I'm in Teresin, dedicated to playing badly

But today, facing the drug-addicted Kitahara Shinji, even Tamamo Cross ultimately couldn't escape this fate.

However, unlike Alice, the other horse girls, including Tamamo Cross, did not resist his care too much, even though they wanted to restrain him.

Although his obsessive-compulsive disorder is now very severe due to the effects of the medication, he is still conscious.

So he spoke very directly to everyone about his current situation and feelings, and also asked for their wishes before providing care.

Although everyone felt a little scared looking at the horse girls who had suffered at his hands.

But looking at Kitahara Shinji, whose eyes clearly contained pain and who even tried to force himself to calm down through self-harm.

In the end, everyone, including Tamamo Cross, chose to accept it, and some even went to him on their own initiative because they saw that he was in pain.

Otherwise, even if Shinji Kitahara was in great pain, he wouldn't have done something like this to them.

As for Elly Speedy?

That exception.

After all, she was the one who was ultimately responsible for all of this, and Kitahara Shinji didn't feel any guilt at all when he pinched her.

And then...

There was no "after that".

After the effects of the potion wore off, the only ones in the room who retained their full consciousness were him, Eclipse, and Little One, who had escaped the attack because he was human and was now trembling in the corner.

Oh, and there's also Sunday Serenity, who escaped the calamity because she's a ghost. She's currently surveying the terrible state of the house while smacking her lips and making 'tsk tsk tsk' sounds.

Unlike others, as a ghost who rarely comes into contact with anything, she is not afraid of Shinji Kitahara's care at all; in fact, she really wants to experience the feeling of being so excited that she faints.

Unfortunately, she was a ghost, and her physical structure and senses were vastly different from those of a normal horse girl. Therefore, Shinji Kitahara's care was only moderately effective for her, which she found very regrettable.

Then, due to everyone's unconsciousness, the training camp was forced to be extended by one day.

Then, after they woke up, the situation became what it is now.

Moreover, due to the effects of the medication, although Shinji Kitahara had been controlling his strength during the nursing care, his final exertion was still much higher than usual, starting at least at 30% of his usual strength.

As a result, not to mention super small bays or Ms. Grass.

Even now, when Special Week sees him, he feels a jolt of electricity. Although he behaves much better than the others, he still doesn't dare to get close to him, let alone touch him.

But that wasn't what troubled Shinji Kitahara the most.

Even though the horse girls in the team seemed to be somewhat resistant to him because of that accident.

He had always wanted to keep his distance from them. Although he would definitely feel uncomfortable and feel sorry for them, it was not unacceptable in general.

Shinji Kitahara felt bad about this, and decided to find an opportunity to make it up to them later by getting them some things they liked.

As for whether this will boost favorability...

He looked at the little pony girls circling around him, but none of them dared to get close.

Shinji Kitahara felt that since so much goodwill had been lost this time, making up for it a little shouldn't cause any problems.

In addition, since he already had a normal relationship with them and maintained a proper distance, even if he tried to improve their relationship, it would likely not be as bad as the loss. Overall, he would still lose some goodwill.

This looks very safe from every angle. Not only is there no chance of a mishap, but it might even be an opportunity to solidify the rift between the two sides, adding another layer of security to an already appropriate distance.

At least that's what he thinks.

Having ruled that out, another reason for his current melancholy, and also the main reason for his current distress...

He glanced at the Eclipse, who was following him as always and behaving no differently than before, and couldn't help but sigh.

"So, what exactly are you thinking about...?"

Chapter 124: Could this little brat be in love?

Shinji Kitahara isn't new to not understanding what the solar eclipse is thinking.

But this time it's the kind of thing that I really don't understand.

He was in a daze after waking up the night before, having been struck by the eclipse.

It wasn't emotional confusion, it was physical confusion.

Because he was slightly oxygen-deprived from her attack, it took him almost a minute to recover afterwards.

After regaining his senses, looking at the solar eclipse in front of him, his first thought was that this girl probably had some thoughts about him while he was sleeping and wanted to take advantage of him on the spot.

But after waiting for a while, he found that she was just sitting there obediently, without any intention of taking any further action.

After that, in this ambiguous situation, the two returned to their dormitory.

Moreover, because their breaths were so similar, no one noticed the problem with his mouth.

Even if no one notices the problem with his words, he can't fool himself.

Although this wasn't the first time he'd done something like this with the Eclipse, the problem was that the previous time was a complete accident, and it hadn't gone this far.

Specifically, it happened sometime in the past when he was holding her while watching TV.

Seeing the male and female leads kissing and looking very happy, Eclipse suddenly turned around and gave him a quick kiss on the lips.

After that brief encounter, she showed no signs of shyness or excitement; instead, she appeared somewhat puzzled.

But she didn't hesitate for long. A few seconds later, she shrank back and continued to snuggle in his arms to watch TV, as if nothing had happened.

As for why Shinji Kitahara remembers this so clearly...

That was his only first kiss in both his lives combined. How could he not remember it clearly?

The problem was that solar eclipses at that time were just something children played with without understanding, so Shinji Kitahara didn't pay much attention to them.

But what happened a few nights ago...

Thinking back to that prolonged attack that left him somewhat oxygen-deprived, to say that it was just a child playing around and not understanding kissing would be pure self-deception.

Although it wasn't entirely the eclipse's fault, he could sense that she wasn't holding him back very tightly, and he could push her away at any time if he didn't want to.

Although he had never experienced this before, he subconsciously responded to the eclipse, given how far it had gone.

