I am the emotional sustenance of your deceased

How long has it been since I last spoke to my mother? Has even the desire to hear her voice become a luxury now?

It’s really...unpredictable.

The ward door was pushed open from the inside, revealing a corner of the spacious ward in front of Chitose.

Due to his height, Qiansui had to go around Su Shi's sleeve to see clearly who was coming out.

It's a nurse.

"He's awake now, Ms. Nagasaki, please go in and take a look."

"Are you awake..." Su Shi swallowed his saliva, his movements were not very large, "Do you need some water? Do you need to wipe the sweat off? Are you ready for these?"

She felt that she was just stalling for time by asking these questions.

She really wants to see her mother, but she is embarrassed to do so. She feels shy and twisted. This is how Nagasaki Suyo feels at this moment.

"Yes, you can go in and visit now."

The nurse came and went. Outside the huge VIP ward, there were only two children, one big and one small, staring blankly at the slowly closing white door.

"Mom? Hmm?"

[My daughter is probably wondering why I didn't go in...ah, it's so hard to explain this to her.]

"Xiao Sui, go in first. Xiao Sui has been wanting to see grandma for a long time. Mom, I need to make a phone call. It's about work, and it's urgent."

"Eh?"

You guy, why are you so scared again?

Su Shi pushed Chitose's thin body into the ward. Under her gaze, Nagasaki Chitose raised his hand to hook the door handle and pressed it.

But at this moment, Qiansui stopped moving.

She turned her head and focused her red eyes on Su Shi's eyes.

"Mom? Come in with me... We can't stay away from each other forever. There's no point in running away."

"!!!"

"I…"

It is said that children’s words are sometimes the most offensive... Xiaosui, don’t be so sensitive to your mother’s emotions!

Before Su Shi could react, Qiansui grabbed his hand. In fact, it would have been easy for him to break free, but Su Shi just couldn't exert any strength.

This child, this child...

Her hands were so warm and her body seemed to be glowing.

"Mom, Xiaosui has never experienced a family gathering since he was born..."

"..."

"I see."

Su Shi took a deep breath and decided not to escape or retreat anymore.

Her eyes were filled with determination.

at last!

Nagasaki Suyo took that step...

Ch150. In the ward, her, her, and her story

No! I'm not mentally prepared yet! At least give me two more seconds to breathe!

What do you mean by full of determination? That’s just a trick of yourself in the next second!

When one foot stepped into the ward door, Su Shi still felt uneasy.

She felt sorry for her mother and Chitose, and she found that many of the decisions she made had more or less caused harm to the people she should have cared about.

Gulu.

Her throat was sore and dry that it felt like smoking. Su Shi hadn't had time to drink a sip of water since she woke up. Furthermore, she was too nervous while waiting for her mother's condition to return to normal to have had no time to swallow...

Su Shi clearly felt that there were countless Toyokawa Shoko crawling in her throat.

The light inside the house is more dazzling than outside, but it is still within the soft range.

Holding Qiansui's little hand, Su Shi had to bend down to make it easier for him to hold her hand. Taking another step forward, Su Shi saw her mother——

Mother, with your thin body, gaunt cheeks, and gray hair, why are your eyes still as gentle as ever when you look at me?

Ms. Nagasaki—the real Ms. Nagasaki of the first generation—was half-sitting on the hospital bed, her back resting on two large, soft pillows.

How should I speak at this time?

Her mother was looking at her, her daughter was also looking at her, and at this moment the eyes of the whole world seemed to be focused on poor Nagasaki Suyo.

The daughter's lips were trembling. Su Shi saw the other party's silent words. Qiansui was saying:

Say something, my proud mother.

Say something, say...

"Xiao Sushi! It seems that you and Xiao Qiansui are getting along very well. You have no idea how rich the meals in the hospital are. It's a pity that I can't finish any of them. Alas... The nurse said that I haven't fully recovered yet."

"Yes, yes, Mom...I..."

Choked.

Jerky.

Stupid mouth, move quickly!

The mother in the room was smiling kindly, but that smile looked so fragile; her palms were warm, and the daughter's warmth was always burning her heart.

There are no birds singing outside the window, only the scattered noise of the sun lazily spreading its rays.

Finally, Nagasaki Suyo took a deep breath:

"Mom, I miss you. I'm sorry... I disappointed you..." After being pulled to Ms. Nagasaki's bed by Chitose, Su Shi sat down subconsciously. She lowered her head but did not dare to look directly into her mother's eyes.

Her mother made her proud, her daughter made her very proud, and only she herself -

She was very disappointed in herself.

"Pfft, what are you talking about?"

