I am your deceased love sustenance 1

What if I were Chitose Noshiro?

If... I am Chitose Noshiro!

[Don't let yourself be consumed by internal friction, my lovely little Sushi.]

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"Yes, that's right... I want to prove to my mother that I'm grown up, so that she can be at ease... Then she won't have to worry about me anymore!"

I want to leave my mother's arms and become a reliable adult like my mother!

"I'm already a big kid. I can't rely on my mother like I did a few years ago."

I want to be independent! I want to achieve something with my band!

right! That's it!

Having figured everything out, Nagasaki Suyo excitedly jumped up from the bed.

"If I'm independent and capable enough, my mother will be happy and proud of me!"

This is the first time that Nagasaki Suyo has received such fresh love, so she is trying her best to keep the love.

She discovered that in order to preserve this love, and at the same time, to give back to her mother...

She had to be independent and leave her mother's arms.

After all, she can't rely on her mother all her life.

She wants to prove herself!

Ch105. I hope the other party can catch up

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The alarm clock rang on time, today is Friday.

Su Shi took off the blindfold and put it away carefully.

She didn't sleep all night.

Her thoughts were in a mess. She was confused and determined at times, but she just couldn't be happy.

Now Su Shi only knows that he needs to complete the band's mission and let his mother know that all her teachings over the years have not been wasted.

The phone buzzed, but Su Shi didn't care who it was from.

Now she just wanted to go to Moon Forest to finish her studies for the day, and then go to rehearsal and practice her bass skills again and again.

She's going to shine on the stage!

Su Shi's eyes were determined as he left the bed.

That's the way it is.

……

"Seeing the child's journey, I feel very relieved."

At the entrance of Tsuki no Mori, Chitose was waiting for Suyo to finish school as usual.

Her health has taken a turn for the worse recently and she has lost a lot of weight.

Today is the time they have agreed to meet. They will return to Chitose's house to spend a warm weekend.

With one hand drooping on the steering wheel, Chitose fiddled with his fingers, carefully calculating what he was doing.

"Suyo met me when I was still in fifth grade and Ichinose."

Then soon she became Nagasaki.

"From fifth to sixth grade, I would often go to accompany her and comfort her when she was most lonely."

She is very obedient, from the beginning to now.

"When she entered junior high school, I helped her solve the problems she encountered and taught her a lot."

I have taught you so many things, when will you use what I taught you on yourself? Nagasaki Suyo.

Chitose Noshiro had a secret hope in her heart.

Even if Su Shi's feelings for her turn into regret one day in the future, it doesn't matter. She is indeed a responsible parent.

She taught Su Shi how to be a good person and what love is.

"Before the end of the first year of junior high school, I trained Toyokawa Shoko to help Sushi understand how unsafe love is. There are countless people who will come and snatch your love away."

The ending that Chitose hopes for most is that Su Shi will be jealous and want to snatch away the part of [love] that Xiangzi has received from her, and... blame Chitose.

It's best to ignore her.

Chitose Noshiro hopes that Nagasaki Suyo will throw a tantrum so that she will have plenty of opportunities to regret it later.

"The last step, now it's the last step."

Su Shi, what will you do to your thousand-year-old mother?

Even if you just have a small complaint about me being nice to Xiangzi, this incident will stimulate you to fight for the love you want.

As long as you get carried away, you will definitely regret it!

Nagasaki Suyo…Nagasaki Suyo!

Will you come home with me tonight, or will you choose to go to rehearsal and then go home alone to calm down?

Chitose Noshiro rolled down the window, letting the slightly hot breeze before the arrival of summer blow into the car.

The three dolls hanging on the rearview mirror swayed in the wind. They were so free, carried by the predetermined wind and blown in a specific direction.

"Su Shi, a child who was hurt by her parents' balance of power, all those who loved her hurt her..."

