I am your deceased love sustenance 1

The little girl looked at Qiansui with longing eyes. She seemed to have imagined in her mind the story of a great senior who braved the wind and waves and fought against countless musical geniuses.

"Music has its own unique power. I hope you can find a path that brings you joy and strength in the future."

"Eh?"

Su Shi was silent.

[Mom seems a little sad... Is it because of regrets?]

I heard that many adults have regrets when they were young, and these regrets may be irreversible in their lifetime -

Until they saw unexpected brilliance in their own children.

Nagasaki Suyo's brain was working fast. She was not only thinking about what to say to make Chitose happy, but also thinking about a new question.

If I could form my own band and lead it to success... Mom would be proud of me, right?

And this can be considered as making up for my mother's regret? After all, my mother seemed to have said... that the members of her group are in a bad situation now, and the group at that time also disbanded.

"mom!"

Su Shi's eyes were full of determination.

Surrounded by the sound of the band on the stage and the audience's exclamations, Nagasaki Suyo once again made up her mind.

"I want to form my own band too! I..."

Her eyes moved from Chitose to Toyokawa Shoko.

Xiaoxiang, I think you also want to form a band.

I happen to have this friend on hand, so I'll just use it for now.

"Xiaoxiang! You..."

Ch98. I am the child that Chitose is most proud of!

"Xiaoxiang, would you like to form a band with me?"

Nagasaki Suyo felt that this would be an opportunity for her to show herself to her mother!

Let yourself bring a little of the feeling of Chitose Mama's youth to her!

Bring back her memories and make her love herself even more! Humph!

Su Shi's gaze lingered on the stage and Xiangzi. She had already begun to imagine how brilliant her band would be!

Then the mother will be able to... well, whether it's her biological mother or Chitose's mother, both can sit under the stage and watch her perform!

"Me? I'm going to form a band? Seriously?"

Toyokawa Shoko's tone became a little uncertain for once, and she pointed at herself, as if Su Shi was joking with her.

"Yes!"

"You come with me! Then we can get a few more people and we can... form a band!"

This kindhearted blue-haired girl with twintails has had a similar experience to mine, so she must want to prove herself to certain people!

This was the first time that Nagasaki Suyo took such a radical action on her own initiative. When she looked at Noshiro Chitoshi, she received a look of surprise and relief.

She understood at this moment that there was no problem with her move!

Her mother was indeed very satisfied with her!

"Although I don't know how to play any musical instruments yet, I'm a very quick learner. I have a lot of free time lately, so Xiaoxiang, are you really not going to consider it?"

"I can play the piano, so if we really want to form a band, I can be the keyboardist... I mean keyboardist, right? I'm not very familiar with that..."

"So you agree?"

"Yeah, forming a band sounds interesting."

"Wow, my lovely girls are actually going to do something so youthful. That's great."

Sitting between the two girls, Chitose was separated in the middle like a barrier, and Su Shi and Xiangzi leaned over to talk to her.

"If you guys want to form a band, I'd really support you. That's great..."

This was the second time she said “That’s great”, but Noshiro Chitose really couldn’t stop wanting to sigh.

"As expected of Girls' Generation, it's exactly like my junior high school days...my simulated junior high school days."

If we let Su Shi take the initiative to form a band now, will they be able to put together that C-something band?

Correct? Circle? Or Crychic?

The girls' chattering was so lively that Chitose Noshiro, who was rarely ignored by the world, closed her eyes in peace.

Everything is going smoothly.

……

Toyokawa Shoko agreed to Nagasaki Suyo's request, and since today was the last day before the weekend, Suyo's mouth corners did not droop the whole day.

Chitose sat on Suye's bed. Today they did not go back to Noshiro house but chose to spend the night at Nagasaki house.

Su Shi was taking a shower, and he could vaguely hear the girl's singing from a distance.

Qiansui could sense the joy in the song even from a distance.

"Why is she so happy? Is it just because...she has a chance to get my approval?"

But I am not her biological mother. I am just a bad woman who cares for her in every possible way and accompanies her like a perfect mother in her most lonely and empty moments.

Thinking of this, even Noshiro Chitose herself couldn't help but sneer.

"Ah... I've gone too far. I didn't expect Su Shi to be more attached to me than Riki and Deng were back then... These idiots, why doesn't anyone come and cherish me?"

Let’s not talk about simulations, after all, simulations are just falsehoods that are repeated based on reality.

Those little girls in reality are so pitiful. They have never received real care and love.

Did Chitose Noshiro even think that her calculations in the simulation were more like a reward for the other party? What a strange idea.

Well, maybe it's because no one cares about them in real life. They have never even experienced love with a purpose.

"Xiao Jing...I haven't seen my sister in a year or two."

Chitose's longing for his family is growing day by day, and now he misses the sunshine of the real world more and more.

But maybe it’s because of those golden circles in his eyes, Qiansui’s memory is getting better and better.

