I am your deceased love sustenance 1

Ch31. Qiu Hai, let me forget my troubles

The Takamatsu lanterns have been acting strange these past two days.

After a busy day at work, Chitose Noshiro glanced at the lighted desk as usual.

But today the light just flickered and then retreated behind the computer.

"Tsk, this idiot."

Although she said this, Chitose was still very happy with Deng's reaction.

Isn't it just hiding from me? This is great.

This shows that Deng has her own independent consciousness, which means that although she cannot make choices, she will not follow blindly.

This is the result of her hard work in teaching and changing Qiansui for more than a month!

The effect may not be huge, but it is effective.

Another thing to be happy about is...

[Maybe I can go home tonight. The chance to end the simulation is right before my eyes!]

"Xiao Deng, haven't you finished your work yet? Let's go for a drink after get off work?"

"Huh? I...I haven't..."

"Don't worry, let me see how much you have left. Let me help you do it."

"Xiao Sui, woo!"

Without waiting for Deng to react, Qiansui sat on Deng.

The weight from the younger generation deeply shook Deng's heart.

"Don't think I'm heavy, I'm actually very soft and light. I guess it won't be a problem if you hold me in your arms, right?"

As Qiansui spoke, he would consciously twist his body to make the lamp more comfortable.

"..."

Get down quickly! If you keep moving, my phantom limb will react strangely!

Deng didn't dare to resist, and his eyes wandered to the side.

Because I have helped Qiansui take a bath many times, even if the other person is wearing clothes, I can imagine that Qiansui is naked.

"Are you still hesitating, Xiao Deng?" Qiansui turned his back to Deng and processed documents, his nimble fingers tapping on the keyboard, making crisp sounds.

"Yeah… I haven't thought about it yet. I'm sorry, Xiao Sui."

"Well? Things like this require careful consideration. After all, it happens so suddenly that no one knows whether it's reliable or not."

Chitose never turned his head, and Takamatsu Deng tried to judge Chitose's mood from the other person's voice.

But she couldn't analyze anything.

"I'm going to the United States by plane tomorrow."

A very abrupt sentence shattered Gao Songdeng's reverie. Her pupils shrank but quickly returned to normal.

"How fast! How come it's so fast?"

"The other side was pushing me pretty hard, so I decided to give it a try. After all, it's really exciting, isn't it? It makes me excited, just like alcohol."

"But, I still..."

"Don't worry, I'll be waiting for Deng at the dock tonight. If Deng is ready, come to the Drunkard's Dock where we fell into the sea last time and wait for me. I'll wait until seven o'clock tomorrow morning."

Chitose Noshiro tapped the keyboard hard one last time, tilted her head and smiled slightly.

"I'm leaving at 8 o'clock tomorrow morning at Tokyo International Airport. I'm going to resign now, so Xiao Deng, please think about it carefully."

"But, but..."

"No matter what Deng thinks, as long as you don't regret it, it's fine. Life is always about separation and reunion. Aren't you used to it yet?"

He stood up, kissed Deng lightly on the forehead, and without saying anything else, Chitose Noshiro turned around and left the office.

She waved goodbye before closing the door, but Chitose actually wanted to say more.

But if you say too much, it will become verbose. Just stop at the right point.

Alas, it would be a shame if I didn’t say goodbye properly, otherwise we won’t be able to visit each other in the future.

……

"I…"

Deng spoke after Qiansui walked away, but no one was destined to respond to her.

It was a little after four in the afternoon, and if it were any other day she would already be looking forward to her daily routine with Chitose after get off work.

They would go out for drinks, find a place to play guitar and sing, or go to a record store to listen to records.

But it won't happen again.

From now on, Chitose will leave Tokyo and go to the other side of the ocean to pursue her dream.

Is it really possible for me to pursue such a dazzling person?

In other words:

"Xiao Sui is indeed her savior, and I'm just a lost child who needs a hand."

As expected, I still can't do it.

"No, no, I don't have that ability. I don't have any singing skills at all. I just rely on brute force to satisfy the audience."

Some people said that she sang too hard, but she really couldn't control her emotions.

Those lyrics, whether original or written by others, can make Deng feel the inner emotions very well and empathize quickly.

As long as I have empathy, I will want to express it with all my strength. If I can't even control my emotions, do I really have the ability to successfully debut in a foreign country?

Impossible, absolutely impossible!

