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What did you do...? You're at the bottom of your class in science, you can't understand anything in class, you do your homework slowly and inefficiently, you even lied to your mom about getting a scholarship, and you owe Lin Mo so many favors...

You dare to boast that you'll pay him back someday? How are you going to pay him back...?

Chen Yajie no longer dared to refer to herself as "I." She couldn't believe this was her, couldn't believe it was her senior year of high school, the most important time of her life... a time when her life couldn't afford to fail...

They clearly said that hard work leads to success...right? The teacher was right, so she's not working hard enough; it's all fake effort. Truly hardworking people don't become nearsighted...and they're not crybabies like her...

I feel like crying again, why...

Footsteps came from outside the door.

Is anyone in the dorm? Is Chen Yajie still there?

"Seems so? Never mind that, let's just grab our luggage and leave..."

The dormitory door opened, and two girls walked in, interrupting the girl's emotions.

The grief and pain were stuck in her throat, like a sharp ice pick piercing her vocal cords.

"Ya Jie, you're still here..."

"School's out, pack up and go home."

"Okay...haha, sorry about last night..." Chen Yajie almost trembled, forcing out a smile through her sobs.

"We were fast asleep and didn't hear you crying. Let's go together... You're not going to stay at school to study, are you?" A girl pulling a suitcase gave her a strange look.

It looks like they're looking at some kind of oddball.

"If you ask me, this is just a small test. It would be better to take it if you relaxed a bit."

"Just a little review and you'll do well on the exam."

"Yeah, we're planning to go see a movie later, what's the name of the newest one again..."

"Want to come with me? The movie tickets aren't expensive anyway."

Chen Yajie's two small hands were clasped together. "I... I'm also planning to relax a bit... I should be going home."

"Great! The tickets are only sixty yuan, want to go together...?"

Upon hearing the price of sixty yuan, the girl's face seemed to sink into shadow, her head bowed in silence.

"Ya Jie?"

"No...I'm not going. I'm going home to relax..."

"Okay... let's go then."

Chen Yajie slung her backpack over her shoulder and followed the two girls out of the dormitory. She listened as the two girls chatted with beaming smiles about gossip she couldn't understand: unfamiliar celebrities, shoe brands she'd never heard of, expensive Japanese restaurants, and how to eat at a buffet on a budget...

She glanced at her shoes; her mother had cleaned them thoroughly, but they still didn't look as nice as the ones the others were wearing...

She was never envious because her mother loved her very much.

But she felt so bad.

Even though her mother loved her so much, she couldn't afford expensive shoes, meals costing hundreds or thousands of dollars, and never took her out of their small town.

But her mother was always gentle, teaching her how to be a good person, how to smile at others, how to be grateful, and how to support herself with her own hands...

She didn't do well in her studies, she let her mother down. Not only did she not study hard, but now hearing what her classmates said makes her even more upset. She's envious, she envies their positive attitude... She's sorry... she's sorry to everyone...

"Ya Jie? Which way are you going home?"

Upon reaching the school gate, the crowd scattered like sheep. The girl being questioned stood frozen in place, seemingly about to be trampled into a pulp by the flock.

Where is she going? Does she even have the face to go home?

No, not at all.

"sorry..."

Choking back tears, the girl uttered a single sentence, then turned and ran away.

She wanted to run as fast as she could, like that day when she and Lin Mo sat in the car, letting the wind blow away all her tears.

That way no one will see her cry.

This time, however, she ran blindly, running in the opposite direction from the crowd, and everyone along the way was frightened by her crying.

The people all looked like zombies, baring their teeth at her...

Mr. Wind did not hug her, even though she hugged him first...

It just scratched her face and it hurt.

She ran back to the classroom, but it was empty. Exhausted, she collapsed into her seat, the trash can behind her reeking of a foul stench.

It's as if she was meant to stay in this corner, slowly rotting away like trash...

But she remained numb, habitually taking out a stack of exam papers.

The girl clung to a last glimmer of hope. As long as she endured hunger and thirst, and stayed awake, even if she hadn't slept all night, as long as she put in far more effort than others before the exam...

There's still a chance, there's still a chance. She can still show her report card and tell her mom that she's improved...

The pain was merely punishment for her; she had experienced it many times before, this time it was just a little more painful...

"Ninety points..."

The first thing she saw was the scarlet score; the sharp edges left by the teacher's corrections felt like the sharp blades of a sword, cutting into her heart...

"Cheer up, phew, it's okay... Chen Yajie, don't be so pessimistic..."

"Where did you go wrong on this question...? You need to be brave enough to face your mistakes, why they were wrong, how to fix them, and how to do them better..."

"Hmm, face it..."

"Woo..."

The girl's hand holding the pen trembled weakly.

For a fleeting moment, the small numbers on the test paper blurred in her eyes.

Vague.

Even as she lowered her already humble head and closed the distance between herself and the exam paper, the increasing clarity of its approach did not bring her joy.

On the contrary, this is the beginning of the lesion, meaning she will be wearing thick glasses...

