I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

She still didn't recover.

When I heard the words "night" and "port", my rationality and all my senses were disconnected.

She felt her feet leave the ground and fly to the distant moon.

Noshiro Chitose did not choose to continue speaking. She just hugged Deng tightly, as if she wanted to rub the other person into her torso.

Let your blood flow through the lamp! Let their souls mingle together! Hold on to it forever, and nothing else matters.

None of it matters... anymore.

Just now, as she was running over here, she had even made up her mind that she would never see Takamatsu Deng again.

The sudden hanging up of the phone struck Chitose Noshiro's heartbeat, almost breaking her little heart.

I almost lost my grip on the phone and it was just a hair's breadth away from falling into the sea.

[Hey! Xiao Deng! Why do you fascinate me so much?]

Greedily and forcefully breathing in the air filled with the scent of Takamatsu Tomo, Noshiro Chitose wished she could tie Takamatsu Tomo back home.

Coincidentally, Takamatsu Deng also wanted to kidnap Chitose Noshiro and take her home, but the moment this idea came to his mind, he was shocked himself.

Silence is the main theme at this moment, and the girls' breathing sounds rise and fall.

The silence was not awkward but warm, and they enjoyed the tranquility at that moment.

"Little lamp?"

"I am here…"

"Are you feeling better now?"

Loosening the hold on the lamp slightly, Chitose wiped away the tears from the lamp with the back of her white hand.

The tears were so warm that they almost burned through Qiansui's back of the hand.

"I don't know. I'm...still scared."

I'm so afraid of losing you, I'm really afraid.

When Deng thought of Qiansui’s pale little face lying in the coffin, he felt unwell again.

Especially Chitose Noshiro, who was stabbed countless times and then pushed into the sea. When she was found... there was hardly much blood left in her body.

The pretty face in the coffin was as pale as her hair.

"How horrible... How horrible... years old!"

The lamp seemed to be longing for something.

She carefully adjusted Chitose Noshiro's face, so that the healthy color on Chitose's face in reality dispelled the sinister paleness in the dream.

"I'm here, I'm here, I'm here..."

I'll always be here, Xiao Deng.

Chitose Noshiro used her loosened arms to push hard again and hugged the lamp again.

This world is always full of unknown deaths, and those cracks in daily life may bring floods at any time.

That's why Qiansui was so hurried a thousand years ago.

If the lights in reality died, she would have no choice but to keep simulating, simulating, simulating, and simulating, looking for virtual lights in the simulation to defend herself... She didn't want that!

"Can we really be friends forever, Xiao Sui? Is it really possible to do that for a lifetime?"

Whether in reality or in dreams, all those who swore to be with Deng for life broke their promise.

Xiangzi simply quit the band and no longer wanted to be her friend.

And at the age of 18...she even died twice.

They were now clinging to each other, just like when she was six years old and couldn't fall asleep, Gao Songdeng hugged her sister tightly and refused to let go.

"For a lifetime! Of course it's for a lifetime... How can we go back on our word after we've agreed on something like this? We... well, bring Li Xi along, and we'll always be good friends."

Chitose Noshiro suddenly thought of Tatsuki Shiina, so she added her name to give the small-time lady a sense of participation.

"Xiao Sui, please don't mention other people's names at this time, okay?"

There were waves of light surging in Gao Songdeng's eyes. Couldn't Qiansui see it clearly?

"Eh?"

"I...I want to be with you forever. Can we make it a lifetime? A lifetime...a real lifetime..."

"A lifetime! Our lifetime will definitely not be short, Xiao Deng!"

The light is still trembling.

Chitose thought.

Her trembling caused Qiansui's heart to tremble.

With the tacit consent of the entire starry sky, the two of them hugged each other quietly.

The starry sky was naked, just like Gao Songdeng's body under her soft long skirt.

[No one can predict what life will be like.]

【certainly…】

[Except that I can represent Chitose. ]

She always believed that she could make herself and the people she cared about happy, and that she had already acquired the ability to make others happy.

Simulation... needs more.

Chitose gave Deng a final, gentle kiss on her earlobe, and this action alone made Deng's body turn pink.

She was so cute, so cute that Chitose couldn't help wanting to bully her.

