I won't be a loser.

who? !

The girl suddenly became nervous. Just when she was about to shout out, a familiar face appeared in front of her. The girl, who had just become nervous, suddenly relaxed and looked at the boy in front of her with a complicated look in her eyes.

"I thought it was some bad guy."

"Don't I look like a bad person?"

"Nothing like it at all."

After letting go of her hand, the door slowly opened. Mito Yuge looked at the wise man who appeared in front of her, and her mood was a little subtle. Last time, the other party gave her 200,000 yen, and the two of them went out for a walk together. They hadn't seen each other for a long time. She didn't expect to meet again after such a long time.

"Do you have time now?"

Seeing that Mito Yuge was a little distracted, Xianren asked.

"Time... there's always time."

She was already very tired, but after seeing the boy in front of her, she miraculously perked up and a smile appeared on her face.

"Let's go out together. Haven't you had dinner yet?"

"No."

"Then let's go together."

Looking at the girl in front of him, Xianren extended his hand.

Mito Yuge stood in the small room, looking at the fair hand of the sage in front of her. After a slight hesitation, she smiled and placed her delicate fair hand in his palm...

The two came out of the comic cafe and walked onto the street, holding hands and looking at the bustling night scene of the city. Both of them remained silent, looking at the scenery on the street. No one took the initiative to speak, and they kept moving forward.

"Regular food, or Western food?"

"I also can."

Mito Yuge looked at Xianren's face and gave an answer with a smile.

"Well, here it is."

The two stopped in front of a restaurant called "Miyazaki Fudo". The wise man asked Mito Yuge for her opinion, and the girl nodded and followed the wise man into the restaurant.

"Are you two?"

"Well, are there any private rooms, a more private environment?"

"Yes, please come this way."

Under the guidance of the waiter, Xianren, who was holding hands with Mito Yuka, followed each other to a quiet and secluded room, and then let go of Mito Yuka's hand.

The moment she let go, her warm palms felt a chill. The girl couldn't help but look at the wise man who was motioning her to sit down. She felt a little disappointed, but she kept a smile on her face and sat down opposite the wise man.

"Here's the menu. After you've read it, just press the bell."

"Well, please."

"No."

The waiter left the room neatly and quickly. The two people who stayed behind looked down at the menu in front of them. The prices made Mito Yuge look a little surprised. She raised her head and looked at Xianren who was sitting opposite her.

"Huh? What's wrong?"

Noticing the girl's gaze turned towards him, Xianren gave her a confused expression in return.

"No, the food here is a bit... expensive, isn't it?"

An hour's work would only earn me around a thousand yen, but the prices of the dishes here—

"Don't worry about the price. Just relax and have a good time. I'm fully prepared."

"..."

After hearing what Kento said, Mito Yuge lowered her head and looked at the dishes on the menu again. After some inner struggle, she flipped through the menu silently. However, when the menu was closed and she and Kento ordered dishes together, she did not order the expensive dishes. At the same time, she was thinking in her heart whether her savings balance was enough to support this meal.

His eyes fell on Mito Yuge, and noticing the girl's conflicted expression, Xianren glanced towards the door, thinking that it would take some time for the food to be served.

"How's your life been lately?"

"Ok?"

The sudden question made him distractedly think about his remaining living expenses. How much would be left after today's meal, and how much he should reduce his living expenses in the next period of time, when he heard the wise man's voice, raised his head, and looked at him with a dazed look.

"My life lately."

"Nothing has changed. It's still the same as before. Every day I go to school, then go to work at my part-time job after school, and then go back to the coffee shop to rest."

"What about living expenses?"

"I haven't used it all up. I've saved it up. You're a bit like my father, Miyamizu-kun."

The young man in front of her was obviously much younger than her, but he inexplicably gave her a sense of reliability, which made Mito Yuge look into the eyes of the sage. There was an untouchable depth in those clear eyes, which fascinated her for a moment.

"Father? Does he seem so mature?"

"He feels very reliable. He's obviously much younger than me, but he's always been helping me and giving me so much support. He's completely unlike the other guys I know."

"What are the other boys like?"

Xianren was also a little curious about what kind of image the boys around him had in the eyes of girls. Out of curiosity, he asked Mito Yuge, which made the girl think silently for a while, considering how to describe her better.

"What's it like to be a teenager? Always full of energy. I always act dismissive towards the girls around me, but I'll secretly observe their reactions. To the one I like, I'll also deliberately act indifferent... So, you say one thing and mean another?"

"Is it always like this?"

This description is very consistent with many boys in elementary and middle schools, but Xianren has rarely seen these people around him in high school. It seems that the boys in his class seem to have strong personalities?

"And those who think they are very charming, who will take the initiative to talk to girls, and who will occasionally invite girls to go shopping together or exchange contact information?"

Recalling the boys in her school, Mito Yuge couldn't help but shook her head slightly.

"Ordinary boys have it too, but it doesn't seem very noticeable."

"Have you read the book?"

While still thinking about the boys in school and wondering what Xianren wanted to know, the topic suddenly turned to "books", which made Mito Yuge raise her head and look at the boy opposite her. After pursing her lips, she nodded slightly.

"Yeah, I've seen it."

"how do you feel?"

"The sadness... isn't too much, but it does make it feel more real."

When she just finished reading it, Mito Yuge did not feel the slightest bit dissatisfied with Kento because of the ending. She just quietly read the content and sat there thinking for a long time.

"If the person I first met wasn't you, I don't know what would have happened to me. It would probably have been a very decadent life. Death... might have been the best possible ending."

