I am your deceased love sustenance 1

"In reality...wait!"

She remembered!

It was true that one afternoon when I was in the second year of junior high school, I was a little upset and didn’t want to attend my sister’s performance.

At that time, Li Xi was hesitating whether he should fall asleep and pretend nothing happened, or hold his breath and go see his sister.

Finally…Finally…

"In the end, I chose to go to the show... No way, no way?"

Could all this be true?

Did it turn out that I had chosen a life without Chitose?

Is... is it me?

The more Li Xi thought about it, the more she felt that her life was full of frustration. She pulled out her junior high school graduation photo album from the bookshelf that she hadn't looked through in a long time.

"No way, no way... No way, no way... No way, no way, no way... No way, no way, no way..."

Which class is Chitose from?

Class C! It's right next door to me, right?!

Lixi found the page with the group photo, but she suddenly didn't dare to continue reading.

"If, if I really saw Xiaosui in the photo album, does that mean this dream..."

Maybe it's from a parallel world? Uh, that's unlikely. Shiina Riki, don't be silly.

Li Xi's limbs were cold, and the more he breathed, the more empty he felt deep down inside.

Finally she turned the page.

In the lower left corner of the photo, she still saw the figure that was so familiar that it couldn't be more familiar.

The thousand-year-old was healthy and lively, like a messenger from heaven.

Riki even saw Chitose talking to her in the photo.

Chitose is saying:

【Hi, Lixi, you should have found me earlier. 】

"This...is this true? Noshiro Chitose...is Noshiro Chitose really real?"

The computer suddenly turned on, and the flawless white light illuminated Shiina Riki's face, just like the TV in Chitose's house in his dream.

Lixi turned around suddenly. She felt it, she felt that Chitose Noshiro must be by her side!

"Xiao Sui? Are you...are you there?"

Unfortunately, no one responded to Shiina Riki's pleading.

Li Xi's eyes lost their luster again.

He collapsed to the ground like a mollusk.

[I'm sorry... If I had known that this was the last chance for us to watch a movie together, I would never have...]

[I don't want to surpass my sister anymore, I don't want to play music anymore, I don't want to achieve anything... I don't want anything anymore... But why can't you come back...]

Li Xi closed his eyes and let the tears slide down from the corners of his eyes.

"It's so painful. Why did you let me have such a dream and make me live with such clear memories?"

Why be so cruel...why?

Ch67. Noshiro Chitose, you will eventually fall

"Another simulation has ended."

Qiansui's eyelashes fluttered, and when she opened her eyes again it was already the next morning.

After finishing the simulation yesterday, she fell asleep without any other thoughts.

What is Lixi, what is lifespan...

When the simulation ended and everything returned to silence, nothing appeared in Noshiro Chitose's mind.

In addition, my sister's medicine has the effect of helping me sleep, so I not only did not feel any condemnation from my conscience, but I slept particularly soundly.

This was the first time she had experienced such a feeling after simulating it several times.

[Congratulations, host! You've completely destroyed Shiina Riki's life! The damage you've inflicted is so profound that even this system is impressed. You truly are a bad woman. If you still think you're not bad enough, consider your conscience and ask yourself: would you truly feel such intense sadness or grief for a virtual character again?]

[Regret Index Calculating… Congratulations to the Host on achieving a lifespan of six years and one day.]

【Remaining lifespan: 10 years】

【Overall evaluation: above average】

[P.S. The host's level of development of the system... surprises even this system. And you really are a bad guy. You gave everything to someone and then took it all away. Tsk tsk tsk.]

"???"

What the hell, why are there additional instructions?

You are obviously the worst guy, system.

Chitose left the bedroom and came to the balcony, her hair was disheveled and disordered, and the folds of her nightgown were clearly visible.

It should be a little after six o'clock now, and the rising sun made Chitose Noshiro feel dazed.

"What a beautiful sunrise! I can still see the sunrise for another ten years."

The prerequisite is to stop simulating at this point.

But is it really possible to stop the simulation?

"I can't do it. I can't resist simulation anymore."

Chitose feels that the only way to quit simulation is to not touch it in the first place.