Moreover, he was the one who was on the offensive most of the time, and even the Eclipse was the one that was defeated first in the end, so it can be said that the responsibility mainly lies with him.

The problem is that the one who initiated this was Eclipse; she was the one who attacked him.

Moreover, it didn't seem like the kind of clueless attempt she used to make. Although her movements were quite clumsy, you could feel her serious attitude.

What does this mean?

To be honest, Shinji Kitahara didn't know.

It wasn't that he was pretending to be stupid; he genuinely couldn't quite grasp the eclipse's thoughts.

He wasn't stupid. If any other horse woman had done this to him, he would have been able to recognize and affirm her feelings.

But a solar eclipse is different.

Their relationship cannot be described as friendship at all; even family is somewhat inappropriate.

After all, you are family, like siblings. You can't sleep together anymore when you grow up, and you can't just say things like "jump if you want to" without batting an eye, and that he won't be responsible after you jump and everything will be the same as before.

But if you were to call them lovers, he was quite certain that Eclipse's feelings for him were definitely not love in the conventional sense.

So what exactly did she mean?

Recalling the soft, warm sensation that spread through his mouth that night, Shinji Kitahara's expression grew increasingly melancholy.

He had asked directly before, but Eclipse, as always, simply ignored his question.

If this had happened a few years ago, he probably wouldn't have been so conflicted about this issue.

After all, given Eclipse's peculiar thought process, he could talk about kissing without batting an eye, let alone a horse jumping around, and he even did outrageous things like giving himself underwear and stockings.

But it's different now.

It's already September, and in another quarter, Eclipse will be 18 years old.

Although women here can theoretically marry at sixteen and men at eighteen, Shinji Kitahara stubbornly insists on his own view that marriage should be at least eighteen.

In other words, in another three months, the solar eclipse will be within his acceptable range.

Shinji Kitahara hadn't thought about this issue before because although Eclipse always threatened to jump on him, she certainly wouldn't force him to comply if he clearly expressed his resistance.

But the attack a few nights ago made him realize that he had to make a decision.

Shinji Kitahara has never been one to avoid problems, nor does he like to do things he's not confident about.

Instead of agonizing over this and that when the time comes, it's better to face the problem head-on, make a decision in advance, and then take action when the time comes.

Then, after only a few seconds of thought, he came to the answer.

That means he definitely couldn't refuse the solar eclipse.

After all, even if they weren't lovers, their relationship was destined to be inseparable, so no matter how much they struggled with it, in the end, they only had one option: to accept it.

After finding the answer, he went to see the solar eclipse and expressed his thoughts directly.

"If you want it, I can promise you that after the New Year, I can start dating you and we can be lovers from then on."

"Or if you want to get married, I can agree to it first, but since you're still a racehorse girl, the wedding can only be held after you finish these three years of racing. But before that, I can buy you a ring or something to get engaged first."

But Eclipse did not respond to his direct attack, just like he had with his previous direct questions, and simply ignored them.

It was clear that she didn't quite agree with his ideas.

This left Shinji Kitahara utterly disheartened.

Although, based on his years of experience with solar eclipses, he had more or less anticipated this outcome before he arrived.

But when it actually happened, he couldn't help but have a big question mark in his heart.

I really wanted to grab her legs, turn her upside down and shake her, to dump all the thoughts in her head and see what she was thinking.

You said you liked him, but when he said he wanted to get married, she disagreed.

You might say you don't like her, but her directness is something even married couples might not be able to achieve.

Of course, Shinji Kitahara's acceptance does not mean that he agrees to jump immediately.

After all, Eclipse is currently studying at Tressen and is also an active racehorse girl. No matter what her identity is, it is not suitable for her to do that kind of thing.

Moreover, although Treson is quite liberal in some aspects, his bottom line is that no one should be killed, and not just any kind of death. If this is violated, the punishment will be extremely severe.

Therefore, trainers with abnormal relationships with their partners usually only reach base near the end of the three-year season, so that even if an accident occurs, the impact will not be too great.

The most rushed ones are those from the second year onwards. Those who sign a contract and start jumping immediately are just exceptions. The later stages involve a lot of hardship and may even further affect their performance in the competition.

So even though he had made up his mind, Shinji Kitahara was prepared to wait patiently for the eclipse to finish its three-year run before considering certain things.

But that's not the problem now; the real issue is that after he made his choice, Eclipse clearly disagreed...

This left Shinji Kitahara feeling quite melancholy.

We've kissed, we're ready to jump anytime, and we're inseparable, but the moment the topic of dating or marriage comes up, she immediately turns her head away and avoids eye contact...

Reaching out, Kitahara Shinji grabbed Eclipse's cheek and rubbed her face roughly while speaking helplessly.

"What on earth are you thinking about...?"

But Eclipse remained completely unresponsive, offering no answer whatsoever, letting him rub himself as if nothing had ever happened between them.

Then, Shinji Kitahara quickly stopped dwelling on the matter.

After all, he had made his decision, and Eclipse had responded. Although it was different from what he had expected, the matter was now over.

In fact, whether they agree or refuse, it won't affect their relationship.

Perhaps for some other couples, that document used to prove their relationship is a symbol of happiness.

But for the two of them, regardless of whether that document existed or not, their relationship would remain the same as it is today.

At best, when the three years are up and they jump up, Shinji Kitahara will have less of a psychological burden.

If we refuse now, everything will remain the same.

As for the future...

If the Eclipse changes its mind and agrees in the future, he will not refuse.

If she doesn't change her mind, then maintaining this way of getting along isn't out of the question.

Furthermore, if Eclipse still wants to dance with him by then, he won't be coy even without the document proving their relationship.