Uneasy daily life

Feelings are truly strange things. If that rascal hadn't secretly called his mother that night, and if it hadn't been in this same room, he probably wouldn't have been able to control himself and would have wanted to do something... without considering the consequences, the future, or the past, and without being able to suppress the impulse to express his joy through his actions.

Why am I not particularly happy right now?

I had suggested that Yukino-chan scout ahead, and now she's succeeded. That jerk could totally let go of his overly calm and collected nature and act more intimately towards me, but... to be honest, I'm not happy about it.

It's not exactly disgust, it's just a strange feeling—even if that scoundrel were to do something against his mother's promise, he wouldn't refuse. He was mentally and physically prepared, and felt there was nothing to resist, but he just couldn't be happy.

Shy? Restless? Awkward?

Tsk, why isn't that jerk making a move?

Yukinoshita couldn't help herself and tilted her head to look to the side.

The white figure sleeping on the inside of the bed had his back pressed tightly against the wall, like a gecko lying belly up. His face was full of vigilance, and his hands were tightly wrapped around his chest. When he noticed Yukino Yukino turning her head to look at him, he immediately shouted angrily, "What do you want to do? I won't let you succeed!"

"What do I want to do?"

Yukino rolled her eyes: "You've already climbed into a girl's bed, and you're asking me what I want to do?"

Bai Ying retorted confidently, "You're the one who asked me to sleep with you!"

Yukinoshita couldn't help but turn to her side, the blanket rising as she turned, revealing glimpses of her pajamas through the faint light of the night: "I'm telling you, Yukino-chan can do it, Sakurajima can do it, so why can't I?"

Bai Ying's expression showed interest, but after a moment of hesitation, she said in a deep voice, "I will try my best to struggle even if I fail!"

"?"

Yukinoshita's eyes widened involuntarily: "You still want to struggle?"

"What? You won't even give me a chance to struggle?" Bai Ying was surprised and said in a tactful tone, "9528, we still need to go through the procedures... You don't want me to be labeled as a womanizer, do you?"

"Do you expect the girl to take the initiative?" As an adult, Yukino Yukinoshita easily used her gender advantage to persuade her with a hint of temptation, "From the perspective of common sense, it's all in your favor—shouldn't you immediately turn into a wild beast and pounce on me? It's not like you can't."

Bai Ying retorted in a stern voice, "You're so confident! Don't even think about it! I won't let you succeed!"

The two were covered by a quilt, each occupying their own territory, like the Chu and Han states facing each other across a river, competing to see who had bigger eyes. One side was determined to resist with stern words, while the other used both threats and inducements, each yielding to the other to make the first move, highlighting a somewhat disharmonious harmonious coexistence.

Yukino Shino narrowed her eyes, raised her hand and gently straightened her collar. The curves that filled out her pajamas were accentuated by her side profile, creating a deeper cleavage. She gave a playful smile and looked at the white figure provocatively: "Hmm?"

Bai Ying sneered disdainfully, rubbing her chest a couple of times with both hands: "What are you looking at? I have one too!"

"#!"

What do you mean?

Yukino Yukinoshita slowly revealed a smiling expression, but her voice contained a hint of anger: "What? Sakurajima is one thing, but I'm not as good as Yukino? Does that mean I'm not your girlfriend?"

"What's there to compare?" Bai Ying snorted. "It's not like I'm doing this to be fair, that's why I'm filming a kissing scene with the 'Brave Plus'... Give me a break, I won't do anything wrong with you."

"What kind of mistake is that?" Yukino raised an eyebrow. "We're boyfriend and girlfriend..."

"Because of the numbness and pain of doing the right thing, one pursues doing the wrong thing in an attempt to bring oneself some comfort and satisfaction; this is called depravity."

Bai Ying curled her lip and said, "Because you know you're doing something wrong, you feel guilty, so you use all sorts of reasons to convince yourself to reconcile with that guilt and make yourself happy... 9528, becoming one of my girlfriends is wrong, it's normal that you're unhappy; encouraging Yong to have intimate interactions with your boyfriend is wrong, it's normal that you're unhappy; finding out that your boyfriend is even closer to other girls, it's still normal that you're unhappy..."

