I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

Maybe it was because my head hit the sofa, stirring up dust from under it.

Su Shi was attacked by a choking cloud of dust, and with the dust came another note.

She placed her hand on Sushiro's belly, as if Noshiro Chitose's hand was soothing her emotions.

"This, this is?"

Su Shi's eyes were a little swollen from crying, but she still perked up and looked at the note.

"It's my mother's handwriting; absolutely! There's no way I can mistake it..."

She felt her scalp tingling as a bad premonition crawled up Su Shi's spine.

Nagasaki Suyo read the note with the help of the very faint orange light of the setting sun outside the house.

[Xiao Sushi~ When will you see this letter in the future? If I let you see it too early, I'll be worried. If I let you see it too late... I'm afraid you'll forget about me, so I hid it under the sofa. I figured since I usually clean the house, you probably won't find it anytime soon.]

I haven't told anyone about my condition, so don't blame me for not telling you. My health hasn't been good since middle school, so I knew I'd be in this situation. But I was still scared when I found out.

[Xiao Sushi... I'm so scared. I never thought I'd die, really... but I don't dare show it... These days I've been wondering if there's another world... Will I still be able to see my parents and sister? Will they be waiting for me there? I've read many myths, and they all say there's a long way to go after death... Mom is most afraid of the dark.]

I kept coughing as I picked up the pen to write. I wrote several times until I was finally satisfied with the handwriting. Today, I felt noticeably out of breath. I have no appetite. I can't eat. My limbs are weak and I have no energy. I'm probably going to die.

[I really wanted to be with you during these last few days... but you were busy with your own things, so I didn't bother to disturb you. Your bass is amazing. There were a few times before when I wanted to come see you, but I heard you practicing from behind the door, so I gave up.]

[Xiao Sushi...will you read this letter? You won't forget me, will you? I miss you so much from a few years ago when I slept with you in my arms...I fell in love with you the first time I saw you, and I wanted to protect you forever, but it seems I'm failing...I couldn't sleep the night I heard you were being bullied. I felt so bad that I couldn't protect you. I must have been so embarrassed trying to comfort my daughter while keeping that matter on my mind.]

"Mom, my condition is getting worse. It's hard to breathe, and the feeling of suffocation is getting worse. I can't speak clearly. Every time I go to see you, I have to hold my breath. I'm afraid you'll notice and worry. I miss seeing you every day. What I look forward to most is the weekend. Just thinking about chatting and watching TV with you makes me happy all day long."

[Xiao Sushi...is this a little too long? You might not have the patience to finish it...but I really have so much to say to you. In fact, every time I see you, I have so much to say, but I'm afraid you'll find me annoying...When Mom's mom was still alive, I sometimes found her nagging...but then I just couldn't hear her anymore...I regret this, but I'm also afraid you'll be annoyed. I don't want to be an annoying person.]

In the corner of my room, under my teddy bear, there's a bank card. This is the savings Mom has saved over the years. When I was younger, I loved buying things and didn't save much, but since I had you, I've developed a habit of saving. The password on the bank card is your birthday... Spend more, and Mom will be happy in heaven.

[In the future, be more careful. Don't trust everyone or be nice to everyone. Have your own opinions. When encountering things, stay calm and relax, and don't burn yourself out. Little Sushi really likes vegetarian food, but please pay attention to the nutritional balance... Mom knows you like ginseng chicken soup, so I often learn to make it for myself whenever I have time... I often make it and put it in the refrigerator. If you're not here, I'll drink it myself, and if you come, I'll give it to you... Isn't Mom very smart?]

Don't stay up late anymore. My mom loved it when she was young, and it caused her eyesight to deteriorate. Even if you stay up late, remember to turn on the lights. Don't use your phone with the lights off; it hurts your eyes. When forming a band, communicate more with your bandmates. If you encounter any problems, you can discuss them together. I believe my beloved little girl can definitely solve all problems.

[Xiao Sushi... I'm tired, so I'll stop here. You've always been my proudest child... I only have you as my only child. I'm leaving now, so take care of yourself.]

【Remember to wear more clothes in winter.】

【I love you, Chitose Noshiro. 】

“Ah…Mom!”

It's 4:44 now, good evening, Su Shi.

New Year Reward

Happy New Year! Because Hedgehog Cat is having an event, I'm offering a bounty.

1000 recommendations + 1 update.

100 monthly tickets + one update.

10000 Cat Biscuits + 1 more (16 in gold boxes, 5 in silver boxes).

100 blades + 1 more.

The data is now (rounded down to the nearest integer to prevent some readers from having already voted):

Monthly tickets: 2350, recommendations: 16000, rewards: 44, blades: 1450.

Since I received two silver boxes today, I will add ten chapters to the chapter. By the way, the last bounty is almost paid off.

Well, well, I won't owe much anyway, so I'll just keep it open until February 6th.

Ch110. When our world returns to peace

Congratulations, host! You, the bad guy, have destroyed another life! The damage you inflicted was long-lasting and delicious, leaving Su Shi with an unforgettable aftertaste! In this simulation, you employed multiple tactics, exploiting countless characters, secretly controlling most situations, and pulling off countless successful little schemes behind the scenes. Remember those late-night cries you made at the beginning of the simulation? That night was truly fascinating.

[Regret Index Calculating… Congratulations to the Host on achieving a lifespan of six years and one month.]

