Bai Jun handle it; it's his fault for doing that kind of thing in public.

"really."

Bai Ying nodded in deep agreement: "I am a scumbag, but when I think about how after graduation we will go to different universities, separated by the ends of the earth, and because we haven't formed a special bond, we can't openly care about each other. So, with the passage of time and the arrival of new friends, we have less and less time to chat and communicate..."

"Until one day, on a whim, I opened my chat history with the hero and found that the last message was from many years ago."

Bai Ying gazed at the window with a sense of vicissitude and said softly, "Time rushes by, and I realize that I am still here, but my heart has changed."

puff!

"Don't, don't change the subject!"

Yui Yuigahama felt like she'd been stabbed, but she was used to it. Her face full of struggle, she said, "Shiro, this isn't right, is it? This is bad for Yuki... Why did you do this? For Yuki, and for Sakurajima-senpai and the others... will they be happy? Shouldn't liking someone mean being devoted to that one person? This..."

Yui Yuigahama couldn't help but glance at Yukino Yukinoshita, her eyes giving her a frantic hint—Yukino, shouldn't you say something?

"Alright," Bai Ying nodded. "General or hero, who do you choose?"

Yui Yuigahama exclaimed, "This isn't something you can choose!"

“That’s right!” Bai Ying shrugged. “This isn’t something you can choose.”

Yui Yuigahama paused, sensing something was off, yet it also seemed to make sense, but still not quite right. Thinking about it carefully, she felt like she was meddling? But this kind of thing…

“Deadly Chef, if the hero is sad, I will want to comfort her more than you do; if the hero is happy, I will want to share her joy more than you do.” The white figure paused slightly, shrugged, and said, “I really enjoy watching the hero ponder strange things and make all sorts of expressions; that’s much more interesting.”

"No, I mean..." Yui Yuigahama flailed her arms erratically, finding it hard to look at the messy relationships between her friends, and also struggling to find the right words to express herself. "Where are Yuki's parents? Where are the other people's parents? This...this messy relationship, there's no way to deal with it, is there?"

Bai Ying shrugged: "It was resolved a long time ago."

"Ugh?"

Yui Yuigahama was taken aback, then pushed and pulled her hands back and forth as if she were making a Rasengan: "Um—marriage! Right! What about marriage?"

"It's okay, I'm a scumbag." Bai Ying waved her hand casually. "Everyone can get married first and then divorced in turn, or they can not get married at all. In the end, the only person who really cares about that kind of ceremony is probably the brave one, right? The brave plus one doesn't care much. To her, the marriage application is probably more valuable than teasing me. 9528 is about the same. The stick figure is even more indifferent to that kind of thing. It seems that she has been led astray by the current relationship."

Yukino Yukinoshita couldn't help but drift off into thought. Thinking about it carefully, was it really true? If that meant she could apply to marry Haku-kun in the future? Others would probably give in… No, no! If she got married, and Haku-kun was her husband, and he was always fooling around with other girls… what was the point of getting married then?

Want to create a bunch of legitimate green hats for yourself? It'll only lead to a lot of awkwardness!

Yukino Yukinoshita put her thoughts aside and thought that she used to think that it was okay to have multiple relationships, since she would definitely end up with Haku in the end... But as she kept going, she seemed to get more and more involved and didn't take multiple relationships seriously anymore?

"But!" Yui Yuigahama was so frustrated that she scratched her hair into a mess. She suddenly slammed her hand on the table and looked at Shiro, saying seriously, "Isn't this unfair to Yuki?! Can Shiro accept his girlfriend cheating on him? Having affairs with multiple people... uh... I'm not saying anything bad about the other people, but you get the gist of it!"

“Yuhihama, fair transactions require multiple parties.”

Bai Ying shook her head and said softly, "When you like someone and are liked by someone, you naturally consider each other as one. The hero and I aren't trying to date and work our way up to a relationship; we're one. If you put the candy from your left hand into your right, isn't that unfair to your left hand?"

Yui Yuigahama froze, scratching her head vigorously, speechless for a moment. Yuki agreed, Shiro agreed, Yuki's family agreed…wait? The outsider is myself?

"Yuihama, thank you for speaking up for me. You're absolutely right—Shiro-kun is a scumbag, a womanizer, unfair to me, a delusional and reckless bastard, a jerk, and a hater." Yukino Yukinoshita poured a cup of black tea and casually pushed it in front of Shiro-kage. Looking at Yuihama Yui's strange expression, she smiled gently. "Thank you. However, I chose what I saw as correct."

Bai Ying reached out and took the black tea, shaking her head and saying, "Warriors are so easy to coax. Just saying 'I like it' will restore my daily black tea ration."

"You're the one who's easy to coax. I just don't want Yuihama to see you as a bad person." Yukino Yukinoshita said irritably, then added, "You are the bad person."

Bai Ying sneered: "Bad person? That's a word only children use to insult others."

"Ah—never mind! It seems a lot of things happened without my knowledge."

Yui Yuigahama sighed with a hint of bitterness. She glanced at the white figure and suddenly moved the stool next to Yukino Yukinoshita, leaving Yukino Yukinoshita looking puzzled.

Does he still have some prejudice against Bai Jun?

Before Yukino Yukinoshita could speak, the white figure preemptively said, "Is it possible that if I were Roar of Desire, I would prefer to seduce a subordinate rather than the confident you?"

"?" Yui Yuigahama's head was filled with question marks, feeling extremely humiliated. "I'm a cute girl too, okay!"

Bai Ying suddenly became serious and said sincerely, "I'm sorry, you're a good person, but I already have a girlfriend."

"That's not what I meant at all! Don't say such weird things to me, Xiaobai!"

