They are in their final year of high school and are heavily dependent on me.

Find an opportunity to secretly put it back.

If it were just mutual help between good deskmates, she could accept it, but she simply couldn't offer him anything in return, not even in terms of academics; she herself was already struggling financially.

The more he helped her, the more she accumulated debt in her little notebook, and the more afraid she would develop a dependence on him that went beyond friendship, as if she felt that having too much debt was no burden.

This dependence made her wonder if Lin Mo had seen right through her, if he already knew about her family situation, and if he already knew about her pride.

If I had known all along that she was just a poor but sophisticated woman, and that her haughtiness was all a lie, how was she supposed to face him?

Subconsciously, she was told that there would never be another person who would treat her so well.

She wanted to be his deskmate, and no matter what she said, Lin Mo only gave her a good impression.

But not now. She's like a caged rabbit now; this isn't fair.

At least, once she adapts to the difficulty level of the new class, and once she has some free time to collect and sell trash for money, or do odd jobs to earn some extra cash, she can buy him some small bread rolls like this, and also teach him the problems he doesn't understand.

But just finishing my homework is so difficult, and just getting enough to eat is so difficult.

"Dingle bell bell~"

The girl's thoughts were interrupted by the ringing of the bell.

"Everyone, please move your desks and chairs out. And tonight's evening self-study session is starting earlier. Don't go out to play. Come back after dinner to prepare for the weekly test!"

Shen Qingning stood on the podium, her voice loud and clear.

The students in Class Two reacted sparsely, but they carried out their class monitor's orders in an orderly manner.

For a time, the sounds of desks, chairs, and tiles scraping against each other rose and fell, occasionally punctuated by sharp, piercing noises and occasional clanging and clattering sounds, mostly from students' complaints.

In chaos,

Xu Lingxi stared blankly, gripping the edge of the table.

She felt as if the gap between her desk and Lin Mo's desk possessed some kind of magnetic force, pulling at her heart, which she had thought was as hard as iron.

"Sizzle." Lin Mo was the first to pull open the table.

The girl watched as the gap between them widened, widened, widened until it was so large that even if she lowered her head and cried, he wouldn't be able to see her.

For some reason, I'm having some difficulty breathing.

What would happen if I angered him with my strange temper?

She thought to herself that she wasn't good at handling interpersonal relationships, and if she really angered him, there would be no way to make amends. The rift between them as deskmates would turn into a rift in their hearts, and it would only grow wider and wider.

Thinking and thinking, the girl pretended to stretch and tilted her head back for a while, forcing away the sense of loss that she felt reluctant to part with.

How annoying! The light is so bright, she can barely see anything.

Chapter 58 The Only Special Thing is You

The weekly test ended on Friday.

At least Xu Lingxi only had a Chinese test that evening, which eased the pressure on her.

She is quite confident in humanities subjects and can handle the difficulty of the weekly tests.

It's tomorrow's science subject.

Why aren't you drinking the milk I gave you?

Lin Mo was packing his schoolbag to leave when he noticed the milk she always kept in the drawer and casually mentioned it.

"Drink it before bed tonight," Xu Lingxi muttered under her breath, like a rabbit caught red-handed.

"Okay, or we can drink it during the weekly test tomorrow. You've had it before and you know it's a stimulant."

"Okay." Xu Lingxi nodded, but in her heart she was thinking that if she couldn't secretly put it back later, she would just give it to Li Zhihan.

"What did you choose for the first question?" Lin Mo suddenly asked again.

"Choose A."

"Oh, do you know how to translate classical Chinese?"

"well enough."

What's your dorm room number?

"303"

"What kind of fruit do you like to eat?" Lin Mo asked again.

"Pineapple, I guess," Xu Lingxi replied casually, but then realized what she meant.

"You, you're asking this? Don't bring me pineapples!"

"You're being narcissistic, aren't you? What if I'm just trying to avoid getting hit by a lightning bolt? I'm afraid you'll steal my fruit, so I won't bring pineapple."

Xu Lingxi curled her lip upon hearing this, thinking, "No one would believe that!"

He'll definitely bring pineapple again on purpose, pinching her little mouth and forcing her to swallow it.

The girl puffed out her cheeks, as if she wanted to say something more.

Then Lin Mo left in a hurry.

Hmm. You walk very fast.

Is something urgent? I used to stay after school a few days ago to talk to her.

wait

Why did I suddenly want to talk to him?

Xu Lingxi's eyes dimmed as she returned to their seats.

During the exam, we were about a meter apart.

Oh, because I can't bear to leave, and I'm not used to it.

When sitting alone at a table, your arms tend to dangle in the air, feeling unsupported.

"Okay, stop crying over this."