Today is the second day of school for Yuqiu, but she has definitely said "for a lifetime" more than twice in these two days.

Maybe high school is just this kind of heavy thing? She couldn't be the only one who could relate to the weight of Chitose's youth, could she? Surely, every high school student lives a daily life surrounded by heavy emotions.

I don't know how long we hugged quietly.

The breathing of the little fool in her arms gradually became steady, and she fell asleep, sinking into the land of dreams in the gentle embrace.

"What will Xiao Deng see in his dream?"

Qiansui carried the other person back to the room, made sure the doors and windows were locked, pulled down the curtains and covered them with a quilt, while not forgetting to put the slippers neatly in place.

She remembered that Deng always liked to put her slippers facing outwards.

"May you always be happy in reality...Xiao Deng."

At the door of the room, Qiansui looked at Deng's sleeping face for the last time in the darkness.

Although she couldn't see anything clearly, she was not anxious at all.

Because Chitose knew that the little girl she wanted to protect most was sleeping there.

"I hope we can meet in my dreams. Little Light. My little Light."

"Good night, sweet dreams..."

"And, good night, see you in my dreams."

creak-

This is the sound of the door slowly closing.

That's the way it is.

Ch126. And at this moment, Shiina Riki is...

Shiina Riki is having some insomnia.

She herself didn't know why she couldn't sleep, even though she hadn't felt this way for a long time.

There was no light in the house, as if the sun had never shone in.

Li Xi stared at the ceiling with his eyes open for a long time.

It was midnight, maybe around eleven at night, she wasn't sure.

Her consciousness was spreading around, and her body became light, unwilling to move at all.

[Looks like you're about to fall asleep?]

Li Xi thought about it and felt himself sinking.

"Hey, are you back?"

There was a crowded darkness all around.

Is this a dream? Good thing I fell asleep.

A clear girl's voice floated from a distance, piercing through the darkness and going straight into Li Xi's heart.

So familiar! This is...

The lights gradually came on, and the surrounding environment was a place that Li Xi would never forget until his death.

This is Qiansui's small house, and the TV is the only light source in the house.

And she was standing in front of the sofa at this moment——

The girl sat there, just like the first time they met, and also like the last time they met.

"Lixi, long time no see, you haven't aged at all."

"..."

Shiina Riki swallowed hard, as if trying to sober himself up.

"Is this a dream again...Alas."

"Was it a dream? I don't know."

The girl with a blurred face did not turn around to look at Li Xi, but just talked to herself.

"I'm so happy to see Lixi again and talk to him again. Today is the happiest day since I died."

"Xiao Sui? You..."

Damn, is it this memory?

Lixi gritted her teeth, she felt her trigeminal nerve throbbing violently.

Why did she let herself dream about this! She didn't want to see this!

Li Xi was already clearly aware that he was dreaming, and this scene had often appeared in his dreams in the past few days.

Whether it was Chitose and himself sleeping naked in each other's arms, Chitose falling on the stage, himself escaping from the hospital, or seeing Chitose again several years later... these scenes often tortured Li Xi to the point that he woke up screaming.

"I have gone to Valhalla, which belongs to me. You should be happy for me."

"Stop talking! Xiao Sui! Don't... don't..."

"Keep living, Shiina Riki, I wish you happiness."

"I fell in love with you at first sight... I've never regretted meeting Lixi. Lixi is everything, I love her the most!"

"Wow!"

The little house in the dream fell apart in an instant.

Shiina Riki suddenly sat up, breathing in the turbid air in big gulps.

"I finally fell asleep...but why am I having another nightmare...sigh."

Li Xi moved backward until his back was against the corner of the wall, and only then did he feel a brief and cheap sense of security.

"Xiao Sui! Xiao Sui...I..."

I'm so happy to be able to become friends with Chitose Noshiro again.

And it’s in reality…it’s a real reality…

Her hair hung down to cover the girl's tired face. Wrapped in the layers of darkness, Shiina Riki seemed to feel again the dreamy girl standing in front of the bed and talking to her.

She would tell the history of Punk Month, talk to her about the explosive plots she had seen in the monthly comics recently, and also tell her some bizarre stories about mental illness.