She wanted to cry, but her throat and eyes were terribly dry, and the air she breathed was icy cold... all that came out was a dry cough... and even dry heaving...

The stomach acid had a stinging, burning sensation.

"Cough cough cough, cough cough..."

My vision is starting to blur; these useless eyes can't see the direction of knowledge at all...

"Tick."

Finally, a tear fell, staining the math test paper and spreading out the bright red crosses.

Even crying feels powerless; is it because my eyes are damaged...?

Tears clung to her long eyelashes, piercing her eyes like sharp blades.

She closed her eyes in pain, vaguely sensing a gust of wind approaching. The girl instinctively hunched over and curled into a small ball.

"Thud." Something heavy was placed on her desk.

"Rolling dog, caught! What a coincidence, isn't this one too? I'll roll it too."

It's that familiar male voice. Even someone as talented as him needs to work hard...

McDonald's is having a promotion today, and they gave us a pretty big one. I couldn't find you this morning, so you ate it for lunch.

"Hey, I've guessed some exam questions, here you go..."

Hearing this, the girl opened her swollen, red eyes and looked at him with a pitiful and broken expression.

Even the most foolish person should understand his intentions.

He always does this, appearing without explanation when she needs help the most...

But now, I cannot refuse to help.

"Lin Mo...no, I...I fell asleep. I've fallen asleep so many times in class..."

"I can't eat my fill, or I'll fall asleep... I can't keep eating your food... I can't pay you back, and I can't afford to eat anymore... I'm sorry..."

"I'm not blaming you...it was me, it was my own fault...I was so stupid..."

"Please, leave me alone, just me..."

The girl choked back tears, clutching his sleeve like a little girl abandoned on the street, shaking the adult's arm and begging to be let go...

Lin Mo held her hand, as if it were a corpse taken out of a cold storage.

This time, however, I cannot let you go.

"Okay, then have some tea. Drinking some tea will surely help you stay alert, right?"

Lin Mo pushed another cup of black tea in front of her.

The amber-colored tea reflected her delicate, tearful face.

"Thank you..." She tried to smile as usual... radiating what little kindness she had left, but failing to keep a little for herself.

Drink it, then go to sleep.

"Clap."

Lin Mo steadied the girl's slumped, sleeping body, first unscrewing a bottle of glucose and carefully feeding it to her.

"Have a good sleep."

Then, following the most meticulous method, he took out the glasses case and gently rubbed the girl's blurry eyes until he saw those deep, affectionate pupils.

He carefully placed the lenses, closed the eyelids, and did it with utmost care.

When she regains her energy during her sleep and wakes up again, the world will not be a murky and indifferent place.

Lin Mo lit the first lamp for her.

With this thinnest glass, I can see her brightest future.

The gentlest of women should not face the coldest of hardships.

......

If she could, Chen Yajie didn't want to open her eyes again.

She's so tired, I wish she could just fall asleep like this...

How long has it been since I slept like this... Ever since I decided to fulfill my father's last wish and become a doctor, and chose science as my major, I haven't had a proper night's sleep.

In particular, he was admitted to the honors class.

Everyone in my class is so amazing! They understand everything the teacher says instantly, and they can sleep or play whenever they want after class. They're good at both studying and making friends.

Lin Mo is amazing! She has so many good friends, and it seems she's also very close to the vice class monitor... The vice class monitor is so mean to the boys...

She is different.

She can't be friends with people who are too capable; she'll misunderstand them, misinterpret their meaning, and eventually distance herself from their circle...

She couldn't be as carefree as him, couldn't laugh and joke around after every get out of class, couldn't look every unfamiliar face in the eye, couldn't forget her parents' advice, couldn't cast aside all her worries...

She had to consider when to go to the toilet, carefully allocate her meal times, and stay hungry so she wouldn't fall asleep. She was terrified of the teacher's questions during physics class and afraid that the math teacher would sigh when he saw her blank answer sheet. Every extra minute of rest filled her with guilt.

She was afraid to ask her classmates questions. She was slow to react, which would annoy others, waste their time, and make her feel even more inferior, thus losing favors and making herself even more self-conscious...

She's afraid of the dark, she's timid, she has social anxiety, she feels like crying when she can't solve a problem, she feels like crying when eating alone, she feels like crying when people make fun of her, she cries when she has her period, she feels like crying when running long distances, she feels like crying when her parents care about her, and she feels even more like crying when she disappoints her parents...

But she still has a warm home, a father watching over her from heaven, and a mother who cares for her constantly.

She still wants to study hard, get into a good university, become a great doctor, and then go back to her father's grave to tell him:

Ya-Jie can cure Dad's illness!

She wants to earn lots and lots of money so her mother won't have to work so hard anymore. She also wants to earn her own dowry so her husband won't have to worry about making ends meet...

McDonald's is delicious, but you can only have a taste. Lin Mo is also very nice, but you can't always bother others...

So these past few days, every time she ate the breakfast Lin Mo brought, she would sneak off to the bathroom during breaks—

He painstakingly inserted his fingers into his throat, pressing hard to dislodge the physiological resistance that made him feel nauseous.