I am your deceased love sustenance 1

It seemed like the person on the other end had been holding back for a long time before uttering the last few words.

Takamatsu Deng was unexpectedly bold during high school.

"Do you want me to chat with you? I'm taking a walk now and I have some time."

"Where is Xiaosui walking?"

"Dock, what's going on?"

"..."

Ch124. I have nothing to lose

"..."

There was no sound from the other end of the phone for a long time.

Chitose felt a little scared by Takamatsu Deng's silence.

"Xiao Deng? Xiao Deng! What's wrong with you? Why aren't you talking?"

"quick…"

Suddenly, a trembling voice was heard.

"What's the hurry? Please explain clearly."

Chitose Noshiro leaned on the wooden piles of the pier, enjoying the sea breeze comfortably.

Huh? Wait, the sea breeze is supposed to blow during the day, and the land breeze is supposed to blow at night.

Chitose Noshiro continued to enjoy the land breeze comfortably, quietly waiting for Takamatsu Touma to speak.

Did something splash on this child? There was no sound for such a long time.

"Hurry... hurry downstairs to my house! Xiao Sui! I feel like there's someone at my door, I'm so scared..."

Gao Songdeng's voice was trembling, intermittent, and had a crying tone.

"Huh? What! Do you want me to call the police first?!"

This time, it was Chitose Noshiro who was anxious.

Without thinking, she ran towards Deng's house. The comfort disappeared in an instant and her mind went blank.

"No need...you! Come here quickly!"

Did Takamatsu Deng actually cry?

ha? !

"Are the doors and windows locked? Turn off the lights in the house first... I mean the lights, not you! Quick, find a safe and secluded place to hide. I'll be right there..."

beep-

Before Noshiro Chitose could finish her words, Takamatsu Deng hung up the phone.

"Why is this happening?! Huh?!"

Chitose gritted his teeth.

Urgent, urgent, urgent, she was almost dying of anxiety.

The strides her legs took were so big that even Chitose herself was surprised. Her lungs seemed to be burning faster, and she felt the stimulation of the cold air rushing into her throat.

How did this suddenly appear? The alcohol lamp clearly didn't mention it!

Just because I didn’t mention it… does that mean it’s not a big deal?

But after all, this world has interfered with Deng's life... No, there will definitely be no problem!

"Xiao Deng! Please stay safe! If anything happens--"

If I could represent Chitose, I would regret it for the rest of my life in reality!

It was Chitose's first time experiencing running so fast, and the feeling was not pleasant at all.

……

In fact, there was no one at the door and she was not in any danger at all... Gao Songdeng, she lied.

She had temporarily lost the ability to speak, and her phone fell to the ground but she was unable to bend down to pick it up.

She leaned against the wall with her back half bent, tears streaming down her face.

“I remember…I remember…”

Chitose said that she was at the dock, which made Takamatsu Deng recall all the pain in his dream.

She was now crying as if she were an alcohol lamp that had lost its alcohol for a thousand years.

“Dock…dock…ah…”

Holding her head, the anxiety and pain seemed to take root and sprout. They entangled deep in Gao Songdeng's mind, stimulating her fragile nerves again and again.

Night, port, alone...

It’s all here, it’s all here! All the elements are complete!

"Woooo..."

The slightly angry Deng still couldn't stop crying. She picked up her phone only to find that the call had been hung up.

How did I come up with such a lie just now... Oh no, I hope Xiaosui won’t be scared.

Although lying was shameful, she could not think of a better way to get Chitose to leave the port in the past few moments.

My chest feels tight and it feels like a small explosion is happening above my head... It's so uncomfortable.

"Xiao Sui, don't blame me for lying to you... and don't blame me for making you worry... I was too scared."

You lost your first time because of your own small mistake. Gao Songdeng can avoid this by paying more attention.

I lost the second time...because of man-made disasters, and I can't solve the problem myself.

So I can only keep keeping Sui away from unsafe places, but isn't this selfish of me?

I'm so disgusting, so disgusting... I even lied, just because of a nightmare? But I'm really scared, really scared.