"Breaking the agreement with your aunt and hurting your own body at will, seeking thrills to escape confusion, is still wrong—trying to get what is right in the wrong way will not work."

"Tsk, aren't you annoying?" Yukino Yukino clicked her tongue slightly, her friendly and seductive smile fading, her expression turning cold. "Trying to act like a father and educate his daughter at a time like this? You weren't this hypocritical when Yukino did this to you, were you? Besides, you did this kind of thing in your past life..."

A feeling of irritability began to swell within me.

Why think so much! That jerk is just betting he won't dare to take the initiative! As long as I'm as forceful as Yukino-chan, he won't run away at all...

“In my past life, I did something similar to what you did, but I didn’t find happiness or joy in it,” Bai Ying suddenly said. “I fulfilled my responsibilities as a husband, a man, and a son, but I couldn’t feel any joy in those things. Trying to turn wrong into right only resulted in a distorted relationship, either painfully aware or surrendering to it… 9528, you’re just like I was before, unable to wallow in things you don’t like, and can only suffer because of them.”

"What nonsense about right and wrong! If you dare to run away today, don't ever come back to see me again!"

Yukinoshita rolled over, lifted the covers, grabbed the white figure leaning against the wall, and pressed him onto the bed, covering him with her body. In the blink of an eye, the covers fell back onto her arched back.

This bastard didn't even put up a fight?

Yukino Yukinoshita paused for a moment, then sneered, "Is this some kind of irresponsible scumbag behavior where you play hard to get and make others take the initiative?"

"Go ahead and get me!"

Although the white figure was lying flat, it exuded an imposing aura.

Their eyes met only a few centimeters apart, but the atmosphere was anything but ambiguous. Instead, it felt like they were about to fight, but it remained at the level of pushing and shoving. Neither of them dared to punch the other and send them to the hospital or the police station.

You bastard, do you really think I wouldn't dare?!

Yukinoshita was furious. She straddled the white figure and began to unbutton her clothes from bottom to top. Her pace slowed down, but she gritted her teeth, steeled herself, and unbuttoned the last button at the collar. She grabbed the collar and prepared to take off her pajamas... Take them off—hmm? Why can't I take them off?

Yukino looked down blankly and saw a pair of hands fastening the buttons on her collar, then quickly moving them back to her sides as she lay back down.

The white figure looked completely innocent.

The pajamas had a row of buttons, all neatly fastened.

"?#!"

Yukino was somewhat enraged. She raised her hand and grabbed Shiro's neck—pulling her up and shoving her down, pulling her up and shoving her down again, angrily demanding, "Then tell me what the right thing to do is? What? Break up with me and get together with Yukino, end this messy relationship, and walk away cleanly?! A little girl who can only fake a smile isn't good enough for you to like, is she?!"

"I like you."

The white figure swayed back and forth, but was immune to dizziness, and still spoke clearly: "So don't even think about using me to hurt yourself, I won't raise the flag!"

You are hurting me right now!

Yukinoshita Haruno didn't believe it at all: "If you're a man, get an erection! You won't even do something you've already gained, what are you talking about..."

"If I make a profit, doesn't that mean you're admitting you've lost money?" Bai Ying sighed. "If you're admitting you've lost money, aren't you doing something wrong?"

Yukino Yukinoshita paused, staring intently at the white figure, her breath coming in heavy gasps: "...Why?"

I don't understand. I don't understand why I'm asking why, and why... I like that jerk, and that jerk said he likes me too. He even broke his promise to my mother. Doesn't that prove he likes me? I agreed to be one of them instead of the only one. Isn't that the same as Yukino, Hana, and Sakurajima? I like them so much that I can ignore common sense. Doesn't that prove he likes me?

Why? Why can't I ever feel that genuine, immersive, and incomprehensible affection I felt that day?

