I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

"I trust and support you unconditionally, even though it's irrational... but I think you're worth it."

"Chitose Noshiro... although... we haven't known each other for very long," Li Xi choked up when she said this. She couldn't explain the experiences and feelings in the dream to Chitose, a normal person.

It's too dreamy. Telling it will make others think I'm a fool... After all, that beautiful dream is just a beautiful dream.

"But in just the few weeks I've known you... I've already realized I can't live without you..."

"This feeling is incredible even to me. When I'm sad, just having you by my side can heal my heart... Do you know that your company can heal a broken heart better than time! And I am willing to accompany you as well..."

"The positive emotions I have because of you outweigh any negative influences you may have unintentionally brought to me."

Li Xi didn't dare to look into Qiansui's eyes again. She lowered her head and said the last and most wanted words:

"I think I love you...I also hope..."

"I... love you."

"Please, please stay by my side. I want to be with you forever... Don't leave me forever, okay..."

The girl's emotions were delicate and powerful, and as the last note ended, the room fell silent.

Shiina Riki was waiting for Chitose Noshiro's reply.

And Noshiro Chitose... was also waiting for her own reply.

How should I face their feelings in reality?

The flow of time seemed to slow down, only the movie projection on the wall behind Lixi was still playing tirelessly.

Li Xi blocked part of the picture, and that part happened to be the scene where the heroine was about to say goodbye to the hero forever.

"For a lifetime? Okay, then for a lifetime."

She put her lips close to Riki's eyes. Faced with the temptation so close to her, Shiina Riki felt flustered.

But Chitose's response did not stop there.

She blew on Lixi's eyelashes, and the warm touch instantly melted Lixi's rationality.

[I should... kiss her right now! ]

【And she... definitely won't refuse! 】

She followed her own will and tentatively approached those red lips.

But when he was about to kiss Qiansui, Li Xi quietly retreated.

She stopped moving and just stared at Qiansui.

【This is the most beautiful girl in the world. 】

【This is... the girl who belongs to me. 】

I could have just kissed her, but...

【I can’t bear to part with it.】

Holding Qiansui's face with her right hand, she once again wanted to kiss the other's lips because of the hot fragrance in Qiansui's hair.

"age…"

Finally, Li Xi turned his head away and didn't dare to look at Qiansui again.

She gave up again.

Even if a person of Lixi has expressed his feelings to each other, it does not mean that... he is qualified to overstep the line.

Maybe people would say she was cowardly and timid, and that if it were someone else, they would have kissed her.

But others are not Li Xi, and Li Xi will not accept such carelessness.

No one would be more eager than her to kiss the love of her three lifetimes, but no one would cherish Chitose Nodai more than her.

"I lied... Actually, it's not that I don't know whether I like you or not... I love you so much... But, I'm sorry, I can't kiss you."

Shiina Riki believes that love is restraint.

She lifted the hem of her thousand-year-old white dress, which was spotless and looked like something from this world.

Bending down, Li Xi looked at Qiansui's red eyes again.

That is her favorite color. It belongs to Chitose Noshiro.

"Just use this instead, sir. I sincerely hope you can be happy."

The tears fell before the kiss. Shiina Riki no longer hesitated and pecked the hem of Chitose's skirt for a moment.

【I am so happy now. 】

……

I kiss your sleeve gently, wishing to be like a flower falling on your hair, without disturbing the splendor of your life.

Ch339. Looking back, a thousand-year-old story of chasing his mother in the early morning

I don’t share the same sorrows and joys as the other people in the world. I just feel that my world is dull and bleak.

No one responded.

Not read or replied.

I'm dying.

I'm...going to die.

This was the last thought that filled Nagasaki Suyo's mind.

Then her mind went blank.

She was recalling the hug Chitose had given her in the cafe that day.

"Mom is stroking my head. Mom...daughters like to touch their mothers' heads. Is this a common trait? Mom, did you know? My daughter also likes to touch her head."