It was so good that even a few days before the simulation started, when I met the real Li Xi, I could clearly remember how many hairs were splitting on the other person's head.

But the clearer the memory, the easier it is to feel sad, especially when the memory of the previous simulations is too vivid.

She was afraid she would never forget it.

Chitose fiddled with his phone out of boredom, repeatedly checking the complete list of ways to die in the world.

How would he die this time? Drowning? That was a horrible way to die, no way. And then being stabbed to death? No, that wasn't impressive enough... How about getting sick? After all, being sick was the way to die that best suited her imagination.

Every time Chitose Noshiro died of illness in a simulation, she felt it was some kind of revelation.

Only after experiencing the virtual death of an illness can one understand the desire for recovery in reality. The strange disease named after oneself has always made Qiansui feel a little uncomfortable.

"Mom, what are you doing?"

"I'm...helping Su Shishi look after the instruments. Isn't little Su Shishi going to form a band?"

Chitose Noshiro switched the interface without leaving any trace. Motoyo's hair, which had just been washed, was wet and blocked her vision, making it impossible to see anything clearly.

"Huh? I don't know what to play yet...Does mom have any suggestions?"

"Play...guitar or bass. I can play both. I can teach Sushi."

Speaking of this, Chitose suddenly remembered that the real-life Crychic only existed for two weeks... Ah, could two weeks have made Takamatsu Deng so upset? Then how would Su Shi, who was even more destitute of love, feel?

Maybe Su Shi in reality is even more miserable than Deng.

This is the conclusion Noshiro Chitose came to through Suyo's dependence on her.

"Then I... should choose bass? It sounds interesting."

The young Nagasaki Suyo didn't know what her choices meant, just as she didn't know what path each of her choices would lead her to.

"Bass... That's great. It's exactly like when I was little. My best friend and I had the same combination. I played bass and she sang."

"Really?! I want to be a bassist like my mother!"

[Great! My choice was right!]

Water was dripping from her hair, but the excited Su Shi didn't care.

She increasingly felt that her idea was feasible! She would continue her mother's band story and become a child that would make her proud!

Toyokawa Shoko... hehe, your mother is also very caring towards you, praising you for being sensible and capable! But I, Nagasaki Suyo, will prove that I am the child that Noshiro Chitose is most proud of!

Su Shi put her hands on her hips and hummed with pleasure as Chitose Noshiro looked at her like an idiot.

That's the way it is.

Ch99. Nagasaki Suyo and her bandmates

"It's not possible for a band to have only two people."

"That's right... but I looked around and didn't find many people in Tsuki no Mori who were willing to join our band."

Ring, coffee shop.

Shoko Toyokawa leaned on the sofa and kept looking through the contacts in her mobile phone. She was not really in a hurry about the band, but she was very interested in what Su Shi said about "making her mother proud of herself."

Would it make her mother proud? Wouldn't it be wonderful to bring her parents to her performance?

Also, my mother seems to be in poor health recently. Maybe she’s been working too hard recently.

For some reason, when Xiangzi thought of the word "mother", the first image that came to his mind was Nagasaki Suyo's adoptive mother, Chitose Noshiro.

Sister Chitose’s smile is so gentle. I really envy Su Shi for being treated so gently every day.

"Xiao Xiang? Are you listening?"

Su Shi's voice interrupted Xiangzi's reverie. When Xiangzi Toyokawa came back to his senses, he pretended to be calm and drank a sip of tea.

"Ahem, I'm listening."

"But it feels like you're in a daze."

Yeah...but I can't say that I'm thinking about your stepmother, that would be too weird.

Toyokawa Shoko just smiled awkwardly: "Where were we talking about just now?"

"You really didn't hear it, did you?" Su Shi sighed, and the way he looked mature had become more apparent. Xiangzi could see the shadow of Qian Sui in it.

"I was just saying that Mom will be here to help us figure out a solution. After all, she's a very experienced band veteran!"

Hehe, today is another day that I can stick with Chitose.

Although Su Shi didn't know why Chitose Noriyo had so much free time recently, she was super happy just thinking that he was willing to take time to accompany her.

But then again, why does Chitose Noshiro seem to have nothing to do lately? Is it because her mother is having some downtime at work?

Maybe annual leave?

Mother had been so busy for weeks that she had no time to go home, and Su Shi had no place to ask for clarification.

"Girls, what are you talking about?"

I could hear Chitose Noshiro's voice from afar, still so gentle.

She approached quietly without making any noise, and her attire didn't seem like she had just left the company, but rather that she was on vacation.

"Huh? Mom, you came so quickly."

"Hello, sister Sui!"

"Hello, Xiaoxiang," Qiansui sat between the two of them. She turned her head and looked at Sushi, "Actually, my legs hurt a little today and I didn't feel well. So I took a leave of absence from work and went to the hospital for a check-up."

"Huh? Are you okay?"

Su Shi couldn't help but turn his head to look under the table.

Hmm...the calves of this year-old mother are so beautiful!