Real teaching, but diary flow

Didn't they all pull through in the end?

He survived the attacks of the Bowel Hunter, he survived in Roswaal's mansion, he survived in the capital, he survived facing the White Whale, and he survived even when confronting Sloth.

Finally, what awaits us is the sacred realm we have already arrived at.

The so-called sacred domain does not seem to be an incredibly holy place; it is merely a place with a name, or perhaps it should be called a secret base.

Well, at least that's what the clown said.

...Perhaps the description of the story is too brief, making it difficult to accurately depict his experiences and insights along the way.

But that's life; not everyone needs to know about your past.

All that matters is the present moment.

The sound just now did not originate from the entire Holy Domain, but if we had to say it came from the entire Holy Domain, it wouldn't hurt to say so.

That was the witch's voice.

The other world they were transported to was a special world where swords and magic existed, and in it, beings known as 'witches' bore the sins that resounded throughout the world as 'great sins'.

The voice just now was whispered by Echidna, the 'Witch of Greed'.

The so-called strong desire is the pursuit of all wisdom in the world, which one is unwilling to give up even after death, and the pursuit of the existence of all knowledge.

A witch is someone who can easily turn the world upside down or destroy it, or subvert the distinction between reality and illusion.

Naturally, even memories can be easily peered into and used to create illusions.

thus.

Natsuki Subaru saw his past.

It's not that his past experiences after arriving in this other world, those painful adventures, might not evoke such strong feelings in him.

What he saw was from an earlier time...

parents.

Kenichi Natsuki, his father.

He is very charismatic, very successful, very passionate, very sociable, very cheerful, sunny, carefree and lively, very... making people admire him and want to become like him.

the man.

Naoko Natsuki, his mother.

She is relatively natural, very beautiful, very gentle, very kind, very... someone who makes you want to shed tears of emotion and remember her fondly.

woman.

His parents.

The scene before even arriving in the other world evokes memories that seem to have been there for ages, bringing tears to one's eyes.

Wearing my school uniform, in my room that I haven't seen in ages this morning, countless familiar books lined up, all kinds of comic books and light novels, with covers and titles that evoke nostalgia.

My gaze swept across them, omitting a fleeting glimpse of a pitch-black book.

Natsuki Subaru turned his head away.

Sunlight, curtains, and the awakening of a father's love.

My memories have become blurred; it's as if I never went to any other world or met any people from the very beginning.

But the instincts deep within my body still resisted the school.

"I've been refusing to go to school for months now, and each time I do, I'm tormented by self-loathing and feelings of inferiority. I only feel at ease when I confirm that school hours have passed."

My former self.

The hands of the clock have long since passed that time; as long as you let go of your worries, you can peacefully pass another day.

but.

The reality that has already passed will not vanish like a bubble, and the past that can never be returned to cannot be dwelled upon again.

My chest felt tight, my heart was pounding, and a frantic sense of anxiety was resisting the discomfort that was eroding my entire body.

Then, the memories flowed back like a tide.

Echidna is the witch of greed.

What she seeks is knowledge, mystery, the unknown, and more possibilities.

Rather than simply indulging in malicious pleasure, although in the pursuit of truth they may be somewhat cunning, even if they use all their tricks to deceive others during their actions.

But she never lies; at most, she might slightly conceal key information in her words, causing others to misunderstand without her consent.

Therefore, even at this moment when memories have been awakened, the illusion here has not yet ended.

Facing the past requires more than just waking up.

Waking up will only be the first step.

The key to passing the trial may lie in not being bound by the past.

"I have a girl I like."

"—So, I'm alright now."

He was worried about his father and his mother. Their worries stemmed from his past memories, from the shadow of his seemingly inescapable refusal to go to school.

But that shadow is long gone.

It's all over now.

Even though they knew very well that the people in front of them were not the real them.

But Natsuki Subaru still had to speak.

I have a girl I like.

"Am I a hopelessly incompetent idiot, or a self-important piece of trash?"

He said.

"I want to be insulted like this by you."

He said.

"...I hope you will give up on me."

He said.

This is a very sincere and heartfelt request.

Even if this request is destined to be unfulfilled.

The reason is very simple.

Because what he sees now is an illusion created through his memory.

Since the illusion is based on his memories, the result he gets will definitely be the outcome he can foresee.

'We don't love you anymore, we hate you the most, someone like you... is not our child.'

That's what I want to hear.

What they want to sever are unfulfilled wishes and unattainable outcomes.

...If, if I were to never see them again...

I have someone I like.

There are people who like me.

so......

and so.

and so--

"If you feel sorry, just spend time repaying your kindness. Take good care of me and your mother in the future, eldest son."

Such fatal words must not be uttered.

You shouldn't say lines like that at a time like this.

The understanding that there is no 'future' that will never exist, and that one will never be able to return to the original world.

In Natsuki Subaru's heart, the last line of defense was breached.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry—"

It was tears.

It's an emotion.

It was something I had already sensed, a feeling I still wanted to express even when facing a dream.

Calm down.

Cry until you've cried enough.

Tie your tie, put on a mature look, and then it's time to go to school.

It wasn't really about going back to school.

But perhaps, this is simply what one should do when facing one's past.

......

She cried again.

She had cried in front of her father, but she still couldn't stop crying in front of her mother.

I felt I was ready to say goodbye properly and even had a little confidence.

As he was leaving, he finally called out to his mother, who had chosen to walk with him for a short distance.

then.

"I have things I absolutely have to do, so I'll be separated from you for a long time."

I wanted to shout that, trying to look really cool.

"I'm going somewhere far away, where I won't be able to contact you..."

He wanted to explain why he left, to say that his purpose in leaving was to save her.

"I know this will make you worry, Mom and Dad, but..."

I want to use words to confirm that I will never forget something.

think--

Subaru. — It's okay.

The moment she turned around and spoke like that.

Sure enough, I couldn't help but cry.

He cried, felt utterly humiliated, and finally wiped away his tears.

"—Be careful on the road."

This was on that night when we moved, on that night when we left for the convenience store, just before we closed the door.

The conversations that had taken place were still happening.

"—I'm off."

Natsuki Subaru didn't speak at the time, but in this dreamlike state, he wanted to fill in the gaps.

then.

It's time to face the witch.

"Facing one's past, whether affirming or denying it, will lead to the answer. Those who are fearful, disgusted, or withdrawn cannot overcome the 'trial.' However, I commend those who can accept their past or make the painful decision to sever ties with it. For this, I can give them countless chances."

"...This is the 'Trial'!"

So the witch said.

"Although there's no need to ask, this world really is..."

The fool couldn't help but ask a question.