I miss you so much, my mother, my girl.

I want so much to hold you and never let go.

But that's not the case.

That’s not the case…

Unlocking the phone with fingerprint, Su Shi refreshed the screen again and again, hoping to see Qiansui's reply.

But Qiansui didn't reply to her now.

Even unread.

[Xiao Sui… doesn’t want me anymore? Just like in my dream… doesn’t want my 20-year-old mother anymore…]

Was she abandoned by her own child? What kind of ending is this?

Su Shi struggled to get up from the bed. She looked around in confusion, hoping to see someone open her bedroom door and give her the gentle embrace she had always dreamed of.

Anyone can come... No, it can only be Sui Lai.

"Sushi, what happened to you... Today, Qiansui's gentle hug brought back so many memories... Watching your mother leave brought back so many memories..."

What the hell is wrong with you?

Who on earth do you want to show this embarrassing face of yours?

"No, no, don't overthink it. Mother didn't want to abandon me... No, no, it's years old!"

years old, just fell asleep.

I will never abandon me... This is just my random thoughts when I am sad.

"Xiao Sui, why haven't you replied to my message yet?"

Su Shi trembled and went back into the closet.

She painted the inside of her closet with little flowers and smiling faces, which were what she had loved to draw when she was a little girl.

"Year-old... Come back to me quickly."

"Come back quickly and save me."

I'm in such a bad state.

Today, after you hugged me, my mother went back to work... The pressure accumulated over the years exploded at this moment...

“It’s so painful.”

Su Shi scratched the solid wood board with her fingernails. She knew that she could not destroy the wooden cabinet, just as she could not reverse the tragedy in her dream.

"Xiao Sui, come find me quickly."

It’s all your fault...for walking into my life.

You let me experience love and then deprived me of my love. How cruel.

If I had never seen the light, I could have continued to endure the pain and depression of the night... But you accidentally opened the crack in my heart that day and let you into my world.

Nagasaki Suyo still remembers that day after the rain, a young girl slowly walked towards her under the street light.

Her white hair melted into the night, but it could burn Su Shi's heartbeat more than the bright sun in the daytime.

At that time, the girl said to her:

[Hey! Are you okay? Why are you out here in the rain alone? Go home quickly, or it's going to rain even harder.]

And Sushi replied:

【I...have no home anymore.】

So, Noshiro Chitose...

Su Shi opened a corner of the wardrobe, and the pale moonlight washed her memory.

Without you, where would I be?

【Come back soon.】

[Hurry up and find me again, just like you found me at the crossroads. ]

Please.

……

"Stupid Li Xi, do you like me so much?"

"Ah."

Until the very end, Shiina Riki never got close to Noshiro Chitose.

She held the other person's hand tightly, and the regret in her heart about missing the last chance to hold the other person's hand slowly faded away.

"I'm satisfied, thank you."

Shiina Riki swore that in this life, there was a high probability that she would be able to close her eyes with a smile and sleep for eternity.

The movies continued to play, but the girls' minds were no longer focused on them.

They tentatively held and released each other's hands, but they seemed to be pressed against each other as they sat at opposite ends of the sofa.

Maybe it's because their hearts are too close.

When the one-hour movie ended, with the death of the heroine and the protagonist's suicide for love, Noshiro Chitose walked back with mixed feelings, holding Shiina Riki's phone.

"Are you sleepy?"

"Not sleepy," Li Xi replied with a yawn.

"How stupid."

Qiansui's hand was fiddling with her phone in her pocket. She didn't like reading messages in front of important people.

Let’s wait and see after I send Lixi home.

"Tomorrow... no, today is Friday, and Lixi is coming to stay at my house..."

"Yes, yes. Please call me for this kind of thing."

Before Noshiro Chitose could finish, Shiina Riki gave his own answer.

"In a hurry... We're home now, hurry up."