Tokyo, there are too many beautiful girls imitating me

No one asked for your opinion on the taste of breakfast, nor did they ask you to go out. After taking out the dishes, the plates were empty, but your heart was filled with complex, sad emotions that you could not identify.

Are you relieved and relieved that Chika Tachibana didn't try to talk to you or establish a connection with you? Or do you feel lost and painful?

You don't know, anyway, swallowing the breakfast that should have been delicious, you just feel that it tastes like chewing wax.

Do you want to make a change? You ask yourself.

The scene when I met my cousin two years ago is still vivid in my mind. Completely different from the gloomy and dull you, my cousin Chika Tachibana was so cheerful and energetic, exuding youthful vitality. Her smile brought warmth and strength to people, and she was loved and admired by everyone.

She is not from the same world as you.

At that time, you were not decadent. You stayed in your room and did not dare to talk to her too much for fear of being burned by the sun's rays. Now you have fallen and are as ugly as a terrifying evil ghost. If you go out to meet her, can you really continue to have her love and affection?

You don't know.

You know that Chika Tachibana is a gentle person, and you have deeply felt her gentleness during the past few days when you were taken care of.

Her voice is so pleasant, the meals she makes are always so exquisite and full of love, her guitar sounds green but always positive, and she is the only one who will treat you gently.

You are confident that you have a small fondness for her, but you are not confident that you can still gain her love and compassion after you tear off the veil of shame, face her head-on, and reveal your decadence and gloom to her.

"Cousin, I'm leaving! My lunchbox is already prepared and in the fridge. It has your favorite tempura and a special heart-shaped egg I made. I might be back a little late this afternoon because of club activities, so please forgive me for that."

Confident or not, Chika Tachibana was already heading to school.

Because of this, you are in a panic.

Now is the moment when your mind is most shaken. If you miss this morning and wait for self-loathing to consume you completely, by evening you may no longer have the courage to change yourself.

Whether to change or not, it is just a matter of thought at this moment

As you hear the footsteps getting farther and farther away, you know that you should make a choice——]

Here we go! Multiple choice questions!

She was excited that she had such a positive image in the other person's mind, and she was even more surprised and distressed by the extent of her cousin Akizuki Aino's unreasonable belittlement and disgust towards her. The moment she saw the multiple-choice question appear, Tachibana Chika's body trembled.

This is what she was waiting for.

Because it is just an irresponsible simulation, because everything will only be expressed in words, and because the form is like playing a love game, you can be as bold as possible and do things that you normally wouldn't do or can't do.

In the simulation, even though she is unable to speak properly, Mizuki Marin can, and will often choose options that require her to speak properly.

So, Chika Tachibana hopes that her cousin Aino Akizuki can become brave and shameless like Marin Mitsuki, and transform into an Amazon warrior of love!

Please open the door to meet her, talk to her and feel her warmth, then have more confidence and trust in this world that makes you feel disappointed and scared.

Chika Tachibana always believed that she would never dislike her cousin as she imagined.

No matter how gloomy she was, he would just smile and give her a warm hug, comfort her with kind words, and guide her life back on track step by step.

And seeing the future in the simulation, seeing a future where she is treated tenderly, seeing a future where she can leave the house, seeing a future where she can play in the light music section and have happy times, my cousin should have more confidence, more vision, and more courage to leave the house.

This is how Chika Tachibana imagined a tender and touching story to unfold, but...

Ideals are perfect, but reality is always cruel.

[1. Having fantasies in your heart is the most pitiful thing. It is because you responded to Chika Tachibana's note that she has expectations of you, feels more lonely, and cries and begs to meet you.

Be a little cruel and stop having any contact with her. Just be strangers living under the same roof. This will be better for both of you.

[2. How can you completely cut off communication with this angelic cousin who takes care of you and has a warm heart towards you?

It doesn't matter if you are a little cunning, be greedy and gluttonous for her tenderness, and hold tightly to the only ray of light that shines into your dark life -

Even if you don't go out, at least call her, at least say thank you to her through the crack of the door, say that breakfast is delicious, and say thank you for taking care of her all the time.

【3. Free simulation】

"Eh!?"

Staring blankly at the three options appearing on the simulator panel, Chika Tachibana let out a scream.

Unlike Kanzuki Marin, who has three options besides [Free Simulation], Akizuki Aino only has two options from beginning to end.

