Uneasy daily life

After refusing to answer N consecutive calls, Yukino glanced at her now-silent phone, her mood ambiguous.

She couldn't help but think of the other things that happened today, the other incidental things.

For example, when sleeping on a mixed-use bed...

The blanket was clean, not dirty, but when wrapped around me, it carried another person's scent, as if giving me a hug that covered my entire body, leaving no gaps. The initial excitement, nervousness, and anticipation gradually subsided as I waited. In the scent of another person, weariness spread from my toes to the tips of my hair. Lying on my side, holding my phone, my vision involuntarily swayed and my fingers began to grow weak, gradually losing the weight of the phone.

The phone slipped from my hand, its corner hitting my shoulder. The slight pain brought me back to my senses, but my body clung to the gentle, indulgent languor. My eyes closed unconsciously, and without holding the phone, my free hand gripped a corner of the blanket, as if that would wrap me up even tighter.

I took a short nap and then had a dream.

That night, as we embraced, my restless heart finally found peace. Gentle yet steady words told me that all I needed to do was be myself. — I don't like the word "gentle," and I hate gentle people, like Hayama Hayato, like Hayama Hayato, like Hayama Hayato. Gentleness is a disguise for better survival; beneath every mask of gentleness lies a gaze calculating gains and losses. The battles of social rules are a competition of who appears more civilized… I hate so-called gentleness because I am not a gentle person.

However, in that instant, I was hopelessly immersed in it, and at the same time, I felt resentful—what's with treating me like a child? I'm a big, big sister! The scene at that time is somewhat blurry, but when I occasionally recall it, a happy feeling seeps out from my heart, accompanied by a thumping sound, and surges through my limbs.

If only I hadn't been interrupted by my mother and father's phone calls back then... If I had just been a little more assertive, things would have fallen into place naturally, right? Let the guy I like know that I'm dealing with a woman, not a daughter.

Their breaths drew closer, and the phone, which should have been a distraction, remained silent. They embraced and undressed each other, then, lost in their passionate embrace, they fell onto the bed together as if returning to their nest…

[The program is unresponsive due to missing necessary materials. Should we force-terminate the process?]

【Yes】

【SHI】

Then I woke up, and when I saw that the jerk hadn't come back yet, I decided to run away.

I am angry.

How come I can't even compare to Yukino-chan? I just subtly hinted at it, and Yukino-chan boldly took the plunge. But me? I either approach it with a confused and tentative attitude, or I'm ready to give up halfway… But even a jerk has his problems, always missing opportunities…

Ding-ling!

Yukinoshita Haruno snapped out of her daze and looked at her phone, which had displayed a chat message.

[Bai Buliang Baiying: Where are you? Shouldn't you be hiding under the covers, wearing a semi-transparent camisole nightgown, holding a bottle of lubricant, and smelling of shower gel?]

How did you know? Do you think it's elegant enough to install a camera in your bedroom and film yourself sleeping?!

Yukinoshita Haruno couldn't help but stare wide-eyed.

[Bai Bulang Bai Ying: How do you know that—that's probably what you're thinking, 9528!]

"I suddenly don't want to know anymore."

Yukino Yukinoshita was speaking, but she didn't reach for her phone to reply.

It was not a conversation at all.

[Bai Bulang Bai Ying: Because of someone's puberty syndrome, time has reversed! It's reversed twice!]

"So you went to solve this weird problem? No wonder you didn't come back today."

Yukino Yukinoshita casually made a remark and took a sip of beer.

[Bai Bulang Bai Ying: The first time the flow reversed, I was lying in bed with you, ready to set a record!]

"Hmm? Did I not run away? That makes sense... If I had just woken up in your bed and you had already gone home, I probably would have stayed to continue my plan." Yukino Yukinoshita thought for a moment, then clicked her tongue and shook her head. "It seems like we always miss each other's opportunities. When I'm ready, you're calling me to set a trap, figuring out how to rewind time. When you're ready, I'm either rushing forward in my worries or taking a step back in hesitation..."

"We can never find the right atmosphere where we can both focus our emotions on each other, without any distractions or worries, and have the opportunity to embrace each other."

"From what you're saying, it seems there was a suitable opportunity, but time went back—snap, it was gone."

Yukinoshita Haruno chuckled and retorted, "Is this some kind of curse that forbids older sisters from bullying minors? No lewd behavior allowed~"

[Bai Bulang Bai Ying: Damn it! Why? Why weren't you waiting for me in bed? Why did the plot change? Shouldn't the male protagonist, who saved time from reversing, be rewarding the female protagonist without any worries?!]

"This means the storyline doesn't make any sense."

Yukinoshita rested her chin on her hand, watching the screen with great interest.

[Bai Buliang Baiying: Why didn't time go back! I'd planned everything. While you were preparing to ambush me, I'd lie in wait on the bed, and then we'd find something fun to do together—watching TV, playing guitar, writing songs, composing music, or even just counting the suns together. We'd end with a hug, leaving all distractions behind, and feeling each other's emotions! A perfect plan!]

