I am your deceased love sustenance 1

"Yes, that's it!" Li Xi exclaimed.

As expected of Chitose, she knows me so well... It's like she's been peeping into my life.

No one had ever talked to her like this before.

"Do you think you will succeed now?"

"I!"

The breeze was like a naughty elf, flowing freely through Li Xi's hair. She saw the cherry blossom buds about to bloom, and she could also see Chitose Noshiro smiling at her.

“I think I can do it!”

Going to learn to write lyrics!

Going to learn to compose music!

To use music to bring hope to others...well, that may not be possible.

But she wants to work hard with Chitose!

"I will be as good as my sister, or even better! I will let everyone know that I, Shiina Riki, am awesome!"

I said it! Finally!

One day, Shiina Riki finally said these words!

It was obviously something I had kept hidden deep in my heart and didn't dare let anyone know.

"Pfft, you're such an idiot! Talking won't do the trick. Do you know what the great Prosciutto said?"

"what?"

"There's no such thing as 'I'm going to kill her' in our world. Why? Because by the time my friends and I think of this, the enemy has already been defeated and everything is over."

Chitose covered half of his face with one hand and stretched out the other hand in a middle school student style.

"I see…thank you."

"Huh?" Qiansui pretended not to hear anything clearly and moved closer to Lixi. "What are you mumbling about, you idiot? Speak louder, I can't hear you!"

"nothing!"

This guy really wants to play tricks on me all the time!

Li Xi glared at Qiansui, pretended to be annoyed, and ran away.

"Hoo hoo, what kind of game are you playing with me, little Lixi? If I catch you, I'll definitely kill you."

……

In Chitose's small study, Li Xi was staring at a notebook in a trance.

“I have feelings, but I can’t write anything…”

"Well, what's wrong, little Lixi? Can't put down your pen?"

“Almost. I feel like what I want to write is about to come out, but I just can’t write it.”

After more than a week of training, Li Xi's knowledge has been expanded through movies and books, and his feelings and understanding of things have been gradually improved by Chitose Noshiro.

Qiansui is simply an unsolvable bible of life. She knows a lot, as if she is an old scholar who has been studying tirelessly for decades.

What kind of life experience would give the other person such a broad perspective on life?

“Try to write about me and yourself.”

That's what the girl sitting across from her said, with her sockless feet propped up on the table.

"Huh? Well...put your feet down first."

"What are you doing? You were clearly watching it the whole time, and now that you're satisfied you're going to chase it away? Shiina Riki, you're really going too far! Wuwuwuwu..."

"Don't talk nonsense!"

If you say it again, I will show it to you immediately!

"Don't worry, I've figured you out completely."

"That's too much! I'll write the lyrics first! I won't waste my time talking to you."

Li Xi seemed to be angry and poked Qiansui's feet several times with the end of his pen.

She seemed to be tickling Chitose.

"I'm not teasing you anymore."

Noshiro Chitose walked around behind Riki and hugged him gently.

"Ms. Lixi is so cute with that little teardrop mole on her face. If we can finish the work today, we'll stay up all night and watch a movie as a reward."

"What if we can't finish it?"

"Then write lyrics all night long."

So you can’t sleep anyway, right?

"I'll try my best, just let me go first."

"Ahhhhhh? How can you do this to me? I'm going to cry."

If you want to cry, go cry somewhere else! You idiot!

Li Xi snorted and said no more.

Qiansui's breath was like a hemp rope, tightly wrapping around Lixi's neck. She wanted to breathe, but found it increasingly difficult.

Suffocation, friendship, spring day...

Ahhhh, adding the graves, it seems that each of these messy elements can be derived into a song, but how do I write it?

"Take your time, Lixi. We still have a lot of time, a month."

"..."

Seems totally inadequate, right?

Biting the end of the pen, Li Xi's mind gradually became empty.

What to write?

"Hmm? Just write..."

……

"You said, these are the lyrics you spent half an hour writing?"

"Y-yeah, isn't this possible?"

"How should I put it...it's pretty average," Chitose said, lying on the bed, putting on a pair of large black-framed glasses. "Let's write another version."

"Oh…"

Sure enough, what I write now is still not good enough.

Li Xi sat at the end of the bed, reflecting on the notebook in his hand.

"What's the problem?"

"I think it might be missing a touch of fantasy."

"Xiao Sui has started speaking in abstract terms again."

"After all, this kind of thing can't be concrete, so it's more appropriate to talk about it in an abstract way."

Chitose Noshiro picked up the guitar beside her and strummed it slowly as if preparing for something.

"I'll play the piano for you. See if there's a tune you like. Maybe we can write the music first and you can write the lyrics later."

"That's fine, but it feels..."

Li Xi felt something was strange, but he didn't know what was wrong.

If I were to write lyrics, wouldn't that mean I was taking a shortcut?

"Shall I begin?"

"it is good."

Forget it, let’s just listen to it first.

Lixi took out his panda notebook and looked up the lyrics that Qiansui praised for never getting tired of reading.

[It's clearly pretty much the same as what I wrote now, but why does Xiao Sui think it's not good enough? ]

What went wrong?

Ch49. Big failure, big failure, big failure!

"What about this version?"

"boring."

"what about this?"

"Not really."

"Then this one should be fine, right? This is my favorite version."

"Is it different from the previous one? No! Boring! So boring! Are you taking the wrong medicine to write something like this, my dear baby!"

"I just don't believe it. What about this? I spent the whole night revising this!"

"This is good!"

"Really? Then..."

"This is so--boring--"

"what?"

Such a trailing tone, are you kidding me!

Shiina Riki collapsed on the sofa in Chitose's house, his hands drooping on his knees, his head slightly drooping, looking like he was burned out.

I changed it into more than a dozen versions, but none of them caught Qiansui's eye...

"No, I can't write anymore. This is too difficult."

This is not a sad face, but a confusion after really not knowing how to improve.

"Actually, this is very subjective. Choose a version you like. The music festival is coming soon. Let the audience judge our work."

Chitose Noshiro had the words "lack of interest" written on her face. She put down her phone and notebook and moved closer to Riki.

"..."

"Don't make that expression. This is actually pretty good music, isn't it? We're only in junior high school."

This was the opportunity Qiansui had been waiting for! She gently held Lixi's chin, just like the first day they met.

"Come on, little Lixi!"

"I…"

"I have always been a fan of Shiina Riki."

……

"Come on, little Lixi!"

"I...wait, huh? Why are we getting ready to go on stage?"

Li Xi hid behind the curtain, adjusting his collar in a hurry.

Time flies.

A few days after I finished writing the lyrics, the music festival was about to begin.

Without even a moment to mourn Shiina Riki's trance, Riki and Chitose immediately rushed to the festival with their original compositions!

Li Xi followed Chitose's advice and chose the lyrics that he liked the most.

"Hey, Lixi, remember what I told you about the Black Parade?"

Qiansui helped Lixi tidy up his messy collar. She had lamented more than once that Lixi, who was usually quite reliable, became as stupid as a lamp at times like this.