I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

"It's all my fault. I didn't protect her well..."

More than two months had passed since leaving Toyokawa's residence, and Xiangzi no longer had any extra money in his pocket.

She cares a lot about her reputation, which is common and normal, but she cares especially about it.

But face is just face. In order to give her sister money to see a doctor and buy medicine, she desperately found Mu for help.

"Do you still need to rehearse today?"

Wakaba Mutsu stood beside Toyokawa Shoko, with her back to the sun, and looked very gloomy to Shoko.

"I still have to go work... The weather's getting bad, my sister's waiting for me at home, and I haven't played the piano in a long time, and I feel like my skills have declined..."

"So, you're not going?"

"Well, don't worry, I will work part-time to pay you back for the medicine later."

"No need, it's all for Xiaosui."

"..."

[The only thing is, I don’t want to owe you anything. ]

Xiangzi put away the hospital's diagnosis. His sister's condition had actually improved a lot recently.

Apart from becoming more clingy, more fragile, and sometimes confused and talking nonsense, she is not much different from before.

"Xiao Mu, are you leaving?"

"Yeah, dance class is coming up soon."

"Aren't you going to rehearse today?"

"Yes."

"When you see everyone next time, please tell them a message from me."

"Varied."

"Just say it," Xiangzi lowered his eyes in disappointment, and a strand of black hair fell from his ear.

"Just me..."

……

"I quit Crychic."

"Eh?"

"Well, I'm out."

Toyokawa Shoko found a job distributing flyers in Akihabara. She chose this job because she wouldn't run into anyone she knew, and because she could wear a thick costume to hide her face.

The salary is okay.

After saying this to Chitose leisurely, she continued to busy herself with the task of packing clothes. She was about to fall asleep, and she had just returned from get off work three hours ago.

"Sister, you won't feel very uncomfortable, right..." Qiansui didn't look very good, and the doctor said it was the side effect of taking too many medicines.

But what else can I do if I don’t take medicine? God knows how this little girl got so sick.

"I'm not sad. I can spend more time with you."

She turned around and held up Qiansui's pretty face, and when she compared it with the healthy skin of her hands, she realized how pale Qiansui's face was.

"I used to fantasize about being able to work and play in a band at the same time, but it seems that's not very realistic... Sorry, I'm still such a failure."

Xiangzi said this, but she had another idea in her mind.

Her heart was pounding, and she was looking forward to Chitose coming to comfort her and soothe him. She wanted her hug and warm words.

Moreover, Xiangzi knew that Qiansui would definitely give her all of this.

"Don't be sad, sister," Xiangzi was pressed into Qiansui's arms without any resistance, her eyes slightly narrowed, "I'll give you a hug, will you feel better?"

"Ah."

"It's such a shame. If I were still healthy, I would be able to work with my sister."

"This alone is not allowed."

After saying this, Shoko Toyokawa was captured by the gentle softness again. That's how it was.

Ch472. Start! Toyokawa Shoko's Collapse Plan

From then on, Shoko Toyokawa's life became shaky.

My sister's condition is like her life. It seems stable but it has been on a downward trend from beginning to end.

I hope it can be stabilized.

In the blink of an eye, time has come to the third grade of junior high school.

"Has the price of bento increased again?"

The road home from get off work was long, and after buying breakfast for tomorrow, Xiangzi walked home along his usual route.

The glass door slowly moved to the sides, and Xiangzi saw his reflection in the mirror as he walked past the 24-hour convenience store.

The face that is becoming more and more like his mother speaks of the pride hidden in his bloodline, while the cheap clothes he wears reflect the vicissitudes of his fate.

The small bag she carries with her is her most expensive thing. She has been reluctant to sell it because it was bought for her by her younger sister when she was a child.

My sister is the cutest.

"The environment in Yuqiu is nice. If you have time, take Sui to have a look... Yeah."

Xiangzi transferred to another school. After leaving Tsuki no Mori, she went to two or three schools in succession, but left because Chitose couldn't adapt.

Previously, Xiangzi was worried that the environment of the new junior high school would not be suitable for Chitose, so she did not take her to school directly, but after studying it for a few days, she was convinced that Chitose should be able to go there.

Qiansui's depression does not occur all the time, but his schizophrenia is very serious. Sometimes Xiangzi will cry if he comes home a few minutes late.

It seems that I really can't leave her.

"I can't leave you at all, too, sui."

Xiangzi walked home silently with her head down. Along the way, she was accompanied only by street lights and countless office workers and drunkards collapsed on the ground.

Life was hard, the food was simple, there were no friends to contact, and new things that once seemed novel and interesting, such as automatic beverage machines, became commonplace.

I have to go to school during the day and work in the afternoon. After dinner, I will choose whether to go to work based on my current economic situation.

