I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

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　"It's obviously my fault, Chihaya Aine! What have you been wasting your time on until now?"

　Qiansui closed her eyes and roared softly. She didn't want to look at the surprised look of the girl under her.

　"Huh? What are you talking about..."

　"Do you want to ask me what I'm talking about? I'm telling you the truth... If I didn't want to rely on you, if I didn't covet your care for me..."

　"You're still the popular student union president. You wouldn't bow down and apologize to your former friend for a student who was at the bottom of the class!"

　"If it weren't for me... your life wouldn't have had so many difficulties and twists and turns. Why have you always been so stupid?"

　"I'm not stupid... You're just making excuses! You're too kind, so you keep trying to make my mistakes your own. Is this kind of sophistry interesting?"

　They rolled around in the haystack, neither of them giving way to the other. Their skirts were dirty and their shirts were dusty, but it didn't matter.

　They were vying to apologize, but no one would listen.

　"That's enough! How did it become like this? It's obviously my fault, obviously!"

　Choking with sobs and unable to speak, Noshiro Chitose took advantage of the moment when Aine was unable to speak and reversed their positions again.

　"If it's all your fault, then what's wrong with me? Admit it! Chihaya Aine! It's me who messed up your life. It's me..."

　"If I weren't here, you wouldn't be arguing with me at this time... Is your life going well now? If it's not going well, why don't you think about who's to blame..."

　Aine won't accept that kind of talk!

　"It's me! Nodai Chitose! Don't you understand me? How many times do I have to tell you before you understand? It's my fault!"

　"I was wrong from the beginning... I approached you thinking I was superior... I thought I could take on the responsibility of your life, but I'm actually nothing..."

　"But I don't regret it at all!"

　The girl's roar was heart-wrenching, and her sincere emotions stimulated the collapse of her tear glands.

　Once again, they looked at each other with tears in their eyes.

　"I...it's my fault, but I like you...so please don't blame yourself, okay? Xiao Sui...I clearly agreed that you would rely on me, but I really, really, really feel powerless."

　Every time Aine said "really", her voice and tears would surge more fiercely.

　In the end, her voice was hoarse from crying.

　"It's my fault. If only I were stronger. If I were really that powerful, who would bully you? You're still blaming yourself. Do you want to make me miserable?"

　"Obviously! It was me, Chihaya Aine, who failed to protect you. What are you blaming yourself for?"

　"Because you clearly have no obligation to protect me..." Chitose's tone softened, but the tears streaming from her red eyes were no less than those of Aine.

　"Because of my appearance, you have to take on this responsibility... Maybe, I shouldn't appear in your life."

　"We are different after all, Xiao Ai. From the moment I was born, it was decided that I should not be the lover of someone like you in this life."

　Covering her mouth so as not to be seen crying, Noshiro Chitose saw Chihaya Aine's heartbroken eyes.

　"I... am such a failure, Xiao Ai. If it weren't for me, you wouldn't be like this... Please, if it can make you feel better... even if you have to leave me, I can accept it."

　The girls knelt on the grass, their knees were rubbed raw but no one cared.

　"I'm sorry, love. If I could, I wish you had never loved me."

　"Can you please love yourself more before loving me? Don't treat me as a responsibility, please."

　Chitose held up Aine's smiling face, and the face that should have been full of smiles was now filled with only grievance and unwillingness.

　"That's not right, love."

　“If a relationship becomes an obstacle in your life, please make sure to let it go without hesitation.”

　"I never hope that my presence will stop you from laughing..."

　"Promise me, stop wasting time..."

　"OK…"

　In the end, Chitose Noshiro burst into tears.

　Chihaya Aine also covered her mouth and could not respond for a long time.

　The one looking at me with tears in her eyes is my lover today.

　Ch315. Videos You Should Never Click On

　[Obviously, this kind of thing can be solved with the parents.]

　But why should I handle it myself?

　At midnight, Chihaya Aine sat on the terrace in a daze.

　The afternoon when she and Chitose had a conflict would flash back to her mind from time to time.

　Those pictures are broken, but they always break people's hearts.

　"Maybe I shouldn't have been so aggressive in the first place. I should have let my parents handle it... But what reason do I have to bother them..."

　Why didn’t I just let my parents solve it?

　Because, the parents have no right to come forward... Could it be that they come forward as "the parents of Chitose Noshiro's fiancée"?

　It's so unrealistic.

　"Besides, it was clearly me who took the initiative to take responsibility. Why would I let my parents deal with the trouble?"

　In the end, it only proves that Chihaya Aine is just

　Are you just bragging and completely unable to shoulder the responsibility of living the life of Chitose Noshiro?