"It's hard for me to describe in words. I've said similar things to you before, but you didn't feel it... If I had to describe it..." Bai Ying paused slightly, then gave an example, "Today we did it, probably because we liked it, right? Tomorrow you'll get used to doing this kind of thing and won't feel happy anymore, so you'll feel it's not exciting enough and drag the brave one along to become sister pairs. The day after tomorrow, you'll get tired of being sister pairs and start encouraging two pairs of sister pairs... You can always find new ways to stimulate yourself, and you'll feel that the process of chasing excitement is the happiest, but you'll gradually discover one thing—chasing happiness doesn't bring happiness."

"Of course, I think you'll get stuck in the second step."

"Nonsense!" Yukinoshita Haruno sneered, "How could Yukino-chan possibly..."

“It’s impossible for you,” the white figure interrupted. “Even if it was something you orchestrated, something you hoped for—that the hero would sway me—has come true, aren’t you still dissatisfied? Why can’t I do it? Why not me? Why is there another Sakurajima? Why can’t I be happy…”

The atmosphere fell abruptly silent, and after a long pause, a slightly hoarse question rang out: "...Why?"

You like me.

Bai Ying's tone softened: "The more sober you are, the less you can indulge in something, the more pain you will feel. The more pain you feel, the more you will crave certain things you are intoxicated by, the more you will yearn for those moments, and the more pain you will feel for the absence of them... I am not a hero, I can only be tricked by your sweet words."

Yukinoshita unconsciously bit her lip, a look of confusion and bewilderment flashing in her eyes.

It's now!

The white figure suddenly flipped over and reached out, flipping Yukinoshita Haruno off her. Then, she grabbed the other's back and turned the tables, pinning Yukinoshita Haruno down beneath her.

Caught off guard, before her quick wit could process what was happening, Yukino felt a sudden touch on her chest. Almost instinctively, she reached out and grabbed her other hand, trying to stop the other person from taking another step.

When this action of rejection and obstruction was made, Yukinoshita Haruno was stunned and met the teasing and amused gaze of the white figure—Oh, so this is what you call being able to get you?

Unable to resist looking away from her gaze, her eyes fell on her chest, where the creases of her pajamas were visible. The unfamiliar touch suddenly became unbearably hot, and her heart involuntarily raced, to the point that she forgot to breathe.

"Plop, puff, puff..."

The white figure emitted a simulated heartbeat, each beat perfectly synchronized with the vibrations emanating from his palm. He suddenly exclaimed, "Ah, to pass censorship, I should rack my brains at a time like this and improvise a poem to express this scene... Soft and white like snow, mountain peaks, Five Finger Mountain? The heartbeat is the earth trembling beneath the peaks... This peak... umm..."

The woman, already beginning to mature, was sweating profusely, a flush rising unconsciously to her face. Her short hair clung messily to her forehead and cheeks, and the neckline of her thin nightgown tilted slightly during the struggle, revealing more soft, white skin on one side—whether due to her naturally good figure or the "crow drinking water" effect. Her fingers, gripping her arm, had somehow become weak and powerless. Her eyes, usually filled with suspicion both outwardly and inwardly, were now in a state of utter confusion and bewilderment, a faint sound escaping from her breathless mouth and nose: "Mmm..."

Bai Ying suddenly ran out of words and couldn't help but pinch him.

Yukinoshita Haruno snapped back to reality and stared wide-eyed.

"Calm down—!! This was an accident!!!"

Wild punches! Frenzied kicks! Lying-down Aikido!

The white figure huddled under the covers, unconsciously wrapping herself into a ball.

Just as Yukino Yukinoshita stopped venting her anger, panting, she suddenly heard a voice come from the spherical object: "See, I told you so, didn't I? You're just a taunting brat, but when it comes to anything, you're more suspicious than anyone else..."

"You too!" Yukinoshita Haruno added irritably, "Yukino-chan told me everything!"

