I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

As expected, Kyomoto's cheeks puffed out even more.

"Don't be angry, seriously, I'll always be your sister. If anyone wants to snatch me from you... I'll just tell them frankly that I'm already the property of the great Kyomoto, okay?"

"Really?"

Kyomoto was surprised and delighted, as he had never expected Noshiro Chitose to speak like this.

She turned around and could vaguely see her sister's blurry back. Although she had never been able to see her sister's face since she was a child, she knew and firmly believed that her sister was the incarnation of an angel on earth.

"Ever since our parents left... my sister has been carrying the family on her own... Did I just give her too much trouble...? After all, she just wanted to go out and relax in the evening..."

"Sorry, I was...willful. My sister should have her own life too."

The way Kyomoto Haizuka spoke reminded Chitose Noshiro of the "Chitose Nagasaki" who hugged Nagasaki Motoyo's thighs and acted coquettishly and cutely.

"What are you talking about? My sister should have the right to act like a spoiled child. Go get some rest. I bought you a new eye mask."

It was a silly 2D character eye patch.

Chitose Noshiro didn't know her, she only remembered that it was Suyo who helped her choose it.

After kissing each side of Kyomoto's cheek, Chitose held him in his arms and talked to him for a long time.

She talked about everything from her daily life during the day to her adventures after school, from Deng's lunch box to the work experience that Xiangzi had complained about to her.

As an older sister, she crushed the most interesting things in her life and fed them to her younger sister who had no access to these pleasures.

Watching Kyomoto fall asleep with sleepy eyes, Chitose was reluctant to leave the edge of the bed.

"Xiao Jing... well, come on, I didn't expect you to become a big kid soon."

When the room became quiet with only the sound of the girl's steady breathing remaining, Noshiro Chitose saw on Kyomoto the faces of countless girls she had bullied.

She did a lot of bad things in order to keep herself alive... and to keep the people she cared about alive forever.

Those bad things didn't happen in the real world, but Noshiro Chitose has now realized it—

Those things probably actually happened.

The system's statement that "simulation is just simulation" now has a new meaning for Chitose Noshiro, which is...

"What happened in the simulation can only condemn me morally, and the continuation of the simulation will also make me lose my morality... Therefore, continuing the simulation will only make me more selfish, and in the end, I may even become someone who disregards everything and only wants infinite life."

but.

Chitose couldn't bear to look at Kyomoto's sleeping face any longer.

"But I'm Chitose Noshiro... I can't abandon everyone... I want to live, I want to live so badly... By the time I realized that the simulation was more than just a simulation, it was already too late."

She went to the bathroom to wash up, trying to calm herself down with handfuls of cold water but unfortunately failed.

"By the time I realized my mistake, I had already hurt..." Chitose stared at her reflection in the mirror, she clearly saw seven golden circles!

"I've already hurt four or more people. If I stop simulating now... I won't have enough life left to compensate them or stay with them."

Really, I'm being strangled, I absolutely can't stop.

Now Chitose can choose to give up and stop simulating to let her sister live, but what about those girls whom she had hurt unconsciously?

Is it possible that he would just pat his butt and die in reality? Then would he let them really regret it for the rest of their lives?

"This cannot happen! It absolutely cannot happen... I will not allow such tragedies to happen!"

Now that we have come this far, let’s just keep going!

Qiansui suddenly found that the golden circle in his eyes began to rotate on its own, and the light became brighter and brighter, like a holy light emerging from a golden temple.

"I'm going to take the initiative and calm everyone down. I want to prevent tragedy from happening in their daily lives... I'm 99% certain everyone has the memories from the simulation... but I need to confirm it."

Chitose remembered Shiina Riki's invitation.

Perhaps, that would be a good opportunity to put my guess into practice.

"I don't want to be a coward! Humph!"

Chitose Noshiro simply put on some light makeup, put on her most appropriate pure white dress and went out.

She chose this combination simply because she found that wearing a white dress often makes the victim linger more than other clothes.

With his soles touching the floor tiles outside the door, Chitose Noshiro took a deep breath to calm himself down.

She glanced in the direction of Toyokawa Shoko's house and finally let out a sigh:

"I really want to say it again..."

"I, Chitose Noshiro, have a responsibility to everyone."

"I'm not kidding. Even if I have to simulate this thousands of times, I will stick to my original intention."

Ch335. Mother and daughter, sleepless night

The nights at Nagasaki's house were lonely and dark.

"Mom's back to work again. She can't hide the sadness in her eyes, but she keeps pretending to be strong..."

[Adults are just this kind of idiots who like to show off but have no choice but to do so.]

Nagasaki Suyo sat on the sofa in the living room with her knees hugged.

For her, an adult who had once been an unqualified mother...she deeply understood this sentence.

There was a time when she liked to show off her strength but she had to hold on all the time. Unfortunately, in the end she was unable to raise her little girl.

"You were only this small back then," Su Shi gestured at Xiao Qiansui's height on the sofa, unable to suppress the pain of nostalgia in her heart.

