I am your deceased love sustenance 1

"Why did they even broadcast Deng's future life...it's clearly a simulation, but they made it so realistic..."

Bad feeling.

It's really bad to a certain extent...

It is still spring, and the bodies of cherry blossoms are piled up in every corner as far as the eye can see. Chitose Noshiro bends down to pick up her medical record.

"This is not necessary."

She stuffed all the useless things like the critical illness notice into the trash can. Without any hesitation, Chitose Noshiro walked towards home exhausted both physically and mentally.

"I feel much better now. I don't cough anymore and I don't feel like I can't walk anymore."

This is... one of the few good news.

There was a small-denomination banknote in the pocket of her skirt, which was the consolation money given to her by Dr. Ijichi from the hospital before he left.

"I just happened to buy some food for my sister on my way home... I don't know how the child is doing during the few days I've been in the hospital."

When I think of my sister, my heart almost jumps out of my throat!

Chitose Noshiro felt like she hadn't seen that poor little cutie for years.

"Go home, go home now!"

She tried to run, but her legs did not let her down.

They are surprisingly neat.

From a jog to a somewhat unrestrained run.

In the end, I ran to the turn and still couldn't stop running -

Everything else! It doesn't matter anymore! Let's just run like crazy to let off some steam!

I can actually run now! My body...is recovering!

The cherry blossoms try to block Chitose's view, but the wind will carry the cherry blossoms away.

Obviously, Qiansui had already worn out this road home, but today he felt it was particularly lovely.

I'm sorry, Xiao Deng... I... I can't save your sister, Chitose Takamatsu, even though they are twins.

But we were strangers from the beginning.

Ch9. Finally, Gao Songdeng wakes up from his dream

Takamatsu's house, in the bedroom with the lamp on.

call--

Suck--

call--

Suck--

"Xiao Sui...Xiao Sui!"

Takamatsu Deng, who rarely woke up until noon, broke the silence in the house with a sharp explosion.

The quilt wrinkled as the lamp moved backwards, but the lamp ignored it and just sat in a trance.

"Xiao Sui... Xiao Sui... Ah, was it a dream?"

It was a... very long dream.

Deng covered his chest and listened to his heart beating.

She dreamed...

I have a twin sister.

That sister died young at the most innocent age.

All she had left for herself was endless regret and remorse, long-term indigestion, and many long and difficult nightmares.

The future in her dreams was one where she had to endure countless hours alone. Those days were meaningless and the world had lost its color and warmth.

In the dream, he did not join Crychic, but just wandered alone. He didn't know how long he lived, but Deng was sure that he had not yet recovered from the accident that year.

I look through the camera left by Chitose again and again, and it is full of traces of Chitose's love for life.

These memories should be beautiful and gentle.

But how could it... how could it become bitter and sharp, like a thumbtack piercing her spine, causing her pain day and night, yet she would think of it day and night.

"It's...a dream...is it a dream?"

The blurriest face gave her the clearest love. The lamp rubbed her eyes and she couldn't see the scene inside the house. Tears washed her world into rough ruins.

What a nasty dream, it’s a nightmare…it’s a nightmare.

I collapsed powerlessly again, and the ceiling reflecting the sunlight looked like a starry sky in a dream.

"Why is the dream so real? It makes me feel so sad and I want to cry."

Deng wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, and carefully recalled the dream that had ended but was still vividly remembered.

It seemed like he had forgotten something. The dream ended with the adult Gao Songdeng holding his sister's portrait and sitting on the branch of the big tree where his sister fell to her death.

What did you say in your dream before jumping?

She said...

Why is it that only my Chitose passed away? If there is another parallel world... did the other Takamatsu Chitose, Takamatsu Deng, also pass away like my Chitose?

[It's unfair... If the Takamatsu Touma in the other world could hear me... I want to tell you my jealousy, but also offer my blessing... Please...]

Please take good care of your own sister.

The memories end here. This is the last scene in Deng’s dream.

She didn't want to recall the process of jumping down from the tree, so she closed her eyes and let her tears wet the pillow.

"But, I don't seem to have a sister named Chitose?"

Could this dream be my own story from another world?

and so…

"I'm not a thousand-year-old lamp that died young. I'm a...lamp that didn't live a thousand years?"

It's even worse!

……

The key turned the door lock, making a sound that was familiar to Chitose Noshiro.