The mother's slightly trembling little hands embraced Su Shi's body. The trembling seemed to be contagious. The moment the hands touched Su Shi, Su Shi also shuddered.

"Xiao Sushi, you've always been my proudest daughter... You've worked so hard over the years, running such a large company by yourself, facing such heavy pressure every day. It's really not easy..."

"It's a pity that mom is old and can no longer help you. Mom won't make Su Shi feel like a burden, right?"

It's like a little girl who did something wrong apologizing to her mother. Ms. Nagasaki is more like a daughter now.

Was her reaction one of being overwhelmed? Was she actually feeling guilty for not being able to continue protecting her daughter?

She looked like a child who had made a mistake.

"No...it's me, I'm too willful...sometimes I feel like I'm really too high and mighty."

"Mom is not high and mighty! Mom is the best mom!"

Chitose climbed up Su Shi's legs and onto her body, then snuggled into Su Shi's arms, raised her head and wiped the tears from the corners of Nagasaki Su Shi's eyes.

"Really? You're such a grown-up, and you still need your thousand-year-old mother to wipe your tears? Little Sushi, you're such an idiot."

"Woo..."

The tears did not stop flowing even though they were wiped away. Surrounded by the tenderness of the last two family members in the world, the heart of fifteen-year-old Nagasaki Suyo began to beat again.

The heartbeat was so loud that it disturbed Su Shi's soul.

She couldn't keep the broken homes of the past.

She had done nothing wrong, but it just happened.

As time passed, as time slowly passed, Su Shi finally had the initiative to protect his home.

This time, even if I try my best, I cannot let my family get hurt or my home be destroyed.

This time, this time, this time...

God, please, let me have a stable and lasting family for the rest of my life... I really, really envy those who have truly fulfilled their lifelong vows...

Chitose held Ms. Nagasaki's hand.

At the same time, she also took Su Shi's hand.

She put their hands together, with her own hand sandwiched in the middle.

Three hands, old, young, and still well-maintained, are transferring warmth to each other. This is an extension of their hearts and the waves created by their intertwined emotions.

"Grandma! Mom! Don't cry! Hey, it's such a nice day outside today! Grandma, you don't know, yesterday Mom took me to the beach, and we bought..."

In the ward, the voice of a young girl telling a story could be heard.

Chitose's smile and words filled the air, and Nagasaki Suyo's generation would never be able to forget the atmosphere of that moment.

On a cloudless afternoon, mother and daughter surrounded him, and everyone was very happy.

And Su Shi can feel happy for their happiness, which makes her feel many times happier.

Her tears never stopped.

What band? What Xiangzi? What unbearable past? To hell with it all…

You are all unimportant ghosts of the past... You can no longer control my emotions! Never again!

What I, Nagasaki Suyo, want is...what is in front of me.

That's the way it is.

……

"Why can't grandma be discharged from the hospital yet? I want to go to France with grandma and mom!"

"Still thinking about France? Okay, when grandma gets better, mom will pick a time when she's not busy to take you abroad."

"Hey hey hey! Really?!"

"It's true. Mommy would never lie to Xiaosui."

"Then I have to get ready when I get home today! I saw on TV that I need to bring a lot of luggage, right? Mom! Do we have that many suitcases at home?"

"Ah... Xiao Sui, don't worry. Your grandma won't be discharged from the hospital until next month. But if you want, Mommy can take you to buy a suitcase today!"

Although, you don’t actually need that many suitcases… but if just buying a few suitcases can satisfy a child’s fantasy, then why not?

"Yeah! I love mom the most!"

Mom, I like Xiaosui the most too.

Ch151. Destined to bear this heavy burden for a lifetime

All the troubles seemed to be settled.

Those difficult situations and unexpected events that make people feel bad are like withered petals blown away by the wind.

After returning to the quiet little villa, the first thing Su Shi did was to help Qiansui and herself take a bath.

The sea breeze left the smell of salt and orange juice between the mother and daughter's hair. Because Su Shi was in a hurry to go to the hospital, she didn't have time to clean it up.

She was in such a good mood now, as if the timid and stupid girl two hours ago was not her.

Qiansui walked into the house in front, and Su Shi protected her behind her.

Just now, when Chitose walked into the courtyard, her cute way of skipping along the stone steps really warmed people's hearts.

Really, Chitose, why are you so cute?

It's only been a week, and you've made me "can't let go" of you? You're like a little witch, casting a spell.

Or is it that... as an older single woman, I'm too lonely?

Forget it, thinking about this kind of question is simply killing brain cells. I'd better keep some brain to think about what to eat in the evening.

Well... there is no food at home, I need to go order some vegetables... and meat.