Whenever it was late at night and she was alone, Nagasaki Suyo would fall into a state of depression.

The only exception was the few days I stayed at Chitose's house.

That was one of the happiest times in Nagasaki Suyo's life.

"You clearly loved playing with that toy called Space Marine when you were little, but I just tried to test your feelings on LINE and you didn't show any reaction."

Su Shi picked up the phone, and the white light from the screen illuminated her pale face.

"Huh... I've looked at so many toys like this. The ones that were delivered on time were said to have a peculiar smell and weren't suitable for babies to play with. The ones that didn't have a peculiar smell weren't delivered on time... Sigh, I'll choose the latter."

Su Shi was deeply immersed in the memories of being a mother and couldn't extricate herself.

Just three hours ago, her mother suddenly told her that she was going on a business trip, which was no big deal.

Her mother often travels on business, and she has long been used to it.

Can…

[This time, the look in my mother's eyes as she left must have been the same as when I left my little one at home to go to work...]

"My little year, my little year..."

A shadow flashed before Su Shi's eyes, and she seemed to see her thousand-year-old mother waving at her with her thousand-year-old daughter.

"I... love you guys, I miss you so much, can you let me... hug you again?"

Su Shi pounced forward but hit nothing. Only then did she realize that the touch of the air was the essence of her imaginary mother and daughter.

"Ah, wow."

"Baby, it was Mommy's fault... Mommy shouldn't have gone out to discuss business that day... Mommy... I should have realized it was wrong a long time ago."

Su Shi made a gesture to hug his daughter, and his emotions, which had been calm for many days, could no longer be contained.

Her tear glands collapsed and her emotions broke down, and Nagasaki Suyo felt so helpless.

She thought Qiansui could heal the pain in her heart, but she almost died after being away from Qiansui for just half a day.

"Sui... Sui... Sui! I need Sui to accompany me... Wuwu, otherwise I really can't... breathe."

Come on, Chitose, give her a hug! She's really about to die!

"woo woo woo woo."

It seemed as if billions of thousand-year-old creatures were crawling on Su Shi's body.

She forced herself to walk towards the cupboard and roughly took off all her clothes so that she could hide inside.

[Mom! Grandma said that the only places to cry are in a mother's arms and in the closet.]

"Xiao Sui... my daughter... without you, how can I live on..."

The depressing atmosphere became more and more intense late at night, and Nagasaki Suyo cried until she was almost suffocated.

"I want to die! Why is it my daughter who died... Why is it my Chitose who died?!"

How many people in the world are like her? Why was this kind of suffering so fortunately cast upon her?

Why let her have two nightmares like this?

"I lost my mother when I was young, and then my mother and daughter when I was middle-aged... It's okay during the day, but at night I think of everything."

Su Shi cried for a long time before she could barely crawl out of the cabinet.

At this moment, she thought she was the saddest mother and daughter in Tokyo.

The clothes that were pulled out were spread all over the ground, which served as a good cushion to catch Su Shi.

Nagasaki Suyo's pupils dilated until she felt a piece of draft paper beside her.

She remembered what was written on it without even looking.

[That was the suicide note from my mother that I copied down after waking up that day...Ah, no! I don't want to remember it anymore...]

But the urge to take a look was completely irresistible.

Then she began to read by the moonlight, but as she read she began to read aloud:

"Xiao Sushi... I'm tired, so I'll stop here. You have always been my proudest child... I only have you as my child. I'm leaving now, so take care of yourself."

【Remember to wear more clothes in winter.】

【I love you, Chitose Noshiro. 】

"Mom, I miss you so much... woo."

Su Shi threw the piece of paper with the suicide note copied on it as far away as possible, for she was afraid that her tears would wet it.

"No! No, no! I want Xiaosui! I want Xiaosui!"

I want it now!

Su Shi fled the house in a panic, picked up the phone on the sofa and prepared to call Qiansui.

"wrong!"

It's already late, what if he falls asleep? That would disturb others.

Just like what Chitose's mother said in the letter, "I don't want others to think I'm annoying", Su Shi only understood the meaning of this sentence after becoming a mother.

She also didn't want Chitose to think she was...troublesome.

But the emptiness in my heart really can't be quenched.

After much thought, Su Shi finally picked up his phone and sent a message to Chitose Noshiro:

Soyo: I miss you. Can you come to my house? I need you... Please.

please.

Tonight...you must come and save me.

Just like when you took me home under the street light before.

"I'm waiting for you at my house. I'm at my house... I miss you so much."

……

Shiina Riki stood on Chitose Bridge, which was the only place she knew that was relatively close to Chitose's home and also recorded their beautiful memories.

When you ask someone to go out in the middle of the night, you are always worried about their personal safety.

"It's so cold, has the temperature dropped? I should have known not to let Sui come out."

Li Xi began to regret that compared to not being able to express his true feelings, Noshiro Chitose's injury or illness would be more fatal.

"Sorry, I'm being selfish again... If I had known... I should have just let my unrequited love last."

After meeting you, I realized that my life was destined to be a tragedy.