I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

I wanted to take her to settle down in Sapporo, but the food streets and tourist attractions we had agreed to visit before became scenes that we would never be able to visit together again in this life.

There are many things I want.

I wanted her, and I also wanted to never see her again.

Ultimately, it doesn't matter what I want, as long as she can continue to live happily in some corner of the world.

I regret listening to her and studying abroad, but I am also glad for it... It seems that she is living a good life without me.

Do I have the right to say now that what happened between us was a tragedy?

Maybe?

I really can't say for sure. When I recall it, I won't simply use "tragedy" or "comedy" to summarize the story that was full of Chitose Noshiro and me.

Now that I think about it, it would be nice if there was a character in the story who could always be considered the villain, so that I would know who I lost to.

Now I understand that there is no villain in my life. Chitose and I did nothing wrong, but tragedy happened.

That's how it is.

That's the way it is.

There is much more I want to tell about the story of the girl covered in wounds in the back seat.

I want to describe the sparkling look in her eyes when she opened her heart to me on the day we eloped. I want to recount the heavy words she said to me. I want to explain that she had really, really, really done her best.

do you know?

Every time I said "really", I could hear the sound of her knocking on the floor of the student union office when she pressed me down that year.

Chitose Noshiro accompanied me as far as she could, but in the end, there was nothing she could do, and we left each other behind for a better future.

At least that's what she and I thought...In the end, she chose to leave me.

Every blessing from her gives me a headache.

But maybe, every blessing from me also made her feel uncomfortable.

Almost all her memories were of bandages.

Now that I tell you this, you should be able to understand me.

……

"call--"

The darkness could not stop Chitose from opening his eyes.

When the simulation ends, the memories of every past simulation quietly come to mind.

"Everyone, it feels like I haven't seen you all for a long time."

Now that this simulation is over, let’s spend a few more days in peace.

Anyway, the lifespan on hand should be more than enough.

"If it weren't for making up for the deficit from last time, we wouldn't have started the simulation so soon."

Chitose walked to the balcony and stared blankly in the direction of Toyokawa Shoko's house.

She didn't know what time it was, but she knew that the morning sun was already showing in the sky.

[Congratulations host, you have successfully ruined Chihaya Aine's life. ]

The system sound rang, but Qiansui ignored it and just listened quietly.

Slowly rotating in her eyes was the seven-ring holy golden halo.

To better align with your assumptions, Xiaosui, you fully immersed yourself in your role and requested this system's cooperation. In this simulation, you cleverly employed a theme that was both very close to Chihaya Aine's life and yet also very distant from hers, making a bold attempt.

[You did a great job in maintaining cruelty in romance, Xiao Sui. Please keep it up next time.]

[Regret Index Calculation in Progress! Congratulations to the Host on Achieving a Lifespan of Ten Years (40% to 60% Split)]

[Remaining lifespan: 20 years, 4 months, and 20 days]

Overall evaluation: Above average (extra points for the novel technique)

[P.S. While it was the host who asked the system to cooperate, I did bully Xiao Sui too many times in the simulation. To compensate you, I've given you some extra life as a reward. Please continue the simulation with gratitude! The future is bright and promising!]

Finally, with a clang from the system, the entire simulation phase ended.

"..."

Really.

"Should I say you're a kind person? But you're clearly evil!"

Chitose rubbed the non-existent wounds on his body. Although everything returned to normal with the end of the simulation, the mental pain he had experienced would never be forgotten.

"Oh, Xiao Ai."

While Noshiro Chitose was in a daze, dawn had already broken.

She looked at the rising sun alone, thinking back to how she had ended the simulation.

"I asked the system to put me on hold. From now on, [Noshiro Chitose] will never be able to meet [Chihaya Aine] again."

There is no possibility of even passing by each other or encountering each other on the streets.

"That would be the best way to regret it for the rest of your life... Oh, Xiao Ai, I really hope you can meet a truly good person. I'm just such a bad person."

Noshiro Chitose didn't know where Chihaya Aine was at the moment.

Maybe in Fukuromori's high school? Maybe in Tsuki-no-Mori? Who knows.

Chitose calmed down and looked back on her short yet long simulation career of several decades.