Chitose Noshiro was stunned for a moment, and she had already seen Nagasaki Suyo walking towards her not far away.

and many more!

"Am I one of those people who loved her but hurt her? Ah, yes... If I think about it that way, Su Shi becomes even more pitiful."

Of course, Su Shi will never know the plan that Noriyo Chitose has been plotting for many years, and their information gap will never be filled.

"Su Shi, here, shall we go home?"

Sticking his head out of the car, Chitose Noshiro waved to the place not far away.

"Ah? It's mom."

Qiansui felt that Su Shi had grown up a little, but she didn't feel it was real. In her eyes, he was still that fifth-grade kid.

Su Shi trotted to Chitose's car, but she didn't get in as usual.

"I still have to go to rehearsal, so I won't be going home with Mom today!"

"Eh~ Is that so? I made your favorite dish."

Su Shi shook his head apologetically.

"I can't help it. I'm very busy lately... Mom, please remember to come and see my performance at Ring next week."

Nagasaki Suyo deliberately emphasized the pronunciation of "I", as if to emphasize that she wanted Chitose Noshiro to see her, not someone else.

"Huh? But I..."

"Mom! I'm already a big kid, I need to take care of my own things..."

"Ah, is that so? I was thinking..."

"Mom, doesn't she have Xiaoxiang to accompany her? Isn't she calling you [Mom] too?"

Su Shi left without even turning back, saying a few words.

She seemed to have been holding it in for a long time, and finally said it out loud because she couldn't help it.

The child's back disappeared in the distance. Su Shi walked in front, leaving Xiangzi and Hemu behind.

It was like she was isolating two people.

"Hey, this kid."

Unexpectedly, Su Shi seemed to have a lot to say in his heart.

Chitose Noshiro said nothing more. She started the car and drove away from Moon Forest.

"Won't you come home with me?"

Oh well.

……

"Sister Nagasaki, it's a rare vacation, why don't you go back and spend time with little Sushi?"

In a ward of the Shiheyu Hospital, Noriyoshi Chitose was tossing his watch around to kill time out of boredom.

The food in the hospital was really bad, but she came back to eat it.

"I...I just want to spend more time with you, after all, you..."

Ms. Nagasaki bit her lip and didn't finish her words.

"I don't have much time left. Is this what you wanted to say?"

"Well...Xiao Sui, last time you said..."

"Pfft, Nagasaki-san, why are you being so shy, like a little girl?"

Chitose Noshiro's laughter actually made Ms. Nagasaki's eyes red.

She likes this younger generation very much. The younger generation has also contributed a lot to their family, and her daughter even regards him as her mother.

But why did it end up like this?

Why did she do nothing, but the tragedy happened?

"Woo..."

Hearing the sound of sobbing beside his ears, Chitose recalled the day when he was discharged from the hospital for the first time in reality.

Su Shi, don’t you want your mother to accompany you?

Then I will come to take you to reunite, will you be happy?

Don’t you want to make your mother proud? You will succeed. Both me and Sister Nagasaki will be proud of you. Will you be happy?

What more do you want, companionship?

Don't worry.

When I die, Nagasaki will have time to accompany you. I will use my death to teach you two silly little girls what love is.

All I need is a simple death for all of you to fulfill your wishes.

Besides, I didn't belong here in the first place. I just took away my warmth and breath. It shouldn't matter.

Chitose Noshiro thought a lot while lying on the hospital bed, but in the end she said nothing.

What is Su Shi doing now?

Su Shi is obsessed with competing openly and secretly with Xiangzi. She needs and wants to prove herself, and proving herself is only to get the love she desires.

Chitose Noshiro has already prepared the love that the other person wants, and is just waiting for Suyo to take it.

I hope the other party can catch up.

"Sister Nagasaki, can you promise me one thing?"

"Huh? What?"

Ch106. You did nothing wrong

"We're going on stage today! I'm so nervous."

"Yes, yes, it's just like a dream."