[Remaining lifespan: 15 years, 9 months, 30 days]

【Overall evaluation: above average】

[P.S. Host, do you like the last name Huizhong? Do you like it? Do you like it? Haha, you often order me around to do hard labor, and you even make me serve you as a client, an employee, and an ATM... You're so mean.]

When Noshiro Chitose opened her eyes again, she was still on that quiet beach.

She inhaled the free sea breeze, and the scent of Kyoto surrounded her nose.

Kyomoto is still resting.

In the eyes of outsiders, Chitose Noshiro simply closed her eyes and then opened them again.

Just a moment, and then several years passed. This is a simulation.

Chitose Noshiro was breathing in the free air to her heart's content. She felt her brain swelling, as if a little person wanted to split her brain open from the inside and get out.

【I feel depressed.】

"Looks like I need to rest for the next few days... I'm so tired... so tired... I'm dying of exhaustion."

She wanted to stretch but because her sister was still lying in her arms, Chitose Noshiro could only stretch her limbs gently and slightly.

"Hmm... sis? Did I overwork sis?"

Kyomoto, who had barely woken up, asked in a cute whisper, which immediately relieved most of Chitose's inner fatigue.

My sister is so cute! Ah, I am dead.

As long as my sister cares about me, all my efforts are worth it!

"It's okay, Xiaojing, do you want to sleep a little longer? Sister is not tired at all."

This is how any older brother or sister would behave towards a sister who is obedient and caring.

My Xiaojing is the perfect little sister! Xiaojing is the cutest!

Chitose buried his head in the other's hair and sniffed gently.

It’s still the familiar scent coming from my sister…my sister…no, to be precise: my sister is the cutest creature in the world!

It's as if someone deliberately created a character that completely meets their needs and has been simulating themselves, haha.

Noshiro Chitose shook her head, almost amused by her own thoughts.

As expected, I have simulated too many times and been a bad woman for too long, and my mind is too tense.

I need to have a good rest in the next few days.

Qiansui said nothing, just looked at the sea quietly.

She thought of little Su Shi.

I wonder if that idiot can take care of himself.

She has to walk the rest of the way alone.

"Xiao Jing, do you know what the sea looks like?"

"I don't know... I can't see! I'm so stupid."

"Hey, how about I tell you?"

"Eh? I really can't help you. Come on, tell me."

"The sea, she is a huge bad woman. Every day she lures good women out to sea, and then eats them up in one go, and then..."

"Eh hey hey? The ocean is so scary."

"Yes, and then, Dahai also..."

Chitose's aimless narration continued. She just liked the feeling of chatting with her sister.

Four golden rings flickered in his wine-red eyes, the crystallization of sin.

That's the way it is.

……

What can it do with a lifespan of one month?

It can be exchanged for money.

One month is very valuable, it is worth 333,330 yen. If you only want to exchange it for one month, the system will kindly round it up for you.

But if you spend it directly for three months, you will get one million yen in return.

One million yen... Chitose Noshiro couldn't even imagine it.

During the three years of junior high school, I worked hard, looking for daily jobs with pitifully low hourly wages, which made me feel exhausted. I could only earn a few shabby copper coins a month.

But now, just by being a bad guy once, you can earn countless three months and countless one million yen.

Not only that.

Money, eternal life, endless material things, can all be exchanged for as long as one does evil.

“That’s the simulation.”

bang-

With the sound of soda falling from the beverage machine, Qiansui's thoughts stopped instantly.

She touched the bank card in her pocket that contained one million yen, and in her heart she prayed briefly for her act of "making a deal with the devil."

Great Gao Songdeng, please forgive me!

Chitose Noshiro firmly believed that if there were gods in the world, they would definitely be either Tomoe or Kyomoto.

Because they are the most perfect little angels in the world!

Can--

"School starts tomorrow."

I don’t know why today, but I just don’t want to rest at home.

So Chitose decided to go out and hang out.

"It's April 5, 2020, the weekend, and I'm spinning around in the real world alone."

Chitose was talking to himself, or perhaps he was talking to the system that went silent after the simulation ended. Who knows.

Twist off the bottle cap, wipe off a drop or two of drink that accidentally spilled, and raise your neck.

The soda slid smoothly into Qiansui's mouth, and a few drops slipped out from the corners of her lips.

She wiped it off with her handkerchief and silently watched the occasional passing car.

After coming out of the simulation, Chitose Noshiro became the sixteen-year-old girl again.

She is no longer an ignorant little girl, nor an alcoholic office worker, a quirky white moonlight, nor a big bad woman who is relatively lacking in emotions.

She is just an ordinary prospective high school girl.

"This kind of life is good."

Qiansui now has a full fifteen years to live, which is sixteen years if rounded up!

Sixteen years! That’s the same number of days I’ve lived in real life!

A month ago, I was a poor guy who used my free time to deliver milk, post flyers, and remove flyers. Now, I have completely changed and am no longer under a lot of pressure.

If you think about it carefully, it’s really a dream.

"We're going to Hanegaoka tomorrow."

Chitose strolled to the small park where Deng had eaten lunch during the second simulation and sat alone on the swing drinking a soda.

It's so quiet around me. Office workers are busy in the office, and students are enjoying their last vacation at home or in a busy place.

Chitose Noshiro has become a lonely man again.

But this time, Chitose Noshiro was not confused at all.

Her inner anxiety, fear and guilt became insignificant and even ignored in the face of her increasing life expectancy.

But is it really like that?

Chitose seemed to be enjoying the afternoon alone leisurely.