She is very tired.

But the genuine feelings she received moved her so much that she even wanted to cry.

"But if I were to meet you in real life..."

The seven-ring golden circle in Qiansui's eyes was still turning in the opposite direction. With the rising sun behind her, her reflection was stretched very long.

"If, I see you again... I will never let you go easily!"

"In reality, I will definitely catch you!"

"That melancholic farewell in the simulation will never happen again!"

"Let me solve all the girls' problems on Chitose's behalf!"

And atone for it.

Ch323. No more school! Going back home! I want to go back home!

In London, England, at the girls' school where Chihaya Aine attends.

"..."

Chihaya Aine, who had been practicing English until midnight because of her poor pronunciation, accidentally fell asleep at the desk.

When she opened her eyes again, the pain of fatigue and depression made it difficult for her to breathe.

"In the end, we still couldn't be together."

"what?"

The roommate who had just woken up stretched and greeted Aine, but Chihaya Aine, who usually paid great attention to these etiquettes, did not respond this time.

She just sat there blankly, her legs and body numb.

"..."

"Ugh."

After exhaling a long breath, Aine managed to move her stiff body to the bedside.

She collapsed into the bed and uttered a long cry like a wounded little beast:

“Wow…Wow—”

Rolling up the small blanket into a vertical strip and holding it in her arms instead of a pillow, Chihaya Aine realized that the worst thing in the world had happened.

She started crying...

“Eh? Aine-san, why are you crying?”

"My wife ran away! She ran away! No! You don't understand at all!"

"Wow, wow, my fiancée and I have become strangers... Go and turn off all the lights and curtains for me. I'm a vampire and I don't want to see the sunlight right now..."

Aine's English level improved by leaps and bounds, leaving her roommates stunned for a moment.

"it is good."

Her roommates left, the room darkened, and Aine wanted to cry out loud but found she couldn't.

She just hid in the quilt, her body shaking uncontrollably.

"Noshiro Chitose, why did you dream of such a girl?"

Everything related to Chitose Noshiro was just something hidden in her dreams. In reality, she didn't remember there was such a wounded girl.

But it is this non-existent, imaginary character that makes Chihaya Aine feel obsessed.

There was no one else in the dormitory at the moment. Aine sat on the edge of the bed and then lay in the quilt, tears dripping everywhere.

"I can't breathe, woo."

[So dull.]

My heart is oppressed by an invisible boulder.

I was obviously very sad and wanted to cry, but in the end I couldn't express anything.

She had forgotten some of the little things about Noshiro Chitose, and now all she could remember was the good things about Chitose.

After being separated from Chitose Noshiro for many years, Chihaya Aine, who was worried about losing her, finally moved to Sapporo hoping to see her again.

Her motivation and joy in living every day is the anticipation of meeting again, because Chitose did not leave any way to contact her, and Chihaya Aine will never be able to tell her feelings to the other person by relaying them.

But she never saw the girl again.

Every day is filled with hopeful searches and yearnings, but every day is also filled with sadness due to the failure of doing nothing.

She keeps smiling in front of her colleagues and family every day, but she can't hide the melancholy in her eyes.

call--

Suck--

"Ugh."

call--

Suck--

"Ugh."

The soft wail was Aine's last resistance to the world.

Noshiro Chitose chose to let her go that night and also let herself go. This was what Aine wanted to see but also what she least wanted to see.

"Are you happy? Then I am happy too, but why? You don't even exist in this world."

But a dream made her never forget the girl.

She is now exhausted and no longer able to cope with the trivialities of life in the future.

Just like that, Chihaya Aine began to imagine Chitose Noshiro lying on the bed in her bedroom.

They leaned against each other in silence, crying silently. Aine was on the verge of collapse and had exhausted all her strength.

"Years old, ah."

At this point, there is no point in thinking about those unnecessary things.

Aine felt that her state was surprisingly calm, and there was no overly painful struggle in her heart, but she just couldn't be happy.

She felt that everything was meaningless. Wouldn't it be better if she could meet Chitose later?

If I had met Chitose when I was in high school, college, and after entering society, would I have been more capable of protecting her?