Otherwise, you will always get deeper and deeper into simulations.

The most terrifying thing about simulation is that the years experienced by the simulator are real.

Chitose spent six years in the mini-light simulation.

I experienced it myself for a month in the simulation of the alcohol lamp.

Finally, in Shiina Riki's simulation, half a year passed.

These long years have seemed so incredible to Chitose Noshiro that she still doesn't have much sense of reality.

All together, it's been seven years.

[The simulation and reality are basically the same... I can hardly tell the difference between reality and fakery.]

Chitose touched the iron railings on the balcony, and she kept thinking about the difference between the touch of these things and the simulation.

The answer is that there is no difference.

[I've already said it, Chitose, you're already a qualified bad woman, it's just that your remaining moral consciousness is playing tricks on you.]

My lovely little Sui, please wake up soon! You let this system perform euthanasia during surgery, and then you let the system intervene nine years after the host's death and simulate the host's appearance to give Li Xi a blow... Are you really still a good woman?

Good women, bad women... Can human beings be categorized arbitrarily?

"It seems that what you said makes some sense, but I don't agree."

Chitose Noshiro is not a bad woman, she is just a good woman who wants to survive.

He is just a poor man who dies again and again in order to live.

Besides, simulation is fake, and it would be a bit childish to feel guilty about something fake.

The previous Noshiro Chitose was just a childish fool! Now Noshiro Chitose has begun to deny her former self.

There is a saying that goes like this.

You grow when you are able to deny your past self... That's what the saying goes.

"So, I'm growing up and maturing... not getting worse."

"Oh, what a complicated question. I don't want to think about it."

Chitose Noshiro stretched and suddenly felt her body become much more relaxed and comfortable.

Only by experiencing the trembling pain before death can you understand the joy of living for decades longer.

Walking back to the living room and closing the curtains, Chitose took off his clothes and prepared to go downstairs to buy some food.

If you don’t have enough money, just perform on the street.

She is already an expert guitar player.

……

Street guitar is indeed a very profitable way.

Chitose watched five streets for an hour and finally came to the conclusion:

"System, I decided to exchange a small portion of my life for cash."

It’s still faster to exchange life for money.

You can earn at least seven or eight years of life in a week, and one month of life can be exchanged for almost 300,000 yen.

As for street performances... although they can make money, the income is slow and unstable, and it seems to have no other purpose except satisfying one's vanity of showing off one's skills.

What I earn is still too little, and it’s too late to find something that earns more now. It’s still the most cost-effective to exchange it for my life.

Just spending for one month...it shouldn't be a big deal.

[Are you sure you want to exchange one month of your life for 340,000 yen? Please confirm again.]

Do you want to change?

To exchange your life for something is like selling your soul to the devil.

Chitose sat down in the coffee shop on the corner of the street, staring blankly at the girl singing outside the window.

"Confirmed, I want to exchange it."

【Ding--】

"Hello Miss, is this the handbag you lost?"

The waiter carried a small leather bag and placed it on Noshiro Chitose's table.

"Ah... yes."

Chitose opened the zipper and saw that it was full of 10,000 yen bills. They were brand new and still gleamed slightly.

This is free money.

A month of life is nothing compared to a successful simulation! But a month of life can be exchanged for so much money?

340,000 yen, that’s 340,000 yen…

You don’t have to work or pay anything in reality, and you can easily earn so much money.

This is too...

Chitose quickly put the wallet into the shoulder bag she was carrying, paid the bill with the last bit of change she had on her, and turned to go to the flower shop.

"Give me three bunches of violets, please."

"Okay! Makoto..."

how much did you spend?

Noshiro Chitose didn't know.

She walked to Denghe Lixi's house with flowers, put the flowers on the door without knocking and left.

Two bouquets were placed at the door of Deng's house, and one was placed by Lixi.

"It's over. The simulation is just a simulation. Noshiro Chitose has completely moved on."

Simulation can bring inexhaustible life, and life can be exchanged for everything. The system also hopes that it can simulate more so that its interests can be satisfied.

"It all comes full circle...it's really interesting."