Xu Lingxi muttered softly that she could cry from sadness or anger, but she couldn't cry because she was worried about these kinds of interpersonal relationships.

No, she won't cry; this is the last time.

A Chinese exam gave her some confidence and allowed her to catch her breath from the pressure.

"Let's go back to the dorm early today and get some sleep."

Tomorrow will be the toughest battle.

Going home earlier means I can take a shower sooner and avoid being scolded by my roommates.

Although her roommate never goes to bed early, she gets gossiped about every time she comes back to the dorm late to wash up.

This wouldn't have happened before, because back then she was in the same class as them, and was a top student in the regular class.

Keep it up, Xu Lingxi!

Giving herself a mental pep talk, the girl packed her schoolbag. As she packed, she noticed a small loaf of bread inside.

My hand froze.

After much hesitation, she finally took out the small bread roll and put it deep in the drawer along with the milk, hiding it behind a book.

"It's okay, I'm not that hungry. I'll just eat a little. There will be a lot of leftover food in the cafeteria on Saturdays. I'll ask the cafeteria ladies tomorrow if they have any leftovers to throw away."

Xu Lingxi started making plans. She could do it on her own. She couldn't keep relying on Lin Mo. How could she enjoy a relaxed life at this time?

The girl then picked up her backpack and walked back to her dormitory.

She rarely got back to her dorm this early, and the traffic made her a little uncomfortable.

As she passed the cafeteria entrance, she paused slightly upon seeing the large numbers of students waiting to buy late-night snacks.

The little nose couldn't help but sniff.

Just a sniff is enough; she's not hungry.

Just a little while.

Eating late-night snacks will make you fat. Not only does she need to be academically excellent and capable, but she also cares a lot about her appearance.

Just like the shoes on her feet, she wanted to wear better ones. These were Nike shoes that her mother bought from somewhere. She wore them for two years and wiped them carefully with wet wipes every day.

Her shoes were probably the most expensive thing she owned.

Yes, it's understandable to eat less for the sake of one's image.

"Hey? Lingxi?!" Just then, Huang Yaoyao pulled Zhang Xinyi along, running to the cafeteria entrance.

"Want to go buy some late-night snacks with us? The cafeteria food isn't good anymore. Let's go to the back gate of the school; there's a food street there!"

Huang Yaoyao grinned and tried to hug Xu Lingxi's arm.

"Yaoyao, don't get excited." Zhang Xinyi pulled her back. "People aren't as outgoing as you."

"Hey, I'm just so happy to see a pretty girl."

"Okay, Lingxi, are you going? The things sold at the back door are pretty cheap," Zhang Xinyi asked.

"I...I won't." Xu Lingxi forced a stiff smile. "I'm on a diet."

"Okay then~" Huang Yaoyao said dejectedly, "But Lingxi, you're already so thin, why are you still dieting?"

"Do you think everyone is like you?" Zhang Xinyi glared at her. "Aren't you afraid of eating yourself into a pig?"

"A little bit~"

"Then let's go."

"Mm." Xu Lingxi watched the two leave, stepping into the lively night.

The tip of my nose felt sore.

Am I envious?

It's okay, she can get all of this through her own efforts. In the future, she will eat all the snacks she has never eaten since she was a child, drink all the milk teas she has never drunk, and wear all the dresses she has never worn.

That day will come.

The girl shook her head and went upstairs.

Go take a shower quickly, get thoroughly clean, and then get some sleep. Everything will be fine, and she'll have plenty of energy to face the world again.

A short while later, as she was finishing washing up in the bathroom, the girl heard the sound of a door opening outside. It was her roommate returning.

"Huh? That person is back so early? The shoes are still here."

"Transgender?"

"Hey, have you guys noticed that her shoes look like knock-offs?"

"Huh? It really does look a bit like it. Pfft, no way, how come this letter is wrong?"

Suddenly, laughter erupted outside the bathroom.

Upon hearing this, Xu Lingxi felt a tightness in her chest.

The girl suppressed her grievances, dressed, and walked out with wet hair and a cold face.

When the girls saw her, their smiles faded somewhat, and one of them said:

"Never mind, it's so hot today, I need to take a shower right away."

"Ugh, the bathroom's all steamy! It's so stuffy! They don't even know how to use hot water sparingly!"

"Shh, keep your voice down."

"Hehehe"

"."

Xu Lingxi's pretty face darkened, and she turned her back to them, pretending not to hear.

Hurry up and dry your hair before going to bed. You can't rest if you stay down there.

However, when the girl tried to use the hair dryer, she found that it wasn't working.

This is a very old hair dryer; it used to be unreliable, and before that, she could borrow her roommate's.