In society, things like compensated dating are not particularly rare. On the contrary, they are common in those prosperous corners. There are too many temptations in the city. How can girls who are still in their youth not be affected by the atmosphere of comparison with people around them?

Once it happens the first time, there will be a second time. Once such a thing is discovered by others, it is only a matter of time before you are expelled from school.

As long as you think about it calmly, you will know clearly that such a thing will not have any good ending, especially for someone like her who has no protection. Once she falls into darkness, she will probably never be qualified to stand in the sun again.

"reality?"

"Although it's a bit romantic, the reality might be even more tragic than the ending in the book."

"Do you have a date at school?"

"Eh?"

Mito Yuge was stunned for a moment. She didn't expect the topic to change so quickly. She stared blankly at Xianren who was chuckling in front of her. She came back to her senses, pursed her lips, and her eyes wandered for a while, then slowly fell on Xianren.

"The angel in the book, is that you, the wise man?"

"In the book, the person the protagonist calls an angel? A little bit, but not entirely. I'm not that kind of person."

"I don't know why I have a boyfriend in the book, but in real life I don't have one. I'm always thinking about work, so how could I have the time or mood to date someone?"

"It seems so."

The answers and reasons given by Mito Yuge were so sufficient that Xianren had no reason not to believe it.

"but."

"Ok?"

The girl looked at the boy in front of her tenderly. Seeing that the boy was attracted by her, she smiled warmly.

"Whether in books or in reality, you are my angel."

- - - -

The weather warmed up a little in the past two days. I thought it would get warmer and warmer, but it was only sunny for two or three days, and then it was cloudy all the time.

Wear warmer clothes and keep warm.

Thanks to Mistitin, SFalcon, Xilili, and Shijianfanhua for their monthly tickets and blades! Thanks to everyone for their recommendation votes!

Cherry Blossom Season: 193. Is it normal for a sister to hate her brother?

Sitting at the desk, Xianren's hands were placed on the computer keyboard in front of the desk, but his eyes were slightly closed. He had a solemn expression on his face, and his brows were tightly furrowed and twitching from time to time, as if he was thinking about some serious problem.

Suddenly he took a breath, and his tightly furrowed brows suddenly relaxed. He slowly lowered his head and opened his eyes.

Saionji Sekai looked up and her eyes met Kento's. Seeing Kento's expression, she pursed her lips, took the tissue handed to her by Kento, gently wiped the corner of her mouth, stood up silently, and threw the tissue into the trash can next to the desk.

"Will she do something like this for you?"

"Occasionally."

His mind was blank for a moment. He closed his eyes, recalled a little, opened his eyes, and looked back at Sekai Saionji who was sitting on the edge of his bed.

As the temperature gradually rises in the summer, the clothes of people on the street also become thinner. Saionji Sekai, who was wearing a short-sleeved shirt, noticed the gaze of Xianren, followed his line of sight, looked down, noticed her armpits, and tucked her arms under her blushing.

"It's so rude to stare at a girl's private parts!"

"Is it that rude?"

"Of course! Even if you're close to each other, you can't just stare at a girl's armpits!"

"Is it because of the smell?"

"No!"

Seeing that Saionji Sekai's face had turned red and she was beginning to feel embarrassed and annoyed, Xianren smiled and stopped teasing her. He looked at the wind chimes hanging on the window beside him, listening to the clear sound of the wind chimes, and his thoughts gradually drifted away.

The angry Saionji Sekai originally wanted to refute and prove that she had no taste, but she found that Xianren suddenly remained silent and looked towards the window. She couldn't help but look towards the window and noticed the wind chime hanging high on the window, revealing a somewhat surprised expression.

"Did you buy it yourself?"

"what?"

“Wind chimes.”

"Wind chime, I bought it."

"It sounds nice, the sound of wind chimes."

Looking at the wind chime, Xiyuanji Shijie was a little surprised. She didn't expect that the wise man would buy such a small item. She closed her eyes and listened to the sound of the wind chime with peace of mind.

“When you are alone in a room, you will feel a little lonely, but with a wind chime, you won’t feel that way.”

"There's a moment?"

Standing up, Xianren walked to the window under the gaze of Saionji Sekai and opened it casually.

The warm breeze blew on his face. He raised his head and looked at the blue sky and floating clouds above his head. It seemed that every time he raised his head, the scenery he saw had not changed at all, but it attracted his mind so much. Every time he looked at this familiar sky, he could not help but be immersed in it. Why was this?

“Those who live in reality are wrong, and those who cry are right. It is only when we are alone that we are human.”

"Isn't this... a bit too dark, this idea?"

After listening to what Xianren said, Xiyuanji Shijie found it a little difficult to understand. She didn't know why Xianren had such an idea. She felt as if she had gotten to know the other person all over again. She couldn't help but look at the person she cared about, but she could only see the other person's profile, half-upward face, staring at the blue sky outside the window.

"It's a bit dark indeed, but I've been thinking about a new work recently, and it features some people with darker lives. This is the line I prepared for her."

"gray?"

Saionji Sekai recalled the work of Kento that she had read, the work titled "Angel with Stigma". Because it was Kento's work, she carefully read the entire book twice and basically memorized the general content of the work.

"So the content of 'Angel' seems to be somewhat...sad?"

"I'm not very good at happy works, and sad content is easier for most people to remember, right?"

Looking back at the Saionji World, Xianren looked at his computer, walked slowly to the desk, and sat down again.

"Just like you only know pain after being hurt, sad works have value if they can help a few people understand what happiness is and what they shouldn't do."