Uneasy daily life

"In short, you imagine how the characters in the play would act, project your own feelings onto their shadows, unconsciously experience the joys and sorrows of the story, and your thoughts can't help but spread out, imagining all sorts of possibilities..."

The white figure sat cross-legged on the sofa opposite Yukino Yukinoshita, her tone distant and lofty, as if she were proclaiming a sermon: "Lying in bed, the night is gentle, my body is familiar, yet I am not yet asleep, and my soul begins to awaken, roaming freely—where will I be after death? Was what I did right or wrong? What will the future be like? Have I succeeded now? Do I know this world? What is the meaning of life?... All intellect and emotion will spread their wings in that instant, carrying thoughts to distant places, endless questions spreading out from the chaos, questions that never have answers, yet the heart cannot help but feel genuine emotions..."

Her ears, hidden beneath her hair, were burning hot. Yukino Yukinoshita moved her lips and muttered softly, "It's not that exaggerated..."

"Then, when I woke up the next day, I mocked myself for being an idiot."

Bai Ying concluded with absolute certainty.

"White fungus!"

Yukino Yukinoshita looked up, a little embarrassed and angry.

Bai Ying preemptively asked, "What came to mind?"

"Well... anyway, you're a bad guy, so you can tell..."

Yukino Yukinoshita pursed her lips slightly, her gaze wandering for a moment before returning to face her directly. A faint shyness lingered in her voice, gradually turning tinged with sadness as she softly described, "Whether Princess Kaguya likes it or not, she is ultimately not a human being. When the time comes, she will surely return to the moon... Whether it's the person searching for the five treasures, or perhaps the emperor who feigns affection, or even the elderly couple who raised her, they are ultimately people of the earth..."

The more I pondered how the story should unfold, and how I should interact with Bai Jun, the more I realized things that I might have overlooked, things that Bai Jun might have always overlooked—the Killer Queen, hand fetish, superpowers, the Scarlet Troupe, Bai Jun's words and actions… These things seemed to represent a distance that was unattainable and beyond my control, even more so than my status as an international student.

My heart sank as my thoughts swirled, recalling too many sad things, to the point that the feeling of helplessness I once felt returned.

Is Bai Jun's "Killer Queen" really okay? Is his hand fetish just a hand fetish? Will it disappear after high school... no, will it disappear someday? Will my feelings restrict his freedom? Can I accept his feelings? Will he ever get tired of me? Will he ever get tired of him?

My mind keeps pondering the future, but it always produces noises of something beautiful yet to come.

All thoughts of those rivals vanished, and I stubbornly clung to the connection between us, unwilling to sever it, yet constantly questioning myself. So each peck brought a pang of pain, and I couldn't help but feel sorrow.

I'm not that powerless Yukino Yukinoshita who only imprisons herself, even if I'm pathetic and seem inexplicable to you...

I also want to imprint my eyes onto yours.

Yukino Yukinoshita handed over the script and said softly, "If Haku-kun is trying to lie to me, I definitely won't be able to tell the truth from the lies... He was supposed to give me an answer during the cultural festival, but the closer the time gets, the more I overthink things... I feel like I'm becoming a troublesome person."

Bai Ying took the script and handed over the peeled apple from the table.

"I write a few lines, but my delicate pen cannot express my feelings. Nothing touches me more deeply than the hearts of others, whether it be sorrow or joy."

Her eyes shone with a peculiar light, but her expression remained largely unchanged. Yukino Yukinoshita took the apple with a slightly bewildered look, took a small bite, and stared at the white figure flipping through the script. The apple tasted sweet as she chewed it, as if it were flowing into her heart. She couldn't help but mutter softly, "Bad people who blatantly invade others' privacy can be sentenced to imprisonment..."

Bai Ying flipped through the script, surprised, and said, "What privacy did I invade? Explain it in detail."

Click!

Yukino Yukinoshita's voice as she bit into the apple became a little more menacing.

Bai Ying smiled, flipping through the script as if recounting a story, or perhaps telling a fairy tale, her tone gentle and ordinary.

"Yukino Yukinoshita, a sensitive little animal. She loves to hide in the corner of her heart, secretly muttering her happy and unhappy thoughts to the wall. She doesn't have many favorite things, but if she does like something, she'll bring it back to her den and take good care of it. She thinks other small animals aren't friendly, so she's often alone. Although she's melancholic and sentimental, she can never find anyone to confide in, which has led to her developing a habit of pondering her own thoughts, with little expression on her face. My favorite thing to do is to wait at the entrance of her den. When she sneaks out, I'll bark at her and scare her back, but she always likes to peek out at me. Later, she got a little bolder, and when I looked elsewhere, she would sneak out and tug at my trouser leg, trying to drag me back into the den. Whenever she noticed me watching her, she would run back into the den in fear, meowing a few times in protest and uttering some threats..."

"You're the bad guy, you're the rat."