"This kind of plan is too normal, isn't it? It just doesn't seem interesting."

Under the snow, Yang was picking a fight from afar.

[Bai Buliang Baiying: After all, you've taken the initiative to suppress me, leaving me flustered and disoriented. My actions are forced to follow the rhythm you've set, and I can't think of a suitable way to regain the initiative. This is really pathetic!]

"Are you talking about before time could turn back? Sometimes I think, if only I were a little stupid, or as lucky as Yukino-chan, not let external pressure make me doubt everything, and instead used my intelligence to examine and dissect my own feelings, using the scalpel of gains and losses to dissect my emotions completely, turning them into bloody specimens that I could no longer recognize as they were..."

Yukino Yukinoshita tried to imagine it for a moment... well, she couldn't come up with anything.

Although under interrogation and teasing, Yukino secretly described how the rascal was even more flustered than she was, frozen in place, and suddenly pulled his body out.

[Bai Bulang Bai Ying: But it doesn't matter! If fate doesn't give me the reward I deserve, then I'll take it myself!]

"?"

As Yukino Yukinoshita was pondering what it meant, the doorbell suddenly rang.

Ding dong ding dong ding dong ding dong—!

Uh... really?

Yukinoshita turned to look at the door, her gaze suspicious.

A message popped up on my phone at just the right time.

[White Shadow: Open the door! You're definitely home!]

[On Snow: How about we reschedule?]

[Bai Buliang Bai Ying: There's no time like the present.]

[Yukino no Ue: Why do I feel like you're burning with desire? You've changed, you've become so uncomposed and gentle. I know you've been with Yukino-chan before, you've experienced the feeling of intimacy, but now you come here and ask me to open the door, wanting to vent your desires, showing no respect for my wishes at all, you won't even call me "dear Yukino"~]

Yukino Yukino typed with a smile, her earlobes flushed red, probably from drinking too much beer.

The door will eventually open, but before that, we still need to tease the rascal a bit.

[Bai Bulang Bai Ying: Did you know? I'm a superpowered person.]

[On Snow: Hmm? So what?]

Click.

Ok?

Suddenly, a crisp sound came from the other side of the door. Yukinoshita Haruno turned her head to look, and as if she had seen a ghost, the doorknob was slowly pressed down, the lock was gently opened, and the door slowly revealed a crack.

A white figure peeked in through the gap with a smile, watching Yukinoshita Haruno sitting by the coffee table, eating skewers and drinking beer.

"Letting the Assassin Queen walk in and open a door is a piece of cake."

Yukino blinked, unsure how to react.

The white figure stepped into the house and slammed the door shut. Yukino Yukinoshita felt her heart pound with the sound of the door slamming shut.

"Ahem..." Yukinoshita Haruno extended her hand in invitation, "Would you like some too?"

"I've already had dinner."

The white figure slowly approached, its deliberately serious face revealing lines of realization: "In the time reversal, I also slept my fill."

"...You actually got up on your own initiative, huh?" Yukinoshita Haruno slowly sat up, scratching her cheek with her index finger, and looked at the small bag on the bed, suggesting, "Although I took a shower this afternoon, several hours have passed. I need to take another shower and change my clothes..."

"It's okay, I like strong flavors, after all, it's the flavor of 9528."

Bai Ying grinned and gave a thumbs up: "You don't need to worry, I already took a shower before I came."

I actually quite like your taste... Ugh!

Yukinoshita became a little flustered, smoothing her hair and glancing sideways: "Hey, what's with you rushing around like this? At least give me a little time to prepare..."

"Do you know how hard I worked? To solve the time reversal problem, to understand your feelings and thoughts, and to think about how to make the plan even more perfect..."

The white figure slowly approached, and Yukinoshita Hiyori slowly retreated.

"But when I realized you weren't here, I suddenly understood—the more cunning a person is, the more likely they are to fail in unexpected places; the more meticulous a person's plan is, the more it means the plan cannot withstand any changes... Yang Nai, there is no such thing as whether the opportunity is right or not, only whether you are willing to act on your feelings. If you are just waiting for the right time to get close, you will also separate because the time is not right. So there is only one answer."

"Wait a minute! What are you trying to say?"

"What I've lost, I will take back with my own hands!"

A white figure pounced!

Chapter 81 Creating Records

If there's no atmosphere, create one; if there are no conditions, create them. If you always wait for external changes to push you forward, what's the difference between you and a walking corpse?

In other words, be proactive!

With a swift leap, the white figure landed precisely, pinning Yukinoshita down onto the bed in the rented room.

Yukino's system is a bit malfunctioning.

We were happily enjoying some barbecue skewers and beer, playfully teasing each other through our phone screens, when suddenly this guy burst in, burning with lust, ready to transform into a pervert and take advantage of us—

Although I keep complaining that this guy is acting like a doting father and doesn't show any admiration or desire for Yukinoshita Haruno, isn't this plot going a bit wrong?

