I am your deceased love sustenance 1

"It's great! In the blink of an eye, we've already gotten through the two years of growth spurt, and now it's time for the story I carefully planned for her."

What about living life as it comes, what about dealing with the enemy with a general and covering the water with earth? All of this is nonsense. Only the script that you control yourself can be considered a good life!

She wanted to be a bad guy who wrote scripts for others instead of living her life in a daze with the simulated victims.

Only when everything is under her control and things are developing in accordance with her will, will she feel at ease.

"I never want to experience that kind of life again, where I spent six years in a daze and ended up falling to my death... And that feeling of helplessness when I'm sick and dying but can't do anything about it..."

We must grasp and control all factors. Even if our hands are too small to grasp all the elements, we must try our best to keep everything in order.

Chitose was waiting for the red light with her chin in her hand, her sight extending into the distance until a high school girl with white hair and golden eyes, wearing the summer uniform of Tsuki no Mori, passed by.

The girl cast a reproachful look at Noshiro Chitose through the car's windshield.

Chitose Noshiro knew that this kind of look could only be seen on the unlucky person who [was lying around at home and doing nothing, but was suddenly called to work, and then suddenly called to go to the boss's daughter's school, and now has not had breakfast yet].

Qiansui covered his mouth and shook his fingers while laughing.

[Nagasaki Suyo, your school life is destined to be outstanding. ]

……

The car window was rolled up, and Su Shi watched the bright red color fade away and the car drive away. Now she was the only one left at the school gate of Yuezhisen.

"Come on, I can do it..."

She carried her bag and whispered encouragement to herself.

Isn’t it just going to school!

Even if the people around her are all rich ladies, Nagasaki Suyo can definitely handle them!

"My mother said the Tsuki no Mori uniform was cute and she wanted to see me wear it, but she never had the chance to send me to school."

After Su Shi walked into the school gate, he stood there in a daze, not knowing where to go for a moment.

There were countless girls around me greeting each other with "Greetings". This kind of school for young ladies really likes to talk like that.

When someone greets Su Shi like this, Su Shi will respond in the same way.

She went from being slightly hesitant at the beginning to gradually becoming confident, and every little bit of information about Chitose Noshiro in her mind pushed Su Shi to go deeper into the academy.

At this moment, Su Shi thought of Chitose who took her to taste ginseng chicken soup, thought of Chitose who would take her to Chitose's house to spend the night every weekend, and thought of Chitose who helped her take off her hairband and dress up this morning.

Ah, having someone to rely on and talk to, it turns out it feels so good. 】

It’s great to meet Chitose’s mother.

Behind her was a girl with blue hair and twin ponytails named Toyokawa Shoko, who was chatting with her elementary school classmates. She immediately noticed the new classmate Nagasaki Suyo who seemed a little excited.

Most of the students at Tsuki no Mori are promoted directly from kindergarten. Not surprisingly, they will all study at Tsuki no Mori before going to college, so most of the people here know each other.

If a stranger appears, he must have transferred in halfway!

Still young and enthusiastic, not overwhelmed by life and full of social energy, Toyokawa Shoko walked towards Nagasaki Suyo, wondering if she could lend a hand to her new classmate.

But someone was even faster than her.

"Gui'an, are you a new student?"

Nagasaki Suyo turned around when she heard the voice and saw a girl with white hair and golden eyes.

The girl's face lacked a touch of humanity, but instead had a strange awkwardness.

It's like a pseudo-human trying hard to play the role of a human.

"Yes, Guian."

"Do you need me to take you around the school? The opening ceremony is right next, so I'll be your tour guide. Don't worry, I'm a real old Tsukinomori."

The girl spoke to herself, as if she was sure that Nagasaki Suyo would not refuse her kindness, and turned away without looking back.

"Follow me quickly, I'll take you to see it."

"Ah, my name is Nagasaki Suyo. What's your name?"

Not wanting to offend anyone, Su Shi had to follow the other person, but she felt uncomfortable without knowing anything.

"Me? My name is..."

The white-haired girl stopped and tilted her head with a meaningful smile.

"My name is Kyomoto Haizuka, please take care of me."

[This person seems to be full of bad taste, but I don’t know how to describe it…]

Su Shi frowned slightly. She found that after going out for a while, she was still happily staying at home with Qiansui, watching TV, drinking tea and chatting.

When will the next weekend come?

Shoko Toyokawa, who was not far from the two of them, withdrew her gaze. She was very happy that her classmates could help each other.

That's great.

However, she seemed a little familiar with the white-haired classmate, but she didn't have much impression of him.

It shouldn't be.

really weird.

Ch87. The Past as Told by Chitose Noshiro

"That girl is… a little weird? I don't know if that's the polite thing to say."

Su Shi put down the cup of black tea and tried not to look at Chitose Noshiro who was sitting opposite her.