No one helped Takamatsu Deng share the fear he felt at the airport that day and the grief he felt at the funeral.

She carried it all by herself, carrying all the negative emotions and walking through countless places where she and Xiaosui had shared countless beautiful memories.

All that beauty turned into sharp blades that hurt her, stabbing and scraping away her rare fresh flesh and blood again and again...

I'm so afraid of losing, really so afraid.

Especially now, Takamatsu Deng has obtained Noshiro Chitose for the third time... three times. If this time, she still loses Noshiro Chitose in reality...

"what…"

Deng felt his brain stem tremble at the thought of the possibility that Chitose would be killed by a random killer in reality.

Knock, knock, knock. There was a sound of knocking on the door outside.

"Xiao Deng? Xiao Deng! I looked around outside, and there's no one else. Hurry and open the door... Xiao Deng? Are you okay? Say something! Xiao Deng!"

Unexpectedly... the sound outside the door seemed more anxious than the light.

"Xiao Sui! I...I can't get up, wait for me!"

Deng wanted to shout out loud, but her limbs were as stiff as beer bottles. She struggled to stand up by holding on to the windowsill and moved along the wall towards the door.

The wall seemed to be infinitely long, and Gao Songdeng felt that it was impossible to reach the end.

"I...I'm coming! Xiaosui!"

When Deng's hand finally touched the door handle, the cold touch on his hand made him realize that he had cried many tears.

"Light! Are you okay?"

The moment the door opened, Sui hugged Gao Songdeng in her arms and kicked the door shut carefully.

"I...I can't breathe!"

Tears and snot were all swallowed up by the softness in front of Chitose Noshiro.

The fragrance from the girl's heart made Takamatsu Deng forget all his worries.

[What a happy feeling.]

"You're not scared, are you? Seriously! You! No, no, I'm going to go shopping online... I'm going to buy you a baseball bat for home protection... I also want a retractable fence to put at the door, and... ah, why aren't you saying anything!"

"Xiao Sui..."

When Chitose lowered her head and looked into Takamatsu's eyes, she felt an incomparable shock.

Those pomegranate-colored eyes hid many complex emotions, but they did not look chaotic at all. Instead, they looked very simple and clear.

What a bright pair of eyes.

Chitose even saw his own eyes in it.

The amber reflected the deep red with golden hues, and the golden rings were faintly visible, and there were four of them.

"I hate you."

This is how Gao Songdeng opened his mouth.

"Eh? Please don't hate me..."

"No, hatred... lasts longer than love! So, I want to hate you... Xiao Sui..."

"Xiao Sui...you...are my...only friend...Xiao Sui...I...I'm so scared..."

Tears fell from the corners of the girl's eyes. Qiansui wiped them away with heartache, but her tears fell on Deng's face.

"Eh? What are you afraid of, Xiao Deng..."

"I'm afraid my only friend...will leave me..."

"Xiao Sui...really...I really have nothing left to lose..."

Ch125. Good night, see you in my dreams

I hate you, I like you, I hate you, I like you.

The girl in his arms smelled like warm jade. She was sobbing, and Qiansui also cried non-stop.

They cried for different reasons, but the only thing in common was their tears reflecting the dim light in the room.

"age…"

"lamp!"

"Xiao Deng, I'm here. I won't let you lose me..."

We've only known each other for two days, and you're already so dependent on me!

You bastard! How can I leave you alone at home?

I really want to pick you up and take you home to hide safely in my quilt...

"Really? Xiao Sui..."

"Really, don't be afraid, I'm here, right?"

"But, but..."

Gao Songdeng moved her body slightly, and their hearts pressed against each other, like four huge planets colliding with each other.

But no one cared about these.

Their noses touched each other, and they saw similar tear marks on each other's faces.

【Why are you crying?】X2

[Are you worried about me? Then why am I crying? Is it because I am worried about you too?] X2

"Xiao Deng, I'm here, I'm here, don't be afraid..."

"Well! I'm not afraid anymore..."

That's what the lamp said, but her trembling voice betrayed her true thoughts.