Uneasy daily life

That being said, before comforting herself, her sister had also considered whether to keep her distance, and she herself had felt resentful and aggrieved towards her sister. They had argued and talked heart-to-heart, which led to what happened back then. That jerk is so inexplicable; it's like he can grab the thread of emotion at will and then pull it hard…

Ahhhhhh——!

Sakurajima Mai (Waka) tossed and turned in bed, feeling a chill run down her spine as she recalled what had happened during the commercial shoot.

Why was I so stupid? I actually fell for such an obvious trap, making a fool of myself in front of my sister and suffering utter social humiliation!

Let's die together! Now, get up, kick the door, and die together with the bastard!

Sakurajima Mai (Waka) rolled around, scratching her long, smooth hair into a mess before finally stopping.

It wasn't because I was tired, but because it was a bit hot late at night, and if I rolled around a few more times, I would have to get up and take another shower.

Could the bastard be referring to Bai Yinghua himself?

"Damn it, damn it! You tricked me!"

Sakurajima Mai (Wahana) pounded her pillow for a while, venting her frustration by scratching through the iron door, and couldn't help but sigh: "You should have just said so if you could tell, instead of lying..."

I can't play the older sister, and the older sister doesn't care whether I can play her or not.

I'm not playing the older sister; I'm playing a better version of myself.

As long as she's willing to follow her heart and become better, the older sister doesn't care what she does in her image.

Sakurajima Mai (Wahana) lay on the bed in a daze for a while, scratching her head and feeling a little strange, when she suddenly remembered her mother.

From childhood to adulthood, my mother seems to have said many similar but different things about the path: strive to become better, be like Mai Sakurajima, I believe you have great talent and can become even better, blah blah blah...

The more I heard, the more annoyed I became; the more annoyed I became, the more I hated her; and the more I hated her, the more I felt that her reasoning made no sense.

Everyone understands the principle, but few know how to apply it when it's needed.

Sigh, my feelings are a bit complicated. Thinking of my mother, what is this feeling I'm experiencing? Should I ask that jerk...?

Mai Sakurajima (Wahana) was startled.

Going along and becoming a jerk for fun?!

I must have a serious illness! Time to sleep!

……

……

"＃￥%@!"

“……*……￥@!”

Two blurry figures are arguing. Their words are not very clear, but the atmosphere of an argument is strong.

Mai Sakurajima (Wahana) wasn't quite sure where she was, but she vaguely felt that the older figure in the crowd was probably her mother.

Why did the argument start? It doesn't matter. It could be when you're lying on the sofa, when you're on your phone, when you haven't touched a certain dish while eating, after an exam, after work, or when your mom suddenly says she wants to have a heart-to-heart talk...

Too many reasons make them unimportant.

What are they arguing about? It's mostly about the mother criticizing her for being useless, and the mother defending herself for being useful. Both are constrained by some unspeakable emotions in their hearts, and the mother always loses the argument.

I feel both tired and annoyed.

Even eating feels tiring.

I get annoyed when I hear footsteps getting closer outside the room.

"You only care about your daughter, you don't care about me at all!"

The angry words suddenly pierced through the fog, and the scene before them seemed to have undergone a technological leap, gradually becoming clear.

Mai Sakurajima (Wahana) was somewhat taken aback.

Am I... dreaming?

Chapter Thirty-One: I Must Have a Serious Illness!

We're very familiar with arguing.

First try to stay calm, then damn it, stay calm, and finally, depending on the situation, either slam the door and shut yourself in, or run away from home.

What you think about during the day, you dream about at night. I dream about arguing with my mother all night, it's really weird.

Why not dream about being on a TV show with your sister?

[As expected, a dream is just a dream. The things I said were completely illogical, and I couldn't even argue... No, the me in the dream wasn't me at all.]

Feng Bin and Hua Xin complained in their hearts, and the mother in their dream, furious, immediately shouted back: "Aren't you my daughter? You're the only one I care about and have eyes for!"

[As expected of my own dream, everything I subconsciously thought about was presented through my mother in the dream.]

"Pooh!"

'Toyohama Kazuka' spat out a mouthful of spittle, and the mother in the dream quickly dodged, roaring, "Kazuka! What are you doing?! Is this even acceptable?!"

