I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

Chitose must have been tormented and miserable after spending several days in the hospital on IV drips and taking medicine.

It hurts, but there's nothing you can do. Even someone as powerful as Nagasaki Suyo feels powerless.

"Mom, school is about to start in a few days. Will you attend our elementary school opening ceremony?" He shrank again and again in his mother's arms, but the words he said made Su Shi feel speechless.

Is Xiaosui going to primary school already?

Oh my God, how come it happened so quickly? It feels like I just brought him home yesterday.

"I will definitely go. No matter how busy the day is, I will arrive on time."

No, which school did Xiaosui attend?

The corners of his mouth trembled uncontrollably, and finally Su Shi recalled a question his mother had asked him a few months ago.

[Does Suyo think Tsukinomori is better, or Hanedaoka? I heard Hanedaoka has a better atmosphere. What was it like studying at Tsukinomori?]

What did you say at that time?

At that time, I just nodded and rushed to the meeting.

"Is it... Moon Forest?" Su Shi said cautiously as if testing someone. He felt extremely embarrassed.

"Yeah, hey, grandma said it was mom who helped her choose the school, and she also said! Mom used to go to school here too!"

Not daring to lower his head to look at his daughter, Su Shi tried hard to restrain his inner guilt and made a certain decision in his heart.

[I need to quickly resolve this work issue and make up for Xiao Sui's wish!]

My mother was too gentle. She saw my impatience at the time but didn't lecture me.

Her mother tolerated her, as always.

If Xiao Sui knew my true appearance, he would definitely be disappointed, right?

"Mom, what's going on tonight?"

"Ginseng chicken soup and fried tofu. Mommy has already learned how to make ginseng chicken soup...Xiao Sui, play by yourself for a while, and then mommy will call you to eat."

"Good~"

Although still very weak, Chitose has recovered to a relatively good level.

This is also the reason why Su Shi is relieved to let the child play alone. To be honest, Su Shi really wants to tie the child to himself so that he can clearly observe if anything is wrong with the child.

She was too afraid that Xiao Sui would get hurt or sick again. Every time she did that, she was cutting into her flesh.

"Huh... finally, the hospital is really killing me. I have to be stared at by the gloomy Takamatsu Deng every day... That guy actually took a year off to come see me."

Qiansui stood in the sun room looking at the scenery, her little mouth constantly muttering.

"You idiot, you little bastard! Does Takamatsu Deng in every world like me this much? Look, when I return to reality, I'll severely bully you, this stupid and unintelligent little penguin."

"You're so bad, Chitose-chan."

The system voice behind her was still emotionless, but Chitose felt that this guy was more or less teasing her.

"Stupid system, go back and work overtime, don't exhaust my daughter."

Pointing with one hand and putting the other hand on her waist, Chitose Noshiro suddenly had an absurd feeling that she was like a female imp.

"Working, working. Oh, but when are you going to end this simulation? I feel like we've almost reached the point of developing our relationship."

The system blinked its golden eyes and the corners of its mouth trembled a few times.

"It will be soon. I know you're anxious, but don't worry! My lovely Su Shishi hasn't made enough mistakes yet. Even though my death would be a good thing, it wouldn't be the best!"

The more mistakes you make, the more regrets you will have.

"Hehe, just watch! I'm going to make her regret it for the rest of her life!"

Ch156. I feel like I will be the happiest person

Before going to bed, Su Shi carefully helped Qiansui clean up his body.

They lay on the soft big bed, and Qiansui, as always, rested his little head on the heart of Su Shi Ren.

This was the most comfortable pillow she had ever experienced.

There was no noise in her ears and the quilt was warm. One day many years ago when Qiansui opened her eyes, all she could remember was the cold streets and the empty night.

It was Su Shi who picked her up.

What can I say?

This may be the legendary fate.

In every simulation, the protagonist will meet Qiansui by chance. No matter in reality or simulation, the predetermined fate has entangled everyone together.

Chitose looked at the ceiling.

If possible, she hopes to be with Su Shi for the rest of her life.

She actually...really wants a mother.

In reality, Chitose lost her parents at a very early age. Her parents were not present at the most memorable occasions, such as the junior high school opening ceremony, junior high school graduation ceremony, and high school opening ceremony.

On days when no one held an umbrella for her, Chitose alone was the umbrella of protection for her and her sister.

later.

Well...those bad days are finally over.

But I won’t live much longer.

In the simulation that he relied on for a living, Chitose once had an idea, which was to simply exchange his current lifespan for money and leave it to his sister so that he could die.

But that wouldn't work. She couldn't die in Qiansui's place! She absolutely couldn't die!

She still has two friends, Deng and Lixi... She also needs to help her sister get a chance to see the light again... There are still many things to do. If she makes new friends in the future, such as Su Shi in reality, there will be more things she cannot give up.

Reality is reality, simulation is simulation.