One is moderate, the other is dim, but there is no best option.

After falling silent, Chika Tachibana finally came to her senses.

I will blame myself, hesitate, and have fantasies, but at this moment...

Akizuki Aino has no future in which she will leave the room.

Text: Chapter 39. When did it start?

Even simulations are based on reality.

In other words, Akizuki Aino cannot do things that she cannot do in real life.

She didn't have enough courage to leave the house, and the courage given to her by Chika Tachibana was not enough!

The simulator determined that with Aino Akizuki's way of thinking and psychological quality, she would definitely not be able to go out at this moment, so it only gave two options.

Her cousin's determination to curl up in the house and escape everything seemed even more stubborn than Chika Tachibana had imagined.

"Huh, even at the moment my cousin was most shaken, the option to go out didn't appear. I'm afraid it will be even harder in the future. Is it all I can do but hope for a miracle? 'Me' in the simulation, work harder!"

Although she was disappointed, she did not want to sentence the entire simulation to death just because of one failure. Even though she knew that "her" in the simulator could not hear her, Chikako Tachibana still transformed herself into the Knight of Hard Work and tried to cheer for "her" in the simulator.

"She" will not give up easily. If one plan fails, she will try another.

So, maybe there's hope? Maybe.

[Option 2]

At that moment, Aino Akizuki made a choice, just as Chika Tachibana expected, she made an option that was basically impossible to choose in reality.

It seems that my cousin always has some expectations in her heart.

You want to talk to Chika Tachibana, you want to grasp the light that accidentally shines in your dark life, so you muster up all your courage and knock hard on the door, knocking on the barrier that blocks your contact with the outside world.

"Chika, breakfast is delicious."

"...Yes! I will work hard and make delicious breakfast in the future!"

Chika Tachibana was obviously very surprised by your sudden conversation and her response was obviously a beat late.

Besides surprise, there must be more delight. Her voice has lost its usual softness and has become high-pitched and even a little sharp. She is encouraged by your words and assures you like a child who has eaten candy, in anticipation of getting a bigger reward next time.

Clutching your bra tightly, you breathed heavily, and just these words made your clothes soaked with sweat.

You were so nervous that you almost collapsed, but the corners of your mouth were still twisted into a grin, showing your smile for the first time in two years.

You even laugh! You're even happy about it.

"Cousin, is there anything else you want to say? Please say more. Your voice is so beautiful, it's just heavenly music! Let me listen to more!"

Knocking on your door, Chika Tachibana shouted happily, praying to hear your voice more often and communicate with you more.

But you have reached your limit. Your heart is beating wildly and is about to explode. You are breathing rapidly and feel that your brain is about to stop functioning. Your face is pale and you say tremblingly, "Thank you, Qianhua," and then there is no sound.

"Well, I received your thanks. I feel like I'll be in a good mood all day. I hope I can be in such a good mood every day."

After not communicating with others for a long time, your resistance to talking to others may be beyond your imagination.

But you were really happy. You sat weakly against the door and listened to Chika Tachibana's footsteps gradually fade away. When you heard the sound of the door knocking, you laughed happily and rolled back and forth on the floor with your knees hugged.

You are actually longing for it, longing to establish connections with others again, and you have finally come to understand your own heart.

[In the future, try talking to Chika Tachibana, one or two sentences a day, and then gradually increase it to more. Then, try talking to her when you play together in the evening and point out some problems with her technique.

She likes guitar and you like bass, but it's just too sad to be strangers living under the same roof, isn't it?

You've made many assumptions about the future, thinking about what to discuss with Chika Tachibana, what specific words to use when you do, and also about learning about the outside world and your mother's recent situation from Chika Tachibana...

Well, although before grandma passed away, before you became depressed and retreated into your room, she hardly fulfilled the responsibilities of a mother, didn't express much concern for you, and almost didn't leave any trace in your life.

But blood is thicker than water, you clearly don't like her, but you still care about her.

So ask a few questions, and then you still want to know...

I want to know how my good friend Miki Matsuo, who goes to Changsheng High School like Chika Tachibana, is doing recently.

“Eh!!!?”

The unexpected name that appeared in the simulation was truly eye-popping, and Chika Tachibana let out a loud exclamation.