This is truly outrageous.

"I'm not just your daughter! I'm also a student at Sakuraha Academy, a member of Sweet Bullet, one of the eight billion advanced beings on Earth, Mai Sakurajima's younger sister, and the one and only Toyohama Kazuka! You know nothing about what I'm thinking, what I'm worried about, what I've been through, who I've become friends with, who I've had conflicts with, what I've seen and what thoughts I have, and where my rebellious personality comes from in your eyes—you have no idea about any of that, nor are you interested in knowing!"

"Your so-called heart-to-heart talk with me was full of your own agenda. You didn't want to understand me at all, nor did you want me to understand you. You just wanted to exercise what you thought was your absolute power!"

'Fengbin and Hua' sneered and said with a sneer, "So in your eyes, I will always be your daughter! You can look down on me, criticize me at will, discipline me arbitrarily, and I will always be inferior to you, used to highlight you as the mother, so that you have someone to exercise your power! You only have your daughter in your eyes, and you don't have me at all!"

In the dream, the mother angrily shouted, "I'm your mother! If I don't take care of you, who will?!"

'Toyohama Kazuka' roared, 'Besides taking care of your daughter, who else can you take care of?!'

The two stared at each other, the atmosphere tense and ready to explode at any moment.

[Huh? So the arguments in my dreams are really that intense? Or maybe my mom's arguments in my dreams aren't that bad?]

Feng Bin and Hua were in a good mood. They were so eloquent. Even in my dreams, they were truly worthy of me.

"Am I wrong?" the mother in the dream shouted, pointing and gesturing. "Look at yourself! Always talking back and arguing, running away from home, you can't even do your job as an idol properly, how are you worthy of respect? You become arrogant and complacent with the little success you achieve. When I was your age, I did much better than you! If you weren't my daughter, would I need to care about you?! I point out your shortcomings and things you don't do well, all this trouble and effort is for your own good!"

Feng Bin and Hua's mood sank. Even in her dreams, she still disliked this whole set of tactics.

But it seems I can't speak in my dreams—speak back! Me in my dreams!

'Toyohama Kazuka' scoffed, 'You mean you're doing this for my own good, instead of being obsessed with the power of lecturing?'

In the dream, my mother's chest heaved as she said irritably, "You think it's interesting for me to lecture you? You feel hurt and sad, but I don't?!"

"Alright! Then let's exchange power!"

'Toyohama Kazuka' snapped her fingers: 'From now on, I have the right to point out your shortcomings, and you have no right to point out mine. Is that fair?'

"Where is this fair?" Mom frowned in the dream. "Weren't you just being unreasonable with me too?"

'Toyohama Kazuka' said, 'You can be unreasonable, but from now on, I am a daughter with the rights of a mother, and you are a mother with the identity of a daughter!'

boom!

Before Feng Bin and Hua could react, everything went black, as if someone had hit them on the back of the head with a hammer.

In a daze, I could see clearly again... I was still arguing with my mother, but this time their positions had changed.

My mother was sitting on the sofa, and I, in my dream, was standing beside her.

"Look at the way you look!"

'Fengbin and Hua' took the initiative, saying with a look of utter disappointment, 'What kind of mother are you? You can't even control Dad. He only comes home occasionally to sleep, you never see him! You've got a marriage that's practically divorced, how can you be so shameless?!'

【Exactly, exactly, hmph!】

Feng Bin and Hua nodded secretly.

"You—" The mother in the dream was furious. She glared at the other person for a moment, then angrily turned her gaze away. "Aren't you annoying?!"

"I'm so annoyed! So annoyed! Is this the kind of husband you found? Are you blind?" 'Toyohama Kazuka' pointed and said, "It's one thing to be incompetent at finding a husband, but look at Aunt Sakurajima. She's divorced and still doing very well. She's a well-known agent in the industry. What about you? Besides the company and money you inherited, what achievements have you made? Don't you know how to try harder? Even if you can't compare to others, at least try to catch up, right?"

In the dream, the mother frowned and said irritably, "She's so good, why don't you let her be your mother!"

"I can laugh even though I have a mother like that. Aunt Sakurajima is amazing. She raised Mai Sakurajima into a big star all by herself. When other families have conflicts, they can talk things out. All you do is point fingers. When will you grow up?"