No matter how sad the simulation is, it is just a dream. In reality, you need to smile more, that is success.

She just wants to live by struggling like this!

"Mom, you said we would be together forever."

No, Mom, we won't be together forever.

Chitose asked Suyo with the answer in mind. It was more like she was talking to herself than asking Nagasaki Suyo.

"Yes, I do. I don't have any special abilities, but I will definitely protect Xiaosui for the rest of my life."

"I don't want Mommy to protect Xiaosui. When Xiaosui grows up, Xiaosui can protect Mommy!"

"Puchi, protect me?"

There was a complicated look in his eyes, and Su Shi felt that he really didn't deserve his daughter's love.

She is such a bad mother and an unqualified daughter. Su Shi’s only success is that she has managed to keep herself alone.

Even though I am such a failure, will you still like me? Will you still love me?

"Xiao Sui loves her mother the most... Before, she was too busy to take care of her, but now she has finally taken her home! Xiao Sui is so touched."

Her chest felt hot and wet, and Su Shi knew that they were Chitose Nagasaki's tears.

These tears really flowed into his heart, making his heart, which had recovered its vitality, beat even faster.

"Don't cry, mom will definitely stay with you forever."

The lights are dim and the atmosphere is warm. There is a full moon tonight, but it’s a pity that the thick curtains block the moonlight outside the house.

"Will we always sleep together and drink ginseng chicken soup together? Xiao Sui loves her mother so much, she really loves her... Xiao Sui is so scared that her mother will continue to ignore her..."

"I...I didn't do well before, and I also broke the appointment that time."

Nagasaki Suyo regretted it so much that she almost broke her back teeth.

She resented herself for not noticing the potential safety risks in the company earlier when she was taking care of Xiaosui, and she also blamed herself for being so immature that it took more than a week for the current situation to stabilize.

If I could be as strong as my mother and build a career for myself in the huge city of Tokyo from scratch... I would definitely have more time to spend with my daughter.

"Xiao Sui has never blamed Mom. Every time Mom blames herself, Xiao Sui gets very sad. Xiao Sui doesn't want to see Mom unhappy..."

Qiansui buried his little face in Su Shi's heart, raised his eyes and stared at Su Shi with grievance.

"I...I..." Su Shi was speechless.

She found that all she could do was keep swearing and making promises, but these were all too empty and false.

Nagasaki Suyo wants to make her sensible daughter Chitose happy through her actions! So she must attend Chitose Elementary School's opening ceremony!

So that Xiaosui can have a happier childhood!

"Can mommy bring Xiaosui with her this time? Xiaosui has always wanted to live with her... Will mommy be that busy this time?"

"No, no... I swear I really won't do it this time..."

I regret it so much, why did I do this to this little girl...

Su Shi couldn't imagine how much impact the absence of parents would have on a child.

A little girl is raised by her grandmother, but her mother never cares about her - she doesn't have a father yet.

In this case, we are really thankful that Chitose didn't grow up abnormally or develop any mental illness.

Hugging Qiansui tightly, Su Shi felt that she could no longer cry.

She hated herself so much. The more sensible and coquettish Qiansui became, the more Su Shi would gradually develop a contradictory self-hatred.

As resentment deepens, guilt will flood the heart, which almost forms a vicious cycle.

"Mom, I want to hear a lullaby...can I?"

Poor little girl, no one can refuse your request.

Su Shi's gentle voice made Chitose feel comfortable. It was the song "Dumpling Family". It seemed that Su Shi also liked this song.

As they sang, both of them gradually fell asleep.

Su Shi began to fantasize about the good days in the future.

She will expand the company and eventually slowly enter retirement life like her mother.

Chitose will grow up and she will have a happy childhood.

When Chitose reaches her rebellious phase she might go out and play in a band again, after all, bands are still popular in this era.

She can play rock and roll, and maybe she can play bass, so I can teach her how to play bass.

Then Chitose will go on stage to perform, and she can take her mother to watch Chitose's performance.

They will cheer for their proudest little Chitose from the audience, and Chitose will eventually graduate successfully and join her company to inherit their Nagasaki family's ancestral business.

Will my daughter get married in the future?

I guess so.

It’s best to do it with girls, because girls won’t bully Xiaosui, only Xiaosui bullies others.

Later...

My mother and I can enjoy our retirement life, Chitose will become the new "Nagasaki Lady", and we can get together every weekend to enjoy a good meal and relax.

They would drink ginseng chicken soup together.

Serve with vegetable pasta.

【I will be happy, I will definitely be happy.】

The corners of Su Shi's mouth curled up in an obvious arc.

She felt that she would be the happiest person in the world.

Ch157. She definitely won't blame me

She felt that she would be the happiest person in the world.

She believes that this small family that she has cherished since she was born will never be dissolved.

Mother, myself, and my daughter, everyone will be fine.