Fortunately, her room was far away from Akizuki Aino's, otherwise the other party would have become suspicious immediately.

Covering her mouth, Chikako Tachibana blinked frantically, just wanting to confirm whether she was really seeing things.

I read the text several times, and it was right!

The quiet beauty in the light music club, the professional keyboard player, the senior student Matsuo Miki who had already slayed her twice in the simulation, was actually a good friend of her cousin Aino Akizuki.

[Three people failed, and one person passed but did not attend school for some reason.]

After confirming the facts, her thoughts returned and Chika Tachibana's mind flashed back to what her senior said when she tried to keep them.

There were five members in the light music club that Miki Matsuo joined in junior high school. They agreed to take the entrance exam to Changsheng High School together. However, in the end, only her senior sister Miki Matsuo was admitted. Three of them failed, and the other member who was admitted but did not come to school was probably her cousin, Aino Akizuki!

"This is truly... a remarkable unexpected discovery."

Muttering to herself and narrowing her eyes, Chika Tachibana had a plan in mind, while the text on the panel continued to scroll.

This new discovery alone was enough to make the simulation worthwhile. Hoping to find more breakthroughs, she immediately watched more carefully.

If your good friend Miki Matsuo knew that you had not actually moved out of Tokyo and were still living in this apartment, she would definitely come to visit you constantly. So, for the past two years, you have been avoiding contact with her.

But you are still worried about her current situation and want to know how she is doing now that she has entered Changsheng High School alone.

Please ask Chika Tachibana to investigate secretly, you suddenly thought of it and couldn't help but click your tongue.

Just after talking to Chika Tachibana once and tasting the sweetness of it, you are so eager to break the behavioral habits that have been maintained for nearly two years, and even think about so many things in the future.

Are you really eager to know about your mother and friends' recent situation? Or do you just want to have more topics to talk about with Chika Tachibana, and want to avoid making her feel bored by your boring you as much as possible so that you can maintain this connection with her?

Are you too lonely?

Or is it that Chika Tachibana's food is so delicious and really shows her sincerity?

Or is it that her voice is so soft that every time you can't help but imagine her smiling face when she speaks?

Or are you jealous, jealous of the girl next door who stole Chika Tachibana's love for you and talked and laughed with her every night?

You suddenly feel a little confused.

When did it all start? You've become so concerned about Chika Tachibana.

Chapter 40: Forget It

【14363 wins, 475 losses.

With a "beep, beep, beep" sound, the last card was placed in place, the cards were moved, and cheers of victory rang out.

Spider Solitaire won another game, and you finally have some free time. Your empty stomach also makes the "gurgling" sound of strike at the right time. You get up, push open the door and go to the living room.

Since Chika Tachibana is not at home, you feel a slight sense of security because you can freely control the entire space, but when you stare at the locked door, you feel a little lonely.

If you have never received light, you will not have any extravagant desires. After all, the arrival of Chika Tachibana has changed you and made you more greedy.

But you clearly don't want to meet her, but you still think about how nice it would be if she could stay at home and chat with you by the door...

You gritted your teeth and just felt ugly.

You are a reptile living in a small room, and Chika Tachibana is a free bird with radiant wings. How can you be worthy of restraining her?

[Just a moment after stepping out of the door, a gloomy mood began to accumulate, and it continued until you took out the lunch box that Chika Tachibana left for you from the refrigerator.

The temperature has gradually warmed up, and you can take out the lunch box from the refrigerator and eat it immediately. You don’t care too much about things like health. Anyway, no one will be sad even if you suddenly disappear.

Your grandmother who loved you has passed away, and your mother was just a workaholic. Without you, she might be relieved, thinking that she has gotten rid of a trivial but ultimately difficult burden.

What about your former friends in the light music club?

They will only think that you have gone far away to some other place, and will only blame you for not contacting them and not knowing the news of your death.

What about Chika Tachibana?

The furnishings in the living room have changed significantly compared to ten days ago. The fluffy little yellow duck pillow, which can be seen at a glance that it has been washed many times, is now lying quietly on the sofa. In your eyes, it is the substitute of Chika Tachibana who went to school and stayed at home.

You caress it gently, thinking that this gentle Chika Tachibana will surely feel sad for you, and sad for a long time, but a little bit of pleasure flashes through your heart.

"Self-destructive tendencies..."