Isn't your desire a little too intense and overwhelming?!

"Stop, stop..."

Yukinoshita raised her hand and placed it on the white figure's shoulders, trying to remain calm as she said, "You jerk! Calm down! I'm getting angry!"

The white figure looked down at Yukino's blinking eyes and asked with a smile, "Do you think there's an atmosphere and an opportunity right now?"

"I just ate some kebabs and drank beer. I haven't showered in hours, and I haven't used the clothes and things I prepared..." Yukino Yukino felt her heart beating faster. In her jerk boyfriend's eyes, she could almost see flickering flames. She found that she was still maintaining a certain level of calm. She habitually used the logic that she hated to analyze the current situation and her feelings, and successfully found a reason to temporarily excuse herself.

The white figure's slightly heavier breathing transformed into a warm current, disrupting the rapidly working, intelligent mind.

"Yo-Yoyo prepared for a long time! She put on light makeup to highlight her features, secretly went to an adult store to buy suitable props, carefully prepared a nightgown, and chose the right time and place, waiting for your arrival with anticipation and excitement." Yukinoshita Yukino stated in a dazed tone, then her gaze turned painful, and her voice suddenly rose as she accused, "But what did you do? You just took a shower! You didn't even let me eat my fill first!"

Bai Ying said, "Don't worry, I won't break my promise to Auntie."

“…I don’t care about that, okay! I do care a little! I can’t help but think of the promise!” Yukinoshita Haruno smiled. “So, you’re on top of me like this, but you’re thinking about the promise you made with Auntie…”

"If it's a promise, then you wouldn't dare break it? And you say you like me with that kind of attitude? What a lie!"

The voice of Yukinoshita Haruno suddenly came out of the white figure's mouth. Yukinoshita Haruno's eye twitched, she was already used to this: "Hey, hey, you still make me feel weird..."

"If it weren't for the promise, how could you forget such an important one and still say you like me? That's a lie!"

Yukino's eyes twitched.

"Coming to attack me in the middle of the night shows that your feelings are fake! Being so forceful without giving me any time to prepare shows that your feelings are fake! Having so many girlfriends shows that you're not truly devoted; your feelings are fake..."

As Bai Ying continued speaking, she released one hand and gently smoothed Yukinoshita Haruno's bangs, her fingertips lightly tracing her hairline: "Even though I hate this kind of thing, I want to experience that feeling of being completely absorbed, yet I can't control my thoughts at all—instinctively doubting, instinctively denying, instinctively judging truth from falsehood, instinctively refusing to believe..."

Yukino Yukinoshita opened her mouth: "Hey, you jerk..."

"I know you like me. I have no doubt about it, and I believe in this feeling even more than you do." Bai Ying gently placed her finger on Yukinoshita's lips and said with a smile, "You just can't control your thoughts and habits—human interactions can't escape pretense, and every sincere feeling hides a shadow. If someone smiles and strikes up a conversation, it's because they're attracted to something about you; if someone tries to get closer, it's because they want something from you; if you smile at someone, it means they can benefit you; if you want to be successful in interpersonal relationships, you have to be likable..."

"Even when you're feeding a stray cat, you should make sure everyone knows that you've fed a stray cat."

"It seems that people are just pretending to be alive, and each scene is like a performance for a corresponding scenario. When I dissect myself and see this version of myself, I feel extremely disgusted and powerless."

It was like a tiny knife gently piercing Yukinoshita's heart, helping her glimpse her own feelings.

Yukinoshita Haruno had clearly passed the stage of being heartbroken, and rolled her eyes in annoyance: "Why are you talking like an old father again? You pinned me down on the bed just to say this?"

"It is difficult for someone who is used to being a certain version of themselves to become another version of themselves. After all, it is always an exceptionally long and arduous process for a person to overcome themselves."

"But none of that matters."

"9528, you can doubt my every move, fight with yourself, question your own feelings, dissect your own heart, and try to find whatever you want from it..."

The white figure paused slightly, blinked a few times, and then fixed its gaze on Yukinoshita's face: "I'm going to seduce you."

Yukino Yukinoshita, who had been holding her breath, almost choked on her own: "After all that, you still want to be a pervert!"

"I can't be your father!"

Bai Ying exclaimed in a booming voice, "That's going too far!"

Yukinoshita Haruno said irritably, "Do you even have any bottom line?!"

"My bottom line is that I like you."

Bai Ying declared confidently, "I love Yukinoshita Haruno! I love Yukinoshita Haruno who's used to pretending, I love how she puts on a fake smile for everything, and it's a really fun game to find the truth behind her facade! I love Yukinoshita Haruno who's so suspicious, I love how she even doubts herself, and I enjoy the process of building up genuine feelings with her! I love Yukinoshita Haruno! I love her struggle to fight against herself, and I enjoy the experience of changing ourselves with her, understanding ourselves, and finding a completely new version of ourselves in love!"

"Hmm...and I also like big breasts."

Bai Ying added a sentence.