"I'm not an agent! What are you comparing me to her for?!"

Toyohama Kazuka said earnestly, "This is called horizontal comparison. Sakurajima Mai is a top-tier agent in the industry. What about you? What level is the company you inherited? Others start from scratch and climb up step by step, while you're standing on a slope and will only slide down! Do you think you're satisfied with that? If you don't look up and look down, you'll eventually reach the bottom!"

In the dream, her mother retorted sharply, "It's not like I didn't try!"

"How do I know if you've tried or not if I haven't seen you put in the effort?"

'Fengbin and Hua' said angrily, 'You're almost forty years old, how many years do you have left to live with your energy? Don't you know how precious time is? You're so muddle-headed, just drifting through life, not achieving anything. I'm worried sick about you! What will you do after you retire like this? Have you thought about it?!'

In the dream, the mother crossed her arms in frustration: "I can support myself, you don't need to worry about me!"

'Toyohama Kazuka' reprimanded sternly: 'I'm your daughter, if I don't worry about her, who will?!'

【well said! 】

Feng Bin and Hua were in a good mood. The coolness in their feet seemed to reach their brains, and they felt that they were incredibly powerful in their dreams, saying things that they usually kept in their hearts but never dared to say.

I'll nag you all the time, and even in my dreams I'll nag you...

In the dream, my mother suddenly stood up: "Enough!"

"You dare talk back? I'm doing this all for your own good, and you still won't listen to me?" 'Feng Binhehua' sneered, "Mom! You'll regret this!"

In the dream, her mother said with a gloomy face, "Hehua! I am your mother!"

"Heh, not planning to continue?" 'Toyohama Kazuka' sneered, "How does it feel to be pointed at and taught a lesson by someone wielding power? I don't think you're exactly 'well-behaved' either."

[Exactly. If the roles were reversed, Mom wouldn't be much happier either. She might get angry and throw a tantrum when Grandpa and Grandma point fingers at her, and then she'd do that to me anyway...]

Feng Bin and Hua muttered to themselves what they only knew.

"And what about you? If you were a mother, wouldn't you be the same?"

In the dream, the mother suddenly asked a question in return.

【……Um? 】

Feng Bin and Hua were taken aback.

“It’s different,” 'Toyohama Kazuka' snorted. “I did this so you could experience what I feel!”

Yes, that's it...

"Same!" In the dream, the mother seemed to have found a breakthrough, and her expression softened. "Isn't what you're saying exactly what's in your heart?"

"Of course!"

【certainly……】

"I was just telling the truth."

In my dream, my mother hummed.

"You said yes?"

"Toyohama Kazuka" pouted.

"So you say it is, then it is?"

"My mother said in a deep voice in my dream."

Feng Bin and Hua were somewhat silent, and seemed to want to scratch their heads... Limited by their identity as daughters, they did subconsciously avoid saying many things, even when arguing. They could only repeatedly emphasize their frustration. When I have the power of a mother, will I be the same as my mother? Will I lecture and scold in a way that seems incomprehensible?

I don't understand.

This dream is really... sigh?

Feng Bin and Hua suddenly realized that the dream had changed again. There was a strange sense of déjà vu. On a desolate place with jagged stone pillars, the dream version of herself and the dream version of her mother were facing each other. The tense atmosphere pulled out gusts of howling wind. The turbulent air currents swirled around the two of them, seemingly about to turn into a storm.

"If arguing can't lead to a solution, then we must resolve the argument itself! Reason only exists within the realm of physical radiation; this is what's meant by matter determining consciousness..."

The gale arrived late, then roared suddenly, snapping stone pillars one by one with a thunderous crash. A plume of dust, like an earth dragon, rose up and exploded against the mountainside.

'Toyohama Kazuka' stood in the position of her mother in her dream, lowered her right leg which was stretched out in front of her, her whole body surrounded by steam rising and hissing, with a faint white aura carrying her golden hair flying, and said arrogantly: "Old woman, your era is over! An old man should act like an old man, and obediently lie down!"

Toyohama Kazuka: "?"

【What happened? 】

In my dream, I kicked my mother away? No, that can't be right!

boom!