Yui Yuigahama blushed, loudly retorted, looked around, and directly called out, "Hachiman! What are you doing just staring at me?!"

"Oh." Hachiman Hikigaya, who had already seen through many things, simply turned the page of his novel. "Congratulations to the two of you on becoming a couple and joining the ranks of popular people. May your Asahi explode, boom..."

"Speaking of which, aren't you going to resolve your issues?" Yukino Yukinoshita suddenly spoke up. "Hachiman-kun, you're always trapped in a cycle of loneliness, which inevitably hurts the people around you."

Hikigaya Hachiman: “?”

"Huh? Ah!" Yui Yuigahama looked up at the ceiling and changed the subject, "Shouldn't we be talking about the request? The request is going very well! Kaede is already able to wander around freely. Let's invite her to the beach during summer vacation..."

"No, we absolutely can't let Yui get close to Shiro-kun. It would be terrible if she were unknowingly attracted to him. We really need to put some pressure on him from the outside to make Hikigaya-kun, who's already used to being slowly boiled like a frog, jump out of the pot and pull Yui away..."

Bai Xia Ying muttered to herself.

Yui Yuigahama stared stiffly at Yukino Yukinoshita.

“It’s not that I don’t trust you, it’s that I don’t trust Shirai-kun,” Yukino Yukinoshita said coldly. “I have only a negligible amount of trust in Shirai-kun when it comes to matters of the heart.”

Oh, so you don't trust Xiaobai... Hmm? But I still have things to do, don't I?!

Yuigahama Yui seemed to be hesitant to speak.

“Brave warrior, you are mistaken.” Bai Ying shook his head slightly and said, “The deadly chef is perfectly normal.”

Yukino Yukinoshita remarked sarcastically, "Indeed, there are quite serious communication barriers between different species."

“Indeed, men…” Bai Ying sighed. “General, do you ever feel envious? Do you ever feel that you could do it too? Do you ever have the desire to upgrade from a typical 'normie' to the ultimate 'normie'? Do you ever have the urge to sing a song in this world and live your life to the fullest?!”

"no!"

Hachiman Hikigaya said seriously, "Dating is already troublesome enough, let alone dating several people! Do I still need to play games? Do I still need to spend time with Komachi? Do I still need to lie down and be lazy? Do I still need to read the latest light novel? Do I still need to quietly space out?"

Despite his earnest and repeated denials, he still felt that the other two were looking at him with even colder eyes.

"Deadly Chef, you'd better watch out," Bai Ying said earnestly. "Desire only needs one reason, and I am enough to become a subordinate."

Still fanning the flames? Still fanning the flames!

The minister is clearly the scumbag, but he's the one being suspected?

Hachiman Hikigaya sighed deeply.

I was wrong. I was wrong from the very beginning. If I hadn't written things in my homework that were sarcastic or mocking about the group, I wouldn't have been caught by the violent teacher and sent to the Aid and Service Club. If I hadn't been sent to the Aid and Service Club, I wouldn't have met the club president. If I didn't know the club president, then...

Boom!

"Please come in."

The door was opened a crack, and Angelina peeked out. When she saw the white figure, her face lit up with surprise. She quickly waved and said, "Bai Ying, I need to talk to you. Come here for a moment."

The white figure looked up.

Hmm, it's not a trap.

After Baiying and Angelina left the activity room, Yukino Yukinoshita put down her cup, slowly got up, and chased after them.

Hachiman Hikigaya and Yui Yuigahama exchanged glances and then stayed obediently in the activity room.

The white circles are too messy.jpg

……

……

At the corner of the corridor, a white figure leaned against the wall, arms crossed, assuming the posture of listening to a subordinate's report.

"Sir, time can't be turned back now, can it?"

Angelina asked expectantly.

“You’ll have to ask Mini the Deadly Chef.” The white figure shrugged. “If she suddenly has a mental breakdown, I’ll have to try a side story—why are you suddenly asking this? There haven’t been any time reversals lately, have there? Or have you noticed something that I haven’t?”

Did the Killer Queen do something? No, I've been keeping an eye on the Killer Queen's condition, and I don't feel like she did anything major. I haven't been careless at all in this regard. Even when she was mercilessly humiliated by 9528 and created a shameful record, I still felt like the Killer Queen might be acting strangely.

I get it! The Queen of Assassins was behind it all!

Bai Ying successfully found someone to shift the blame to.

"No, no, I've been using my superpowers to stabilize myself every night before bed, so I haven't felt any time reversal," Angelina quickly shook her head, her little face scrunched up. "But I still have that feeling that my clothes are on backwards, it's been there all along, but I've waited so many days and time hasn't reversed..."

It's just weird.

If the reason I feel hairy all over is because of time travel, then why am I still feeling this way even though time hasn't traveled back?

Angelina was completely baffled and a little afraid that her superpowers might be causing some trouble again.

"Um……"

Bai Ying thought about it carefully for a moment, then her eyes lit up and she said, "Actually, no one stipulates that time reversal must be one day, right?"

"Huh?" Angelina was taken aback. "What does this mean?"

"No, no, no, it's not certain yet. We need to find an opportunity! If it works out, it will undoubtedly be another layer of insurance!"

The white figure muttered to himself, then burst into wild laughter: "Hahahaha—as expected of me! I'm truly a genius! This gives me even more room to maneuver! Hehehehe!"

It's over! The officer has gone mad!

Angelina, startled, leaned against the corner wall: "S-Sir? Are you alright? Are you okay? Should I hang you on the wall to calm you down?"

"Ignorance is too long to read, I am now singing the praises of my own wisdom!"

Bai Ying's smile faded: "Anyway, don't worry about your condition. You'll get used to it after a while..."

Angelina skillfully adopted a deadpan, emotionless gaze.