　"Damn it, why did it become like this?"

　Aiyin hugged her knees and felt the loneliness of being alone, but the ringing of her cell phone instantly broke all her reverie.

　"This is...huh? Huizuka? I forgot to delete that guy, how dare he still send me a message."

　Aiyin opened the other person's chat avatar frame and found that the other person had sent her a video.

　"Huh? What is this?"

　Aiyin is now in a depressed mood, and the powerlessness brought by self-blame has made her physically and mentally exhausted.

　Her fingertips flickered, and after much hesitation she finally clicked on the video.

　tick-

　When the dazzling white light illuminated her pretty face, Aine's pupils couldn't help but shrink.

　"Here...is it years old?"

　At the same time, Chihaya Aine's speech on the stage can be heard everywhere.

　"Today, with a deep love and sense of responsibility for my campus, I stand here to run for Student Union President. The core of my campaign platform is to [fight campus bullying with zero tolerance and build a community of respect and inclusion]."

　"Wait, wait, what the hell is this video?"

　Aine’s back straightened immediately, and she brought the phone close to her face, but the picture she saw was too much for her to bear to see clearly.

　In the picture, Chitose Noshiro is looking at the camera with panic.

　"What... did you ask me to do?"

　Aine saw Chitose trying hard to break free from the attacker's hand that was strangling her.

　But it was ultimately a futile effort.

　Oh my god, this is all...

　"Were you the one who was mean to Chihaya-san this morning? Was it you?"

　The most eye-catching thing in the background is the portrait of Chihaya Aine's campaign.

　It was a freeze frame of a very happy moment in her life.

　In the picture, she is in good spirits with one hand clenched into a fist. Coupled with the words "Creating! Warmth on Campus!" written at the bottom of the poster, it is inspiring to those who see it.

　"Oh my god. When exactly was this? Could it be that day..."

　Aiyin covered her mouth and pulled the phone away, but in the end she suppressed the nausea in her heart and chose to continue watching.

　【I want to read on, I want to know the truth of everything...】

　"What do you want to do?"

　Chitose's little face was being kneaded by Huizuka's hands, and her body was being pressed down continuously.

　“I’m going to beat you up! Who made you betray Aine’s kindness?”

　【Me, me?】

　The camera was facing her face, and the abuser's rough actions made Qiansui's little face twisted in pain.

　And Aine's speech in front of the curtain continued: "This silent pain must be broken!"

　“Well, Nodai-san, please apologize to me and Aine!”

　"I…"

　"No, I changed my mind. You have to apologize to me first! After all, I ran away from the group just to teach you a lesson."

　"I do not want it!"

　[Good job! Xiao Sui! Don't give in to her... No, that's not right, just give in. That devil...]

　Aine had already guessed the ending. The red ink on Noshiro Chitose's head probably came from here...

　But what made Aine feel most desperate was that the progress bar was only halfway through, which was more painful than cutting her flesh with a knife.

　Sure enough, the bottle of red ink, symbolizing Noshiro Chitose's suffering, soon appeared on the screen.

　Haizuka's words were like the devil's whisper, lingering in the ears of Chihaya Aine and Noshiro Chitose across time and space.

　"Kneel down and apologize to me. I will forgive you if you apologize. Otherwise, I will dye your hair."

　"No way! I...ah!"

　[Apologize quickly! Otherwise you will be bullied! ]

　Although the video only recorded fragments of memories of the past, Aine still hoped that Chitose would remain intact.

　But fate could not be changed, and the red ink still stained her long silver hair like a nightmare.

　In fact, Aine could feel that the ink didn't just splash onto Chitose's body.

　She also dyed her heart red.

　“Don’t…”

　Chitose's wailing was heartbreaking, but what made Chihaya Aine feel most powerless was her own voice in the video.

　The video ends with her inspiring speech: "Students, opposing bullying is not just a slogan; it's a commitment to the goodness of human nature! If I'm elected, I will put my three promises into action: to protect victims, to awaken bystanders, and to correct perpetrators."

　call out--

　The video ends here.

　Aine knew the rest of the story clearly. She caught Chitose Noshiro sobbing alone in the bathroom on the first floor.

　The little girl’s rosy eyes that day are still vivid in my mind.

　Chihaya Aine put down her phone, and her mind went blank for a moment.

　"Why are you showing me this?"

　"Haitsuka, are you trying to disgust me on purpose?"

　You succeeded.

　You're making me sick to death.

　Ugh.

　Aiyin wanted to click into the chat interface with Huizuka but accidentally saw the scene at the end of the video again.

　That was a poster, a promotional poster that Aine was extremely familiar with.