Chitose's outfit today is too eye-catching.

A well-tailored dark women's suit paired with a white shirt and a dark pencil skirt.

The overall outfit was delicious, but the exposed instep outside the high heels was what made Su Shi sneak a peek from time to time.

After knowing this urban beauty for a year, Su Shi discovered that something about herself was changing with Qiansui.

Like... preferences?

Now sitting opposite, Chitose Noshiro was crossing her legs and sipping her black tea in an elegant manner.

As her mood became happier, her feet swayed even more, making Su Shi blush even more.

How weird!

Being able to make friends with such a pair of beautiful jades is definitely a happy event worth celebrating with a banquet.

"Oh? Is Sushi-chan's new friend some weird kid? Can you tell mom about him?"

The gentleness and mystery in Qiansui's tone always touched Su Shi's heartstrings.

"It's not that weird, eh."

Su Shi's smile was a little awkward. She really couldn't describe that [Kyomoto Haizuka].

"She is a very nice and kind person, but I always feel like there is another pair of eyes behind her."

Those eternally burning golden eyes were like a piece of one-sided glass, as if there was an alien creature hiding inside, observing the world through the skin.

"Haha, Sushi-chan, is this the season of chuunibyou? She's so cute."

What a strange description, so cute.

Qiansui was laughing so hard that her whole body was shaking. She didn't forget to hug people's hearts and shake them.

The shaking sphere was the burning sun in Su Shi's eyes.

"No, it's probably because he's so mysterious."

"Mysterious? That's really a bad word."

Is it not good?

But Chitose Mom, you are also very mysterious.

Nagasaki Suyo sipped the black tea in small sips, and the fragrance of the tea spread in her mouth.

Chitose's mother has always fascinated Su Shi... maybe it's because of the mysterious aura.

Although she often told her story vaguely, Chitose Noshiro never clearly explained her experiences.

Nagasaki Suyo often thinks about some very strange questions, such as:

What does Chitose look like when she eats alone? What kind of book does she read before going to bed?

Will you go to the store to buy cosmetics? What do you think about when you can't sleep?

Can she use the toilet? What is her bath like?

What does it look like to have twin ponytails? What kind of food does she like?

Is she talking to herself? Is it true that she said she had a sister but she's gone? Does that sister look like her?

Chitose Noshiro has been throughout Nagasaki Suyo's life, and Suyo knows that Chitose is one of the people who understands her best.

But, in the final analysis, Su Shi still didn't understand Qian Sui.

When Qiansui doesn't speak, he is a statue overflowing with divinity. The golden halo in his eyes seems to remind Su Shi that he is not human.

What kind of person is she?

My mother rarely mentioned it, and I couldn't research it myself.

Although Chitose often tells stories about herself, most of them seem like... stories that Chitose wants others to know, rather than stories that she herself wants to know.

It feels like it aligns with the traditional concept of mother.

He was completely used to her and her nourishment, but in the end, Nagasaki Suyo didn't understand her.

Maybe this is what makes Chitose Noshiro more interesting than other female characters, that sense of mystery and the charm of a Changshu woman... Nagasaki Suyo really can't help herself.

"What's wrong? Are you thinking about me?"

It was only now that Sushi realized Chitose had been staring at her.

"Ah... I was thinking about my junior high school life. How did my mother get through junior high school?" Su Shi hurriedly chose a solution that satisfied her most.

Today is Friday, and the two of them are enjoying the warm sunshine before sunset and the black tea brewed by Su Shi herself in their new home in Nagasaki.

"My junior high school? That's really long ago."

Noshiro Chitose pretended to be distressed and leaned against the sofa, holding her chin and frowning.

"Huh? 18 years old isn't that old, is it?"

"But it was a long time ago... I just remembered it."

"When I was in junior high, I fought with a little idiot at two music festivals. That little idiot had already gained countless fame and achieved his own success during junior high."

"What happens after that?"

"After that? After that..."

Qiansui's eyes rolled around, and the gentleness in his tone was tinged with sadness.

"It's a shame our show wasn't chosen as the best performance at the festival because of an accident... and then she fell from grace."

It was also because of this accident.

"She became a down-and-out office worker. I remember she even lost her job. She was half-dead, half-ghost."

"Huh? How could this happen?!"

When Su Shi heard Chitose Noshiro tell this story for the first time, she felt a sense of excitement as if she had uncovered Chitose Noshiro's unknown past.

"What was the accident?"

"I fell ill that day, but I'm well now."

"Mom, take good care of yourself... Then why did that older sister fall into depravity?"

"Because she didn't cherish the person who treated her well, and in the end, when she lost him, she realized that she had not only lost the person who treated her well, but also lost everything that the person had given her."

For example, achievements and feelings.

It's a pity that she lost all these things after she got them.

Chitose's narration tone was neither hurried nor slow, and it didn't sound like she was telling a story that happened to her.