I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

Lenai's call again still did not bring any response from Chitose. She then cautiously moved forward towards the big bed but was tripped by something and almost fell.

"Hiss, what is that——"

He bent down and rubbed his ankle, then looked back at Le Nai's pupils and trembled instantly.

What tripped her was not something else, but Chitose Noshiro's guitar.

【This is the big star shining brightly on the stage. 】

This legendary musical instrument that accompanied Chitose Noshiro all her life is now scattered on the ground like scrap metal.

"How could this be?"

Fragments of memories flashed before Lenai's eyes:

Backstage at SPACE, when the cherry blossoms were still there and Chitose was instructing Leuna on how to tune her guitar, the magenta cherry blossom carving on the back of her black guitar was dyed blood red by the orange stage lights.

Chitose Noshiro stroked Kaname Rakuna's head and said in a kind and friendly tone: "When I can no longer play it, I will give it to you. Please continue to play it for me."

But now...

Lenai wanted to pick up the guitar in disbelief, but the movement on the bed scared her.

"Who... Lenai?"

The dim light prevented Yao Lena from seeing the entire interior, so she carefully opened the window and finally saw clearly.

"Chitose...sister?"

Wine bottles were placed around the bed, and the wine soaked the sheets and also soaked Lenai's world.

Chitose Noshiro was lying on the mattress with her head in her hands. Her hair was disheveled and her clothes were tattered. Her former heroic spirit was no longer there.

She is Chitose Noshiro, the real Chitose Noshiro.

But she didn't seem to be Chitose Noshiro anymore... Lenai tried to find the shadow of her former sister Chitose in those empty red eyes.

But all that was found was loss and... confusion?

ha?

Noshiro Chitose? Confused?

"Sister Chitose, are you okay?"

Chitose Noshiro seemed to be still asleep, sitting there in a daze.

There were red marks on her hands and face from being pressed down in the same position for a long time, as if they were entangled by petals of cherry blossoms.

"Who...me? I'm...fine, ok?"

The exposed shoulder and the thin and pale face made Lenai tremble with fear.

Is this still the same Chitose Noshiro who shines on the stage... the fearless one who pursues her dreams? 】

How did her sister Chitose become like this!

"Ahaha, I'm so sorry... I let you see what I look like now... I've been so groggy these past few days that I can't even tell day from night... Thanks for helping me open the curtains, Lenai."

Why should I thank you for something like this?

"Chitose-sister, the band..."

"Band? They disbanded."

Although Chitose sounded very light when she said it, Lena only felt the heaviness.

Six words made Lenai feel more upset than six thousand words.

She thought hard about what to say, and finally asked the question she had always wanted to ask:

"Why did this happen! It's clearly not Chitose-nee's fault! Chitose-nee... is so amazing, Chitose-nee saved... everything, but in the end, what happened in the end..."

"Huh? How come you, a little kid, are talking more and more like an adult? Um, like..."

Chitose got off the bed, walked unsteadily to Le Na, then knelt down because of exhaustion.

Just like the posture they had when they first met.

Le Na just felt dazed. The heroic Chitose in the performance costume in the past and the miserable and beautiful Chitose in the yukata now were constantly intertwining and overlapping.

"You're like an adult, just like... me. That's great... but please don't end up like me."

Noshiro Chitose wanted to say something more, but she suddenly stopped and started coughing up blood.

The blood that Qiansui coughed up fell on the guitar, and the blood seeped into the guitar, becoming dark spots that will never fade.

"Sister Chitose! What's wrong with you?!"

"Ahaha, it's okay, I'm just feeling a little under the weather from drinking too much lately. Quick, help me get the iron box over there."

"Hmm! Is this the medicine for treatment?"

"Treatment?" He collapsed onto the carpet and replied weakly, "Yes, but it's not for coughing up blood. It's for something else."

"What? Treatment for what?"

Still sick? Why so many illnesses!

Lenai didn't quite understand the concept of "disease" or the meaning of "life and death". She only had a vague perception.

She only knew that being sick would make her feel uncomfortable.

Kaname Rakuna didn't want to feel bad for Chitose.

"Ah, depression or something. Haizuka took me to see a doctor the other day... but it's not a big deal, not serious."

Depression?

What disease is that?