The days passed by, and it was still so hard. His father was still giving up, but Shoko Toyokawa felt that he had endless energy!

Because, in such a dark time, she still had her sister to accompany her.

As long as she thought about being able to sleep and chat with Chitose when she got home, feed her some fresh fruits and tell her stories about the day... Toyokawa Shoko would not feel completely desperate.

【At least, I'm still 30 years old, right?】

"I'm back."

The key was inserted into the keyhole and turned back and forth three times, but Xiangzi spoke before he even entered the door.

As usual, when she pushed the door open, a ball of hot softness threw itself into her arms.

"Sister! You came back five minutes early today, that's great!"

"Because I missed you, I quickened my pace when I walked. Now it seems... it's best if you can be happy."

The younger sister, who was already fifteen or sixteen years old, had long lost some of her childishness. When Qiansui raised his head to look at her, Xiangzi found that there were still traces of tears on her face.

"What's wrong? Why is Xiaosui crying?"

"No...it's just that my dad used my sister's money to go out drinking again during the day, and I didn't stop him...am I such a failure?"

Xiangzi felt sad at his father's aggrieved look, and was annoyed by his father's actions.

"Don't cry, Xiao Sui. Grandpa said that in a few days, he will allow Dad to go back."

"Then you won't have to worry about these things anymore."

"I just can't bear to see my sister's hard-earned money being wasted by Dad," Qiansui said, holding a toy teddy bear that was a birthday gift from Xiangzi. "My sister works hard from dawn to dusk to make money. It's very tiring."

[Yeah, very tired.]

However, in order to protect this family, in order not to disappoint her mother's spirit in heaven, and in order to prevent her from losing one of her last parents... Toyokawa Shoko was willing to do it.

"Thank you for your hard work! You're the best sister, but it's a pity that your age is holding you back."

"Don't have that kind of thought. No one in this family is holding us back. We are all working hard to survive."

The sisters' conversations are no longer as romantic as they used to be. The smell of money mixed with the bitterness of life has begun to seep into their topics.

But there is no way. The only way to save them is to go back in time, but this is unrealistic.

Shoko Toyokawa calmed herself down and went to wash up, and her sister followed her into the bathroom.

"Xiao Xiang."

Just before undressing and washing up, Chitose suddenly said solemnly:

"You have always sacrificed a lot for me..."

Perhaps, I am the least worthy person to be your sister.

Qiansui didn't say anything else. With a forced smile in the corner of her eyes, she casually said:

"Thank you very much."

……

Thank you so much for your efforts, everything you go through is worth it!

Shoko Toyokawa lay on the couch for a long time, unable to fall asleep. Chitose curled up in her arms, holding her teddy bear, with an orange night light beside her.

The night light is the most important piece of furniture in this bedroom. Without it, Qiansui's illness will flare up and he will wail in pain.

"call…"

Shoko Toyokawa repeatedly told herself in her heart that everything would pass and everything was temporary.

Although Qiansui's spirit has not been fully recovered in the past year, at least there are signs of recovery. Xiangzi never dares to think about the details of that night in the warehouse and that rainy day of escape.

Those were the sufferings that Chitose had to endure because of her wrong actions.

The narrow bedroom was too crowded, let alone two people sleeping side by side.

Just turning over gave me the illusion that I was going to roll off the bed.

"Xiao Sui, you've grown up...that's great."

Relying on his sister being fast asleep, Xiangzi's always tough heart could finally relax.

In the middle of the night, I can finally take off all my disguises.

She remembered the boss who had given her a hard time at work, the difficult customers, and her embarrassment and the pity she received from the convenience store clerk when she asked for a discounted lunch box.

She was a young person, a strong-willed and self-respecting young person. She was a sensitive young person who did not like to be pitied.

But it’s all for my sister…it’s all for my sister to live a better life.

He lives on for his sister, even if it means sacrificing time with her... He only hopes that she can recover and that he can bring her back to the Toyokawa house.

"And Mu..." Xiangzi thought of Wakaba Mu again, "All these years of medical treatment, the cost of seeing a specialist doctor... and the medicine were all paid for by Mu."

Without Mu, things might be even worse now. Xiangzi will never forget this favor.

"Fortunately, it's finally over."

His sister was sleeping soundly, and Xiangzi gradually felt sleepy too.

Her consciousness became vague and she gradually fell asleep.

The sisters are sleeping under the warm orange light, Xiangzi is holding Chitose, and Chitose is holding a teddy bear.

"..."

Suddenly, Chitose Noshiro opened her eyes, and a golden light flashed in her eyes.

The situation is stable again, right?

Then, the last step is about to begin.

Goodbye, Xiangzi.