"Oh dear, I'm also gradually finding the feeling of liking something. I used to say that the brave are greedy, but now it seems that I'm the truly greedy one."

A white figure poked its head out from under the blanket.

"greedy?"

"You need other people's hearts." Bai Ying coughed. "So it's normal that I couldn't help myself just now... 9528, this feeling of sincerity isn't something you find, but something you create together."

After taking a few breaths of oxygen, Yukinoshita Haruno recovered, sat cross-legged on the bed, rolled her eyes, and tried to forget her embarrassing performance: "Created? Do you mean your one-sided lewd behavior?"

"No, no, no, I mean the kind of thing that truly resonates with you and that you won't doubt!" Bai Ying said seriously. "Your so-called pursuit of thrills is just an attempt to fill the void of confusion and depravity. It's not a true pursuit of thrills at all—if you're going to pursue thrills and existence, then do something truly interesting!"

"Don't try to fool me."

Yukinoshita smoothed her disheveled hair, took a few deep breaths, hesitated for a moment, and then asked in a way that even she found childish and naive, "You jerk... what do you like about me?"

You shouldn't have asked that question.

“That’s true…” Yukinoshita Haruno straightened her collar and said casually, “It makes you look like a quirky little girl like Yukino-chan.”

"Beautiful, big-breasted, calm, rational, very sincere to those she cares about, the contrast between her playful and unrestrained exterior and her confused yet clear-headed interior is very attractive, likes me, etc..." Bai Ying concluded, "You should ask me why I don't like you."

What is this mess?

Yukinoshita Haruno simply followed up by asking, "Then why don't you like me?"

Bai Ying replied immediately: "But I like you."

...?

Am I being tricked?

While Yukino Yukino was concocting cause and effect in her mind, her heart was pounding at what should have been a boring and tedious conversation. The moment she felt her heartbeat quicken, she couldn't help but recall the moment when her heartbeat was controlled by that bastard, and her heartbeat started to beat even faster.

"Alright, alright, stop with the silly couple act." Yukinoshita Haruno changed the subject, casually asking, "What do you think is the truly exciting thing?"

"Of course, it's the kind of thing that defies common sense, that you feel like you're crazy, but you can't suppress the urge to do it, and just thinking about the success makes your lips curl up into a crazy smile, and you writhe around in bed doing it..."

The white figure had tied the blanket around her neck at some point, and with a wave of her hand like a cloak, solemnly pointed towards the door.

Yukinoshita rested her chin on her hand, guessing with great interest... Could it be that she went out for late-night barbecue skewers, experiencing the feeling of worrying about her weight while also feeling excited?

But it's more fun to do this kind of thing with Xiaojing. I play the lady and Xiaojing plays the tomboy.

As it turns out, the stimulation Bai Ying described was indeed far too intense.

……

……

Something feels strange... My neck is itchy... Is it the wind?

Yukino Yukinoshita opened her heavy eyes, blinked slowly a few times, felt that her left field of vision was a little narrow, and subconsciously turned her head away.

Oh, it's my older sister...

Yukino Yukinoshita turned her head back, the warmth and comfort of the blankets gently pulling her eyelids down again.

The alarm hasn't gone off yet, I should continue enjoying my rest, meow...

Hmm? What did you just see?

Yukino Yukinoshita effortlessly opened her eyelids a crack and glanced to her right.

Oh, it's Shiro-kun... What a terrifying fungus that even grows in dreams.

Yukino Yukinoshita smiled slightly, closed her eyes, and continued to rest.

……

……Um?

"Get up—!!"

A loud shout rang out from the apartment early in the morning.

Chapter Sixty-Eight: Pervert

"Outrageous! Unbelievable! Outrageous! A despicable prank! What are you doing?!"

In the living room, Yukino Yukinoshita paced back and forth, arms crossed. The lingering chill of waking up to find two people in her bed still lingered, her hair trembling. The heavy feeling that followed only fueled her anger—you two! Sneaking into my bed?! What were you doing while you were asleep?!