Yukino Yukinoshita couldn't help but take another big bite of the apple. She looked away from the other person and focused her gaze on the apple. She noticed a chip on the other half of the apple, and could vaguely see the indentation of teeth marks.

First of all, I must have taken three bites, but there are four teeth marks on the apple...

Then the brain did not respond.jpg

"Brave."

"Ok?"

The white figure reached out its hand, and Yukino Yukinoshita hesitated for a moment, then instinctively reached out her left hand...

"Two."

"Huh?!" Yukino Yukinoshita's eyes widened, and she hesitated, "Haku-kun, you..."

The white figure just smiled at her, so Yukino Yukinoshita put down the apple and gently pressed her slender palm on the white figure's outstretched hands. She suddenly remembered that there was still some apple juice on her hands... Hmm, is this the time to think about such things?

"Bai Jun, I think I saw it..."

Yukino Yukinoshita sounded a little nervous, her eyes unconsciously glancing behind the white figure.

It's vaguely clear that the Killer Queen, who should only exist in comics, actually exists?

Hmm? Shouldn't Killer Queen be purplish-red? Why does it look a bit whitish?

“If scars are unavoidable, I will write a tragedy to replace them, to tear away the falsehoods and reveal the truth…” Bai Ying said in a deep voice. “Bai Yinghua’s aesthetics believe that lies are art itself. For me, lies are a way of reflecting the truth. For example, giving you a promise to soothe your sensitive little heart, or showing vulnerability to give you the illusion of being relied upon…”

With a slight press of the palms, the warm hands pressed together more tightly, the heat seemed to transform into electricity, crackling and tapping on the more sensitive and delicate palms.

"unnecessary."

Yukino Yukinoshita suddenly interrupted him, her eyes, reflected in the white shadow, revealing her own gentleness: "It seems that you have comforted me. I think... I understand what it means to like someone. Promises or needs don't seem to matter that much anymore."

After hearing those words, how can I possibly feel sad?

People rarely make eye contact with each other, staring intently into each other's eyes. Perhaps it's because they're used to avoiding eye contact, making it easier to lie without knowing what they mean.

Bai Jun's eyes are so beautiful, deep and clear, able to reflect Yukino Yukinoshita's image without being distorted, misunderstood, or twisted... Looking into his eyes, one can't help but want to get closer, and the image of Yukino Yukinoshita in his eyes begins to change.

I met someone, and I became the person I had always dreamed of being.

Is this Bai Jun?

"She'll punch the corner wall down, jump on your head, and declare that this whole world belongs to her corner..."

Yukino Yukinoshita was somewhat immersed in the tacit and quiet atmosphere, and couldn't help but gently add some shy yet arrogant words to the story.

Bai Ying suddenly had a brilliant idea: "I am Bai Yinghua."

Yukino Yukinoshita smiled, revealing a few small white teeth: "I'll bite you."

Having recovered from her fluctuating emotions, Yukino Yukinoshita breathed a slight sigh of relief and couldn't help but ask with some confusion, "So... why did we shake hands?"

Bai Ying's face was solemn: "I have made up my mind to draw my gun and sword and charge toward my destiny."

"Ah."

Yukino Yukinoshita suddenly realized that understanding Haku-kun was actually very simple; you just had to see what he was saying and doing... This bad guy's thoughts were never hidden.

Because he is real.

Yukino Yukinoshita loves the truth.

As a small joy swayed in her heart, Yukino Yukinoshita suddenly pressed her legs together tightly, her gaze snapping away like lightning to look to the side, where she whispered as if gritting her teeth, "Are you... done yet?"

"almost."

The white-clad figure remained unfazed: "This is normal. If you've read the manga, you should understand, right? It must have been Kira Yoshikage who did it!"

"White Fungus, immediately degrade your vocal system!"

Yukino Yukinoshita abruptly pulled her hand back, feeling awkward and disoriented, unsure of where to put her eyes, hands, feet, or any other part of her body that could move.

Ding dong——!

"Huh? Oh no!" The white figure jumped to his feet. "Hero! Hide!"

"Sit down with your butt facing inwards!"

Yukino Yukinoshita looked around awkwardly, then instinctively followed the white shadow's instructions. Honestly, if someone saw her like that... it would be impossible to explain, wouldn't it? They'd definitely think she was doing something improper!

Should we hide in the corner behind this sofa?

No! Yukino, you once swore to be an honest and sincere person, so how do you face this situation? You should have a clear conscience... Huh? Haku-kun suddenly said that...

Yukino Yukinoshita stared wide-eyed at Mai Sakurajima, who was crouching behind the sofa.

Mai Sakurajima moved over to make more room, ran her hand through her hair, and gave an awkward but polite smile.

Yukino Yukinoshita glared at the white figure with eyes like knives, but the white figure had already stepped forward to open the door.

Aren't you curious about who's ringing the doorbell?

Mai Sakurajima said with a smile, "I've heard quite a bit... of things that make me a little jealous."