"Let's go again and have a drink. I'm so confused and have no idea how to deal with this..."

Let her handle everything after she sobers up. Even if she is not sober by then and makes a decision in a muddle, she will not regret it.

Takamatsu Deng came to Chitose Noshiro's office, and there were two full boxes of Demon Slayer sake supplies in Chitose's cabinet.

"If, if I can go out with Xiao Sui, then success or failure won't really matter."

But do you really want to go out together?

Maybe I can try to persuade Xiaosui to develop in the country first?

Although there are many opportunities in the United States and it is a stage for many people to pursue their dreams, if they fail, their lives will change significantly.

If, if it fails...

Inserting the straw, Takamatsu Deng drank a whole box of Demon Slayer sake.

The low-quality liquor stimulated her nerves, as if an unknown god of alcohol was gently embracing her.

"In the end, should I go or not? I really want to go, but, but..."

When Gao Songdeng was hesitating, the answer had actually been given in her heart.

It's too unreliable, this opportunity is too unreliable.

She is a qualified adult, and she cannot have the courage to give up everything and gamble everything like Chitose.

That's the way it is.

……

The evening breeze is still the evening breeze, and the ending of the story is only right when accompanied by the evening breeze.

Was the evening breeze here also blowing on a wanderer waiting for his friend thousands of years ago?

Chitose Noshiro was waiting alone at the port for Takamatsu Touma's arrival.

She wore the best outfit in the simulation, carried a bag that she would never dare to dream of in reality, and waited for someone who was destined not to come.

"It's a quarter past nine. Oh, I'm freezing to death."

Winter has arrived, and the new year will be here in a while.

The girl tightened her coat. She didn't notice that in an alley a hundred meters away, a middle-aged woman with a machete was wandering aimlessly.

Suddenly, she seemed to sense something and walked straight towards Chitose Noshiro.

……

[Qiu Hai: When you're alone in the middle of the night, you're more likely to become the target of random killers or other criminals, and there's a high chance you'll be inexplicably stabbed to death. Required lifespan: zero years.]

Ch32. Which comes first, tomorrow or an accident?

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The cell phone rings loudly.

"hiss…"

Gao Songdeng opened his eyes reluctantly, it was already night.

She found herself lying on the floor in a double room office on the second floor of the Hiroyu Corporation.

The inside of the company was silent, and the city's dazzling neon lights shone wantonly through the glass windows onto the lamp's face.

He picked up the phone with difficulty, and half of Gao Songdeng's work suit was soaked by the spilled wine.

"Woo, hello?"

That’s terrible. Chitose must still be waiting for her now.

"Deng, how have you been lately?"

The gentle female voice on the phone woke Gao Songdeng up immediately. This voice was so beautiful that she would never forget it in her life.

"Is that Mom? Well, I just got off work and am almost home now. I'm...doing pretty well."

"You're living out here by yourself, so remember to eat well. It's getting colder lately, so wear more clothes... Oh, by the way, you called me yesterday. Are you short of money? Mom will transfer it to you tomorrow."

"No, no! The money is enough, but I... uh."

It has been a long time since I last called my mother, and it has also been a long time since I last went home.

He had previously used the excuse of being busy with work to avoid going home, but Gao Songdeng knew that he had other reasons for not going home.

such as…

"Mom...you work hard from dawn to dusk to earn money for our family, but I haven't become that promising child...am I a failure?"

What a failure, this life.

Before she met Chitose Noshiro, every day was dull. She hadn't achieved anything, and the university she attended was mediocre and nothing to show for it.

Not to mention her workplace... many people haven't even heard of her job.

"How could that be, silly child?" Gao Songguang on the other end of the phone was stunned for a moment, and then comforted him with gentle and kind words.

"Xiao Deng has always been my mother's pride. Now she is an adult who can live independently. Time flies."

"Mother…"

Mom, I may have to make a choice that goes against most of society.

"I... was picked up by an American record label, and it's with a very good friend of mine, no, my best friend! But I'm not sure if I want to accept it. It's so sudden and I'm not prepared at all."

Mother, please scold me so that I can reject this unreliable thing.

Mom, please accept me soon, so that I can fly away with Xiaosui.

Deng had subconsciously handed the choice to her mother. She closed her eyes and prayed silently, with the noise outside the house in her ears.

"Hiss, this kind of thing..."

"Xiao Deng probably already has the answer in his heart."