I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

Why do people have to separate...If it is destined, it would be better not to meet in the first place.

The blue butterfly that led me forward flew away, and someone else discovered me... When I had lost hope in life, in a dark corner, she saw me and approached me.

[My name is Chitose Noshiro! Please take care of me!]

[Senior, let's go have a drink! ]

He said strange things to someone he just met. I was obviously the senior, but he was still leading me forward.

I…I don’t hate this feeling at all!

I... I really like Chitose! I want to be friends with you... for life!

Greedily wanting to keep everything that you think is beautiful.

Being in a band has always been a luxury that I didn’t dare to think about, but someone discovered me and gave wings to my writing.

Today, Xiao Sui, you told me that you wanted to go on stage with me...

I really don't dare.

I'm so scared...

……

"Don't be afraid, my little lamp! I say! Don't be afraid!"

When Takamatsu Touma's narration came to an end, Chitose used her clear voice to dilute the other person's sadness.

"This is... my life... isn't it a complete failure?"

When Gao Songdeng said the last word, it suddenly felt that nothing was so important anymore.

Say yes! Say it! Say my life is a complete failure!

"You're such an idiot! Actually, there's nothing wrong with that. All of this is preparation for our meeting."

"Wow...what do you mean..."

He drank so much that his brain almost short-circuited, and Gao Songdeng had trouble understanding even slightly complex words.

"Ah, fate. We were destined to meet. Every minute and every second of my life before I met Senior Deng was paving the way for this moment."

"Deng, do you believe in fate?"

What Noshiro Chitose said was not false, because that was the system's default assumption.

Those unimportant lives didn't even require her to simulate and experience them herself.

"I…"

The evening breeze swayed, and every breath Takamatsu Tou inhaled and exhaled carried the breath of Noshiro Chitose.

It was so hot that all her nerves were on fire.

"I believe... but I can't, I really can't go on stage... I..."

"Xiao Deng! We have to move forward. We can't stay where we are forever. I want to move forward with you. Can we go on together? Give me a chance, really, just once."

Chitose Noshiro's eyes were firm:

"Just once! I will absolutely, absolutely not let you down."

Ch23. It's like a marriage proposal

Noshiro Chitose...this guy really likes to make decisions on his own.

He talks to himself and barges into other people's lives, and then talks to himself and makes others like drinking. Now... now he holds someone's hand and says the lines of proposal.

What exactly do you want?

"I…"

I can't promise that.

I can't trust anyone anymore...especially one person!

Takamatsu Touma held Noshiro Chitose's face in his hands.

[What a gentle person! Such a good woman! Am I really worthy of her tenderness?]

Unworthy, unworthy, only having the courage to recount one's past, but not the courage to accept the other party's promise, Gao Songdeng...

You are such a coward!

"Little lamp."

Chitose's tone was gentle and calm, unlike the usual drunken, dazed, and unreliable fool.

Behind Chitose, Deng even imagined the wings of an angel.

"Actually, I saw Deng when I was very young, but Deng probably doesn't remember me."

"What? Really? I...I'm so sorry! I really can't seem to remember."

"Pfft, it's okay...it's okay...hahaha, it would be terrible if Deng still remembered such a small thing."

"Just think of me as joking! Maybe I've never met Senior Deng before."

Qiansui laughed out loud, and his laughter was mixed with pain.

Looking at the current Takamatsu Deng, Chitose regretted it, really regretted it.

She should have spent more time on her first simulation.

Six years is not enough...

If it's only six years, Gao Songdeng's life has not yet begun. In the ten or twenty years after six years, Gao Songdeng will have to deal with all the problems he encounters on his own.

If only I hadn't died so early.

If I live to be thirty.

If she could take good care of Deng before dying... then at least the first Gao Song Deng that belonged to her would live a better life, and she could avoid so many misfortunes in Alcohol Lamp's life.

Qiansui's laughter continued to grow louder, and he choked up as he laughed.

At the same time, she also regretted why the system allowed her to skip the "unimportant" twenty-two years at the beginning of this simulation.

If I had known Takamatsu Deng earlier...the Deng who was still a teenager and only sixteen years old, then the current Takamatsu Deng, who is embarrassed and fragile, who looks grown up but is unable to move forward in his heart, would definitely not have appeared!