Yukino Yukinoshita puffed out her cheeks slightly, squatted down, and muttered, "Just wait for the divorce, hmph."

Mai Sakurajima raised an eyebrow: "I peeled the apple, and I took a bite out of it."

"..."

The fist is hard.

Giving others a glimpse into the truth is just adding fuel to the fire of someone else's dark past, isn't it? He definitely saw through it all!

This white mushroom!

written request for leave

I can't take it anymore. I have to shamefully ask for leave. Writing Yukino's thoughts and feelings has already exhausted my brain. Now I have to quickly switch to another character's feelings and thoughts, and I also have to figure out how to make the white shadow respond in an interesting way. As a result, I have only written less than two thousand words at four in the morning... I'm numb.

Of course, the rumors about it being nearing its end are just that—rumors. I wanted to write about an extraordinary life that only exists in novels. Just consider it a fantasy; where would the fun in a novel come from if there were no fantasies?

However, I feel like I was a bit confused yesterday. I got carried away while writing and it turned into a one-woman show by Yukino. I should have waited until after the play to summarize Yukino's feelings, thoughts, and decisions (whispering: she's going to build a harem...).

Then it's time to let Bai Ying express some of her inner thoughts, laying the groundwork for the plot to come.

Of course, the most important thing is to be interesting. Boring novels will only receive boring reviews. Sometimes, trying to be interesting might damage the character's image, but it doesn't matter. Readers are all idiots anyway. Just get their emotions into the story in a few chapters (outrageous opinion).

Let me also answer a question that some readers might be wondering about: Is Bai Ying real? Acting crazy, lying, talking nonsense, watching for fun, being emotionless, and focused on causing trouble—at first glance, it seems to have nothing to do with reality, but isn't that the most real thing?

Cast aside your worries and the shackles of life, let intellect and emotion return to their natural state, and let all your troubles explode like fireworks.

In reality, if a person is concerned about others' thoughts, right and wrong, interpersonal relationships, moral principles, common sense constraints, and the urgency of material desires, and can only end up remaining silent and forced to comply with certain things, is that not genuine enough?

If the joys of life are not genuine, then life is truly filled with suffering.

However, writing such a character is indeed difficult, especially when I have writer's block. If I have a sudden lapse in judgment, I might go astray. In addition, deliberately reducing Bai Ying's inner thoughts can make the impression somewhat fragmented. Sigh... I lack the ability.

In short, I need to take leave! I need to take leave! I need to take leave!

My head hurts and feels empty, baa baa...

Yukino drained him dry.

good night.

Chapter 105 I Have a General Aunt!

"Hi hi~ Ya hello~"

Yukino Yukinoshita stood smiling in front of the door, her eyes narrowed into a crescent shape, looking like an ordinary, kind and gentle older sister.

The white-clad figure immediately took a large step back, put his hands in his pockets, and stared at him sternly: "9528! You want to rebel?!"

"That jerk is talking nonsense again."

Yukinoshita entered with a smile, closing the door behind her. She casually remarked, "You rascal, do you know what's been bothering Yukino-chan lately?"

"I know," Bai Ying nodded. "She's inside the house."

"?"

Yukino didn't check if anyone was in the living room or on the balcony; she just quickly glanced at the shoe rack in the entryway.

The shoe rack was spotless, with only a pair of sneakers and a few pairs of slippers besides the shoes. Judging from the same style and different colors, someone had obviously used the "random shopping" method at the supermarket and bought a whole bag of the same slippers.

LOL, Yukino-chan, that kind of pushover who has a key and knows how to knock on the door, would definitely change her shoes first when she enters the house.

With her overly meticulous nature, even the slippers in her house weren't copied and pasted; each pair was even categorized—for male guests, for female guests, for the bathroom, for short trips, for home use…

Even if the neighbor is a scoundrel, I will always change into slippers for short trips before going out, and then put the slippers properly on the shoe rack.

I could tell at a glance that the jerk was spouting nonsense again, and he was just deliberately bringing up things that were bothering him.

The basic skill of bringing up the most inappropriate topic is...

"Yukino-chan, I'm coming in~"

Yukino took off her high heels, put on plastic slippers, and called out to the house in a rather joking manner.

Bai Ying listened intently, then said seriously, "She said, 'You've come at the wrong time. Please climb.'"

Behind the sofa.

Yukino Yukinoshita pursed her lips tightly, gritting her teeth inwardly. This was indeed Haku-kun's usual tactic. Had she lied? It seemed like she hadn't. Like bacteria growing in someone's heart, it could see right through them, yet pretend to be clueless and crawl around aimlessly... She suddenly noticed Mai Sakurajima's gaze as she observed her.

Bad protein bacteria, who wants to put on some kind of chaotic scene for you! My sister is looking for white bacteria for nothing more than those things, why would I hide anything?

Yukino Yukinoshita held onto her skirt and used her knees to push herself up...