Today, Lenai once again encountered countless pieces of knowledge that frightened her, and she was at a loss as to how to help Chitose up.

Noshiro Chitose is so light, how could that be? Even a child of a few years old could help lift her up a little?

"Sister Qiansui, I'll get you some medicine. Please don't feel bad, okay?"

"Yeah, thank you, Lenai-chan."

The iron box of mint candies contains antidepressants. This candy box seems to be limited edition, because there is a line of small words engraved on the bottom of the box:

【Without music, there is no life.】

Only after seeing Chitose take the medicine did Lenai feel reluctantly relieved. She carefully tried to wipe the blood on the ground with her sleeve, but found that Chitose Noshiro had fallen asleep leaning against the wall.

Lenai came forward and looked at the clothes that seemed loose because of Qiansui's thinness. She felt sad for no reason.

"Sister, sleep well, Lenai will keep you warm."

Finding a familiar spot in Chitose's arms, Lenai curled up into a ball like a wild cat finding its nest.

She didn't know how to accompany the patients, nor was she afraid of being infected by them.

After thinking about it, I can only accompany and stick to each other.

"Don't get sick, Chitose-sister. I will take good care of you."

Qiansui's sadness made Le Na sad as well, and she closed her eyes with melancholy.

"Ugh."

Ch360.If I were a bubble, what would you be?

Palpitations.

Poor sleep.

Difficulty breathing.

cold…

Lenai suddenly opened her eyes; she hadn't slept comfortably at all.

But it's okay if I feel unwell... How about Chitose Noshiro? Is Chitose Noshiro feeling better?

If I were to trade my own discomfort for Chitose's comfort, for Chitose's recovery... then I'd better transfer all of Chitose's misfortune and distress to her.

"sister?"

As I rubbed my eyes, my thoughts began to clear. It was already pitch black outside. It was probably around nine or ten o'clock.

Lenai couldn't see clearly, but she found herself being carried to the bed.

I thought my body would be wet from the spilled wine, but to my surprise, there was a blanket under me.

A little bear can be vaguely seen on the blanket. It is said that this was the blanket that Chitose Noshiro was wrapped in when she was born.

"Sister? Sister! Sister?"

After calling out three times without receiving a response, Lenai cautiously got out of bed and opened the side door of the bedroom.

She heard the sound of rain.

She hoped to see Chitose Noshiro on the terrace.

"Sister...why are you out in the rain?"

The relaxed spirit that had been restored after sleeping disappeared instantly when he saw Noshiro Chitoshi leaning on the railing in the rain.

However, Noshiro Chitose ignored her and continued to look into the distance with her back to Le Na.

"Sister, won't you be cold in the rain?"

Didn't you say you were sick?

"Hmm? It's not cold, it's very comfortable."

The distant voice of Chitose Noshiro made Le Na feel uncomfortable, as if Chitose Noshiro would fly away like her parents in the next moment.

"Can depression be cured? I took the medicine, and I feel much better now, don't I?"

"Ah... I'm almost healed from this kind of thing."

Noshiro Chitose turned her head and stared quietly at the girl behind her.

She lied. There was no depression, and the tin box contained only mints.

But it doesn't matter.

It was true that he was sick and weak, and Lenai's feeling was not wrong.

They are really about to separate... although only temporarily.

"Even if you're healed... you can't get wet in the rain. Grandma taught me that."

"Yeah, that's right, that's right..."

[Is this a visibly perfunctory response? How could this be…]

Lenai walked forward a few steps unwillingly and came to the place watered by rain.

In the rain, the girl looked at the woman in front of her and said nothing more.

"Sister Chitose, hug me."

He suddenly rushed to Qiansui's feet and quickly hugged Qiansui's thighs.

Under the cold rain, the girl's body temperature can melt most of the cold hearts in the world.

"Go back quickly, it's raining, don't be like me."

"No, I want to be like you."

"Become a loser... like me?"

Kaname Rakuna didn't expect Chitose Noshiro to say that, and she hugged him tighter.

"Lena... I have failed. My dream is completely over."

The rain was still falling, but Lenai inexplicably felt that the water droplets dripping on her head were warm.

It seemed that it was not rain that was falling, but tears that were falling.

"No, there's still a chance..."

"It's over. The band's disbanded, the auditions are over, and there's no future at the agency... It's all over. My dream is completely over."