If the first simulation had gone on later... If this simulation had come earlier... As long as any one of them was completed, Takamatsu Deng's life would have become happy!

Just complete one of them... It's so simple yet so difficult. At this time, Qiansui found himself so helpless.

Just like she can only save herself through simulation, if it weren't for the simulation she wouldn't even be able to save herself.

From the beginning to the end, Chitose Noshiro was a useless and useless woman.

"Xiao Deng, I'm so happy... I'm really happy that you've grown up."

"Ever since I was little, I've wondered what you'd be like when you grew up... I'm really excited to meet you at 26. I've been praying for you since you were only six... or even just six months old."

Tears streamed down her cheeks, and Chitose saw tears welling up in Deng's eyes.

But why are my cheeks wet too?

what…

Chitose Noshiro found the answer in Takamatsu Touma's eyes.

【I cried too...】

"Thank you, Xiao Deng, for giving me the chance to meet you again. I swear, I will lead you forward. Please trust me just once..."

I want to lead the twenty-six-year-old you out of the predicament you faced at sixteen. At the same time, this is also to help the six-year-old Takamatsu Chitose move towards a twenty-six-year-old future...

The roadside was quiet, even the insects held their breath to avoid making noise. The noisiest things in the world now were the moonlight and the sound of dripping tears.

"I…"

Qiansui and Deng faced each other, fingers interlocked.

[Such warm hands... too warm to be real.]

【This is the only hand I can hold on to.】

Me…

"I am willing!"

It was practically a marriage proposal.

……

The words "I do" are not something that should be said casually.

It seems to have become a habit for Takamatsu Tomori and Noshiro Chitose to have a meal of barbecue and rice after returning home after drinking.

"Ugh! Xiao Deng! Did you add too much salad dressing? It's so sweet!"

"Hmm? Y-yes?"

"Of course there is, idiot!"

Although she was at Takamatsu Tomo's house, Chitose did not feel unfamiliar at all. After all, in the past ten days, she had visited Takamatsu Tomo's house more often than she had returned to her own home.

"I'll pay attention next time!"

Qiansui had just taught her this skill, and although she had learned it, she couldn't make it very delicious yet.

"Hey, it's already delicious! My little Deng is so amazing."

Putting down her chopsticks, Chitose gently helped Takamatsu Deng, who was standing beside her, to fix her hair.

"I want to eat Arctic scallops. Oh, I really miss the taste."

I don’t have money to eat in reality, so simulation is the only chance to taste these delicacies - but I always forget to taste them.

"I, I know a Japanese restaurant. My high school graduation ceremony was held there. I can take Xiao Sui there someday!"

"Oh? Okay, but..."

Noshiro Chitose leaned back with his hands spread out, looking helpless:

"My savings are very low, so I have to ask Xiao Deng to treat us."

"it is good!"

"What an idiot! It's a good thing you met me, otherwise I would have ripped you off and even used your name to take out a loan for a shot at marbles!"

"How could this be... so mean."

"Pfft."

Really, I'm happy about the warmth we have now.

Chitose emptied the last of the Demon Slayer sake stock and collapsed directly in Deng's arms.

"I'm going to sleep, Xiao Deng! Remember to help me take a bath later."

"Huh? Okay."

I need to help Xiaosui take a bath or something... Xiaosui seems to have helped me take a bath countless times before!

Whenever Gao Songdeng thought about these things, his face would turn red.

"In the movies, it says...if you're shy about bathing other girls, then that's lesbian...but I, but I..."

But I'm not a lily.

I just have a strong liking for Chitose-chan...this isn't love.

Deng hesitated and chose to use the remaining wine in the glass to give himself courage.

The sky outside was dark and it was already a little after nine o'clock in the evening.

The sleepy Chitose, the helpless me, still had a mouthful of barbecue rice and an empty wine bottle.

"How come life has suddenly become so warm?"

What went wrong that turned a life as hard as stone into golden gold?

Gao Songdeng couldn't understand it, but she was willing to sing again for Sui.

If it's just singing, it shouldn't be difficult.