This is a cheap rental house located near the west exit of Akabane in Kita-ku, Tokyo. The houses are low and there are only a few households in one building.

"It seems there's an alcoholic living next door. He has a daughter who's about my age."

When Chitose opened the door of her house, she inexplicably thought of the girl next door named... Toyokawa Shoko.

The girl was also very pretty, but like Qiansui, she also worked to earn money.

"How pitiful... No, it's still me who is pitiful."

Qiansui pushed the door open carefully, and at the same time felt the excitement and anxiety from the bottom of his heart for the first time in a long time.

Even in the real world, she hasn't seen Kyomoto for several days!

There was no light on in the house. After all, the little blind boy didn't need too much light, and the family didn't have much money to pay the electricity bill.

As soon as you enter, you can see the dining table with several unlabeled lunch boxes neatly placed on it.

Are these boxes the food provided by the system? They look good quality and can be reused.

"Xiao Jing? Sister is back?"

Chitose locked the door and hesitated whether to turn on the light when he heard rustling footsteps.

"Sister? Is it my sister who is back?"

The sound came from their bedroom. The little girl who made the sound had not yet walked into the living room, but her words had arrived first.

Chitose was taking off her shoes, and just as she was about to respond, a warm, white-furred little ball rushed into her arms.

"Xiao Jing!"

This cute white-haired ball is the person she misses the most!

The spiritual support that allowed her to survive no matter how miserable or against her conscience she was!

"Xiao Sui!"

When the soft and sweet call sounds, Qiansui will feel that everything is worth it.

Kyomoto is only twelve years old and has never been to school due to health reasons. Chitose cannot afford the special education school which is not cheap.

With a soft bun on her head, patched pajamas, and bunny slippers on her feet, Xiaojing, like her sister, was born with white hair and red eyes. Unfortunately, her eyes were cloudy due to congenital cataracts.

Kyomoto's eyes were a deep red universe mixed with dim stars.

"These past few days," Chitose hesitated, "I was forced to leave because of something I really wanted. Is Xiaojing being taken care of?"

"Hmm...yes! There's an older sister who comes to bring food to Kyomoto every day! She said she's Chitose's friend!"

"Really? Did Xiao Jing eat well?"

Kyomoto can take a bath by herself and blow-dry her hair by herself. When she is bored, she listens to the MP4 player that Chitose bought her at a high price... So, my sister should be doing well these days, right?

But she was completely worried because she hadn't seen Kyomoto for six years.

"Yes, I ate well... Where did Chitose go?! Why didn't you tell me in advance?!"

There was hesitation on Kyomoto's chubby little face, not knowing whether he should continue asking.

"I'm... I'm applying for high school admission. I was accepted by Hanaoka, and I have a chance to get a scholarship in the future."

"Hey! Sister is amazing! Then, then I forgive you, okay?"

"Thank you, Xiaojing, thank you..."

Oops.

I want to cry.

The all-too-familiar smell of Kyoto Haizuka made Chitose feel sad and helpless.

She now has only one year, one month, and fourteen days to live.

If she wanted to live until Kyomoto came of age, she would need to continue repeating the awful simulation that had just ended.

But the simulation is really too difficult, and it is not fun at all to continue to torture each other with poor strangers in the simulation.

"Xiao Jing, if one day my sister..."

Choked with sobs, Qiansui found it difficult to continue the narration.

"Huh? What?"

"It's okay... Xiao Jing is the cutest. Can you tell me about the big sister who brought you food?"

Chitose gently pecked Kyomoto's soft little face, picked him up and walked towards the sofa in the living room.

The plastic bag filled with fruit lay alone on the insole at the door.

Ch10. Leave it to tomorrow’s Chitose!

Taking a break in the afternoon, Chitose fell asleep while holding Kyomoto.

She badly needs rest.

After waking up, Qiansui hid in the bathroom alone, looking at the hair that was no longer gray and the eyes that had turned from gray-red to blood red, and he didn't know what to say for a moment.

Half a day was spent between being in a daze and hugging my sister.

Her bare hands gently stroked her sister's warm little head. Although Kyomoto couldn't see anything, she was very good at using her big eyes to act cute.

He often gets close to Qiansui's face, winks at him and asks for a pat on the head.

The little guy hasn't been hugged by his sister for a long time. When his head is rubbed, he will make a low purring sound like a cat.